The Soul Redeemer: From Victim to Victory

by Bowser, Nancy

  Nicole sat very still while considering what she was hearing. She felt as if another veil was being lifted from her mind, and while it wasn't exactly painful, it was very disturbing. It was more confirmation that her memories and the things she was experiencing now were reality.

  "Sir, you mentioned the number 9. I didn't see or hear that number," Nicole said as she tried to find an excuse to deny reality.

  "Ah, but you did," Joel countered. "How many stacks of rocks did you see?"

  "Three."

  "And how many rocks were in each stack?"

  "Three…." Nicole closed her eyes as truth hit. "And 3x3 equals 9!"

  "You're doing good Nicole. Jesus is doing a work within you. Alters like these, are buried very deep and are often close to the core person. They have been with you a long time. I'm going to talk with Jesus now, ok?"

  "Yes."

  "Lord Jesus, thank You for revealing truth in Nicole's deepest being. I am feeling a sense of urgency in this matter, and I would ask that You would expedite the healing and deliverance process now. Holy Spirit, I pray for angels to guard and protect Nicole and these others, and that Satan's plans will be thwarted. In fact I praise You because we know that they have already been overcome! Yours is the victory! In Jesus Name, Amen."

  After a moment of silence Joel said, "Nicole, tell us what you are seeing, hearing or feeling as you can. Jemima and I will each take one of these parts to pray over. Which part do you want to focus on Jemima?"

  "I be takin' the arms and legs. That one needs some big time deliverance and true love."

  "Fine. I'll take the middle one," Joel said.

  Nicole was barely aware of their presence as the Holy Spirit answered Joel's prayer and was doing a quick work of revelation.

  She explained what she was seeing and hearing. "3 has gotten tired and is lying down. Joy is lying beside her and she is touching 3's index finger with her index finger. The contact seems to be comforting to her, but she's afraid of any more touching than that. She seems to feel that touch always turns to pain.

  "Wow! 7 is out of the rock completely! She is saying that she's a girl even if she doesn't look like one, and she's telling me that she wants long hair like mine!"

  Joel said, "Can you ask her what her assignment was?"

  "I'm not sure if she's saying this or not, but I am hearing, 'Steal, kill, destroy. Steal, kill, destroy.'"

  Nicole gasped. "Oh no! I just had a thought. Some of my things have been missing lately. If her assignment is to steal, maybe she's responsible for that. I forgot with everything that's been happening, but not too long ago I told Jake that I was worried that I had been hiding things and was not aware that I was doing it. My favorite big spoon is gone along with my favorite paring knife, and even one of the pictures on the wall…gone!

  "It seems like lately when I am thinking about how much I like something, it disappears. I've always been afraid that I would do something and not know. What if I've done something terrible?!"

  Joel saw Nicole's fear and agitation and said, "Nicole, I want you to look up some scriptures." She reached over and took the Bible he handed to her. "First, Satan perverts God's Word. We know that Satan came to steal, kill and destroy, but what's the last part of that verse?"

  "'But I (Jesus) came that they might have life and have it abundantly.' Yes, that's right, and I belong to Him and His life is in me." Peace began pushing away the fear in Nicole's heart.

  "Now look up all the verses on rocks that you'll find in the concordance at the back of the Bible, and then tell me what the Lord Jesus says to you."

  Joel and Jemima looked as though they had fallen asleep, but Nicole knew they were praying. Five minutes later, she said, "Ok. This is really good! Jesus is the Rock and Satan tried to pervert that truth with these false rocks of protection and hiding.

  "Lord Jesus please forgive me for trusting in false rocks, false truth. You are my true Rock and my Redeemer, I claim Jeremiah 23:29: 'Is not My word like a fire?” says the Lord, “And like a hammer that breaks the rock in pieces?' So Jesus, please break all these false rocks into pieces with your hammer so that only the things within Your Kingdom of Truth will remain."

