My Heart Skips A Beat!: Story of An Incomplete Love

by Shubham Mohapatra

  Sumit:Something like that…

  Puja:Good. By the way have not you any girlfriend???

  Sumit:Yaa. I have no girlfriend yet. But I have a crush on a senior.

  Puja: Oooh really!!!

  Sumit:Yes. But I can’t understand that I am right or wrong.

  Puja:You are right in your place, but if the girl will not want then it is wrong. By the way who is that

  lucky girl???

  Sumit:Sorry. I can’t tell you right now.

  Puja:Ok. But tell her about your love as soon as possible before she is proposed by anybody else.

  Sumit:You are absolutely correct. I will propose her as soon as possible.

  Puja:Ok.. Goodnight… Sweet dream about you crush.

  Sumit:Thanks and very goodnight also….

  When I came to know about that conversation I realized that the awkward moment for everyone

  when your crush asks you about your crush.

  In the next morning in the college Bicky Bhai asked him about the proceedings. He honestly narrated the summary of his conversation with the girl last night. Then Bicky Bhai suggested him to ask for her mobile number and tell about his love directly.

  That night Sumit again messaged herhii….

  Puja:Don’t say only hiii. Say ‘Hii Didi’….

  Sumit:What???

  Puja:Yaa.. Call me Didi..

  Sumit:sorry… I can’t call you Didi…

  Puja:Why???

  Sumit:I am an average looking guy. Will you be my girl friend.

  Puja:Are U mad?? U r my junior.. U have to call me Didi...

  Sumit:Age does not matter for me. Sorry!! I can’t call U Didi…

  Puja:If U will not call me Didi then I will block you..

  Sumit:I don’t care… But I can’t call u Didi.

  Puja:Ok.. As your wish…

  Sumit:Try to understand…

  (This person isn’t available right now)

  Then Sumit realized that she blocked him. Sumit was so sad and helpless too.

  Next morning explained Bicky Bhai getting blocked in FB. Then Bicky Bhai assured him that he would do something for him. It was the time of action for Bicky Bhai. Bicky Bhai’s girlfriend Rosalini Didi was also from M.Sc final year. She was also a good friend of Puja. In this way Bicky Bhai and Puja knew each other from very early days.Bicky Bhai also treated Puja as his elder sister and called her Puja Didi.

  In that night Bicky Bhai called her and asked everything about Sumit. Then he requested her to unblock him. After so many requests she finally unblocked him. In the very next day Bicky Bhai suggested Sumit to call Puja by

  Facebook’s video call feature. In the evening Sumit also attempted this. Initially Puja did not receive his video call. After some time Sumit’s phone rang. He saw that it was an unknown number. Then he received the call. Then someone said Hello to him. It was a sweet voice of a girl. Firstly Sumit was scared. But after 10 to 15 seconds he replied with aHello.

  The girl:Are you Sumit Mohanty from B.Tech first year?

  Sumit:Yes. I am Sumit.

  The girl:Why did You made a video call to Puja??

  Sumit:Sorry. It was my personal matter.

  The girl:Sorry. It was my personal matter also. Because I am the same girl to whom you called before sometimes. I am Puja.(Angrily)

  Suddenly Sumit cancelled the call out of fear and switched off the phone. He was so afraid and amazed after hearing the unknown girls name as Puja from her side. After 5 minutes he switched on the phone and called back in that number. Again the

  same girl with a sweet voice received the call and saidHello.

  Sumit:I am Sumit. Are you really Puja?

  The girl:Yes. I am really Puja. But why did you cancel the call?

  Sumit:Sorry. I was so afraid by hearing your name suddenly.

  The girl (angrily):Don’t make me video calls again.

  Sumit:Sorry.

  The girl:Ok. Good night.

  Sumit:Good night.

  Then the girl cancelled the call from her side. Sumit did not believe that the unknown girl was really his crush Puja. Then the very next day he went to Bicky Bhai and showed him that unknown number. Bicky Bhai saw the number and said, “Yes. It is the number of Puja Didi”. Sumit’s phone had a facility that every incoming and outgoing calls were recorded automatically. So he played the voice recording of that unknown girl and fortunately Bicky Bhai remarked that voice was Puja’s real voice. Then

  Sumit felt so happy, because his dream girl called him for first time.

  Some days passed away. Sumit wanted to call Puja, but he could not proceed due to fear. But being influenced by Bicky Bhai he managed his mind to call her again and he did so. Puja received the call and repliedHello with her sweet voice.

  Sumit:I am Sumit.

  Puja:Yes. I know. Tell! What happened!

  Sumit:Nothing yet.

  Puja:Then why have you called me?

  Sumit:Tama katha bohut mane paduthila. So call karideli.

  Puja:Oho. But try to understand. The relationship that you want to build between us is not possible.

  Sumit:Why?

