Every Moment with You_Redeeming Love

by J. E. Parker

  My heart rate accelerated and my breaths came faster.

  Don’t pass out. Don’t pass out. Don’t pass out.

  Hendrix’s face hardened again. “Is it about another man?”

  I blinked. Once. Twice. Completely shocked, I momentarily forgot about the vicious truth that was seconds away from spilling from my lips. “What? Of course not!”

  He dropped his arms and clenched his hands into fists. “You sure?”

  Was he nuts? “Of course, I’m sure! Why would you even ask me that? You should know better!” I wasn’t mad. More like confused.

  He shook his head and exhaled. “It’s nothing. Just something Grandmama said.”

  Oh, Lord. I could only imagine. “And what did she say?”

  “Just something about Ty Jacobs wanting to date you.”

  I couldn’t help it, I laughed. Hard. “Are we sure you aren’t the one with the head injury. Ty Jacobs? Seriously, Hendrix? I’d rather play in traffic than go anywhere with that dickhead.”

  Hendrix didn’t laugh. “What’s the secret?”

  I stilled, and the panic came flooding back. “C-can we sit down?” I stuttered as I pointed towards the bed. "I need to sit down." Or else I’m going to end up on the floor, I mentally added.

  I didn’t wait for him to reply before I moved.

  Sitting on the edge of the bed, I waited for him to join me. When he did, I looked up sideways at him through fear filled eyes. Heart heavy, I fisted my hands in my lap. I didn’t know how to start. “There are some things I need to tell you.” Breathe, Maddie. “Some things you need to know. But I’m scared to tell you.”

  Sitting up straight, Hendrix turned to face me, and with a calm voice, asked, “Why would you be scared? You know you can tell me anything.”

  If he only knew…

  Just be honest. "Because now that I know you still love me, I'm terrified that once I tell you, you'll end up hating me. And I…" Dang, it! "I can’t lose you again, Hendrix. If you walk away again, it’ll kill me.”

  Placing his hands on my waist, he swiftly picked me up and sat me on his lap. He turned my face towards his and looked at me with determined eyes. “I’m not going to leave you. Never again.” Hendrix leaned in and pressed his lips against mine. My heart fluttered and for just a tiny moment, all the worry, all the hurt, all the dang memories disappeared. When he pulled his mouth away from mine, I nearly screamed in protest. “It doesn’t matter what your secret it, I swear on my goddamn life—I will not leave you, Maddie.”

  His words broke me.

  Unable to hold them back any longer, I let the violent tears flow. Sob after sob racked my body as everything came pouring out of me in a torrent of mixed emotions. Fear. Relief. Anger. Happiness. Trepidation. Remorse. I felt like I was breaking in half as over six years of up and downs—mostly downs—rushed to the surface and spilled from my aching chest.

  “I’m so sorry, Hendrix.” And I was. So, so sorry. "I just want you to love me forever, and I'm scared you'll walk away. Scared you'll hate me."

  Hendrix kissed my temple before lying me flat on my back. Climbing over me, he wiped away my tears. "Shh. There's nothing you could do that would make you hate you." Yes, there was. "My heart belongs to you, pretty girl. Always has. Always fucking will."

  I wrapped my arms around his neck and brought my lips to meet his. Once. Twice. Thrice. I needed him closer, needed this moment, because after I told him… I wasn’t sure what would happen. “Hendrix…”

  Burying his face in the side of my neck, he inhaled. "Goddamn, I missed your scent." He nipped at my pulse point, and I yelped. He chuckled before running his tongue over my flesh to soothe the stinging ache. “Need you to understand something, baby.” Moving to the other side of my throat, he repeated the same move. “Doesn’t matter what’s happened in the past,” both of his hands landed on the outsides of my thighs, "it's not going to change a thing between us." Yes, it would. "Long as your safe, and as long as some man isn't on his way here, hell-bent on taking you away from me, then it can wait."

  “Hendrix—”

  He squeezed my thighs. “No, Maddie. It's obvious you aren't ready to tell me, so we're going to wait." His hands slid to the insides of my thighs. "Because right now, I've got more important shit to do."

  My heart stilled.

  My lungs froze.

  “Like what?”

