Melissa And The Cowboy (Western Night Series 1)

by Rosie Harper

  “Scotland,” she said. Ness said nothing. Effie had a feeling that Ness was not a girl of many words, but Effie understood. She felt the little girl’s insistent pull on the hem of her dress, and she allowed the little one to guide her out into the open.

  She hadn’t been in bed for long, but it seemed like she had been asleep for a hundred years as she took in the autumn sunlight, listened to the wind whistle through trees. The highlands, she thought. That’s where she was. The revelation of her knowledge excited her, but it yielded no fruit no matter how much she tried to focus on it.

  “So you’re her, eh?” a voice asked from behind her. Effie turned to see the most beautiful woman she had ever seen walking towards her. She had long hair a shade lighter than Ness’ own reddish locks, and striking blue eyes the same as the little girl. If she had not heard otherwise, Effie would believe she was looking at the ghost of the mother Ness had lost. Instead, however, she knew that she was looking at Leana, something she had prepared for.

  She had not prepared for how beautiful Leana was. A distant feeling panged in the back of her heart, something like jealousy, but over what exactly she wouldn’t fully express. Was she jealous of her beauty? Effie could be just as beautiful for all she knew. Was she jealous of her place in Alasdair’s life? Well, Effie hardly knew what that place was, or who Alasdair was, so could she truly be jealous over something so utterly silly?

  It took her a moment to realize… she was probably partially right. She was jealous of Leana, but she was jealous of Leana’splace. She knew who she was, where she has, who she was supposed to love and care for. Did Effie truly know that? Not particularly.

  She desperately wanted to fit in in the village, but part of her could not help but wonder, was anyone looking for her elsewhere?

  #

  Lord Reginald Fairchild could was a good hunter, he had to be after the many hours he had spent on the sport. Because of this he wasn’t concerned over her loss. She had thought that by taking the carriage he would be slowed, but she ought to have known better than that assumption. He wondered if her emotions were clouding her usual cool judgment.

  As soon as he found the carriage tracks heading north, he could not help but laugh. She had to be mad, she had to not be thinking clearly.

  Or, far more likely, she merely wanted him to find her.

  His lips curled into a smile… he loved being the hunter, especially when he was hunting such delicious prey.

  Chapter 3

  It took almost two weeks, but finally Leana seemed to turn around to her. It happened so slowly that Effie did not fully realize that it was going on. At first she had stubbornly ignored any attempt at help, refusing to allow her to dry dishes, shooing her out of the kitchen when it was time to make bread. It bothered Effie, for she wanted to have a purpose here instead of just loafing about.

  She spent a lot of time with the children then, playing little games with Ness and Alec. They warmed to her immediately, and she took a terrific amount of comfort in that.

  Ness was as quiet as a mouse, and so small that often Effie did not realize that she was there until she was underfoot. She was a sweet girl, with a laugh so delicate and lovely that often Effie would tickle her so that she could hear it again and again. She knew that little Ness was going to grow up to be a devastating beauty, and often Effie wondered if she would look just like her mother. She had a feeling she would be.

  Alec was a clever boy, and brave, and she could see that the only thing he ever wanted to be in his life was like his father. She noticed that Alasdair spent much of his time riding out along the countryside, searching out rumours of enemies and battles. She wondered what would disappoint him more: the idea that the enemies were out there, or the idea that they weren’t.

  It was also surprising to Effie to see how kindly, and yet how distant Alasdair was towards her. She couldn’t help but wonder how he felt about her, for while he had done a tremendous kindness by allowing her to stay, he seemed desperate to keep her at arm’s length. In her way she understood, but it did not stop the selfish rising of desire in her heart. It had been two weeks and he barely tried to look at her.

  Luckily, her friendship with Leana grew by leaps and bounds, and Effie was proud enough to have a friend. She could tell that Leana too harboured a desire for Alasdair, but he also held her with the same nervous regard, he also made sure never to touch her, and when she was not looking, Effie could see a peculiar look of sadness in his eyes. She did not need to guess about the resemblance between Leana and his lost wife, his eyes told her enough.

