H is for HOMICIDE

by Sue Grafton

  At seven, some of the homeboys I’d seen at the apartment began to arrive. They seemed ill at ease in Raymond’s presence, unaccustomed to seeing him in a sport coat and tie. Chago’s buddies had all donned specially made up black T-shirts with “In Loving Memory of Chago ��� R.I.P.” on the back and their own names on the front.

  I sat down beside Bibianna, the two of us saying little. Occasionally someone would make eye contact, but no one talked to me. Most of the conversations taking place around me were in Spanish anyway, so I couldn’t even eavesdrop decently.

  The crowd was swelling. There was no sign of either of Raymond’s brothers, but I did see three women I took to be his older sisters. They seemed remarkably similar with their large dark eyes, full mouths, perfect skin. They sat in a cluster, beautiful women in their forties, heavy and dark, looking like nuns with their black mantillas and their rosaries. They would exchange occasional comments, but not a word to Raymond, who was making an elaborate show of not giving a damn. In an unguarded moment, I saw him flick a look in their direction. I understood then that Bibianna was just another version of his sisters, exquisite and rejecting just as his mother must have been. Poor Raymond. No matter how many versions of the story he managed to create, he would never win her love and he’d never make it come out happily.

  A cluster of three mourners approached Bibianna, Chicanas in their twenties, one with a baby on her hip. I got up and eased toward the door, wondering if there was any way I could get to a telephone. Before I reached the doorway, Luis appeared at my side and took my arm. I leaned close. “Do you think there’s a ladies’ room upstairs?”

  “You’re not going anywhere.”

  “Oh. Well, I guess it doesn’t matter then if there’s one upstairs or not.”

  I sat back in my chair and glanced at my watch. It was ten after eight. I was hungry. I was bored. I was restless. I was scared. I’d been living for too long with high doses of fight-or-flight anxiety and it was making my head pound and my stomach churn. Luis stuck to me like a burr. For the next fifty minutes, I squirmed on my folding chair, crossing and uncrossing my legs, fiddling with my hair. To amuse myself, I memorized faces, just in case later I’d have to identify someone on the witness stand. Finally, at nine-twenty the dark-suited staff person assigned to our viewing room made an appearance and glanced pointedly at his watch. Raymond got the message and began to circle the room, saying good night to the last of the visitors.

  On the way home, we dropped Luis off at his place. As soon as we reached the apartment, Raymond disappeared into the bedroom while Bibianna and I began to tidy up the place. It’s not like either of us cared much, but it was something to do. In the background, without being fully conscious of it, we could hear the rattle of change on the wooden chest of drawers as Raymond emptied his pockets. We tossed empty beer cans in a plastic garbage bag, dumped out laden ashtrays. Raymond emerged from the bedroom and moved into the bathroom usually designated for my use. Moments later, I heard the squeak of the faucets. Pipes began to thunder and water splashed against the shower tiles like a sudden autumn rain.

  I glanced over at Bibianna. “How come he’s showering in my bathroom?”

  “It’ll give him a chance to…” She made a gesture toward the crook of her left arm.

  “He’s shooting up?”

  It dawned on me first, the significance of the rattle of metal in the bedroom. I felt my head come up. Luis wasn’t here. There was no dog at the threshold. She caught my sharp intake of breath and looked over at me.

  I said, “Jesus, what’s wrong with us?” I moved swiftly into the bedroom and grabbed the car keys off the top of the dresser where he’d dumped them. I hesitated and then jerked open the drawer with the handguns in it. The box was where I remembered it, miscellaneous ID’s under it. I lifted the lid. The SIG-Sauer was still there, along with the Mauser and the cartridges. I tucked the SIG-Sauer in my waistband. To hell with being unarmed. I’d just as soon walk naked through an airport terminal. I was back seconds later with the keys, which I tossed to her. The shower had been turned off. Deftly, I transferred the gun to my handbag. We heard the bathroom door open. “Bibianna?”