  Puja:Because I am 5years elder from you. I am also academically senior from you. If the age gap is 1 or 2 then it will be managed, but here the gap is so more.

  Sumit:Age gap is not a serious matter for me. I

  love you and my love is from my heart, not from my mind.

  Puja:Sorry. May be age gap puts no impact on you, but it puts many impact on me. Let’s do one thing. Meet me face to face on tomorrow at 12 O’ clock in the college.

  Sumit:Ohh really.

  Puja:Yes. I will say you about the actual place tomorrow.

  Sumit:Ok thanks. I will be there in time.

  Puja:Ok. But for today, Good night.

  Sumit:Very good night. See you on tomorrow.

  Puja:Ok.

  Then she went offline.

  On the very next morning Sumit went to Bicky Bhai and described everything. Bicky Bhai told him that he would manage everything. Then Bicky Bhai met Puja in the college and asked her for a face to face meeting. Puja agreed for a face to face session with Sumit at 12PM in Student Activity

  Centre commonly briefed as SAC. At 11.55PM Bicky Bhai called Sumit to SAC. Sumit reached there. He looked so tensed. Now that was SAC. Only 3 people were in that room. They are Sumit, the one-sided lover, Puja, the crush and Bicky Bhai, the negotiator. Then Sumit requested Bicky Bhai to go outside the room so that he could talk with Puja freely. Bicky Bhai understood his feelings and stepped outside the room. Then Sumit and Puja took positions face to face. Then the conversation began.

  Puja:Why are not you calling me Didi?

  Sumit:Simple! I love you.

  Puja:It is impossible.

  Sumit:Why??? I think nothing is impossible.

  Puja:Try to understand. I am 5 year senior then you.

  Sumit:I will manage.

  Puja:You told that you had been a big fan of my eyes.

  Sumit:Yes. I told that I had been a big fan of your

  eyes from the day one when I saw you firstly in the C-Lab.

  Puja:Now it is cleared that it’s not your love towards me. It’s only your attraction towards me which you think is your love. So please try to forget me and also try to find your love in your batch.

  Sumit:Sorry. You are my first love and it is impossible for anyone to forget the first love.

  Puja: If you will disturb me again, then I will give complain against you near the authority. Bye.

  Then she left the room. Bicky Bhai called her from her back, but she went away. Then Bicky Bhai came inside the SAC and asked about the face to face session to Sumit. He could reply then and

  the only question he asked to Bicky Bhai,“Please tell me the difference between Love and

  Attraction”.His eyes were full of tear and his voice was so painful. Then he returned to the hostel with Bicky Bhai and went to his room directly. I called him but he did not receive my phone and he also
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  After having our meals my friend Sampark and I accompanied Bicky Bhai to Sumit’s room to have a conversation with him, but he didn’t show interest in talking to us. So Bicky Bhai suggested me to leave him alone and we all left that place. As he kept his phone in the switch off mode, her mother called him many times but she failed to talk to him. At last she called me and asked me about his condition. I said the lei that his condition was good and he switched off his phone as he was working on a project. Then she told me to inform him about her call when he would free from his work and canceled the call.

  Many times I tell lie to my own parents, but that was the first time for me that I told lie to other’s parents in my life, which was so shameful for me and I know very well that when her mother will come to

  now about all these things in future she may not forgive me, but I don’t care, because for others it is acceptable that ‘Everything is fair in love and war’, but I accept that ‘Everything is fair in friendship’.

  The Unpredicted

  SOME days passed away.

  To bring Sumit on right track I prepared a plan with Bicky Bhai. And at that time Bicky Bhai was out of the station for a small holiday in his home town Jajpur. After making a plan he called Sumit to work on it.

  That was 4th April 2017, a cold winter evening, some of my friends and I were wondering on Burla market. Sumit was also with us. Suddenly Bicky Bhai phoned him and told that some days ago he had a conversation with Puja. According to the conversation Puja told him that she would marry after few months. The guy whom she would marry was her ex- boyfriend whom she loved till then.

  After learning about the planned marriage of Puja from Bicky Bhai, Sumit was totally shocked. After coming to the hostel he came to me and described everything. Being a part of the plan I also acted like Bicky Bhai shared this sad news with me in the last evening. I thought that after hearing those things Sumit would give up his madness and put efforts to forget Puja. But all our plan went in vain. His madness became double and he wanted to talk to her for the very last time.

  After some days Bicky Bhai also returned to the hostel and came to know about Sumit’s desire to talk to Puja for the last time. So one night he called me to his room and we made another plan. That time he made a phone call to Puja and requested her to talk to Sumit because he wanted to talk to her for the last time. She also gave her positive sign and assured that she would talk to him for sure.

