Lea's Menage Diary

by Kris Cook

  Lea’s Ménage Diary

  © 2012 Kris Cook

  Published by Forbidden Passion Press

  kris@kriscook.net

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  When Lea’s fiancé breaks off their engagement, she is sad but actually more relieved. Life with him would’ve been nice but boring—especially in bed. But what options are there for her, a single woman, size sixteen, in the dating pool?

  Her cousin, Mia, plans a special night out for Lea to get her out of the dumps. The instant they arrive at the BDSM club, she bumps into Kane and Reed, twin brother Masters who are mouth-watering, muscled, male perfection. Shocked at their advances but ready for adventure, Lea jumps at their offer to train her as a sub.

  It’s much more than the cuffs and ropes that bind her submissive heart to the brothers. Can Kane and Reed prove to Lea that they love her and her curves, or will she refuse to surrender all, holding onto a false body-image that destroys her only chance at love?

  Copyright 2012 Kris Cook

  Edited by Chloe Vale

  Cover Art: Kendra Egert

  Formatting: Chloe Vale

  ePub ISBN: 978-1-937249-01-4

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  Table of Contents

  Feb 9th

  Feb 10th

  Feb 11th

  Feb 12th

  Feb 13th

  Feb 14th

  Feb 19th

  Booklist

  About the Author

  Feb 9th

  Jerry just left.

  Sobbing, he ended our relationship. Me? I couldn’t even muster a single tear. Isn’t that weird?

  We’ve been together for six years and engaged for four. We’d actually set a wedding date last November. Even then, I didn’t jump for joy. Instead, I actually dreaded June, the month of our pending nuptials. I’d felt so guilty about it but thought it was my own version of illogical cold feet. But deep down, I knew better.

  Even though Jerry is a good man and will make some woman very happy one day, life for me with him would’ve been so dull, I would’ve ended up resenting him.

  I’m actually glad he ended things between us because I know I never would have done it no matter how gray I thought our future would be together.

  I guess at my very core, I’m a coward.

  I would’ve rather kept letting the clock tick away until I was in a white gown headed down the aisle than confront him. I don’t deal well with conflict. I turn into a frozen icicle whenever things get tough. I hate that about myself, but I just can’t help it. There are two kinds of people in the world: the takers and the givers. I fall into the later category, God help me.

  But what am I to do now? I haven’t been in the dating scene in years. Being twenty-six and size sixteen, I can’t imagine I’m going to see a bunch of prospects lining up for a chance to date me.

  Probably not a good idea to be eating this chocolate ice cream, but damn it, I just got dumped.

  I can start working on getting into my dating weight tomorrow.

  Feb 10th

  My cousin Mia came over this afternoon. Sometimes I wonder if she’s psychic. She always shows up whenever I need someone to talk to.

  She looks amazing. I was still in my pajamas, still numb, and still trying to figure out what I want to do with the rest of my life.

  I’ve never seen her happier. She’s got a man in her life that clearly is responsible for her turnaround.

  Last time I saw Mia, she was a mess, worrying about her master’s thesis and a ton of other things. She was single and hating it. Now, she and her guy have moved in together. I’m thrilled for her.

  Mia is coming back to get me tonight. She’s taking me to her boyfriend’s club, The Cell. I’ve heard about it before. Apparently, it’s a club that caters to a very wealthy clientele who like their kink served up in such a way that their Versace bags and Manolo shoes don’t seem out of place. Damn, what was I thinking when I said “yes” to Mia? Obviously I wasn’t thinking at all. I am curious, though. Very.

  My past sex life with Jerry was blah at best. I’ve never had an orgasm. Even masturbating, I just can’t seem to get there. I’d thought about asking him to mix it up in the bedroom with some play and experimentation, but never did. I knew how he would feel about it.

  Jerry’s life has always been and always will be about numbers. That’s why he is in the perfect job. He’s an actuary for a major insurance company.

