Trust

by David Moody

  Trust

  David Moody

  First published in the UK in 1995; this is the revised 2012 edition.

  This epub is version 1.0, released August 2014.

  FRIDAY. 4:17PM

  Once I get outside I’m fine. All the nervousness and trepidation disappears in seconds. You just keep putting one foot in front of the other. Focus on the run.

  People often ask me why I do it, but I never give them a straight answer. They look at the state I get myself into and shake their heads. But they see only the physical effects. Truth is; I run because it’s the only time I ever feel completely alone. It’s the only time I’m fully separated from the distractions of the phone, the TV, the Internet, and other people. I usually fob them off with all the expected bullshit about keeping in shape and being out in the open, but that’s only half the story. When you’re out running like this, you’re everything and you’re nothing. You can pass a hundred people, and none of them know how far you’ve come or how much you’re hurting. None of them know where you’re from or where you’re going. I tell people I like that isolation. I sometimes tell them I like to clear my mind and think, but I never tell them what I think about.

  When I left home about forty minutes ago, there was a bank of grey cloud building up on the horizon. I thought I’d beat the bad weather back but the wind picked up almost as soon as I left the house and now the sky is almost completely black. A moment ago the clouds finally swallowed up the last of the sun, and the sudden drop in temperature was sobering. I’m glad I’m nearly back now. There’s a hell of a storm blowing in, and I can feel the air pressure changing by the minute. My head’s pounding, and it feels almost as if gravity itself is increasing, making it harder to keep lifting my feet. I look up, and above me the clouds have stopped following each other. They’re criss-crossing the sky at random heights and different speeds, uncomfortably erratic.

  I can see the war monument at the top of the last climb before home now and I know I’m almost there.

  Christ, here comes the rain. A few spots become a deluge in just a couple of seconds, almost like running headlong into a wall of water. Bloody typical – I’ve run miles along footpaths covered by overhanging trees and streets lined with buildings but it’s only now, when I’m out here with absolutely no protection whatsoever, that this torrential downpour begins. The rain is hissing, filling the air with noise, and it’s so hard it hurts. Moments ago this cliff-top tourist track was dry and hard, now it’s dangerously unpredictable. Potholes and ruts are rapidly filling with water, making it almost impossible to see what I’m running through, and yet, somehow, the risk adds to the adrenalin rush. There’s a hundred metre drop just five metres to my left. I’m literally on the edge, but none of that matters because this is the real reason I run. Me, the cliffs, the sea and nothing else.

  I dig in and push myself up the last section of steep climb to the monument, my legs having to work twice as hard now to get any traction. It’s downhill all the way home from here. Keep pushing. Don’t stop. Just a few more seconds.

  The ground steepens again – the sting in the tail of this bitch of a climb – and the slope turns to steps, worn into the ground by countless ramblers and dog walkers who’ve come this way over the years. I slip, my foot sinking into a rain-filled pit I didn’t see, but I manage to keep my balance and keep myself moving. Can’t afford to lose momentum now.

  Almost there. Last few steps.

  And then I’ve done it. I pass the needle-shaped stone monument and the ground ahead of me levels out then drops away. My lungs are on fire but I know the pain will ease with the descent. I’ve followed this dirt footpath countless times since I’ve lived in Thatcham, but the view up here still takes my breath away no matter what. Even in the gloom I can see for miles in every direction, and the vastness of the sea and the land stretching away from here is humbling, reminding me in no uncertain terms just how small I am in the scheme of things. The rain is ice-cold, digging into me like needles, but suddenly it doesn’t seem to matter. I don’t feel it. Now I can see the gentle crescent curve of the bay up ahead. From here I can see virtually the whole of the village; a narrow strip of buildings dotted with occasional lights, sandwiched between the crashing waves on one side and endless fields and hills on the other. It looks as prone as I feel. And then I’m distracted as, out on the horizon, miles out to sea, a jagged flash of electric-blue light spits down from the belly of the clouds to the surface of the water. It’s gone in a heartbeat, but I can still see it in negative.