  That was why the moment in the barn surprised her so very much.

  It was one of those days that was completely perfect, Leana had taught her how to milk the cow, and it had become a simple pleasure to Effie to be able to do that. She sat on the bench, it had to be near dawn, and squeezed the milk into the pail in long, sure strokes. She allowed herself to dream a little, sending her mind far away as she worked.

  It was almost helpful to her to be able to do this, in the few weeks she had lived with the McLeods she had regained a few snatches of memory, but nothing particularly helpful. She could remember the color blue, a lace glove that she must have cherished enough to remember like this. She could remember a view over a city that she decided must be in England, and the more she thought about it, the name “Derby” came to mind. Once the others had confirmed it, yes, there was a city in England called such, Effie came to the conclusion that she must be from there. It wasn’t a satisfying conclusion, but it was the only conclusion she had.

  She was so lost in her own thoughts that she did not hear Alasdair’s soft footsteps as he entered the barn. It was only when she felt the warmth of him beside her that she even realized that he was there. She smiled up at him, patted the side of the cow, and got to her feet to greet him.

  “You look like you belong there,” he told her with a smile. She blushed and looked down at the cow, running her hand gently on her side.

  “Perhaps I am. Maybe I was a milkmaid in Derby.”

  That story didn’t sit correctly with her, but few stories did. How had she managed to make it to the Scottish highlands all by herself? Derby was not so close, so she had to come from elsewhere, but where was this elsewhere? The idea of it bothered Effie more than she would like to admit.

  “I came to ask you if you had a chance to look over the things that we brought from the site of your…” He looked uncomfortable for a brief moment. “Your incident.”

  Once again she blushed. The truth was that she hadn’t. Oh sure, she had briefly seen them: a parasol, a trunk of clothing far too fancy to wear in the village, a hand mirror and whatnot, but the thing that scared her the most was a small, slim volume that looked like it may be a diary. The idea of reading it terrified Effie to no end, and she didn’t no why. She shook her head at Alasdair.

  “I haven’t yet. My apologies.”

  He laughed a gentle laugh, his piercing eyes boring into hers. “It’s more for you, lass, than anything else. If you want to learn who you are, that might be the best place to learn.”

  “What if I don’t want to?” she asked, surprising herself with her own boldness. She could hear the desperation in her voice, this desire to not be who she was. His expression melted into one of concern, and he reached up to touch her cheek.

  “You can be whomever you want to be, Effie. Anyone.”

  Before she realized it, he had pulled her close into a kiss. For a minute she panicked as though she were doing something wrong, something terrible, but instead she allowed herself to melt into his arms as though she had belonged there. She could feel the strength in him, boiling under his skin, and it both terrified and comforted her. The kiss deepened and she let it, throwing her arms around his neck to pull him in closer and closer. He could never be too close to her, she realized.

  The cow mooed softly and she pulled away with a laugh.

  “Poor Daisy doesn’t want to see this,” she said, and she meant it. This
was incredibly reckless, she had realized, what if the children walked in?

  His eyes burned with a sheer intensity as he gripped her hand tightly.

  “Come with me,” he softly told her. The velvet and steel in his voice sent shivers down her spine. She nodded her head and allowed herself to be led.

  They ended up, not unsurprisingly, in his bedroom, but the tension on the way there was explosive. Effie felt as though her skin might ignite if he were to touch her again, and as he securely locked the door and pulled her to him she realized that she had been right. Every touch to her skin felt like burning, and even though she did not remember ever doing something like this before, it seemed as though her body remembered something close to this, although she could not imagine ever feeling like this.