  With an arrogant smile crossing his gorgeous face, he yanked my thighs open. “Like shoving my cock so deep inside of you that you remember exactly who the fuck you belong too.”

  Oh.

  My.

  God.

  Jumping off the bed, he ripped his sweatpants down in one smooth movement. His big cock bobbed in the air, and I lost the ability to breathe. Friggin' Christ, I'd forgotten how big it was. Taking the throbbing length in his hand, he stroked himself.

  My mouth fell open.

  “You ready for me, Maddie?” Unable to speak, I nodded once. “Then get over here and show my cock how much you missed it.”

  Pushing up onto my hands and knees, I moved.

  Maddie

  My eyes never left’s Hendrix’s as I slid off the bed and dropped to my knees. “Is this what you want?” I removed my shirt and tossed it across the room. His eyes darkened as he stared down at me. Rubbing my hands up his muscular thighs, I licked my lips, giving him a show. “You going to answer me, handsome?”

  His abs clenched and his cock bobbed as he ran a hand through my hair. I closed my eyes at the contact. “Your head feeling alright?”

  I nodded. “Doesn’t hurt at all.”

  His fingertips slid down the side of my face. “Good.” He placed his thumb on my bottom lip and pulled down. “Now suck my cock, Maddie.”

  My heart slammed against my rib cage as I took him in my hand. He was scorching hot but silky soft. Closing my hand around his girth, I ran my palm and fingers up and down his length. Hendrix hissed, and I felt myself grow slick. I leaned closer and said a silent prayer. Please don’t let me screw this up. Squeezing him tight, I licked my lips and opened my mouth.

  The moment my tongue touched his throbbing cock, Hendrix cursed. “Goddamn it!” He yelled, softly grabbing fistfuls of my hair. “Suck, Maddie.” Unable to disobey him—and not wanting too—I tightened my lips, took him deep into my throat, and sucked as hard as I could.

  I gagged on the first stroke.

  He was too friggin’ big!

  Continuing to stroke him with my right hand, I pulled back and let him slip free from my lips. I was almost panting as I waited for a good amount of saliva to pool in my mouth. Once I had enough, I took him in my mouth again. He groaned—long and loud—and I hummed around his cock in response.

  “Good fucking girl,” he hissed as he slowly began to pump his hips. I tasted salt, and that only spurred me on. Softly—because I had no idea what the hell I was doing—I took his balls in my left hand. I didn’t know what to do so I just held them as I continued sucking and stroking him.

  My entire body trembled with need.

  Pulling him out of my mouth, I ran my tongue along the bulging vein on the underside of his cock. He grunted, and I smiled. I took his head back into my mouth, twisting my head from side to side as I twirled my tongue around the thick ridge of his crown. “Fuck,” he yelled, lightly tugging on my hair.

  I tightened my lips, sucked harder, and took him deeper.

  He began to pant.

  But then he ripped himself away from me.

  Asshole! I smacked his thigh. “Give it back!” I had just started to get the hang of it before he put a stop to the entire thing.

  Jaw clenched, he shook his head. "No goddamn way," he ran his hands through his hair, "no goddamn way am I finishing in your mouth." Sliding his hands under my arms, he picked me up and laid me back on the bed. “Only place I’m coming is your tight little pussy.”

  I whimpered as he climbed on the bed. “Spread your goddamn legs,” he hissed, breathing harshly. I opened my leg
s and let my knees fall to the sides. Hendrix took himself back in his hand and began to pump. “Damn, Maddie. First time I saw you spread out for me the way you are now, I thought you were the most beautiful thing I’d ever seen.” His eyes dropped to my center. “But now… Goddamn, baby.” He shook his head. “I don’t even know where to start.”

  My hand moved of its own volition. Down my chest and over my stomach it went before stopping at the apex of my thighs. “How about you start here,” I said, spreading myself open for him. Any sense of modesty was gone. As in, long friggin’ gone.

  “You want me to eat your pussy?” Still a dirty talker I see. I nodded once. “Then ask me, baby.”

  Crap.

  Gathering all the courage that I could muster, I smiled at him. “I’m not asking you to do anything.” I paused. “I’m telling you to taste me, Hendrix.” I couldn't believe the filthy words that rolled off my tongue. I should've been mortified, but I was too needy to pay any attention to anything other than my desire for the man crouched between my legs.

