AVERY (The Corbin Brothers Book 2)

by Lexie Ray

  When she opened them, the marks were gone.

  I talked excitedly about it to anyone who’d listen.

  “So at the end, the only reason she was cursed was because she thought she was,” I said.

  The library inmate smiled. “That’s one interpretation,” she said. “Other girls think that the curse wasn’t that bad after all, and until Jasmine could see that, she was doomed. Remember the part about the shadows of the light and all that?”

  “And light in the shadows,” I said quickly. Of course I remembered that part.

  “The running debate was whether or not this was a true story,” she said. “What do you think?”

  “A true story?” That made me frown. “In true stories, people have names. Someone can’t just be called the Messenger.”

  “But people can be messengers,” the library inmate said.

  I remembered the dedication page. “To the real Jasmine,” it had read. The photo there was grainy—it was black and white and printed in a book, after all—so I couldn’t be sure. There had to be more than just the Jasmine who had started my downward spiral at the nightclub. Plus, the Jasmine I’d known had never smiled like the Jasmine in the picture.

  I met with Pitt regularly to talk about my progress in everything I was involved with.

  “I’m really happy for you,” he said, going over my file. “We haven’t had a problem since you first got here. Cheryl sings your praises in the commissary. Marlee talks about you all the time. And the GED classes are going well?”

  “They’re going very well,” I said, nodding and smiling.

  “Good,” he said. “I’ve been having a couple of concerns lately, though.”

  That was news to me. I’d thought everything was going amazingly well.

  “I’ve heard rumors that Tama is pursuing you,” Pitt said, looking up at me.

  “Word gets around, I’m guessing,” I said sheepishly.

  “I don’t think anyone realizes how much of a gossip mill prisons are,” he said. “We’re all in here together, corrections officers and inmates, and everyone tends to hear everything. What a mess it was when I first started going to AA meetings. Somehow, all of the AA inmates found out and then the whole prison did. You should’ve heard the obscene offers I got in exchange for hooch.”

  I flushed. “Well, that’s kind of what Tama has been dangling in front of me,” I said. “But I’ve been going to meetings every week.”

  “But you haven’t shared.”

  “No,” I said, swallowing and cursing the idea that AA was anything near anonymous here in prison. “But I’m feeling like I might soon.”

  “Very good,” Pitt said. “And Tama?”

  “I don’t want to be with her. I’m not into women.”

  “I don’t know that she is, either,” he mused. “But she has specific tastes, and I must say—”

  “I fit the bill,” I said. “I’ve heard that, too. Any recommendations?”

  “Don’t be alone,” Pitt said. “Ever.”

  “That’s what I’ve been doing,” I said. “Is that the only option to deal with this?”

  Pit shrugged. “Let me say up front that I never advocate violence in any situation,” he said. “But life in prison can be a bit of a food chain. If there’s a way to turn the tables on her, assert your dominance in some way, then you might be able to cow her into backing down.”

  Dominance? Tama was just as big as I was—and probably just as mean, too—plus she had been inside longer than I had. There was hardly anything I could dominate her in except that I was older. I narrowed my eyes. I was older. That was one thing. I’d have to think about it.

  “I can see those wheels turning,” Pitt said. “I better not see that you’ve been thrown into solitary because of something stupid, though, Wanda. Not when it’s been going so well for you lately.”

  “No more solitary for me,” I said, smiling.

  “One last thing,” he said as I began to stand to go.

  “What is it?”

  “You have a son,” he said, “who has a wife.”

  I swallowed and plopped back down in the chair. “Yes. Yes, I do.”

  “But you’ve never made a call out of the prison,” he said.

  “That’s correct.”

  “Do you want your son’s number?” Pitt asked. “It can be good to have some support on the outside. I know you’re earning money for commissary items right now, but a little extra help is always useful.”

  Did I want to talk to my son and his wife? It seemed to me that I had, recently, even though it was only a hallucination. I’d talked to my baby boy, but I was aware that Marshall was far from a baby now. He was married, and a man grown.

