Black Butterfly

by A. G. Hobson

  His touch is so gentle so sensual. He pecks at my thigh then lifts my shirt to kiss my stomach. He finally gets back to my lips and we just make out. My siege is so desperate. I feel like I could lick his brain. He kisses me, our tongues wrestle as he grips the skin through my tights. We back up toward the bed and he lies me down. My hearts begins to beat and my hands shake. He immediately feels them trembling in his back.

  “Calm down Montana. I won’t do anything you don’t want me to do. I just want to be near you. I’d be lying to you if I said I didn’t want to taste you, feel you beneath me… or on top of me…” He breathes into my face.

  “I want to but I’m scared, Hayden. I’ve never…”

  “I know. You don’t have to be afraid of me. I would never do anything to hurt you. Can I… just make you feel good? It won’t hurt. I promise you. We can do other things later.”

  “I… I’m not that kind of girl. I told you…” I whisper completely embarrassed.

  “Do over think it. It will feel good, I swear.”

  I gently place my hand on his shoulder and shove him away. He lifts away from me hovering above me as I lay there. “I really like you Hayden, but…”

  “Montana,” he says moving closer quickly closing the space a place between us. “I know that you feel what I feel. You want me to touch you. You want me to do things to your body but you’re afraid. Don’t ask me how right now, but I’ve been inside of your head. I know what you dream about me, about us doing. Relax. If you really want me to stop, I will take you home now. I want even touch you again if that’s what you want. Tell me that you don’t want this.” He reaches in and softly runs his thumb along my jawbone. “Tell me you want to stop this.” He slowly moves closer now breathing on me. He places his wet lips onto mine. My eyes roll shut. God it feels so darn good. “Tell me to stop and I will. I won’t touch you until you want me to.” He exhales into my mouth as he speaks. I don’t even bother to address half of what he said

  “I want you, but I’m not ready to go all the way.”

  “Well, I give you something just as good that will have you thinking about me as much as I think about you.” He puts his full mouth around mine sliding his tongue into my mouth. My hands shake as they glide up his sides and around his waist.

  “Okay.” I pull away reluctantly giving in. He kisses my cheek and licks my neck before sucking the skin into his mouth. He takes a chunk of skin into his mouth. It does feel amazing. His lips glide along my neck down to my breasts. He bites at the nipples through the fabric. I moan and twist grabbing at the comforter, holding it inside my fists. He pushes himself away from me and removes my shoes. I watch as his hands ride up my skirt and yank my tights down. He pulls them off one leg after the other. His touch is warm almost hot. When he grabs at my underwear, I tense up.

  “Relax. If you want me to stop just tell me.”

  I nod and he proceeds. I raise my hips and he slips my panties off. When his eyes meet mine, he has an evil but alluring manner about his face. I lie back and he crawls up between my legs. He spreads them apart and stares the apex. He dips in and places his mouth on me. I cry out as he makes contact.

  “Oh God!” I yell.

  He pulls back and smirks.

  “I’m sorry.” I say out of breath.

  He goes back to work sucking and slurping me up. Heat rises in my belly and I feel myself getting ready to explode. I have never felt something so tantalizing. My body arches up. Before I can stop myself, I burst into pieces. Tears spill and I can’t stop them. I sob silently for a few minutes as he climbs up and kisses my cheek. He falls beside me wrapping his arm around my waist. I lift up and lay on his chest soon after I fall asleep.

  Chapter 11

  My eyes pop open and the room is completely dark. I can’t even see in front of me. I hear Hayden breathing. I sit up and his arm falls to the bed.