  I’m looking in my closet for something that will not be hideous to wear tonight, which is sending me into a complete funk. Even though I’m only supposed to get a tour of the club with Mia and Lex, I still want to look good. Is that even possible with the crap I have? Probably not.

  Maybe I should call Mia and cancel.

  ****

  I called Mia. Of course, she wasn’t about to let me back out of it. When I told her I didn’t have anything appropriate to wear, she came up with an apparent solution. “I’ve got the answer, Lea. I’ll text you an address. Meet me there in twenty minutes. Viv can fix you up.”

  And, per normal, I gave in to her demand. Why don’t I have any backbone? I’m sitting in my car outside this store that caters to the kinky set, waiting for Mia and completely dreading trying on clothes.

  ****

  I am totally spent and still vibrating from what happened tonight at The Cell. Wait—I want to get everything down so I won’t forget it.

  Let me go back to the outfit that Mia and the store’s owner, Vivian, picked for me to wear. I have avoided anything white for years, preferring dark colors. But when I looked at myself in the full-length mirror in the white gown they’d chosen, I was actually pleased with my reflection, which almost reminded me of a fairy-tale princess.

  Mia’s eyes were wide with apparent awe. “You look amazing, Lea. Don’t you agree, Viv?”

  “I certainly do agree,” she stated. Vivian looked to be in her late twenties. Her dark bob haircut was stunning, as was the ink on both her arms. She seemed like a woman who could hold her own just about anywhere.

  “Compared to who?” I asked, pointing at Mia in her black vinyl teddy. “I’m betting the second your man gets an eyeful of you, he’s going to cancel my tour and take you back home for some hot sex.”

  Mia laughed. “Actually, he’s set up a scene for us at midnight.”

  “What’s a scene?” I asked, realizing I was headed into a whole new realm I knew little about.

  “Lex worked in the movie industry for a brief stint before he opened his club. He loves creating new realms for his customers. There are lots of rooms that are set to bend reality for the participants. We’re going to have fun in the Villain and Superhero room tonight. We were a hit when he played the criminal and bested me. I wore a red cape and everything. Tonight, I get to be the villain, but he’s still going to win. He always does.” Her lips curled up into a sweet grin.

  “What do you mean ‘you were a hit’ in that room?” I felt my cheeks get hot, thinking about Mia being so wild and open. She definitely had changed, and how. “People can watch?”

  Mia nodded.

  Viv laughed. “Lea, you’re going to be quite the hit tonight yourself.”

  I didn’t believe her, but smiled broadly. “No way. Mia. This is only a tour, right?”

  My cousin g
iggled, but didn’t answer. She’d always been a bit of a jokester, even when we were younger. I was certain she was just teasing me. There was no way I would ever be intimate with a guy tonight, let alone in front of people.

  Lex had sent a limo for Mia and me. I was wringing my hands the entire drive, wishing I had figured a way out of this whole evening. I would’ve much rather been watching the movie with Leonardo and Kate that never failed to make me cry than headed off to The Cell.

  When the limo stopped by the side door entrance, my heart was pounding hard in my chest.

  Mia got out of the vehicle like a giddy schoolgirl. “There he is.” She pointed to a very handsome man standing to the side of the door. He wore a jacket, jeans, and boots. She’d told me he’d worked in the movie industry, but I had no idea that he was leading-man material. He was no pretty boy, but had a manly, rugged look that could’ve landed him many lucrative roles. No wonder she was so gone on Lex. He was quite the sexy hunk. “Come on, Lea. I can’t wait for you to meet my guy.”

  She didn’t wait for me, but actually ran into his arms.

  Lex hoisted her up and spun her around. “How’s my little sub tonight?”

  “I’m really excited to show you off to my cousin.”

  He lowered her down to her feet and extended his large hand to me. “You must be Lea.”

  “In the flesh. Nice to meet you, Lex.”