  The more pertinent question was whether Marshall would want to talk to me. The last time I’d spoken with him—really spoken with him, not with the figments in my alcohol-addled imagination—hadn’t gone so well.

  “If you have his number, I’ll take it,” I said. “Thank you.”

  The piece of paper that Pitt gave me left me somewhere between hope and despair. I was in prison, but maybe I could reignite a relationship with my son and his lovely wife. I thought about the first time I’d try to talk with him. I’d still been at the nightclub, and had received a wedding invitation there. I was transported back to that call as I held the piece of paper with the phone number on it.

  “Hello?”

  I’d dialed the phone number that had been scrawled on the invitation in pen, wondering if it was an invitation to call.

  “Hi,” I said, wondering at the female voice. “My name is Wanda Dupree.”

  “Mrs. Dupree!” the woman exclaimed. “Oh my God! I’m so happy you called! Does this mean you got the invitation?”

  “I did,” I said, examining the thick, cream-colored cardstock. Marshall Dupree and Jules Macy invite you to share their special day with them.

  “This is Jules Macy,” the woman said. “I—I’m going to marry your son, it seems.”

  Her laughter was silvery and contagious. I found myself laughing, as well.

  “I know that it’s been a while since Marshall has spoken with you,” Jules said a little hesitantly. “But family’s important, in my opinion, and I think he’d want you here, on his big day.”

  My immediate thought was of the nightclub—if it could spare me for the wedding. I was devoted to it. Perhaps I could just go to the ceremony and skip the reception. Depending on where they lived, I could even make it back to the nightclub in time for opening.

  “I would want to be there,” I said. “I’ll have to arrange some things with my work, of course.”

  “Of course,” Jules agreed smoothly. “I just think—Marshall hardly talks about you. My parents aren’t in my life anymore, but it’s because they both died during my teens. I would hate for him to miss out on knowing his mother, especially when we don’t live but two hours away from each other.”

  Two hours. That might be a push, but as long as the ceremony was early in the day, I could still probably make it back to the nightclub.

  “Hell,” Jules said mildly, laughing. “This is probably pure selfishness on my part. I miss my parents. I miss having that rock in my life, knowing that my parents are there for me. I want to know you, Mrs. Dupree. I want you in our lives.”

  “Well, the first thing you need to do is stop calling me Mrs. Dupree,” I said, smiling. “It’s Mama.”

  “Mama,” Jules said, seeming to try it out. “I think I can do that, Mama. That feels good.”

  I smiled. My son had found a sweet girl to share his life with.

  I heard a quiet commotion on the other end of the line.

  “Marshall, I think you should—”

  “Is that her? Are you talking to her? I thought we’d agreed —”

  “I think it’s important, honey. It’s your mother—”

  “She hasn’t been, not for a long time. Let me—”

  “No, Marshall, please—”

  “Hello?�
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  My breath hitched. My son, a man grown. His voice was deep, rich, but suspicious. It cut me.

  “Hey, sugar,” I said, my lips trembling. “It’s Mama.”

  “Are you sure?” he asked. “You haven’t been my Mama for a very long time.”

  I heard Jules say something in a horrified tone in the background, but I only had ears for my son. I deserved to be punished. He was right. I hadn’t been his Mama in a long time.

  “I would like to be there for you again, sugar,” I said. “I would like to go to your wedding. I would like to meet your wife.”

  “I can’t even remember what you look like,” Marshall said. “The woman I’m preparing to spend the rest of my life with sent you that invitation. Consider it null and void. She doesn’t understand what you are.”

  I choked back a sob. “Marshall, baby, please….”

  “I begged you like this,” he said. “Remember? When you were leaving me? That’s my earliest fucking memory.”

  “Watch your mouth, son,” I said automatically, a kneejerk reaction.

  “You don’t get to tell me what to do,” he said. “And you never get to call me son.”