  I swing my legs off of the bed and stand. I still have on my skirt and shirt but my shoes, panties and tights are MIA. I stretch my arms out in front of me and search for a wall and a light. But a glimmer through the cracked door from the hall snatches my attention. I ease over tiptoeing to the light. I peek through the door and I see Santana and Gayle walking up the hall toward Hayden’s bedroom. I step back as they get closer. I catch a glimpse of Gayle and she is so stunningly gorgeous. She doesn’t have one wrinkle. I study her face and I notice a glint in her eyes. I step back up to the door and put my face to it as they pass. I swear her pupils are red like fire. I turn away when she pauses. It’s like she knows that I’m watching. She spins around and walks toward the room. I turn to run and slip on the rug. When she opens the door, she flips the light on. My skirt is up to my waist and my entire ass is out. I cover my face. This is officially the worst day of my life.

  “Montana?” She says with questionable disgust.

  “Hayden!” She yells as I stand. “Hayden wake up now!” She orders storming past me and over to his bed. Santana doesn’t look at me until I get up and pull my skirt down. Hayden sits up with a confused look about his face.

  “Mother. Why are you inside of my room, let alone yelling?”

  “I will ask the questions Hayden Alexander. Why is Montana here in this house while you are sleeping? Are you trying to…”

  “Ummm, I apologize Mrs. Alexander.” She doesn’t even grace me with a look or response. I walk over and grab my things off of the floor. I run into the bathroom feeling completely ashamed. I can hear her yelling at him.

  “Hayden, why are you being so reckless? You know that this is a delicate time for this family. Montana may not be able to handle our secrets.”

  “Mother please stop being dramatic. And can you pretend to be human sometimes? You come off as an emotionless humanoid.”

  “I will not even respond to that. I have been doing this way longer than you my son. And just because you get horny for some human every time you get a new...”

  I enter the room and she stops talking. “It’s okay Hayden. I’m ready to go home.” He slides to the edge of his bed and stands. He finds a shirt and slips into it. Watching him dress reminds me of our evening and showing me his snooty family in the beginning was a smart thing to do. If I don’t want to pursue this, no feelings would be lost, but if we fell for one another first then he introduced me to the crazy, hearts would break.

  I believe I can handle the crazy. I guess.

  He stomps into his shoes one foot at a time and grabs his keys. He shakes his head as he passes his mother leaving the room. I quickly follow and he grabs my hand. We walk with our fingers interlocked down the hall through and out of the house. He starts the car with a remote starter and opens the car door. I bend and sit. Hayden makes sure I’m in and hurries around to get inside. He whips from the drive so fast that I watch from the rear view as the house gets smaller and smaller.

  The ride is silent. He stares at the road without emotion. I try to muster the courage to speak. Taking in a gulp of air, I open my mouth to say something.

  “I apologize Montana. That was way worse than I thought it would be. My family has a way of making things more complicated than it should be. But it’s over and out of the way. Now we can do something that you want to do.” He cuts in before I say anything.

  “You don’t have to apologize Hayden. I am so glad that we got the opportunity to spend time together, especially, the end of the night.”

  He smirks. “Yes… you are so sweet to taste.” He huffs.

  My brown skin flushes. I am so into this guy and it seems as if he is going to make my life super complicated.

  Chapter 12

  When I wake up, I smile. I stretch and remember the night I had with Hayden. He dropped me off and we sat in the driveway, talking. We conversed for hours until the sun came up. I never thought that I could get to be with someone like him. I would love to brag about my new love life. Iyoki and Lydia immediately cross my mind. I have never needed friends more than I need them right now. Stacia will be furious if I tell her anythin
g about my new relationship with Hayden, she may even tell her mother and get him black-balled from teaching in Michigan. Stacia and I have been friendly but I know how she works. When she doesn’t get what she wants she lashes out and who gets ran over by her rage never matters.

  When Hayden kisses me, I don’t care about anything. I mean nothing. All of the confusing things that I heard last night, are distant memories for now. But I’ll never forget the way he touched me. I can’t forget the way he kissed me. I will never forget the way he talked to me, the way his lips grazed my ear when he whispered to me. I’m trying not to sabotage something so beautiful by falling fast and hard. I feel love for him already but I dare tell him. I know him. He lives inside my head and now in my heart. How can I be with him? How will we do this? As my mind races, I lie in my bed remembering how his mouth tasted my body. I relive the sensations, the smells. His smell. My phone rings and interrupts my obsessing over him.