  He reached out, and his large hand engulfed mine, making me feel tiny. “Same here. Mia’s told me a lot about you.”

  I wondered how much she’d shared with him. “She’s told me quite a bit about you, too. You’re the reason for the permanent smile on her face, I assume.”

  He placed his arm around Mia. “She’s done the same for me, Lea, and more.”

  Mia leaned into him, and I could clearly see the utter joy and happiness on her face. These two were completely in love, not the lukewarm, lackluster fondness I’d felt with Jerry, but the head-over-hells, heart racing, can’t-live-without-you, wild and crazy kind of love. My own heart ached for that, but I doubted I could ever feel such a thing with anyone. Hell, I had trouble feeling anything at all. Whenever I did reach into my emotions, they were always muddled and hard to explain. Often, I felt cut off from my own self.

  “Shall I show you what I’ve set up for you, Lea?”

  Set up? He must be talking about the tour. I choked out, “Yes. I’m ready. Lead on.”

  We walked into the reception area.

  “Give me a consent form,” Lex said to the woman sitting behind the desk. She nodded and pushed over a pen and some papers attached to a clipboard. He wrote on the last page and then handed it to me. “Lea, read this and sign it for me please.”

  Though he’d said “please,” it didn’t sound like a request but more of a command. I found his demeanor odd, but somehow comforting. Still, I wondered what kind of place required a person to have to sign release forms. It wasn’t like I was going to be bungee jumping tonight. Or was I?

  I skimmed the contents, which caused my hands to shake. Along with the legalese of the release, it had some information on what a new client could expect. There were some Dos and Don’ts, and more. Being a single woman here apparently did have its privileges. No one was allowed to approach me without the permission of the Dom acting as my guide in the club. Lex had put his name in that field. Strangely, I felt relieved to sign the thing.

  After I signed my name and dated it, I gave it back to Lex.

  He looked it over and nodded. “Perfect.”

  “Where are we going, Master?” Mia asked.

  I was shocked to hear her call him that, but in an odd way, it did seem appropriate.

  “To one of the training rooms. Reed and Kane are waiting for Lea.”

  “What?” I squeaked out.

  Lex grinned. “Not a what, Lea, but a couple of whos.”

  I frowned. “Who then?”

  “You’ll be perfectly fine with the twins,” Mia chimed in.

  My cheeks burned hot. I wasn’t ready to meet any new men, but it was clear that Mia had put Lex up to finding me a date. Apparently, I was being given a choice between two. Or was I? Did they mean for me to jump into this hot pool with both feet and into my first ménage?

  My old doubts almost shoved aside my timid nature and allowed me to voice my concerns—almost.

  Lex folded the papers and stuffed them into his jacket, handing the clipboard back to the receptionist. “Let’s get on with your tour, little lady.” He put his left arm around Mia and his right arm around me.

  I walked beside Lex and Mia with my lips pressed firmly together, shaking like a leaf but also so very curious. My emotions, normally buried deep in my psyche, were clear and powerful, jumping with a crosswise mix of cautious anxiety and wicked eagerness.

  We went down several hallways and got a glimpse of the “scenes” Mia had informed me about earlier. The very atmosphere of The Cell was thick with sexuality, and its patrons were both beautiful and dangerous looking. I felt totally out of place, and my apprehension grew.

  We came to a hallway with only four doors but no windows looking into the rooms. They were marked with the letters “A,” “B,” “C,” and “D.” Lex led us to the door with the letter “C” on it.

  He knocked, and oddly, I felt a tingle spread through me. I wondered why I was reacting this way.

  The door opened, and two of the sexiest men I’d ever seen in my life stood there.

  The one with the long, dark hair smiled, causing me to go weak in the knees. “You must be, Lea.” He extended his hand for me to take. I did. He squeezed my hand, and a hot jolt shot up my arm from where we touched. “I’m Reed. Welcome.”