  Nicole felt as if a great shaking were going on inside of her. She didn't see anything for a moment, and then, when everything grew still, she saw 3, free of her rock, sitting on top of a hill looking out over the remains of crushed rocks. 7 was standing at the base of the hill also looking at what remained. While they watched, angels came down from heaven and stood near the crushed rocks. Jesus spoke to Nicole then. "Command the demons to reveal themselves."

  "In Jesus' Name," Nicole said, "I command all you demons to reveal yourselves."

  Some of the chunks of rock began moving and taking on shapes. 7 explained that she and 3 were the middle rocks, but that the rocks on top and underneath of them were demons.

  The demons assigned to 3 looked like imps, not too big, but very scary looking. One was drooling and oozing goo all over its body. It stood looking at 3 while licking its lips like it wanted to devour her. The other was like a big mean dog that would like to attack and tear her apart. Nicole saw that an angel had leashes on those demons and was holding them away from her.

  She heard 3 saying, "I like the big pretty angel, but I don't like those other things. Please make them go away!"

  Out loud Nicole said, "In Jesus' Name, 3 and I bind the evil one. We renounce giving place to you demons in our lives. You are defilement and destruction and we bind you with the blood of Jesus and command you to take all your filth and destruction and leave us right now! Go wherever this angel is directed by God the Father to take you. GO NOW in Jesus name!"

  She could see that Jesus' blood was being poured over the demons and the angel was going up and pulling them up with him. They left the ground and were dangling in the air by the chains that were around their necks. They were struggling to get free and were choking as they went up higher and higher until they were out of sight.

  Joel said, "Nicole, ask 3 what her job was."

  "She says that she was to be a sexual doorway. She doesn't understand what that means except that she was supposed to stay hidden inside the rock and not let anybody find her. She had to be very quiet, and she could never, never cry. When her arms and legs came out, she was scared because she thought that she would be punished."

  Joel asked, "Who was she supposed to hold the door open for?"

  Nicole began to shake as the truth began to dawn on her and 3's memories began to penetrate the walls of dissociation within her mind.

  She answered, "Uncle Marcus. I was little, maybe even younger than three when he started doing things to me. I remember things like watching a horror movie with my cousin and being so scared. He came into the room and turned off the TV and told my cousin to leave us alone, that he would comfort me. His comfort was sexually stimulating. And then, just when I was so aroused that it almost hurt, he tortured me with pain by sticking needles into me. It's like he used terror or fear, sexual stimulation and physical pain to…to what?"

  "To cause your mind to split. That is a normal practice within occult type programming. This may be the first splitting of your mind, the first alter. The number three is the first 'sacred number' and is often used as an occult signature to mark or claim a person or an event.

  "At the same time, they layer in demons which act as guides, spies, and disciplinarians. The purpose of the split and the demons are to create soul ties that hold the door open for the master…in this case, Marcus, along with his successor, which would be Daemon.

  "These first splits are so close to the core person that these are the ones they dehumanize and usually hide in inanimate objects so that they won't be recognized; and these are the foundation on which to build a structure of other alters. This type of programming is usually preparation for the rituals and trauma that follows, but sometimes they allow it to lay dormant for many years before reactivating it."

  "Wait! What did you say abo
ut Daemon?" Nicole asked.

  Joel looked at her thoughtfully for a moment. "Ah, this is new information for you. Yes, Daemon is Marcus' successor. That means that when Marcus died, all of his demons and soul ties were transferred to Daemon. He became the handler of the slaves or victims with important functions that were still in operation when Marcus died."

  Nicole closed her eyes and tried to keep up with the thoughts that were flooding her mind. "Jesus, help me understand this if I need to," she prayed.

  Thoughts of the night she had been raped by IS came back to her. "Joel, is it possible that Daemon could have astral projected and raped me while I slept?"

  He looked down at the open Bible on his lap, then back up into her eyes. "Yes it is. With the help of demons."

  "Like Incubus Succubus?"

  "Yes, exactly."

