“I beg your pardon? You’re telling me that after all this, you’re not interested?” He stepped back and then followed me downstairs to the living room where he folded his arms and watched as I gathered my clothes. He scooped up his underwear and slipped them on.
I was protecting myself. I had to flee or else things would get too deep and I’d be ruined. “Please, let’s not make it out to be more. I know what you’ve been wanting and I’d be lying if I said I didn’t want it too, but I know it’s all you wanted. So I’m letting you off the hook.”
“Oh, I see. Is that so? You’re letting me off the hook?” His eyes were hard further proving he was incapable of sincere feelings for me. If I’d been wrong he could protest, but instead, he just stood there, his arms crossed in front of him and that stupid smirk on his face. “Fine. Sounds good. Until next time then?”
“Yes, I had a really good time, Tanner. Thanks.” I noticed the tinge of blood that stained my thighs as I slipped on my panties and shorts. And as soon as I got my shirt on I headed home hoping my legs didn’t give out on the way.
Tanner followed me down, but I was well ahead of him and not looking back. He’d given me the perfect first time and though it was amazing, I wasn’t about to get my heart broken. It was so close to being possible, but I kept telling myself it was all just for the moment. He didn’t love me. How could it be more to him?
Chapter 10
Tanner
I watched Nora walk all the way home and then I slammed the door. How the fuck could she have ended up like all the rest? She was supposed to be different. I’d been tender and loving and done everything for her pleasure and that’s how she chose to leave it? Thanks for the sex, we can do it again but that’s all it is? Next time maybe I’d just throw a few hundred dollar bills at her and treat her like a whore, then maybe she’d react like I expected.
It was always the same damned thing with women, treat them like shit they loved you; treat them like a goddess and they just wanted to be friends.
Being a billionaire hadn’t helped a bit. Instead, it had only brought more insensitive women my way. No one had ever taken me seriously and they usually assumed it was all me. In some cases, I will admit those women had been right, but not all of them and certainly not Nora.
Things had started off so amazing. She was really into it and seemed to be as much into me as I was her, but then something happened like a switch had been flipped, and she turned cold.
The phone ringing didn’t help my mood, especially since I didn’t know where my phone was. I had somehow misplaced it and the last time I’d seen it was when I went to get my ice cream. I searched the house and then stepped out on the front landing where my bowl of ice cream had been taken over by ants. I left them to their feast and headed back inside content to deal with the empty bowl later rather than get eaten up. By the time I found it in the kitchen under the dishrag I’d used to wipe up some spilled ice cream, the damned thing had stopped ringing and was showing a missed call display.
My brother had called from New York, so I hit redial, grabbed a beer from the fridge and headed to the couch. I didn’t sit on the one I’d been with Nora on, instead, I took a seat all the way across the room.
“I wish you’d learn to answer your phone. I’ve called about three times.”
“I lost it. What’s the problem?” I figured Nora had gone home and called her sister to tell her all about how she’d rejected me. I could see Harper telling my brother and now he’d called to rub it in.
“I was just checking to see how practice went.” I slumped in the leather couch feeling like a big loser.
“Jimmy climbed up on the dugout and cut his leg on the fence on the way down, but other than that it’s good.”
“Oh man, is he okay?”
“Yeah, I left a parent in charge and ran him down to see Nora for a few stitches.”
He whistled through the phone. “I bet Katy was flipping out. Did you comfort her?”
“No, why would I?” He’d always thought I should get back with Katy, but since she’d dumped me our senior year, I wasn’t about to try again. “She ditched me, remember? And then she let the guy knock her up and leave her. No thanks. I care about her, but it doesn’t mean I have to get involved.” My tone was a lot harsher than I meant it to be, but I was so angry about Nora, I couldn’t help it.
“You’re in a pissy mood, mind telling me what else happened today?” He could always read me like a book.
“I had Nora over earlier.” It didn’t seem right telling him about it, so I kept the details to myself.
“You two have a fight or something?” His tone was suspicious and he lowered his voice letting me know her sister was around.
“No, we had sex, then she proceeded to tell me what it was and that it couldn’t be more. Then she left.” I felt miserable all over again just thinking about it.
“Wow. I’m not even sure if I should touch that. I mean, that’s pretty big, brother.”
“Yeah, not that it matters. I finally get my dream girl and she turns me down after the fact. Do you believe she actually told me she wants to do it again?”
He chuckled. “You should take that as a compliment.”
“I take that as I’m good enough for a fuck but not much more. Well, I have news for her. She’s lost her virginity for all of an hour and she decides she wants a fuck buddy, I’ll give her a fuck buddy.”
Luke coughed and then I could hear him take a swig of something to drink. After a moment, he collected himself. “She was a virgin? Like for real or you know, they just say that sometimes.”
“I popped her cherry, so yeah, I’m pretty sure she wasn’t lying.” My dick hurt just thinking about how tight she’d been. It had been amazing.
“Maybe she got scared. It could have been that she expected you were just using her, so she thought she’d beat you to the punch.” What he was saying made sense, but it did nothing for my bruised ego.
