Excessive - The Complete Series Box Set (A Single Dad Romance (X Series #1)

by Claire Adams

  “He’s rather... forthcoming,” Carolyn said once he was out of earshot.

  “Yeah, he is.”

  “‘New to this area?’”

  “I didn’t get into the details with him about my past. Just easier to let him think I was new on the scene. In a way, I guess I kind of am.”

  “How is it being…being back?”

  “Good. Strange. In some ways, it feels like everything’s changed, and in others, it feels like nothing has.”

  “You seem like you’re doing all right. Although you were never an easy one to read.”

  I knew that last comment was not a compliment. “I wasn’t expecting to be back here, but it’s a good thing. I don’t really know what else I’d be doing if I wasn’t.”

  “So, there’s a barbecue tonight?”

  “That’s what everyone keeps telling me. Looks like you’re invited now, too.”

  “Only if you want me to go. I don’t want to go if it’s going to make you uncomfortable. Though any excuse to get out of the house is good. Jeff and I are still living together. Separate bedrooms,” she added quickly.

  I thought about it for a few seconds. I didn’t even want to go to this barbecue to begin with, but I wasn’t about to tell Carolyn she shouldn’t go, especially since Ryan had made it sound like I was looking for someone to invite. I figured I owed her at least that much.

  Chapter Nine

  Wren

  Ryan had said he’d come pick me up for the barbecue once he was finished with the evening chores. It didn’t dawn on me until then that it was at Wilson Ranch, and it was quite likely I’d run into Ollie there.

  I suddenly felt strange about the whole thing. I texted Allison to ask her if she thought it was weird that I was feeling this way, but instead of responding to my message, she came over.

  “Kids are having a sleepover at my in-laws’,” she said. “Nigel and I are supposed to be having a romantic date night, but what I really feel like doing is lounging on the couch with a couple pints of ice cream. Is this really who I’ve turned into?”

  “That doesn’t sound so bad. Maybe I should just skip out on this barbecue thing, and you can come over here and we can eat ice cream and have a Game of Thrones marathon.”

  “I wouldn’t hear the end of it if I bailed on Nigel for a girls’ night. So what were you trying to say in your text? You weren’t really making sense. You’re going to a barbecue?”

  “Yeah. With that guy Ryan.”

  “The one that has the hots for you?”

  “That’s the one.”

  “What’s the problem?”

  “The problem is that he works at Wilson Ranch, which is where Ollie works. So, if I go to this barbecue, I’m probably going to see Ollie there, and I just feel… I don’t know, I just feel weird about it, I guess. Which I realize is stupid. I’m probably just overthinking it or…” I let my voice trail off because what I was saying wasn’t even making sense to me at this point. “I’m not attracted to him,” I said. “Ollie.”

  Allison smirked. “Sure you aren’t.”

  “I’m not! I just feel like I have this connection with him. The problem being that he doesn’t know about it. He doesn’t know who I am!”

  “He could if you told him.”

  “I know, but I still don’t think should. It just seems like it’d be better if I didn’t say anything, like it would be a reminder of something he didn’t want to be reminded of.”

  “Then don’t say anything.”

  “Should I wear this?” I gestured to the jeans and tank top I had on.

  “Change the shirt. Something a little… I don’t know. Not so plain.”

  I went over, dug through my drawers, and came up with a short-sleeved pale pink top, made of soft cotton, with a V-neck.

  “Cute,” Allison said. “And maybe wear those black ballet flats with it.”

  I slipped my feet into the shoes and then twisted my hair back into a messy bun, which was my go-to hairstyle for any occasion that I wanted to look slightly dressed up for but didn’t want to appear as though I’d spent too much time prepping.

  “All right,” I said, holding my arms out and turning in a circle. “How do I look?”

  “You look hot,” Allison said with a grin. “I’d fuck you. If I was into that sort of thing.”

  Allison left a few minutes before Ryan showed up in one of the Wilson Ranch pickup trucks.

  “Lookin’ good,” he said with a whistle when I came out. “You sure do clean up nice.”