  Hendrix licked his lips. "Ask, and you shall receive, pretty girl.”

  He didn’t even give me a chance to brace for the first touch of his tongue against my sensitive flesh. The moment his mouth touched my pussy, he went into a frenzy.

  Lips. Teeth. Tongue.

  Lord almighty it feels so good!

  My hips flew off the bed, and he slammed them back to the mattress before wrapping his huge arms around my shaking thighs to keep me in place.

  I lost all sense of time as I thrashed about, chasing an explosion that I’d been given a taste of six years ago. “Hendrix!” I screamed, feeling the pressure in my belly build. “I’m almost there!”

  Gripping his thick hair in my fingers, I screamed again.

  He didn’t remove his lips as he commanded, “Come, Maddie!”

  My entire body tensed as the rubber band deep inside my belly snapped and mind-numbing pleasure consumed me. A myriad of colors flashed before my eyes, and I became weightless as I dove head first into pure bliss.

  Hendrix

  I was a bastard.

  A total fucking bastard.

  Maddie was hurt. She had a goddamn skull fracture for God's sake, and yet I was seconds away from sinking my cock into her. Shit. I knew I shouldn't do it, but I couldn't find the strength to stop. Not with her spread out on my bed, her eyes closed in ecstasy, and a satiated grin covering her beautiful face.

  In my defense though, I hadn’t started this shit with the intention of fucking her. Swear to God I hadn’t. But when Maddie started to fall apart in my arms over whatever secret she’s hiding, I had to find a way to distract her. It was obvious that me repeatedly assuring her that I wouldn’t leave wasn’t working.

  I had to do something.

  Sex just happened to be that something.

  See? Complete bastard.

  I tickled the inside of her thigh. “You back, pretty girl?”

  Her eyes slowly opened. “Yeah.”

  "Head still okay?" She nodded, and I wrapped my hand around my aching cock as I moved between her thighs. "Put your arms over your head and brace your hands on the headboard." For once, she didn't argue with me before doing as I said. “Good girl.” Lifting her legs, I wrapped them around my hips and positioned the head of my cock at her entrance. “You ready?”

  Maddie moaned. “Would you shut up and fuck me already?”

  I smiled. Digging my fingers into her thighs, I slid the barest inch inside. Maddie jerked, and it took every ounce of control I possessed not to slam my entire cock into her. “You on birth control, baby?”

  Eyes closed, she shook her head back and forth. “Haven’t,” she blew out a breath and arched her back trying to take me deeper, “needed it.”

  My balls swelled at the confession. “Good.” Maddie’s eyes shot open. She was a smart cookie. There was no doubt in my mind that she knew exactly what my intentions were. I took one last breath and slammed home.

  Her head flew back, and she screamed. “Hendrix!”

  I stilled, fighting for breath. She was so goddamn tight! “Did I hurt you?” I asked, panting.

  Maddie shook her head. “No.” Wiggling her hips, she begged, “please move.”

  Flexing my stomach muscles, I fought for control. “Give me a minute.”

  She wiggled some more. "No!" She gasped for breath, and her entire body shook. "Move," she pulled her hands away from the headboard and wrapped her fingers around my wrists, "or else I'll find someone who will."

  It was an empty threat. I knew that. But still…

  Ripping my right wrist free, I placed my hand on her throat. Then I squeezed. My grip wasn't tight enough to cut off her air supply, but it was enough to let her know I wasn't playing around. "You ever say something like that to me again, and you’ll regret it.” I pulled my hips back before slamming back into her. “No one,” I said, repeating the move, “touches my pussy,” I did it again, “except for me." My thrusts grew harder, and her eyes slid close in pleasure. "Understand, Maddie?”

  When she didn’t answer me, I pulled my cock out of her.

  Her eyes back flew open—again— and her face fell. “Hendrix!” She screamed in frustration. “Please!”

  Dropping to my elbows, I pressed my chest to hers. “Answer my question, and I’ll give it back.” Her mouth worked—open and close, open and close—but no sound came out. “Answer me.”

  I slid the head of my cock into her pussy while making sure to press down on her clit. Her head thrashed back and forth again. “Yes!” She finally answered. “I understand!” She raised her arms and grabbed fistfuls of my hair. “Now would you please fuck me?”