  Seconds later, the thunder arrives. A low and ominous warning growl, so deep I can feel it through my pounding legs, followed by an almighty crack so loud it seems to shake the whole world. I slip again and almost fall, and now I’m starting to wonder if I might be in trouble. There’s still another half-mile to home, and I have no protection whatsoever out here, not even a tree. And I think to myself, if I get hit, I’m fucked. My brother knows I’m out, but I didn’t tell him my route. I’m exposed and vulnerable, but I love it.

  Another flash of light. This time I’m looking down at my feet when it hits, but the lightning illuminates everything like someone’s taking photographs of the lone idiot out running. I splash through a puddle that’s too big to run around and I’m taken by surprise when it’s deeper than I expect. The ice-cold water soaks my feet, adding to the misery, but I keep going. I fix my eyes dead ahead, trying to pick out the outline of my bungalow on the hillside, aiming for home.

  Wait. What was that?

  Something’s not right.

  There’s another sound now, lighter in pitch than the thunder but just as loud. It builds and builds, refusing to fade. I’ve stopped running before I’ve realised and I stand there, hands on hips, breathing hard and scanning the horizon. The noise is swirling with the wind, constantly changing direction, impossible to place.

  There’s a jet. It comes from behind me and flies overhead before I see it. Wait… there’s more than one of them. I regularly see jets around here; there are usually a few each day, flying training missions up and down the valley and occasionally out over the sea, but surely not in atrocious conditions like this? They normally fly much faster and at a considerably higher altitude, reaching such speeds that you have to look way ahead of the noise to stand any chance of seeing them. This is very different. There are four more now, flying in an arrowhead formation behind the first, heading out over the water. They’re getting lower. One by one they drop down through the low cloud cover.

  The rain is relentless and I have to shield my eyes to keep watching. The noise is becoming unbearable. There’s another flash of lightning, but the cumulative screaming of jet engines is such that the thunder which follows goes almost unheard.

  Is there something else behind them?

  Something’s following them out over the ocean.

  Jesus Christ.

  Whatever this thing is, it’s fucking huge. It’s black, blacker than any of the clouds, and it’s fucking enormous, dwarfing the jets. This thing is immense and yet it’s hardly making a bloody sound. It’s right above me now and seems to be going on forever – hundreds and hundreds of metres of Christ alone knows what, stretching down through the clouds, slicing through the storm with apparent ease. Parts of its surface are smooth and featureless, other areas covered with what look like probes and towers and clusters of pinpricks of light. About a third of the way along its length, its appearance changes drastically. There are a collection of unimaginably long, hexagonal-shaped containers, each of which looks to be miles in length but I can’t even begin to accurately estimate the scale of this thing from here.

  There are jets surrounding the entire machine. They look small up against it, like the shadows of scavenging birds. I can finally see the back end of it now as it powers throu
gh the sky. There’s a huge ball of brilliant, blue-white light behind the ship. That must be what’s powering it, but how can it be so quiet? I can hear it, but the noise of the jets and even the gusting wind are louder. How can something so huge move so effortlessly and make hardly any sound?

  The light’s so powerful that I can’t keep looking at it and I have to turn away. I can feel my skin beginning to prickle and tighten with the heat, and for a moment the rain turns to steam. When the brightness reduces slightly I look up again. The sheer scale of whatever it is overhead is deceptive and the entire convoy is moving with remarkable speed. It feels like just a few seconds have passed since the first jet appeared, now the last one is disappearing from view. And all I can see is the vast ball of light moving out over the water, reflected on the choppy waves like a second sun.

  A moment of silence, then the chaos of the storm seems to return with ten times the ferocity it had before. All I can hear is the crashing of the waves on the rocks far below, and I look down and realise I’ve walked away from the footpath closer to the edge of the cliff.

  My legs are leaden, heavy with nerves more than effort now. It’s a struggle to start running again, but I dig deep and make myself move.

  I’ve got to get home.