  "Ok then," she said. Instead of fear, understanding was bringing as sense of relief. "IS was the strongman in my life. I wondered how there could signs of a physical presence. When I was raped in the night by an unseen force, that was probably Daemon and IS. 3, and the demons assigned to her were holding the door open for them. Is this right?"

  "It fits with the programming protocol. Sometimes these deepest hidden alters are what we call sleepers. They are usually inactive and are seldom assigned to every day jobs. In order for them to 'wake up,' so to speak, they have to be activated."

  Joel was quiet a moment then asked, "Nicole, what do you remember of the night you were raped?"

  "Nothing. I wasn't aware of anything unusual until I woke up."

  "Are you willing to investigate that night a little closer?"

  She nodded her head warily. "Yes, if it's important."

  "I believe it is. I know that it is not pleasant, but truth brings freedom," he reminded her.

  "I do agree with that," Nicole said. "Jesus, I give You the keys of that memory to unlock if You want to."

  Then Joel prayed. "Lord Jesus, I ask that if this is important, that You would illuminate Your light on the darkness. You know which part of Nicole holds these memories, so please break down the dissociation so that she is able to know what happened."

  "I hear 3 saying she's sorry. She didn't want me to be hurt….I forgive you 3. I understand, and we will make sure that you are safe from now on and then I'll be safe too, ok? Do you remember what happened that night? If you do, it's ok for you to give me those memories. In fact I need you to. You see, you've done a very good job of keeping those things from affecting me, but now, if we want to get better and be free, we need to work together….Yes, you are free of the rock already and those demons, but I'm not completely free because you are really a part of my mind that has been broken off. I'm broken. When you give me your memories, then Jesus will be able to heal our mind together….Yes like Humpty Dumpty was broken….That's right, nobody could put him together, but Jesus is God and He can put us together."

  Nicole had closed her eyes and she was hearing a chant…."Awake, awake oh sleeping one. Ready or not, two. Here we are at Invincibility! THREE! "

  The words "one" and "two" had been emphasized, but when she heard "three," Nicole suddenly bolted upright in her chair like she had been called to attention. She saw two dark figures that merged into one and heard the man say, "I love my job. Just lay back down, that's right. Ok, let's get you activated. Give me a butterfly."

  And then Nicole screamed in terror as she remembered the violation of her body and soul. It was reminiscent of the memories of Uncle Marcus and IS at the ritual.

  Jemima drew close praying, but didn't touch her. Joel said, "Nicole, can you hear me?" When she didn't answer, he called to her again. "Nicole! This is only a memory. It is not happening now. You are safe. Do you understand?"

  Nicole took a couple of deep breaths as her body began to relax. She sat back in the chair and said, "Yes I understand. You were right. I heard him say something about activating me. It was like he was counting and he said invincibility right before he said three. And he said something about a butterfly. What does all this mean?"

  Joel explained, "Invincibility is used as a code word that accesses the failsafe; in this case 3. They believed that her programming made them invincible. Butterfly is a code word used in Monarch Programming. Little ones are trained to think of themselves as a butterfly and to spread their legs wide in preparation."

  Nicole was lost in thought, then said, "The morning after it happened, Jesus told me that IS had planted seeds of destruction in me, so I took authority over that and his plans were thwarted. But I had no idea about Daemon until he came to Samaria."

  She paused, thinking. "So when I fell under Daemon's spell in Samaria, it was because 3 had been activated and her soul ties with him were open doors influencing and drawing me to him. After my encounter with Daemon and Dorothy, Jesus told me that there were still some ties. That must be what He was referring to. I had forgotten about that until right now! I guess that 3's activation didn't bring about their desired results either."

  Joel answered, "That's right. IS lost his power over you, and the demons assigned to 3 were just peons without a leader. And you were strong in your love and commitment to Christ. The assignments or jobs of the splits or alters would have been undermined by that because they are still a part of you and your mind."

  "That reminds me of something that happened when I was fifteen," Nicole reminisced. She told him about the decision she had made to stop the cycle of abuse.