  “Hello?” I say as I sit up and answer my phone.

  “Hey there.” His voice is like soothing rain. It makes love to my ears.

  “Hey… I was just thinking about you.”

  “Oh, really? What were you thinking?”

  “I’m just glad I went out with you. I can’t think of anything else.”

  “Good. I only want me on your brain. I want you to be addicted to me like a drug.” He speaks almost at a whisper.

  “Why would you want me to be co-dependent Mr. Alexander?” I smile so hard.

  “Because when you’re addicted to something you can’t live without it. You can’t function unless you have it. You don’t care about anything else.”

  “Wow. That’s a tall order. Well, I’m inclined to have you do the same.”

  “I’m way ahead of you Montana. I’m already hooked. Even more so now that I’ve actually had a sample.”

  I giggle and cover my mouth with my hand. I feel like a fool smiling so hard “Seriously, I really enjoyed being with you. I’m afraid that I may fall hard for you.” Why did I just say that? God! I’m such a fucking geek. “I guess I’m just afraid that I don’t deserve a guy like you.” I am really putting my damn foot in my mouth.

  “Stop, Montana. We’ve already been over this. I know you don’t think it makes sense. But I want you. And it’s real.”

  “I hope so. I don’t think I’ve ever wanted anything more than I want you.” The hell with it. While I’m letting it out, I might as well let it all out.

  “Believe it or not I feel the same. Can I see you again today? We can really go out.”

  “How about you come over and I make dinner? I don’t think we should hang out around town as long as you are interning at the school.”

  “Sure. That sounds like a plan. I’ll take it for now, But I have resources that we can utilize. I want to take you to places you’ve never seen before.”

  “I would probably go anywhere with you Hayden regardless of the consequences.” I continue to pour my feelings out to him.

  “And, I would take you wherever you want to go. How’s 9?”

  “Nine is perfect. See you then.”

  I end the call and lie back on my bed. I can’t stop myself from smiling. The thought of spinning another night with him causes my stomach to turn. I don’t know why I’m still so nervous. He is more than I could have imagined. I would really go anywhere with him right now. I don’t understand what he has over me but it’s something there. I close my eyes and drift back off to sleep.

  I hear the faint sounds of footsteps creeping up the stairs. The closer they get the cooler the air becomes around me in the room. My heartbeat is loud. I can feel the thump in my ears. The steps echo through the hall getting louder- closer. The thud of boots or dress shoes climbing the stairs with each step causes me to tremble. When the sound reaches the top of the staircase I sit up in my bed. They approach my door and then silence follows. I pause holding my breath. I lean forward and listen. Soon, I hear breathing. At first, it’s low and barely audible. The breathing shifts into a deep growl. It lowers again and then grows into a feral rumbling snarl. The sound radiates through the door and my body. I shake myself to see if I am dreaming. Goosebumps riddle my arms and legs. I lift one of my arms to see the hair standing on end. I cover my mouth to keep from screaming, hoping that whatever stands at my door will pass it by. I thank God that Tinsley and mom are away but I have no one to call out to. I’m alone. The growl gurgles like it is coming from an animal. I hear then I see the doorknob rattle. I squeeze my lips. My chest rises and falls as my breathing rapidly picks up. The door slowly swings and I can’t see anything but darkness. It opens in slow motion and I squint my eyes trying to make out a shape, a person, any clue to what is entering my room.

  “Who’s there? I say barely above a whisper.