  PART I – ARRIVAL

  CHAPTER 1

  Tom Winter sprinted down from the exposed hillside, gravity dictating his speed more than any conscious control. His heart pounded, his body racked with exhaustion and fear. Up ahead, Thatcham remained visible through the inclement late-afternoon gloom, more lights being switched on in houses and shops by the second. Despite the atrocious weather, the streets were teeming with frantic movement. Cars raced down the main road, aquaplaning through the rainwater, brake lights burning through the haze as they caught up with those in front and bunched together. Faces were pressed against almost every sea-facing window, all looking upward for the return of that thing – whatever the hell it was – they’d all seen moments earlier. Some foolhardy souls braved the squall and gathered at the sea wall, looking out over the waves. A few more even dared venture onto the windswept shingle beach. Others ran through the streets in small huddles. Holidaymaking families looked for shelter, their temporary tent and caravan homes suddenly feeling hopelessly insecure in light of what they’d witnessed.

  Everything looked the same as when Tom had left the village to start his run, but suddenly everything had changed.

  He pounded down off the dirt footpath and was glad to finally be running on pavements again. He glanced back over his shoulder at the cliffs and the ocean, all of it appearing reassuringly normal. If it hadn’t been for the chaos unfolding in the village all around him, he might have convinced himself he’d imagined what he’d seen; a sweat-soaked, storm-addled hallucination of epic proportions.

  He sprinted across the road to run up the final hill to the house, hardly paying attention, when his sudden burst of speed was matched by a swerving car coming the other way around a corner, all bright headlamps, clattering wipers and barely controlled acceleration. The driver blasted the horn at him and shouted abuse.

  The bungalow loomed ahead of him now at the top of the climb. Even from here he could see his brother Rob in silhouette, standing at the living room window and staring out to sea, transfixed like everyone else. Tom dug deep, half-running, half-walking up the steep footpath rather than following the meandering slope of the road. Tom reached the front door and crashed inside, barely able to breathe. He leant against the hallway wall and kicked off his sodden trainers.

  ‘That you Tom?’ Rob shouted.

  ‘It’s me,’ he just about managed to reply.

  ‘Did you see it? Fuck me, did you see it?’

  Tom limped into the living room, his legs unresponsive, shivering with cold. Or was it nerves? He wasn’t sure anymore. ‘I saw it,’ he said, still fighting for breath.

  Rob swallowed hard. He looked as bad as Tom felt.

  ‘What the hell was it?’

  ‘You tell me.’

  ‘I mean, I know what I think it was, but where did it come from? Why here?’

  ‘How am I supposed to know?’

  ‘Do you think we’re safe? Fuck, is it still out there? Tom, mate, are you all right?’

  Tom slid down the wall, legs finally giving up. ‘Drink,’ he said. He felt faint, bright lights dancing in front of his eyes despite the room being dark. He tried to control his breathing and steady himself, but he could still hear the screaming of the jets, could still feel that intense white light burning his skin… and now, suddenly, all he could think about was how exposed and vulnerable he’d been up there, close to the edge. The storm had been so powerful, and whatever it was that had flown overhead had been so huge… It reminded him of the time he and Rob had been messing around on scaffolding on a drunken night out a few years back. They’d laughed about it at the time, but when he’d returned to the scene next morning and had seen the height they’d climbed – the stupid, unnecessary risks they’d taken – it had shocked him rigid.

  Rob returned with a mug of coffee and an energy drink which Tom drained dry in a series of quick gulps. Rob returned to the window. The worst of the storm had passed now and the light was slowly beginning to improve. The sky was dirty yellow, the colour of a fading bruise. There was nothing to see out there, and he shifted his attention to the television instead, picking up the remote control and searching through the channels for one of the news stations, all the time talking nervously.

  ‘I was in the kitchen when I heard the jets. Bloody hell, there were so many of them I thought we’d gone to war or something.’

  ‘Maybe we have,’ Tom suggested. Rob gave his comment a few seconds consideration before continuing.

