Finding Sweetness 3

by Lewis, Rika

  Yaz & The Girls

  As Yaz cut the car off they could hear gun fire. Shit Yaz are we really getting ready to do this Erica asked? “Hell yea we are,” Kaseya needs us and we’re going to get her Aspin spat! We’ll go around the back and see if we can get in, does everyone have their guns Yaz asked? Check that Azari said, “Let’s go I need to release some tension. “Okay you’re just a little bit too happy about this what’s wrong with you? Nothing Azari shrugged. Yeah as if I believe that, I want details later. They all cocked their guns, ran around towards the back of the warehouse, and snuck in quietly. Okay girls start checking each door.

  As they reached the third door and opened it, Kaseya was ready to clock anyone who came in the door. Kasya its Aspin are you in here? Kaseya tossed the chair down and ran to her friend. They all embraced each other then looked at Kaseya. “oh my God hon look at what they did to you!” Kaseya didn’t have time for all the mushy stuff her adrenalin was pumping and though she was very thankful for her friends showing up she needed to find Lex. Did any of you happen to see a tall white guy in a dress shirt? No why? I have to find him he saved my life.

  As they walked out the melee has spilled into the hallway they were in. Yaz and Aspin both covered their mouths as they watch their fathers in action. Abe yelled at them to get out. As they turned to leave, Yaz caught sight of Alton and Channing with their backs turned as another man aimed his gun at them. Yaz screamed and ran full force at the man she would not lose Alton again. As the man and Yaz fell to the ground, Alton and Channing both turned around and it was as if time stood still as he watched his woman fight a man three times her size. Both he and Channing took off at a dead run trying to get to Yaz but Carl was quicker as he yanked Yaz by her hair and pointed a gun at her head stopping them both.

  I swear I will put a bullet in this cunts head so help me God if you come any closer. Ebin came around the corner and froze, “No this motherfucker didn’t have his hands on his daughter.” Ebin touched his earpiece and told them to keep him talking. “It’s me you want Alton said, let her go and I’ll quietly come with you.” Oh, no boy. I think I picked right. Now here’s was gonna happen… me and your little back slut is gonna walk out of here and no one is going to stop me. I don’t think you want to do that Channing Spat! As soon as you walk out of that door, the rest of the ATF agents will be all over your ass!

  Carl smiled; “I’m not afraid to die and if I do I’ll be taken this bitch with me!” Alton made a move and Carl pressed the gun deeper into Yaz’s head. Alton stopped locked eyes with Ebin and nodded. Ebin squeeze the trigger and shot him in the back. Carl folded backwards and screamed as he fell to the ground. Yaz bolted towards Alton. Alton snatched her up, hugged her to him tight, and thanked the Lord that nothing happened to her. Then he placed her on her feet and started checking her body to make sure she was okay. “I’m going to spank that sweet ass of yours when we get back to the cabin,” he whispered. Damn it Yaz did you not think about our baby your carrying? At that moment, she hadn’t given it any though that she really could be pregnant. She lowered her eyes and shook her head. I can’t lose you again Alton…I can’t… He tipped her chin up making her look at him. “And I can’t lose you or our baby,” I need you to let me be the man and protect you. He kissed her lips. Don’t ever scare me like that again Sweetness.

  Ebin yanked Carl up and said, “You’re being detained on suspicion of producing methamphetamine and conspiracy to commit murder.” I’d rather die than go to jail Carl wheezed out! Oh, believe me I’d love nothing more than to kill you for plotting against my family but look around Carl there’s barely anyone left to stand trial and I’m going to make sure your ass never get out!

  When the smoke cleared, the police and the ATF quickly surrounded everyone. They knew who he Carl “cowboy” Dalton was. He’d had been convicted seven times for crimes ranging from robbery to assault, and he had spent most of his life in and out of prison.

  The ATF lined everybody up against the wall as the sun rose. The police fanned out to search the property. They found shotguns, pistols, a huge cache of ammunition, and hundreds of bottles of chemicals they couldn’t identify along with a shitload of meth. Afterwards the ATF announced that they were taking thirty-eight of them to jail, including William, Alton, Eytin, Channing, Gabe and Lex. Yaz turned and cried on her father’s shoulder why dad why? I thought the ATF was on their side? Aspin, Eric, Azaria and Kaseya stood there in shock as they watched Eytin, Channing, Gabe and Lex being hauled off. The guys all turned and looked at the girls then dipped their heads into the swat trucks and sat down.

  Shhh. Don’t cry baby girl everything will be just fine let them handle their business and we’ll handle ours. All of the women hugged each other and watched as they hauled them all off to jail. William, Alton, Eytin, Channing Gabe and Lex all turned and looked out the glass at them with smiles on their faces it was obvious they knew something that they didn’t. Dad what’s going on? “Yea, Aspin glared at her father, what’s going on?” Don’t look at me like that Aspin you have a lot of explaining to do! Now let’s go home. Your mother is worried sick about you. Woe, woe, woe… hold up….did you tell Angelina what we were doing Ebin asked? Well…yea sort of… you’re crazy if you think I’m going to lie to my wife. I ain’t no fool like you. Damnit Abe I told you not to tell her shit! You know she’s called my wife and told her! Yea, probably Abe smiled wide. “Oh, you little shit!” You did that to get back at me didn’t you! “You damn straight I did!” Next time don’t keep secrets from your big brother. Damn you Ebin chuckled paybacks a bitch bro…paybacks a bitch.