  Suddenly a black butterfly flutters into the room. My eyes follow it while it floats about with no real destination. How could something so dark be so beautiful? I study the wings. There are dark swirls and markings on the wings. They hypnotize me. My eyes leave the wings when I hear the growling resume as if it’s in my ear. I gasp and my neck snaps as I turn to face whatever just entered behind the butterfly. My heart is beating so fast and it is so loud. I finally spot a shadow. It is completely black, no clothes, no features, no limbs, just a black shapeless blob. I stare at it. I don’t turn away like I want. I can hear the growls bubbling up from its center. I quickly yank my comforter and cover the bottom half of my face. I continue to watch the blob as two red eyes appear where sockets would be. The red dots grow larger turning into round eyes with black pupils. The form changes right after the eyes. It begins to take the shape of a man, still not revealing who the man is. Features slowly display on the face of the shadow.

  “What do you want?” I ask removing the comforter from my mouth then placing it back.

  Suddenly, I notice the white of its teeth when it smiles at me. I recognize the smile immediately. Am I dreaming? I must be dreaming. Is this a nightmare? I lean forward, dropping the comforter and narrowing my eyes. His features become crystal clear.

  “Hayden?”

  I jump up from my slumber and grab hold of my chest. I try to calm myself. I turn to look at the clock. I’m losing the day and Hayden will be here in a few hours. I think about my dream and it frightens me. Why do I keep dreaming of Hayden and why are the dreams always so dark? I gather myself to get out of bed, shower and dress. I tidy up and grab some money from mom’s food stash to go to the grocery store.

  I walk around the store trying to figure out what I can cook for us. The duck that I had at his house was delicious and a little exotic for me. So, I must make something that will equally impress him. Little flutters roll around in my belly as I think about his dark smirk. He constantly reminds me of how he adores my innocence and quirkiness. Girls like me don’t really get guys like him from being a total nerd. And I don’t know if I’m offended or flattered that I am quirky and not sexy to him. I have to have some appeal if he wants to sleep with me. I can’t be all cutesy and innocent. Or, maybe he defiles things that are pure. They are devil worshippers after all…

  After walking through the store completely engulfed in my thoughts, I decide to make stuffed salmon with a broccoli/cauliflower mix and wild rice. Not really exotic but it will taste good. I gather everything I need and proceed to the register. I patiently stand in line glancing over the magazines on the stands. The store isn’t really crowded but there is a line of about ten people. They must be short staffed. As I wait. I decide to read one of the magazines. I select one with Jamie Dornan on the cover. I flip to the story about him. Reading about how he has a ton of movies coming up and how he doesn’t want to do movies like ‘Fifty’ again, quickly bores me. I roll my eyes and look up from the book to see Cade in the next lane over. He is kissing and rubbing on some girl’s ass. I try to get a look to see if it’s Lydia that he is groping. She giggles then turn to kiss him and I realize that it’s not Lydia. It’s Belinda Martian. She is a senior that dates any
guy that is popular. They play and kiss like they’re in love. My first thought is about Lydia. I know the two of them still date because I constantly lurk on their pages to see the latest ‘couple goals’ thing they post. But they are nowhere near any goals I would ever want to meet. Who knew Cade was such an asshole and how many times had he cheated on my sister?

  Cade kisses her on the neck. They move up in the line and is next. Belinda smiles as she begins to place her things on the belt. The cashier offers them a warm look while she scans each product. When she gives them the total, Cade takes money from his wallet and pays for everything. I can’t help but notice formula, diapers, and other baby supplies while she bags. Then, I spot her enormous belly. She’s pregnant! I gasp and cover my mouth when he rubs her belly.

  I look down at the floor to avoid eye contact but Cade spots me anyway. His eyes widen and his mouth drops. They continue to check out and gather their bags. I quickly approach the front of the line and do the same. Cade keeps his gaze on me following Belinda from the market. I purchase my groceries for Hayden’s dinner and proceed from the store to the parking lot where my car is. Cade spots me, glances over at me, then approaches. I try to pack my car swiftly to avoid him but he makes it to me at fast pace.