  He lay her down softly on his bed, stuffed with goose down and covered by a sturdy wool blanket. His fingers trembled as he unlaced her simple bodice, and Effie realized with no uncertain amount of shame that his head must be swimming with terrible thoughts as to Effie’s virtue, or the fact that she had so willingly jumped into his late wife’s bed so soon after meeting him. But as his fingers went lower, and lower and oh god, yes, lower, Effie’s mind emptied of such terrible thoughts, and the only thing she wanted was for him to be inside of her, at that moment.

  All pretense at taking one’s time was discarded as he lowered himself on top of her, and she gasped in pleasure when he entered her. It was familiar, yes, she must have done this before, but as he moved inside of her she realized that it was never like this before, and she closes her eyes and rocked with him and realized that she could never go back to her old life, certainly not now, and most likely not ever.

  He whispered her name as he finished, and collapsed on top of her, buried his face in her hair. She wrapped her arms around him and stared at the ceiling.

  Was this a new beginning, or had Effie just made things worse?

  #

  The innkeeper looked at Reginald with beady little eyes. The inn was a tattered little affair with straw on the floor and gaps enough in the walls to let more wind in than there was even wind outside. Scotland. What a tiring place. He had no idea why she had been so intent on coming here, but he guessed that once he awoke and found her letter, her reasoning behind the little jaunt had made itself perfectly clear.

  “Sir?” The innkeeper asked with a baffled tone. Or perhaps that was his regular tone. It could be both, Reginald surmised, wit to this man seemed like a stranger.

  “The carriage in your stable.The broken one. Where did it come from?”

  He had spent the better part of two weeks looking for anything resembling a trail left by her, and finally, finally he had found something, and now that was all going to go to rot because this Scot had no idea what words seemed to mean.

  “Oh. That’s not for sale,” the innkeeper said. Reginald sighed explosively, taking a step away before returning back to the conversation lest he not conduct himself like a gentleman.

  “I know. It better not be for sale because it’s mine.”

  This seemed to strike a chord with the man as recognition dawned.

  “Ooooh, this was brought in by the McLeods.”

  “The McLeods.”

  “Yes, they’re a clan about a day or two’s ride out. Found a beautiful lady in the wreckage, they said. Doesn’t remember a thing, poor lass.”

  Reginald laughed. Of course she wouldn’t remember a thing, that seemed to be her favorite lie to tell.

  “So the lady is still in the village?”

  “Last I heard, but I don’t hear much. Sometimes members of the clan come through but it’s not too often, you see. Do you know the lady, sir?”

  Reginald grit his teeth.

  “Know her? She’s my wife.”

  Chapter 4

  They made love several more times that day, but what had Alasdair been thinking? He was too busy being wrapped up in her, the newness of her, the softness of her, to think of much else. Since the loss of Elaine three years ago, he had not so much as touched another woman during that time. Now he never wanted to stop touching her. He wanted to go to his grave touching her. What had it been? Her laugh, her smile?The softness of her pale skin, the gold in her hair? Blue eyes so dark they looked as though they were about to storm? There were so many things, but the one thing he knew was that he might be in love.

  They went about the next day, and the next night, trying not to discuss or define the perimeters of their newfound love. How would Leana respond? What would his children do? The children made him worry less, for they already adored her, but while Leanahad accepted Effie into her home, he didn’t think she would accept his acceptance of her into his bed.

  He was right, in a way, for the next morning while Effie went to the market,Leana had approached Alasdair, gripping a slim volume in her hands. Books were not too common in the village, but Elaine and Leana’s parents had insisted on literacy for their two daughters anyway. Elaine used to joke that it would make her even more unmarriageable than she felt she already was. Alasdair responded by proposing to her on the spot.

  “We need to talk,” Leana said. He didn’t want to take it seriously, until he saw the dire look on her face.

  #

  Effie had found a new life, and she loved it so much. Of course, she still didn’t know very much about her old life, so she had no true basis of comparison, but this life was satisfying to her all the same. What would become of her, of her and Alasdair? She felt as though it didn’t matter so much anymore. Her life was her life, and she was happy in it.