  Ann

  Ann and William thought they been prepared for any outcome. Perhaps they were but they weren’t prepared for was the confusing mixture of joy, sadness, connection and loss that they’d experienced for years after reaching out to their daughter with no response back from Aspin. She had grown into a beautiful woman. It was so much harder for Ann because she’d completely stayed away from Aspin yet to William he had watched from afar as Aspin grew up in the woman she was is now. She’d thought about Aspin as an infant, her hair and eye color, what toys she liked, her first words. She imagined her in school, what sports she liked, her friends, and her interests. She gave her an identity through her young adult years, but that was all fantasy. The problem was, she didn’t just wonder about “Aspin”. She created a person in her mind who was “Aspin”. It was the only way she could endure the pain over the years from relinquishing her at birth.

  The reunion was 100% positive, yet they all were emotionally broken from it. Each time after Aspin left, she sobbed and shook uncontrollably. She hadn’t been able to curb her emotions, which instantly took her to a very dark place. She imagined she’d never see Aspin again. She thought Aspin would feel she was betraying her adoptive parents or she might decide she was a lunatic and have nothing more to do with her. The details and logic of the scenario didn’t matter. In that dark place of hers, somehow her daughter would be irretrievably lost to her again.

  When we finally reunited and Aspin simply said on the telephone, “Hi, this is Aspin,” one world collided explosively with the other. Over time, she realized that the emotions were so intense because it was the “re-birth” of a child she had given up. She thought that when she and Aspin finally reunited she would finally be liberated from the pain and secrets of her past but she learned that the past wasn’t always so willing to give up its hold.

  She and William had finally told their family and friends about Aspin which floored them all and shockingly enough they all wanted to meet her. They admired my courage and they shared my joy and spread the word quickly in their happiness. No one else felt the collision of worlds that she did. No one understood why she spent even a single minute crying after finally meeting her. After all, isn’t that what she had wanted for all those years? What was there to be sad about? One thing, however, did connect the two worlds and it was the love for each of her children and her new soon to be daughter in-law Yaz.
She had always loved them both and now that she had her family back she would never let them go. She thanked God for the Carmichaels and would always be in there debt for taking care of Aspin when she couldn’t. She was finally able to breathe and maybe now she and William could finally move forward.

  Aspin

  Aspin was nervous about meeting her birth mother. Her biological father had declined to meet her and told her that he’d wanted nothing to do with her and that was just fine by her. She already had a father that loved her and apparently, a stepfather that had secretly watched her grow up so she had more than enough dads that she didn’t need her sperm donor of a father in her life. As her William and Ann pulled up at her house Aspin got in the car and casually directed them their destination. On the way, she pointed out landmarks in her life.

  They drove by her high school and by her dental practice. She told them stories about some of her patients and how she loved being an orthodontist. As the pulled up to the restaurant and she told them how her family ate there often when she was growing up. It was one of their favorite places then the dam broke and that was it! She started to cry inconsolably. The tears usually didn’t start at these meetings until they’d parted ways, but this was too much! She wanted to soak in everything she told them and more, but it was just so unbearably sad. With each piece of information, she was slapped in the face with the brutal reality that she had not been a part of William, Ann and even her brother Alton’s life.

  She was relinquishing a way of life, one that had been with her and helped her survive for years. She had become accustomed to living with the constant wondering and worrying about her “other” family. She was used to feeling that ache in her heart, the hole that had never left. Finding her birth parents had truly been a collision of worlds for her. She learned that her brother Alton was a very protective brother who bumped heads constantly with other brothers and she loved it. They were all fighting over her… but she realized that both worlds could and would continue to co-exist and now, she loved and treasure both.

  Alton & Yaz

  All of the women had been pacing a hole in the carpet. Will you girls please sit down Yaz’s mom said as chuckling at the way they’d all stood guard at the window. They’ll all be here soon and ya’ll will be too tired to even greet them once they walk through the door…She snapped her fingers and told them to sit. They all took a seat at the kitchen table but continued to look out of the window.

  Yaz had barely slept a wink during the month that the guys had been gone. She and Aspin both had taken a pregnancy test and sure enough, they were both pregnant. They both wanted to wait until Alton and Eytin were home before they shared the news with the rest of the family. Aspin was nervous as hell because she didn’t know what Eytin would do once told him. He had already said he wasn’t cut out to be anyone’s father but she knew deep down that he wanted a family and now he would have that. Yaz had no Eytin and Aspin would be fine.