  One day I was on the hostel roof in the night with some of my close hostel friends like Suman, Kamesh, Sampark, etc. We were playing the famous android game Mini Militia. Suman was so good in that game. Sumit was also with us, but sitting few feet away from us. He continuously scrolling up and down his mobile screen. Suddenly his phone rang. Then he moved his head left and right and suddenly stood up and went away. He received the phone call and saidHello. A sweet voice of a girl came asHello in reply.

  Sumit:who??

  Girl:Puja.

  Sumit:Tame satare mate call karicha!!

  Puja:Hmm.

  Sumit:Thanks... Mu bi chahnuthili tamaku call karibaku. But I can’t due to fear. By the way tame kana sata re marriage karucha???

  Puja:kie kahila??? (Surprisingly!)

  Sumit:Hmm. Bicky Bhai kohuthile je tame kale marriage karucha and tamara kale tama ex-boyfriend saha patch up hei jaichi??? So mu last time pain chahnuthili tama saha katha heba pain.

  Puja: (stopped for 30 to 40 sec and then)Hmm. Mora patch up hei jaichi. So mu Next year marriage karibi. So you have to forget me.

  Sumit:Ete jaldi marriage kari naba!!! I think tame mate micha kohucha. Tame marriage kara ki jaha karucha kara, I don’t care. I can’t forget you.

  Puja:I know it’s not your love, it’s only your attraction. Try to understand. You see me every time in college, so that you are attracted and can’t forget me. But once I will pass out, you will definitely forget me.

  Sumit:Mu tamaku agaru kahichi and ebe bi kohuchi. You are my first love and may be last.None can forget his first love and I am also one of them.

  Puja:I think you are totally mad and stupid.

  Sumit:Yes. Your eyes make me mad and my love makes me stupid.

  Puja:Ok. I am going to marry next year. So I invite you from today to attain my marriage.

  Sumit:Yaa. Sure. “Bepanah mohabat ka Ek hi usool hai, Tu mile ya na mele, per har haal main qubool hai”.

  Puja:Mad- mad!! Totally mad!!!!!

  Sumit:Qubool hai.

  Puja:Bye…

  Sumit:Bye…

  Then she canceled the call. Sumit came to us and explained everything about that phone call. Next day in the college Puja called Bicky Bhai and asked about the rumour of her marriage. Bicky Bhai admitted that he told Sumit about the marriage only to take him away from her. Then she thanked him and went away.

  After that we thought that everything would be fine and Sumit would definitely change his

  mind. But after that incident Sumit behaved like a mad. The madness leveled up day by day. Many friends also called him‘Diwana’. Sometimes he went to college without any classes and waited there just to get a glimpse of his crush. Sometimes he followed her in the college and also got inside her classroom. Whole class laughed at him. Sometimes he waited in the college outpost. He also

  started bunking the classes. He changed his Facebook status from single to in a complicated relationship.

  Puja was continuously noticing everything and called him alone to the college backside. She looked so angry. She also reviled him for his works. Sumit listened everything without uttering a single word and stood there bending his head. She told him to change his Facebook status as soon as possible. She warned him not to follow her

  and not to come in front of her anymore. If he would do such things again then she complained at the authority. Sumit only shook his head and stood like a wooden trunk. May be there was some mercy somewhere in her heart, lastly she added that if he wished to talk to her he could call her, but should not disturb her frequently. After listening such words he looked at him surprisingly and saidYes. Then she left that place and after some time Sumit also came to the hostel.

  He usually made her phone calls once or twice in a week. Two to three months passed. Now he started calling her more than twice in a day. Firstly Puja kept receiving the phone calls, but when Sumit did it in a continuous manner, she started ignoring the phone calls. She tried to keep herself away from Sumit. That girl started avoiding eye contact with him even if when they would pass by in the college campus or somewhere else. By seeing those activities of Puja, Sumit was quite surprised.

  When Sumit saw that Puja was continuously avoiding him, he wanted to talk to her on this matter.

  One night he called her to know about her problem. He called many times but every time she cancelled the call. Then it was right 10 PM. After having his diner Sumit again tried to call her, but that time also she cancelled the call. After few minutes Sumit’s phone started ringing. An unknown number flashed on his display. He received the call and said Hello. The unknown person also saidHello. That time it was a voice of a Man. His voice was so strong and energetic.

  Sumit:Who are you?

  Unknown Man:Not necessary. Are you Sumit?

  Sumit:Yes I am Sumit.

  Unknown Man:Then tell me one thing that why are you calling Puja and making her disturbed? She is not concentrating in her studies and daily life also. So that I warn you that not to call her anymore and try to forget her as soon as possible.

  Then that man disconnected the call. Sumit looked so frightened. He again called back to him. He received the call and saidHello.

  Sumit:Please! Tell me who are you actually? Are you the brother of Puja or her friend or who?

  Unknown Man:By the course of time you will definitely able to know me, but for now it is not necessary. Do one thing remember that don’t try to disturb her anymore and another thing that try to call her Puja Didi.
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  Then he suddenly cut down the call. Sumit tried to