  "No doubt God has honored that decision and commitment," Joel affirmed.

  Nicole had another thought. "How did 7 get activated?

  "Usually in these programs, once the first failsafe is activated, there is a chain effect, and it automatically activates the next," Joel explained.

  "Do you think 7's job is the same as 3's?" Nicole asked.

  "Ask her."

  "She's hiding in shame. I feel her shame. It's terrible!" Nicole suddenly got up and looked around as if she was going to bolt.

  Jemima slowly stood up as she said, "Oh Lawd Jesus, this one be needing some of that freedom You come for to give Your little ones." She reached out and gently took hold of Nicole's arm. "I'm talkin' to you 7, and I want you to listen good to this wise old woman. I used to be sharing some of that shame you be carryin' on you, and I'm tellin' you that it's a burden that will pull you down into the pit o' hell. Now I'm guessing that ain't where you want to be a headin', is it?"

  Nicole was looking intently at Jemima, but it was 7 who was devouring the words of hope. She nodded her head vigorously in agreement.

  "So what we gonna do is ask Jesus to come and take that load of guilt off of you. He's the only One who has the power to do that. I be thinkin' it's false guilt. You been lied to honey chile, and Jesus says that the truth is gonna set you free. Would you like that?"

  Nicole's head again nodded in agreement, but then she said, "7 says that she feels guilty for taking my things. She says she was trying to get my attention so that I would find her! She didn't want to be stuck in that rock forever…. Well, 7, you did a good job of getting my attention….She desperately wants me to know that she's not a thief. And she doesn't want to hurt anybody. She says that she never wanted to do the things she was supposed to do! And she says that there were eye holes in her rock and that she watched me all our life. She hated it in there, and she's very glad that she's out."

  Jemima asked, "Does she only feel bad for takin' your things or are there other things that make her feel bad too?"

  Nicole answered, "She's just hanging her head and won't look at me, so I'm guessing that there are other things she isn't telling me about."

  "Well when we do somethin' wrong and feel bad, that's conviction," Jemima answered. "That's God's way of helpin' us know the difference between right and wrong. When we ask forgiveness and do what we can to make it right, and decide not to keep on doing it, Jesus takes those things we did and destroys them so they can't torment us anymore. There ain't nothing that can't be forgiven and got rid of out o'
our souls. And then there's no more o' that bad feeling. So maybe 7 needs to ask forgiveness for takin' your things and then ask Jesus to forgive her for all the things she be feelin' bad about."

  Nicole was outwardly quiet while she and 7 talked together and with Jesus. "Yes, I forgive you. Those are only things and you are more important to me than things. What about Jesus? Do you choose Jesus 7? Ok, then tell Him you are sorry for whatever you've done that makes you feel bad." She couldn't hear what 7 was telling Jesus, but she saw her kneeling at His feet crying her heart out. She saw Jesus kneel down and embrace her, but 7's feelings were not getting any better. Nicole looked at Jemima. "She still feels really bad but won't tell me why."

  "Well let's get rid o' them nasty condemning demons. I want you to repeat after me," she said. "In Jesus name, …I command the evil spirits…of guilt, shame and condemnation…to release me…and go to the feet of Jesus…to wait for His judgment…"

  Nicole said, "I don't see any of the demons like 3 did, but 7 is feeling lighter. Oh, she says God's hammer had already crushed the rocks, but now angels are coming down from heaven and are picking up the pieces and are throwing them into a huge bon-fire and they're burning up! Hey, she's happy!"

  Jemima was smiling that big happy smile of hers. "That's good, honey chile, now what I want you to do is to sit back down and Jesus is gonna help us work through this mess because you ain't quite outta the woods yet," Jemima declared. "But 7, you gonna have to let Nicole stay in control here. You gotta cooperate with her cause you and her are one and the same and neither one o' you's gonna get out o' this without the other. You understand what I'm tellin' you?"