  Still holding her throat, I leaned down and pressed a kiss to the underside of her jaw. "Ask, and you shall receive, pretty girl." I slammed into her as hard as I could.

  She screamed and tugged at my hair. “Harder!’

  I groaned again. “Jesus, baby,” I said as I jackhammered into her as fast, as hard, and as deep as I could.

  Maddie slid her hands down my back and buried her sharp nails in the flesh of my ass. “Please go harder.”

  “Drop your arms.” She did, and I released her throat in return.

  Leaning back, I lifted her legs and placed them over my shoulders. The change in position made her tighter but allowed me to go deeper. Feeling sweat drip down my neck and back, I gave her everything I had.

  My spine tingled and my balls clenched.

  Shit.

  Releasing the iron clad hold I had on one of her legs, I pressed my thumb against her clit. I started with slow circles but increased the speed and pressure with each pass. "Hendrix," Maddie moaned as her pussy began to flutter, "I'm going to come…" Her voice trailed off, and her entire body stiffened. Keeping the pressure on her clit, I pushed her knees to her chest.

  That was all it took.

  She screamed so loud my ears rang.

  “God fucking damn it!” I couldn’t hold off any longer. Pressing myself as deep as I could, I emptied my balls into Maddie’s unprotected pussy. My vision flashed white, and I swear to Christ I saw stars.

  I have no idea how many minutes—could’ve been hours—passed before I recovered. When my brain started to function again and the ability to see and hear returned, I felt and heard Maddie giggling beneath me.

  Removing my face from her neck, I looked down at her, and for the first time since everything spiraled out of control all those years ago, I breathed a sigh of relief. “What are you laughing at?”

  She bit her bottom lip and smirked. "Lost you there for a minute, handsome. Was sort of worried I'd broke you or something."

  Smartass. I couldn’t stop myself from dipping my head and kissing her lips. “Is that right?” She hummed in response.

  I slid my hand up her side, stopping at the place between her hip and lowers ribs where she was the most ticklish. She jerked as I moved my fingers back and forth in short, quick strokes. "Stop!" She squealed in between bouts
of laughter. "Friggin' stop it!"

  I didn't stop. If anything, my fingers moved faster. "What are you going to do if I don't?" She arched her neck and did her best to move away from me.

  Her little hands clutched my biceps. “Stop it or I’ll never,” she gasped for breath, “touch your cock again,” she laughed harder, “I don’t care how big it is or how good it feels.”

  “Yeah?” I moved my free hand to the other side of her body and tickled that side too. She jerked once more, completely unseating my cock.

  Scrunching her nose up, she shuddered. “You could have pulled out you know.” She gagged. “Sex is disgusting.”

  Fucking drama queen.

  Rolling my eyes, I got up from the bed and pointed at her, “Don’t you fucking move.” She stuck out her tongue in response. “Mature, Maddie. Real mature.”

  She flung her arm in the direction of the bathroom. “Get me a washcloth or something. Pleaseeee. I’d get it myself, but I can’t walk—thanks to you. My dang legs are still numb!”

  “I’ll be back in a minute. Seriously Maddie, stay put." She didn't reply, and I walked to the bathroom that was connected to my room. After wetting a washcloth with warm water, I grabbed her pain pills from the medicine cabinet. When I walked back into my room, I was both relieved and surprised to see that the little shit had listened. She hadn't moved an inch.

  It’s a fucking miracle.

  I tapped her knee with my hand. "Spread your legs." She did, and I cleaned up the mess that we'd both created. “How’s your head?”

  She rubbed a hand down the side of her face before responding. “It’s okay. My discharge sheet says the pain should only last seven to ten days and it’s been eight. I guess it’s healing fine.”

  “No more headaches?”

  She shrugged. “Only when I get upset.”

  Tossing the washcloth into the corner, I climbed onto the bed beside her. Opening the brown bottle, I handed her a lone pill before handing her a water bottle from the nightstand. Tossing the pill into her mouth, she removed the lid from the bottle and pressed it against her lips. I barely held back a groan at the sight. I smiled as Maddie drained the entire bottle before screwing the lid back on. “Thirsty?”