  She was struggling to separate out the keys to the Caddy, attached to the ring on a circle of wire. Her hands were shaking badly, keys jingling between her fingers like castanets.

  “Take the whole friggin’ thing!” I hissed. “Go!”

  The telephone rang and we both jumped, in part because the sound was so unexpected. The instrument sat on the floor under the kitchen table, plugged into the wall jack. I gave her a push toward the door and snatched up the receiver. “Hello?”

  On the other end of the line, a woman with a tremulous voice said, “Bibianna, thank God. Lupe told me you were back. I tried to reach you up in Santa Teresa. I’ve been at the hospital… I’ve been ���” She broke down.

  “Excuse me. I’m sorry. I’m Hannah, Bibianna’s friend. Hold on a sec. She’s right here.” There was something in the woman’s tone that went beyond distress.

  Bibianna had stopped midway across the room and was staring at me. I held out the receiver.

  She approached like a sleepwalker. I wanted to hurry her, anxiously aware that Raymond must have heard the phone ring, too. She took the phone from me. “Hello?”

  I stared at her, mesmerized.

  She said, “Mom? Yes…”

  Raymond appeared in the doorway, his hair still tousled where he’d toweled it in haste. “Bibianna?” He’d pulled on a pair of chinos, hands still busy with his belt buckle. I found myself checking his bare arms for the injection site. He said, “What’s going on? Who’s on the phone?”

  Bibianna turned away and pressed a hand to her ear so she could hear over Raymond’s questions. A frown formed and she said, “What?” with disbelief.

  The remainder of her mother’s message to her was played out on Bibianna’s face. Her eyes strayed to the wall of broken mirror tiles, plaster showing through in irregular patches where the glass had been shattered. Her lips parted and a sound escaped. She put a hand up to her cheek. Something in her expression made my stomach churn with dread.

  No more than fifteen seconds had passed when Raymond strode across the room, snatched the receiver, and slammed it into the cradle. He ripped the phone cord from the jack and flung the instrument at the wall. The plastic housing cracked, splitting open to expose the internal mechanism. Bibianna’s horrified gaze jumped from the telephone to his face. “I know what you did to her…”

  “To who?”

  “My mother’s in the hospital.”

  Raymond hesitated, sensing from the break in her voice that he was losing control. “What I did? What’d I do?”

  Bibianna’s lips moved. She was repeating a phrase… a mere murmur at first, gradually raising her voice. “You cut her face, you son of a bitch. You cut her face! You cut my mother’s face right here in this apartment! You cut her beautiful face, you son of a bitch. You bastard…”

  She flew at Raymond, her fingers curved as claws digging into his face. She plowed into him, the force of her fury driving him back against the table. One of the kitchen chairs tipped over backward with a clatter. Bibianna reached the kitchenette in two steps, caught a kitchen drawer by the handle, and gave it a yank. Raymond lunged and grabbed her from behind. He half lifted her off her feet and dragged her back, Bibianna clinging to the drawer by the handle. The whole drawer was jerked free, a jumble of utensils flying everywhere. Raymond dropped, pulling her down on top of him. She struggled, half turning, kicking at Raymond with her spike-heeled shoes, long legs flashing. He tried to punch her and missed. She caught him in the chest with a kick and I heard the “oof” as the air was knocked out of him. She torqued around to her hands and knees, scrambling back into the kitchenette, where she snatched up a butcher knife that had skittered across the kitchen floor. She swung around, bringing the knife down. Raymond’s hand shot out. He locked her wrist in an iron grip, squeezing so hard I though
t he’d crush the bone. She cried out. The knife dropped. For a moment, they lay together. His body half covered hers and both were panting hard.

  Her face began to crumple, tears welling up in her eyes. “Get off me, you bastard,” she said. Raymond seemed to think the worst of it was over. He lifted himself away from her and extended his hand, pulling her to her feet again. The moment she was upright, she lashed a kick at his groin, the pointed toe of her spike heel making contact slightly off center, but with sufficient force to cause him to grab at himself, hunching forward protectively. The sound he made was a churlish mix of pain, surprise, and fury.