  She entered the cottage to come face to face with a very concerned Leana and Alasdair. Gripped in Alasdair’s hand was that slim volume that Effie had seen in her trunk.

  “My diary,” she whispered, although it did not feel like hers.

  “Sit down, Effie,” Alasdair said. “We need to talk.”

  The Final Entry of the Diary of Mrs. Euphegenia Sterling Fairchild:

  I’ve finally done it. I’ve finally taken what’s mine and Reginald can’t do a damn thing about it. He calls me a crook, what would he know of such things? He was the one who stole me, the one who took a simple made and forced her to become some upper class wife and I can’t take it. I’m going to leave him, I have to, but I have to do it safely. He can’t find me…I’ll have to go to some town in this godforsaken backwards country and start over, but how?

  Effie’s mouth had gone dry. A...crook?Leana looked pained at this revelation, although underneath Effie could note a current of strange triumph. She must have thought something like this when Effie first arrived.

  “Oh,” she said quietly. “I was married?”

  Alasdair looked as though the worst thing had ever happened to him in his life. “You are married.”

  Effie choked on a response. She didn’t feel married, she had no idea of any husband, and had no desire to find out who he was. The only person she had ever wanted was right in front of her. Could he see that?

  “Do you think this is all a farce?” She asked after a long pause.

  “I don’t know what I think,” Alasdair admitted. Leana said nothing, most likely because nothing was the best thing for her to currently say.

  “I don’t know who that person is,” Effie replied, indicating the diary. “She sounds like a prat, but she’s not who I am. I love this country! I love this village and I love-”

  Alasdair looked as though he desperately wanted her to finish that sentence, but they were interrupted by a large ruckus taking place outside. Alasdair looked from Leana to Effie, before standing and reaching for his sword. Gripping the hilt in his hands he marched outside, prepared to defend his home.

  Leana took a glimpse out the window and gasped softly. “It’s a man,” she whispered to Effie. “Dressed very fine. I would say he’s English.”

  English like you, Effie heard between the lines, she ran to the window as well and looked upon the man who was now sitting astride his horse outside.

  He wasn�
�t a particularly big man, which was why he was most likely sitting atop his horse. His hair was dark, almost black, worn slightly long and tied back with a ribbon. His features were not unattractive, but not particularly handsome.

  Effie knew who he was. She hated that she knew who he was.

  “Effie!” He called, seemingly ignoring the man holding the sword in front of him. “Effie come out right this moment!”

  She made a move to go to the door but Leana grabbed her by the elbow.

  “I need to go,” Effie whispered. “That’s my husband!”

  “One of them will be,” Leana responded. “But let’s not pretend that it is the one on the horse.”

  Effie studied Leana’s face, surprised at such a turnaround. She laughed.

  “I read the entire diary, not just the last page,” Leana replied. “You weren’t a prat, you were simply a young girl swept up in the likes of him,” she pointed to the man outside. Reginald, Effie remembered. “You can’t go back with that man, not after what...not after what I know he’s done to you.”

  Alasdair looked up at the man on the horse.

  “Can I help you?” he asked, mustering all the politeness he could.

  “I’m searching for a woman named Euphegenia Fairchild, but perhaps she goes by Effie,” the man replied, his eyes glued to the windows. Alasdair hoped that the girls had realized enough to stay away from the windows. He knew at least Leana was wily enough to figure something like that out, but Effie...Effie may not fully understand what they were trying to do.

  After years of abuse, that woman had finally left her husband.

  It was up to Alasdair to protect her at all costs.

  The man literally looked down at Alasdair, refusing to dismount from his horse. On the surface this dashing, dark man could easily steal away a girl as trusting as Effie, especially if the diary was to be believed. Now, sitting astride his horse, Reginald looked fierce and ugly, and he hope that Effie could see that from the house.