“I’ve never given her anything to be scared about. She spread easy enough and she sure wasn’t afraid of my dick?” It just didn’t make sense. But if she wanted things like this, I’d oblige. Far be it from me to turn down a piece of ass.
“I don’t think you should be so hard on her is all. She’s not that experienced and you know the rumors that go around. You’re the billionaire playboy. I’ll have Harper talk to her if you want?
“Don’t you dare! I don’t want those two sitting around comparing notes.”
“Why, you think they’ll figure out I’ve got the bigger dick?” My brother had always prided himself on having the biggest cock, but that had never been proven.
“You’ve got it all wrong once again. You are the biggest dick, but that doesn’t mean you’ve got the biggest.” I laughed knowing that he was probably sitting there with his big dopey grin and shaking his head.
“Look, man. You’re going to have to be nice to her. She’s going to be family soon. You’ll have to endure her through every holiday and at Sunday dinners.” My brother had always missed the large Sunday dinners we’d had as a child and when we redid the house years ago he’d even put in a table large enough for twenty people.
“I know you have a point and I want all of that, but I’d prefer she’d be there for me and not her sister.” I couldn’t believe I’d just said that aloud.
“Whoa, did I catch that? Are you in love with her, Tanner?” My brother got quiet and waited for my response but all I could do was sigh. Not even Luke could see that I had been head over heels for Nora since the day I’d met her.
“So, what if I am? She’d never believe it anyway. I may as well take whatever I can get.”
“Take it from me, Tanner. Go after her.”
I let those words sink in, but I couldn’t do it. I was done chasing Nora. It was high time Nora chased me.
Chapter 11
Nora
I couldn’t get him out of mind. It wasn’t unusual for me to think about Tanner, but to have him in at the fore
front of my thoughts, to see him in a different way, with actual memories of his naked body and all the things he’d done to me, made it much more intense.
He seemed surprised about the way it ended, but I couldn’t let myself get in too deep, not with someone like him, someone that I should’ve known better than to fall for. I’d went into it prepared to fall, prepared to let him sweep me off my feet and make love to me, but then it was all so much more than I’d expected. He’d been so caring about my needs and it really played on my heart and for a brief moment, I let the possibility of heartbreak consume me.
I couldn’t let him in.
He had seemed content to keep seeing me for sex and that was enough to let me know I’d chosen to do the right thing. I wanted to have fun exploring with him, and I loved the attention, but as long as I could tell my heart that’s all it was, I would be okay. Wouldn’t I?
It had been two days since our night together and now that we were approaching the weekend I was getting an itch. I never knew losing my virginity would be such a sexual awakening for me, one that would give me such strong urges.
Tanner had left me tender and every time I sat down for that first day after, I thought of him easing the sweet ache between my legs.
I had to talk to him and see if maybe he was interested in having dinner. I knew that could lead to more and it wasn’t that I only wanted sex. I knew somewhere deep down I wanted him too. I couldn’t get over my crush so suddenly, but pulling back had to work. I needed the space to protect my heart.
I walked into the front office where Amy was still pouring over our billing. “Did you gather up a total for Tanner Daniels yet?” I’d asked her to get me an amount by the end of the day. I wanted a reason to see him without looking desperate and figured delivering the large bill he’d promised to pay would be perfect.
“Yes, ma’am. Here it is. Are you sure you don’t want me to stick it in the mail? I’ve got the others going out soon.”
“No thanks. I’ll take it to him. We’re neighbors, you know?” I grabbed my coat and keys and headed out leaving the staff to close down the office for the weekend.
I hoped Tanner would be home and was relieved when I pulled up in my driveway and saw him out front. He was polishing his golf clubs and he didn’t even look up.
I hurried into my house to freshen up and decided to call him. As the phone rang I looked out the window. He took his time answering the phone and leaned back in his chair. “Hello, Nora.” I gave a sigh of relief that he hadn’t avoided the call.
“Hi, I was wondering if you’re busy tonight. I’ve got your bill for the extra patients you wanted to treat and I thought we could maybe get some dinner.” It was a longshot, after all we weren’t a couple and there was always the possibility that he was seeing others. The thought of that pinched deep in my chest.
He looked up toward my house and I stepped away from the window. “I guess we could do that.”
“Yeah? Great, so I’ll come over—
“No, I’ll come to you. I need to get out of this house.”
The fact that he was coming over to my house would put the ball in my court. If I wanted him to stay, I’d have to extend the invitation and considering how things ended, it just might be the advantage I needed. I wasn’t sure if I should breathe a sigh of relief or not. I had never had a man over to my house for sex and I’d certainly never had to be so bold to suggest it.
He didn’t rush over and I spent the next twenty minutes watching him polish his clubs. Then he put them all back in their carrier and put their little socks on. I huffed out a sigh when he finally got up and headed into the house and when he was almost through the door, he glanced my way and smiled, giving a little wave. He’d known I’d been watching the whole time. Ass.
I decided to make a pot of coffee but before I could pour a cup he came to my back door.
“Hi, I was just about to have a cup of coffee, would you care for one?” I stepped out of his way and he entered.
“No thanks. Coffee will spoil my appetite.” His eyes lingered on mine and my cheeks flared as an aching desire built in my core.