  I had lost track of the car keys, which must have sailed out of Bibianna’s hand at some point in the struggle. I scanned the floor in haste, spotted them near the wall, and scooped them up. I tossed them to her underhand, a perfect throw. She caught the keys and took off. The front door banged back and she was gone, high heels pounding rapidly toward the stairs and out of earshot. I headed for the door at a dead run myself.

  Raymond tackled me from behind. I stumbled, flinging my hands out, and he brought me down. We grappled, making grunting sounds. He pounded me with his fist, venting his fury in a succession of blows, which I warded off with my arms raised in an X across my face. He grabbed me by the hair and hauled me to my feet. He whipped my right arm behind my back and jerked upward, propelling me out the door and along the gallery. All he had on was a pair of pants. His chest was rosy from blows that had been landed on his bare skin. I longed to stomp his bare feet, but I knew he’d break my arm in retaliation.

  Out in front of the building, I could hear Bibianna revving up the Cadillac, which peeled out with a shriek of tires. Raymond marched us to the Ford. He popped open the trunk lid with one hand and grabbed a tire iron, pulling me around with him to the driver’s side. He smashed backward at the window until enough glass was gone to allow him to reach in and pull up the door lock. He yanked the door open and shoved me into the car. He pulled a set of keys from under the front seat, along with a handgun. He cocked it and pointed it at me, then reached under the steering column with his left hand and started the car.

  Chapter 21

  *

  We took off. Bibianna had no more than a two-minute head start. Raymond placed the handgun between his thighs. At fifty miles an hour, he really didn’t have to worry that I’d bolt from the moving vehicle. He jammed down on the accelerator, pushing the shimmying Ford to sixty, sixty-five. Streetlights streamed by. I hung on for dear life, my eyes pinned to the road with all the horrified fascination of a funhouse ride. Judging from the consternation of the drivers on all sides of us, Bibianna must have been cutting through red lights at the intersections just ahead.

  Raymond didn’t seem nearly as concerned as I was with the cars or pedestrians, with the niceties of stoplights or the sanctity of crosswalks. People were diving out of his path, a string of honking horns and curses flying up in our wake. He picked up the car phone and held it against the steering wheel so he could punch in a number with his thumb. He listened for one ring, two. Someone picked up on the other end.

  He said, ” ‘Ey, Chopper! Bibianna just took off in the Caddy and I need some help… Right. She’ll hit the 405 northbound at Avalon. If you miss us at the Harbor, try Crenshaw or Hawthorne.”

  There was obviously a question being posed from the other end.

  “I’ll leave that up to you, man,” Raymond said. He hung up. He set the phone down and retrieved the gun from the fleshy holster of his thighs, holding it in his right hand while he steered with his left.

  We were still on Avalon Boulevard, screaming toward the freeway. By the time we reached Carson, the light was green and we sailed through. Raymond had eased back to sixty miles an hour, squeezing out a lane of his own between parked cars and the moving vehicles crawling toward the on ramp. I braced myself, one hand on the dashboard, one hand clutching the seat back. I could see drivers in cars just ahead spotting us in their rearview mirrors ��� first the casual glance, then the double take as they calculated our speed, realizing that we would shortly be climbing up their rear bumpers. Some cars would speed up, crowding left to allow us room to pass. Some would take the first avenue of escape they could find, squealing into driveways, up onto the sidewalk ��� anything to avoid the inevitable rear-end collision. I found myself gritting my teeth in silence, then warbling out a cry of fear and distress as we overtook each car and managed, somehow, to get past.

  Raymond’s face was totally composed, his concentration intense. I could see now that his pupils had been reduced to pinpoints, but he showed no other signs of heroin intoxication. Maybe he had his doses so carefully calibrated that he could function normally even with his veins full of smack. He sideswiped a parked car and I shrieked involuntarily, my head jerking back as the impact bounced us into the oncoming traffic. He corrected our course. If he was aware of my vocalization, he gave no indication of it. The irony wasn’t lost on me, that in this situation of high stress, I was exhibiting all of Raymond’s symptoms. Maybe in his neurological makeup, some part of him was forever reacting to high-speed chases and phantom crashes, narrowly averted disasters from which he saved himself with quick action and spontaneous yelps of horror, dismay, and surprise.