  “Thanks,” I said. “You don’t look so bad yourself.”

  “So, you been out to the ranch before?” he asked as we drove off.

  “No. But I know of the place.”

  I knew Garrett Wilson because he’d stop in and get a coffee sometimes, or occasionally he and his wife would come out there for lunch. I’d always liked him, but knowing that he had given Ollie his old job back made me like him even more.

  There were actually quite a few people there when we arrived, more than I’d been expecting. It felt like a festive atmosphere, and I hopped out of the truck, excited.

  “I brought some brownies,” I said, placing the foil-wrapped tray onto one of the picnic tables that was laden with all types of salad: pasta, potato, mixed greens with an array of sliced vegetables. There was a fire going in the pit, and Garrett was strumming his guitar while he talked with a few people I didn’t recognize.

  “I was hoping you’d bring brownies,” Marie said. “I can’t tell you the number of times I’ve tried to duplicate this recipe, and I never even come close!” She peeled a corner of the foil back and pulled one out.

  “Nothing like a woman who knows how to cook,” Ryan said as he walked over. He slung an arm around my shoulders. I felt myself stiffen. I waited a second and then pivoted from underneath his arm, making it look like I was reaching for a bottle of seltzer water.

  “Guess it’s good I know how to cook since I own a restaurant,” I said, twisting the cap off the bottle of water.

  “It’s funny—your restaurant has got the same name as our newest employee,” Ryan said. He craned his neck around. “Met him yet? Where is he? I was telling him he should show up to the barbecue tonight.”

  I saw Ollie sitting near the fire, next to a woman I thought I might have seen once or twice around town before, but wasn’t totally sure. Had she come into the restaurant before?

  “There he is,” Ryan said. “Oh, good, that woman he was talking to earlier actually did come. I suggested that, too.”

  I looked at Ryan. “What are you, Cupid or something?”

  He grinned. “Something like that. I could show you later.”

  “Oh!” Marie exclaimed, looking somewhat uncomfortable. “I just remembered about something I need to go get in the kitchen. If you’ll excuse me!” She hurried off, brownie in hand.

  “I think you just scared off your boss’s wife,” I said.

  “Nothing to be scared of.” He was inching closer and closer. I took a big step back.

  “I’m going to go mingle!” I said. “I’ll catch up with you later.”

  Luckily, there were enough people there that I could go off and start chatting and not have to worry about Ryan needling his way into the conversation. I talked with Susan and Tom, who were on vacation from Rhode Island. I told them they should come by the restaurant at some point during their stay and then wondered if that was solicitation or something. Maybe, but Garrett probably wouldn’t mind. I got a plate and filled it with barbecue chicken wings, pasta salad, potato salad, and a marinated veggie skewer. I drank a lemonade and talked with Marie; when Garrett broke out the guitar and started playing what sounded like the best of Pete Seeger, I sang along when I knew the words. All the while, I tried to avoid having to sit near Ryan, and I kept my eye on Ollie, who seemed to alternate between looking settled and like he might be enjoying himself, to looking completely out of place and like he’d rather be anywhere else. The woman he was with didn’t seem to l
eave his side, or at least not whenever I looked their way. At one point, when they were sitting by the fire, she had her head resting against his shoulder.

  I went up to the table with all the food to get another brownie (the recipe was always a hit, but this batch had come out particularly excellent), and when I turned, I saw that Ollie was by himself. I moseyed on over, hoping that I didn’t have bits of brownie stuck to my teeth.

  “Hey,” he said, looking surprised to see me.

  “Hi there,” I said. “How’s it going?”

  “Doing all right. Wasn’t expecting to see you here.” A slightly pained look crossed his face. “Not that it’s a bad thing or anything, I just meant…” He looked down at his boots and then back up at me, an apologetic smile on his face. “I mean, nice to see you.”

  “You too.” I could tell he was nervous, or uncomfortable, and I wasn’t sure if it was because I was making him feel that way, or he was just feeling that way in general. It must’ve been strange to go from being in prison to being free. “You try the brownies?”