  He wore a tight, black sleeveless T-shirt that accentuated the thick muscles it covered. His biceps bulged and were decorated with gorgeous ink. The left tat was an intricate design that looked tribal to me. The right tat was of a formidable-looking dagger that was softened a bit by the wings it was on top of. His eyes were light brown and surrounded by the thickest lashes I’d ever seen on any man.

  “Are you going to hold hands all night or are we going to get started on the training?” His twin asked. Except for his shaved head and different tats, the two Doms were identical.

  “S-sorry...I-I’m new to this,” I stuttered, jerking my hand back.

  “Stop it, Kane. Don’t scare the girl away,” Reed interjected.

  Kane shrugged and then reached out and cupped my chin, causing my belly to flip-flop. “I don’t think she’ll bolt, bro. I can see excitement in her eyes.”

  I was about to voice my denial when a man came up behind us. This guy was taller than the other three by a fraction of an inch. His chin had one of those sexy indentions. I wondered where the average-looking male members of The Cell were milling. I sure hadn’t seen any.

  “Boss, we have a problem,” the man told Lex.

  Mia’s boyfriend frowned. “What’s the problem, Trip?”

  “Steve didn’t show up for the new member’s seminar. We’ve got six couples who have been waiting on him for twenty minutes.”

  “Fuck.” Lex shook his head. “If Steve shows up, fire him on the spot.”

  “Sure thing, but what do we do about the new members?” the man named Trip asked. “I’ve got Kevin talking to them right now, but he’s got to leave to take care of his baby.”

  Lex rubbed his chin. “Right. His wife is a nurse who works nights. Damn. I set up a scene for Mia and me that I was looking forward to.” He turned to Mia, who was frowning. “Sorry, pet. I guess we’ll have to wait on—”

  “Hold on, Lex.” Kane let go of my chin. “I’ll do the seminar. You and your sub deserve a night together. You’ve been working way too hard. Besides, Reed can handle this little morsel just fine for her first lesson.”

  Trip smiled. “That would be great, buddy.”

  “Thanks, Kane.” Lex pulled Mia in tight and kissed her cheek. “We’ve been looking forward to this for a while.”

  �
��It’s nothing, Lex. Happy to do it.” Kane turned back to me. “You’re in good hands, Lea.”

  I wondered if he was jumping at the chance to leave to avoid spending time with me. With his looks, he could easily bag more than his share of model types, and the same was true for Reed. I didn’t want to be some kind of task to fulfill for Reed just because his boss asked it.

  I turned to Lex and Mia. “I think I’m done here. I appreciate what you are trying to do for me, but I’m fine. People get unengaged all the time. I’ll head home and let you two have your fun—”

  “Lea,” Reed said softly, making my insides melt. “Stay.”

  I looked in his piercing eyes and could not refuse him. “Okay. If you’re sure you don’t mind.”

  He stroked my hair, and heat shot through me. “My pleasure, doll.”

  “Lead the way to the new members, Trip.” Kane followed after the man and was gone.

  “Here’s her info, Reed.” Lex handed him my paperwork. “Cross off my name and put your name down for her guide.”

  “This ain’t my first rodeo, boss. She’s in good hands.”

  “I know. That’s why I chose you guys.”

  “You sure you’re going to be okay, Lea?” Mia asked.

  I wasn’t, but lied, “I’m fine. Go. Have fun with Lex.”

  After they left, Reed grabbed my hand and pulled me into the room. I hadn’t looked past him and his brother to what the space looked like earlier, but now I did. It was about twenty by twenty feet and had tables along two sides. On the tables were paddles, whips, handcuffs, dildos and more, clearly identifying what the room was meant for.

  I pointed to the three odd-looking contraptions in the room. “What are those?”

  He grinned. “Eager? I like eager. That one is a St. Andrews Cross. The one over there is a bondage chair. The one in the middle is what I’m going to start you out on. It’s an excellent spanking horse. Kane designed it himself.”