  The call cut off and I was certain that he’d hung up on me. I let the wedding invitation drop into the trash and poured myself a drink. At least I wouldn’t have to worry about leaving the nightclub now. That was one thing.

  Whiskey and salt tears. That was my cocktail of choice in the days that followed that phone call.

  “Wanda?”

  Pitt’s concerned voice dragged me back to the present.

  “I was just thinking about calling my son,” I said, smiling and holding the paper up. My hand was shaking, so I lowered it again. “Thank you for this opportunity.”

  “You have the time,” Pitt said. “Think about spending some of it knitting your family back together.”

  “I will,” I vowed.

  Marlee was waiting for me outside. “Ready?” she asked me.

  “As I can be,” I said.

  We walked to the common room for our weekly AA meeting. We helped set up the last of the chairs as everyone converged. Desiree sat on one side of me and Marlee on the other. They’d been doing that ever since the first meeting.

  “I’m Karla, and alcoholic,” Karla said from the podium.

  “Hi, Karla,” we all answered.

  She went through the twelve steps, inmates reciting them perfectly, word for word. I was swept up in the spirit of them—admit, believe, decide, search, admit, be ready, ask, list, amend, take, seek, awake. It was a system, a practice, a prayer.

  “And now is the time for sharing,” Karla said. “Who would like to share?”

  Like always, everyone’s hands shot up. I took a deep breath, clutched the piece of paper with my son’s phone number on it, and raised my hand.

  “Wanda,” Karla said, beaming. “Come on up.”

  There was a ripple of excitement through the group that I thought I could understand. Week after week, they heard the same stories. Everyone knew that I’d been attending without sharing, and now they’d hear my story. I just hoped I knew how to tell it correctly, not leaving anything out.

  “My name is Wanda,” I said. “And I’m an alcoholic.”

  “Hi, Wanda,” everyone said, and Marlee raised a big cheer from the back of the crowd.

  I smiled briefly and looked down at the podium. It was a strange thing to belong, but wonderful. I felt like anything was possible now.

  “I’ve lived a strange life,” I began, and hesitated.

  “Amen!”

  “I found out right around the time when I was supposed to be getting into high school that I could get whatever I wanted if I used my body,” I said, “offering it to men.”

  There had even been a day when I realized the power of my big tits and little waist, the power of a lingering glance. I’d felt giddy at this knowledge, excited by the fact that I could move mountains with a flick of my hair, a sway of my hips.

  “The first trick I turned was for cash and alcohol,” I said. “And alcohol stayed with me ever since. It was my constant. I could always lean on it, always celebrate with it, always lament with it.”

  I raised my eyes from the surface of the podium to the crowd. Some inmates were nodding emphatically while others looked pensive, biting at their lips or nails.

  “I didn’t even stop drinking when one of my johns knocked me up,” I continued. “I knew there was a life growing inside of me. I knew that booze would harm it. I just didn’t give a shit. To me, there was nothing more important than the bottle—nothing. I didn’t even know which of my johns was the father to my son.”

  I remembered the feeling of him kicking inside of me even as I leaned against the outside of my apartment building, trolling for a payday. I’d left home at an early age—home hadn’t been conducive to what I really wanted to be doing. I’d always had ideas of what I should be doing, and they never jived with my parents’. Looking to avoid conflict—and gain freedom—I left and found a gang of girls to run around with, shacking up in a hovel with them whenever I wasn’t working hotels or bars or the streets. They all encouraged me to work with their pimps, but I insisted on being my own boss. There was no man who could tell me what to do.

  “When my son was born, I didn’t harbor any illusions,” I said. “I knew that I could keep turning tricks and raise him and party as hard as I was. I would sooner miss paying my portion of the rent than not have money to buy a bottle of whiskey. I was managing, though, managing myself, managing my life. There was always a girl at the apartment, so there was someone to look after Marshall—my baby—when I was out working. Or in drinking, too drunk to handle him. Even after creating that life, alcohol was always number one. Always.”