  We careered to the right, up the on ramp to the 405, northbound. I had no idea how he knew she’d be there, but I spotted Bibianna just ahead of us in the black Caddy the moment we merged with freeway traffic. It was late Saturday evening, so we weren’t looking at the usual jam and crawl of the rush hour. I kept my eyes glued to the road, praying mutely for her safety. She probably thought she was free, not realizing he was already there behind her only eight cars back. He tucked the handgun between his thighs again and picked up the car phone, punching in the number with his thumb. He spoke rapidly to Chopper, giving our coordinates. I could hear them calculate the projected point of interception. My heart was still pounding and I watched the Caddy fearfully, scanning the freeway for some sign of the CHP.

  We had just passed the on ramp at Rosecrans when I heard the chirp of a car horn next to us. I looked over at the next lane. The car was a Chevy, dark blue. Chopper was driving. Raymond pointed at the Caddy and then sliced his index finger across his throat. Chopper grinned and gave Raymond the thumbs-up. Raymond eased his foot off the accelerator, dropping back to normal speed, while the guy in the Chevy eased into our lane and sped up. The last I saw of Bibianna, the Chevy was just beginning to overtake her.

  That’s when I caught a glimpse of the vanity license plate. A chill puckered my scalp and rippled down my spine, the cold wedging like a pillow in the small of my back. The plate read PARNELL. Raymond must have had Parnell Perkins’s car ever since his death, probably using it to collect phony damage and injury claims.

  Raymond spotted a black-and-white in the southbound lane. It was possible somebody’d called the cops to report his erratic driving because the officer gave the Ford a quick startled look as we passed. Raymond cut over two lanes to the right and took the nearest off ramp. Even if the cop circled back, we’d be gone. He found a darkened side street, pulled over to the curb, and parked. He sat back and expelled a breath of air.

  I had started to shake, from fear, from relief, from visions of Bibianna’s fate and bloody images of Bibianna’s mother, whom I’d never even laid eyes on. I thought about Parnell facedown in the parking lot with a bullet in his head. I pressed my hands between my knees, teeth chattering, my breath coming in gasps.

  Raymond was looking at me with puzzlement. “What’s the matter with you?”

  “Shut up, Raymond. I don’t want to talk to you.”

  “I didn’t do nothing. What’d I do?”

  “You didn’t do anything? I don’t believe this…”

  “Chick stole my car and I chased her. What’d you expect?”

  “You’re crazy!”

  “I’m crazy? Why? Because I won’t let that bitch take me for everything I’m worth? You better believe it.”

/>   “What’s going to happen?”

  “Beats me.”

  I sat up, irritated with his attitude. “Don’t play dumb, Raymond. What’s Chopper going to do to her?”

  “How do I know? I’m not a fuckin’ psychic. Don’t worry about it. It’s got nothing to do with you.”

  “What about her mother?”

  “What do you care? Quit acting like this is my fault.”

  I looked at him with astonishment. “Who’s fault is it, men?”

  “Bibianna’s,” he replied, as if it were self-evident.

  “Why is it her fault? You’re the one who cut the woman.”

  “Who, Gina? She’s alive, isn’t she? Which is more man you can say for Chago. I got a brother dead, and who do you think did that?”

  “Not her,” I shot back.

  “That’s my point,” he replied patiently. “She didn’t do nothing. She’s innocent, right? Just like him. Tit for tat. It says so right in the Bible ��� an eye for an eye ��� and that’s all this is about. Lookit, I could have killed the bitch, but I didn’t, did I. And you know why? Because I’m a good guy. Nobody gives me credit. Bibianna has to learn not to fuck with me, I told you that. You think I like this? She’d done what I said to begin with, we wouldn’t be here.”