  ‘I came in here to see what was going on, and that was when it flew over. It must have been a couple of miles long at least. Christ, Tom, did you see the size of it?’

  ‘I saw it,’ he answered, beginning to feel marginally more himself again. He stood up, coughed hard, steadied himself, then took his brother’s place at the window and looked down into the village. It was still mayhem down there. The petrol station forecourt had flooded, and several members of staff were doing what they could to block the kiosk door. The main street was still awash, drains struggling to cope with the sudden deluge. Abandoned cars had reduced the road to a single lane for much of its length, and the sudden volume of traffic still trying to get in and out of the village had caused a jam. Some pedestrians wandered aimlessly, others just stood there, watching. It looked like everyone wanted to try and get somewhere else, but no one was going anywhere.

  ‘So what do you think it was?’ Rob asked, still cycling through channels for the news.

  Tom kept watching the people down below. It was easier to focus on them rather than answer his brother. He knew it was going to sound ridiculous.

  ‘I think it was a spaceship,’ he said finally. Regardless of what the immense vehicle proved to actually be, ‘spaceship’ seemed a trite and tacky way to describe the single most incredible thing he’d ever seen. ‘But it can’t have been, can it?’ he added quickly, doubting himself. ‘A spaceship. Bloody hell, that’s just stupid.’

  ‘Why?’

  ‘Why what?’

  ‘Why is that stupid? What else could it have been?’

  ‘Come on… a spaceship? Aliens? Are you serious?’

  Rob stood to one side so that Tom could see the TV screen. There it was: the incredible craft hovering out over the ocean. Is that real or CGI? he asked himself.

  ‘Give me another explanation then,’ Rob said. He pointed at the screen. ‘What else could that be? A mass hallucination? Dr fucking Who? Are there Daleks in that thing? Cybermen?’

  ‘But aliens?’ Tom said again. ‘Close encounters of the third bloody kind and all of that? I don’t know, maybe it’s something military? A prototype or an airship or something that—’

  ‘Bollocks,’ Rob snapped at him. ‘Look at it. It’s fucking enormous. Does tha
t look like an airship to you?’

  Tom walked towards the bathroom, still shivering, still nauseous. He hoped getting cleaned up and warm might help him make sense of everything. Countless questions and random thoughts continued to flood into his head. If it was aliens, it wasn’t so much the sudden proof of their existence he was struggling with, he just wanted to know why they were here. Thatcham was nowhere. The arse-end of everything. Nothing much ever seemed to happen in this place, and that was how he liked it. That was why he’d moved here, for Christ’s sake.

  Rob remained in front of the TV, unaware his brother had left the room. ‘Hundreds of thousands of people will have seen this, millions even,’ he said. ‘There’s no way the authorities will be able to keep it quiet. I mean, it’s only ever been balls of light or flying hubcaps before, never anything like this…’

  He turned around and shrugged when he realised he was talking to himself. He turned up the volume and flicked through a few more channels. Same picture now, almost every station: that machine – the spaceship, uncovered military secret or whatever it was – hovering motionless over the churning waters. A number of clearly well-armed boats bobbed and rolled in the shadow of the behemoth, and countless helicopters and jets buzzed around like relentless flies, their trivial size serving only to emphasise the unimaginable scale of the craft. Rob thought it surprising there was so much military activity in the water already. Assuming the footage he was watching was coming from somewhere not that far from here, then this was happening in waters where there was rarely any call for war ships and frigates. Thatcham was hardly a warzone.

  ‘They must have been waiting for it,’ he shouted, not knowing whether Tom could hear him. ‘They knew it was coming. That’s got to be a good thing, right?’

  When no one answered, he turned the TV up again, loud enough to be heard throughout the small house.

  ‘…we’ll be staying with this story for the time being,’ a clearly flustered newsreader’s voice explained. She sounded as dumbfounded as everyone else, tripping over her words with uncharacteristic regularity. ‘Once again, these are live pictures you’re seeing here. We repeat, this is not a hoax. The UN statement we brought to you a short while ago confirmed that there is no cause for alarm…’