“What did you have in mind for dinner?”
He stepped closer and backed me against the table. “How about we skip dinner, and just get down to the sex?”
My eyes flashed. “Aren’t you hungry?” My stomach was rumbling, but he didn’t seem to be suggesting as much as he was demanding.
“For you, yes.” He brought his hand around my waist and pulled me close. He captured my mouth and suddenly his hands were all over me, pawing at me like some sex-starved beast.
I pulled away, turning my head from his mouth so I could speak. “Couldn’t we order something in first?”
His shoulder lifted and he stepped away. “Sure. If that’s what you want. Order anything you like. I’m not picky.” He suddenly seemed bored and pulled out a chair. “So where’s this bill you promised?”
I went to my bag and found the envelope and carried it back to the kitchen. “You were so generous to do this for everyone. I’m sure they all appreciate it.”
“It’s not a problem. I’m happy to know my money can do some good for people and make things easier in a difficult time. It’s more than I’ll ever need.” I took out my phone and went through restaurant listings. There had to be something in town that would deliver.
I glanced up and crinkled my nose. “How about pizza?”
“Sounds good. What kinds of pizza do you like or more importantly what does your pizza say about you?” His brows went up and he turned his head giving me the first hint of a smile.
I was beginning to think he’d be in a bad mood forever.
“I love pepperoni with olives and onions, but I’ll eat anything.” I wanted him to know I was open to trying more and I hoped he got the hint.
He took my phone and thumbed through the options. “Then one deluxe supreme is coming up. So, tell me, do you like your crust hand-tossed or thick?” The way he said the words had me tingling.
“I like it thick.”
“Good choice.” After another moment of thumbing across my screen, he placed the phone back down in front of me. “It will be here in thirty minutes. What do we do until then?”
“I was hoping we’d talk about what happened between us and maybe discuss the possibilities.” I looked up at him with hopeful eyes.
“Oh, you mean our sexual relationship, the one where we’re friends with benefits?” He gave me a dead stare and he was back to being in a sour mood.
“Well, it’s what you’ve wanted and all I can really offer. Besides, I’m new to it all. I’d like to explore a little.” I lifted my shoulder and leaned closer, placing my hand on his knee. I could tell he was tense and I wanted to put him at ease.
“What is it you’d like to explore, Nora? I mean, the sky’s the limit, right? But how deep are you willing to go?” I thought about his box of toys and was glad we’d decided to come to my house. I didn’t have any type of sexual accessories and no plans to get any.
“I don’t know. Maybe you could show me things?” I felt the heat in my cheeks as he leaned in closer.
“I think you should show me what you know first and we’ll go from there.”
“Right now?” I felt the coil in my tummy tighten as he nodded.
“Yes.” His cold stare had me a bit rattled.
I didn’t know what to do and decided to start with a kiss. I stood and then turned to sit in his lap and he opened his arms to welcome me. I leaned in and kissed him nice and deep, imagining myself straddling his cock right here at my kitchen table.
His hand slipped down the front of my pants, finding their way into my panties and against my mound and he dragged a lazy finger through my folds, and against my clit bud. My breath hitched as he cupped my breasts beneath my shirt.
“Hop up on the table.” His voice was commanding and before I could do as told he’d hitched me up. He tugged down my clothes and then his mouth was against my sex, nippin
g and licking and I cried out as he inserted two fingers nice and deep and without much warning.
I moaned and bucked against him, wanting him to take me right there, to feel his cock working me deep and to come around him, the ache was building up so much I knew it was about to crash through me.
I felt my walls tighten and release and he rose up and our eyes met as he fingered me through my release. My tummy growled as I stilled.
“You are hungry, aren’t you?” His eyes burned on mine and he reached down and undid his buttons. “Show me how hungry you are.”
The burning ache between my legs had me so worked up, and I knew I’d have to work fast with the delivery arriving within the hour. I slid down to the floor landing on my knees, facing toward him. He’d already pulled his cock out and was stroking it with one hand and my hair with the other.
I looked up into his eyes and they bore down on mine, hungry and feral. I wasn’t sure what position I’d just put myself in.
Chapter 12
Tanner
I could see the uncertainty in her eyes as she sat there on her knees in front of me. But then she lifted her chin defiantly and gripped my cock. I settled in my seat, my legs spread wide to accommodate and stroked her hair. I let my hand rest on the side of her head as she leaned forward and took me into her mouth.
Her eyes stayed fixed on mine despite my cold stare and it was all I could do not to throw my head back and moan as she closed her lips tight around me just off the rim of my head. I wouldn’t give her the satisfaction of emotion. She sucked my head, teasing my shaft and taking me deeper each time until she got the feel and rhythm down.
I reached down and slipped my hand inside her shirt to pinch her nipple as she pulled her hand up to work my balls. She kneaded the heavy sac and I longed for her to give it a tug, but she was so gentle. I wanted to stay angry with her. I wanted to grab her ears and pound her throat to teach her a lesson, but I wouldn’t treat her that way. Despite the way she was treating me, I’d do better by her, but I’d teach her a lesson first.
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