  Alton would be excited once she told him if his ass would ever get here. Feeling her stomach churn, she stood up and quickly walked to bathroom and threw up. After she finished washing her face and rinsing her mouth out she heard one of the girls squeak in excitement that the guys were finally there. They had all written them letters while they were in jail and it seemed that her two best friends formed a connection with Channing and Gabe and even Kaseya and Lex had even formed a bond. Yaz shook her head those were the most unlikely of pairs she had ever seen although some would say the same about her and Alton.

  As Yaz walked to the door and stood just inside of it she watched as William hugged Ann tightly, Eytin swooped Aspin up in his arms kissing her while Channing gripped Erica by her waist giving her a gentle kiss, Gabe gripped Azaria by her ass and hauled her up as she hugged him around the neck, and Lex pulled Kaseya into his chest as he kissed the fading bruises on her face. Then she locked eyes with Alton as he stood there with a relieved look on his face. She couldn’t move as she took in the moment where she was surrounded by all of her friends and her family. Tears began to trickle down her face as Alton approached her. He took his thumb and rubbed her tears away then wrapped his arms around her waist “Don’t cry sweetness he whispered,” as he planted kisses along her neck then up to her lips. He was a starved man for her and all he wanted to do was be alone with her. He closed his eyes and blew out a breath as he held her. Yaz had always been beautiful inside and out, she had always been strong, resilient and he couldn’t imagine ever being without her again. He bent and whispered in her ear.” You will never go another day without my love sweetness.” I promise.

  Afterwards they all sat around laughed and talked and caught up then they all left and went home. Yaz took Alton back to her house and for the first time and Alton felt at home. When he walked in, there was a huge banner going across archway saying “Welcome home Alton.” He closed his eyes trying not to let tears fall but they fell anyway. Yaz fought back her tears then said, “I wanted to fix up the old clubhouse as a surprise but they tore it down years ago and built condos so I’m hoping my house will do for now? Alton nodded his head and choked out “It’s perfect sweetness.

  In the bedroom, Yaz told him to wait, right there while she went to get something. When she came back, she had her hands behind her back and told him he closed his eyes. “What are you up to he asked?” You’ll see… she opened the palm of his hand, placed the sonogram picture of their baby in his hand, and told him to open his eyes. Once he realized what he was looking at he couldn’t contain his excitement. He picked her up and twirled her around. “Didn’t I tell you, you’re pregnant?” You sure did Yaz smiled. He sat her back down on her feet then went to his knees raised her dress up and kissed her stomach. Then he stood and carried her over to the bed and laid her down. “Is it safe for us to umm…to have sex without hurting the baby he asked as he rubbed her stomach?” Yaz smiled. Yes it’s safe. But first we need to talk---

  He was on her quick as a flash pressing her back against the bed his hands gripped her hair as he took her lips in their first heated kissed since he’d been home. His mouth latched on to hers as his tongue sank deep, and then there was a tear noise--- her panties were ripped off. Oh, God, yes… she had missed him so much. He kissed her until she felt lightheaded for reasons other than her pregnancy. With smooth coordination, he pushed his pants down and then---

  He sank slowly inside of her. Home…he finally where he was always meant to be.

  Her body bowed up against his as she held on to him. He pumped heavy and strong but with care as the headboard begin to bang up against the wall with the force of his body as he took her. This was him claiming her all over again in addition to making love to her. He devoured her breasts suckling one nipple then the other. There wasn’t a part of her body that he didn’t lick or suck. His hips met her thighs as his balls slapped her ass. He made love to her hard then soft.

  Her legs curled around his waist pushing him even deeper inside of her. “I love the way you make me feel she said hoarsely,” you make me feel beautiful Alton. You are beautiful sweetness. You are absolutely fucking gorgeous. He pumped relentlessly until her body began to shake and shiver in his arms. Ahhhh….come with me Alton. She looked him deep in his eyes as she burst into a million pieces. She tightened her pussy muscles around his cock. He roared as her tight, silky sheath gripped him.

  He shouted her name as he flooded her pussy. She shook and floated even higher and he was right there with her. “I love you she said as her orgasm splintered through her. He buried his face in her neck kissing her just below her ear. “I love you too sweetness,” I love you so damn much he groaned and sank his teeth into the column of her neck as he continued to pump the last of his seed into her warm snug pussy. He collapsed onto her before he realized he could be crushing her and the baby then he quickly rolled off her bringing her on top of him.

  She laid her head down his chest and whispered. “Were going to be a family now Alton,” tears of joy trickle down her cheek she made no move to
wipe them away. He held on to her tight as he felt her tears dampen his chest. “I know I have a lot to prove to you sweetness and I know it’s going to take time to convince you of my sincerity, it won’t happen overnight but what I need from you is just a chance to prove it to you will you give me that? She nodded her head. Are you sure, you’re ready for this Alton because I can’t go through losing you again. “I want you more than I want to live. I’d die for you Yaz.” Give us that chance sweetness and I promise you everything else will work it’s self out.