  “Not yet. I’m not that hungry.”

  “Well, they’re really good… I made them.” There was a pitch in my voice that I hadn’t heard before. To him, it probably sounded like I was talking normally, but I could hear the eagerness, my desire for him to like me, for our conversation to gel. I had never felt this way with a guy before.

  “Guess I’ll have to give them a try then,” he said. He was about to say something else when the woman he was with reappeared.

  “Hello,” she said, holding out her hand. “I’m Carolyn.”

  We shook, and I told her my name. “Oh,” she said. “You own Ollie’s, don’t you? My sister goes there sometimes.”

  “That’d be me.”

  She narrowed her eyes slightly. “Interesting choice of name.” She put her arm around Ollie’s waist. “I mean, it’s a good one, for sure.”

  Then the three of us just stood there, and it was about as awkward as you could get. I could see, over Carolyn’s shoulder, Ryan approaching, and I figured I better disengage from this conversation before he came over and suggested we all go out on a double date together.

  “Well, nice to meet you!” I said to Carolyn. “Have a good night, you guys.”

  Eventually though, I had to talk to Ryan, and as the night wore on and the numbers dwindled, it was basically near impossible to keep dodging him. Ollie and Carolyn had left some time ago, and one by one, the others said good-night. I was always the last man standing at any party or gathering, except it looked like Ryan was going to give me a run for my money. Marie and Garrett were the last two, and once the fire had burned out, they said good-night too and headed up to the main house.

  So.

  That just left Ryan and me.

  “Are you avoiding me?” he asked.

  “Of course not. I just saw some people that I wanted to talk to, is all. The food was really good.”

  “I see you’ve met our newest employee,” he said. “To be honest, I’m surprised he even showed up.”

  “Really? Why’s that?”

  Ryan shrugged. “He seems like the sort of person who keeps to himself. Doesn’t really seem like he’s very sociable. Kind of strange that Garrett hired him in the first place.”

  “Do you even know him that well?” I asked, knowing full well what the answer would be. There was a defensive edge in my voice. Ryan raised his eyebrows.

  “Can’t say that I do, though I have a feeling if I tried, he wouldn’t make it that easy. Though he did look comfortable enough chatting it up with you.”

  It pleased me to hear that, though I wasn’t quite sure that was true.

  “He’s not friendly like you are,” Ryan said. He put his arm around me again and tried to pull me closer to him. I could smell beer on his breath.

  “It’s getting pretty late,” I said. “I think I probably better be getting back home. Got to be up early tomorrow.”

  “You looked so good tonight,” he said, nuzzling his face into my hair, like some sort of dog nosing through the underbrush, hot on the trail of something. “At one point, I looked over and saw the way the light from the bonfire was illuminating your face, and I just thought to myself, ‘My god, she is the most gorgeous woman I’ve ever seen.’” His lips were on my earlobe.

  I laughed and tried to push him away. “I didn’t realize you could be so poetic,” I said. “But no, I don’t want to—”

  “There’s a lot of things I can be, if you let me—”

  “I really have to go,” I interrupted. “Please, stop.”

  But his grip wasn’t letting up, and he’d started kissing my neck, where I’m rather ticklish. It was mostly his arm, though, and the fact that he wouldn’t let me go. I elbowed him in the ribcage, hard, and when he flinched, I reached up and grabbed his arm and yanked him off of me. I stood up from the bench and watched him as he clutched his side and winced.

  “What the fuck?!” he shouted.

  “I know you heard me to tell you to stop,” I said. “Yet you seemed to keep going. Me telling you to stop wasn’t a suggestion—I meant it.” He straightened, his face a mixture of anger and pain. “Don’t even think about trying anything,” I said. “I took two years of Krav Maga.”

  “Two years of what?”

  “An Israeli martial art.” And I had. I’d made the hour-and-a-half drive to the nearest city, Boulder, every Sunday morning, to take a two-hour class that taught me how to defend myself. After that night in the Watering Hole parking lot, I’d resolved to learn what I needed to so I could ensure something like that would never happen again.