  God, he’d cry for me, holding up those chubby little arms, tears and snot running down his face as he wailed. I’d fuss at him, hold him, kiss him, scream at him, but it made no difference. He was always crying, always whining for something I apparently wasn’t giving him. It made me feel like I was constantly doing wrong, and I loathed it.

  “Everything was going about as well as it could until one of the other girl’s pimps finally caught wind of me,” I said. “There were plenty of pimps in that area, and they had plenty of girls to keep track of. But there’d been rumors about a girl working on her own, managing herself, and that just didn’t sit well with the pimps. When one of them tracked me down and told me that I was working for him, I laughed in his face. I was drunk. I was always drunk, and I didn’t understand the danger I was in. Alcohol made me not care about anything.”

  He’d beaten the shit out of me. Just for laughing. He told me that as soon as my face healed, I was working for him. I wanted to tell him like hell I was, but my mouth was so swollen I couldn’t say anything at all. Even Marshall hadn’t recognized me when I finally found my way home. He cried and cried for his Mama even though I was right there, holding him in one arm and a cold bottle of vodka in the other, using it to ice my bruises and cuts.

  As soon as my face healed, I decided to go deeper into the city and start something new. When I told the other girls, they just laughed at me. Nobody had ever had a female pimp before, but I thought it made sense. I could still turn tricks if I felt like it, but I’d manage girls a better way. I wouldn’t beat them, and I’d have the understanding of working on the streets to light my path, influence my decisions. That was the problem with pimps, I decided. They didn’t understand what it was to hustle out there. They could be much better—be better managers, for one—if they understood what we went through.

  “I decided that I wanted to make more money and open a brothel, basically,” I said. “Back then, I just wanted to recruit a bunch of girls and act as their pimp. The brothel idea wasn’t all the way formulated yet. But I wanted to move deeper into the heart of New York City, and I had to get out of the neighborhood unless I wanted to work for the pimp—which I didn’t. All I packed was a handful of slutty outfits, what booze I
hadn’t gulped down, and my makeup. I convinced one of the prostitutes in my apartment to watch over my son. I told her I’d send her money for him. Just like that, I left him. I didn’t think anything of it. He was five, by then. He was five and I was barely twenty.”

  My last memory of him was of him weeping, holding his arms up to me like he’d done when he was still a baby. It should’ve melted my heart, but it didn’t. I’d been drinking, as usual, and it only irritated me. Why the fuck did he cry all the time? I wasn’t that special. He needed to grow the fuck up. Those thoughts filled my mind at the time, and I left without so much as a hug.

  I had more than enough money for a bus ride downtown, and I walked the streets. Men knew what I was and stared. I eyed them back, looking them up and down, inviting them to look. I turned three tricks right away in alleys, marveling at the way my cash was stacking up, when I saw it. The nightclub.

  “I saw this building and fell in love with it,” I said. “It was the second thing I’d ever loved. The first was the bottle. My son—I didn’t even love my son. He was just a bother. That’s how I felt about it then. God, I feel like shit admitting it. But I up and left him with practically a stranger. I didn’t even know her last name. But all thought of Marshall left me when I saw that building, if I’d even been thinking of him to begin with. I saw nothing but possibility. I could really make something out of that building, make a legitimate business that would shield my pimping from the authorities. It was for sale, so I found a payphone right away and dialed the number listed.”

  That had been a strange conversation, and my first contact with Don Costa. He’d been younger back then, of course, and not yet the Don.

  “Costa,” is how he answered the phone, breezily, like he didn’t give a shit who was on the other end of the line. And he didn’t have to. He was a Costa—an heir in a long line of powerful mobsters.

  “Hello,” I said, lowering my voice to the sexy tone I usually reserved for turning tricks. “I saw this number on a for sale sign of a building I’m interested in purchasing.”

  “What’s your name, doll?”

  “You can call me Mama,” I said. It was what I had all my johns call me. It was a hell of a lot sexier than Wanda Dupree.