  “Jesus fuckin’ Christ, it’s not like I was going to rape you,” he snapped. “You’re a crazy bitch.”

  “You know, it’s hard for me to differentiate between rapists and non-rapists when the person in question doesn’t seem to have a firm grasp on the meaning of stop. Or no.”

  He stared at me. I didn’t feel afraid so much as annoyed that this was the way the night was ending. I’d rather enjoyed myself, up until this point.

  “So, as I was saying, I’m going to go. And no, you don’t need to walk me to my car, thanks.”

  I didn’t wait for a response; I turned and strode off. It was only then that I remembered I didn’t have a car to walk to because he’d picked me up. Shit.

  I kept walking, though. It was too far to hoof it all the way back to my place, but it was getting late, so I didn’t know if I should call Allison or not.

  I could see in the distance that there was a light still on in one of the rooms at the main house. Marie would probably give me a ride, and I could sweeten the deal by promising her a pan of brownies. I started walking up there but then heard someone say my name.

  I turned in the direction of the voice.

  It was Ollie, silhouetted by the pale moonlight. He sounded surprised to see me.

  “I didn’t know you were still here,” he said. “I didn’t mean to scare you.”

  “You didn’t,” I said. “I was just... I was going up to the main house to see if Marie was still awake. I forgot that I didn’t have my car here.”

  “You need a ride home?”

  “Errr, yeah, actually. If you wouldn’t mind.”

  “’Course I wouldn’t. Come on, the truck’s over here.”

  We walked side-by-side across the soft grass. “Thanks for doing this,” I said. “I really appreciate it. I hope I’m not getting in the way of anything you had to do.”

  “Nah,” he said. “I was just going to take a little walk. Helps me sleep better at night if I take a walk first.”

  My fingertips brushed his as we walked along, and he yanked his hand back as though I’d just shocked him.

  “Sorry,” I said. “I’m not trying to hold your hand or anything. I’m not drunk; I can walk perfectly fine.”

  He chuckled. “You’re funny, you know that?”

  “I’ve been told that before.”

  We walked along in amicable
silence for a dozen or so strides.

  “You friends with Ryan?” he asked.

  “Uh, yeah, kind of.” I paused. “So, what about you? Is Carolyn your girlfriend? She seemed nice.”

  “Carolyn?” He coughed. “We went out in high school for a while. But she’s not my girlfriend now.”

  “Oh,” I said.

  “We never really ended things properly though,” he continued. “So, it’s kind of a gray area. It shouldn’t be, since so much time has passed, but . . . I don’t know. Relationships can be complicated.” He sounded increasingly uncomfortable, and I felt bad that I’d asked. “She was there mostly because Ryan had seen me talking with her, and he invited her to come.”

  “Yeah,” I said. “That’s basically why I came too, because of Ryan. Though obviously things didn’t go quite according to plan. He was the one who gave me a ride here. I should have taken my own car, though.”

  “What—did he forget to bring you back home or something?”

  “Something like that.”

  I caught movement out of the corner of my eye and heard the sound of something large moving.

  “What was that?”

  “Just a horse,” Ollie said. “Ditto, I think. In the corral over there. Garrett asked me to work with him, get him ride-ready. I guess he’s been giving people a lot of trouble.”

  “What’s wrong with him?”

  Ollie shrugged. “Who knows? Was probably mistreated at some point, which is a shame because he’s got a lot of potential.”

  “I always wanted to know how to ride a horse,” I said.

  “Yeah? How come you didn’t?”

  “My parents wouldn’t let me take lessons. They thought it was too dangerous.”

  “Well, it’s never too late to learn. Come by the ranch some time. I can take you out. Garrett’s got all kinds of good horses to start a beginner on.”

  “Really? You wouldn’t mind?”

  “Not at all. Here’s my truck.”

  He was mostly quiet during the ride back to my place, but I didn’t mind. I liked just being near him, and I sensed that he appreciated me not trying to fill the silence with chatter.