The Seeds Trilogy Complete Collection: The Sowing, The Reaping, The Harvest (including The Prelude)
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“Is this the only way you communicate?”
“Hardly,” she says, with a twinkle in her eye. “I can’t reveal all my secrets, can I? For passing messages, we use Braille or Morse Code. Braille is better, since most people don’t know to look for it. Some odd historians and quaint collectors still know Morse, so it’s not as safe. But we use it when we have to, or when we’re not sure our intended recipient knows where to look.” On my plasma, she works through the circles with me, drawing the dots in various patterns that form words, phrases, sentences, meaning.
“No such luck,” she says smiling, when I plead with her that I need a nap. After four hours of studying, I am exhausted. “This is your first test. It’s from Snake.” She hands me a corn husk, and I stare at it blankly for a moment.
“Seriously? You pass messages on food scraps?”
“We pass messages on everything.”
After another hour, and some serious hints from Meera, I’ve interpreted Snake’s message.
Same place, same table, two days from today, when the first star shows her face.
Dusk falls fast as I set out from Meera’s apartment. Shadows creep along the edges of the buildings, street lamps clicking on one by one as they sense sundown. I devoured the last bites of food in Meera’s ration, but my stomach still grumbles. I put a hand to my belly, as if to quiet it, but to no avail. Meera’s rations have done wonders to strengthen my body and renew my spirit, but I still have to make them stretch between deliveries.
Pushing past The Elysium patrons is more difficult on citizen payday. The den is crowded, loud, and so smoky I feel the effects of the drug just by breathing. I look for the same corner booth, which is thankfully empty, and settle in.
“Rose water, please,” I say, when the waitress comes by. I tip her an extra seedcoin to leave me alone. Requests like that are not uncommon here, and the waitress doesn’t even bat an eye. She nods, returns a few minutes later with the rose infusion, and disappears.
Snake is late. Paranoia seeps in, creeping, suffocating. Where is he? Did something go wrong? It’s evident in the crack of my knuckles, my fingers drumming on the table, the hairs standing at attention on the back of my neck. I look around, panic bleeding into my thoughts. Did the message go through? Was the messenger caught? Was Snake caught?
Just when my thoughts begin to spiral out of control and I’m considering making a fast exit, he slides in next to me.
“Accept my apology. There was a little mishap.” I breathe in the woody, tobacco-heavy scent of him as he wraps his arm around my shoulder, pretending we are just another pair of lovers in a corner together.
“Something bad?”
Snake shakes his head and my shoulders relax. “Being a seeker of secrets is no easy job sometimes. My task tonight took longer than it should have.”
“You sure you’re okay?”
“Fine. But I am sorry. I’m rarely late. It doesn’t inspire confidence. Now, you must be wondering …” I nod, encouraging him to continue, but he grabs my rosewater and tips back his head to drain the glass. He smiles, cocky and lighthearted, but I sense he’s more unsettled than he’s letting on.
“The message was delivered. I can’t guarantee he’s found it, or that he will be able to interpret it when he does. But the clues are in place.”
“How?”
“Even I don’t know the details. All I can tell you is that it seems the chancellor has a very nice library.”
“The message was put in a book?” He shrugs. “So how is he? Is he hurt? Is he afraid? Where are they—”
Snake puts his hand on top of mine, halting my string of questions. He looks at me with concern. His palms are rougher and more calloused than I would have expected for someone like him, a server in an a premiere smokeroom like The Elysium.
“Sparrow,” he says, “I know you’re worried. I know how much you’ve risked to stay here for him, and how much danger you put yourself in every day for the chance to help him. But you can’t help him from here. All I can tell you is that he is alive and your message has been delivered. There’s nothing more you can do.”
I stare off into the distance, losing my thoughts in a haze of smoke and the starlight energy that brings people here, night after night, to enjoy each other’s company. But something doesn’t feel right. Even though I am a wanted criminal, and every step I take is fraught with danger, I know I can do more. With the Outsider network at my fingertips, and the people of Okaria asking questions—asking the right questions—the time has never been better to spread the Resistance’s message.
Maybe it’s time to revisit my footage from Round Barn.
Maybe it’s time to take down the Dragon.
4 - VALE
Spring 64, Sector Annum 106, 16h11
Gregorian Calendar: May 22
It’s been years since I called this place home. Alone in my old room I pace back and forth for what seems like hours. I stop and stare at the floor. Resume pacing. Stop and stare at the wall. Resume pacing. Examine the few belongings I left behind when I moved to my flat: some childhood toys and a pair of beat-up cleats are really all that’s left of my old life. Everything else is decoration. Even when I lived here for that short time after my father was elected chancellor, it never felt like mine. As soon as I was accepted to the SRI, I moved into my own flat and never looked back.
I give up and lie down, closing my eyes. I open them again a moment later, memorize the patterns on the ceiling, count the leaves I can see through the window, trace the grain of wood on my dresser. Once again I turn my focus inward, but my thoughts are as repetitive as the wallpaper. I wish they hadn’t taken Demeter from me, that I had someone to talk to, anyone. Hell, I’d even take Soren as a roommate just for some conversation.
It’s only been three days since I was permitted to regain full consciousness, and since then I’ve barely spoken to anyone. My parents have dropped by a few times to check in, but other than the two of them, a daily visit from the doctor, and a stone-faced servant who won’t so much as open her mouth, I’ve been in isolation. Locked in my room like a misbehaving child. Not even Aulion has come by to torture me, though in his case I’d take a year of solitude over a day with him.
My efforts to find out what happened to my teammates have gotten me nowhere. My mother answered my questions about my genetic alterations with all the enthusiasm of a scientist on the brink of a discovery. But when I ask about the raid on the Resistance base, my teammates who came to Okaria with me, or Remy, both she and my father have refused to talk.
“Vale,” my father had said, patting my shoulder with an awkwardness I’d never seen before. “We’re glad to have you back. But after everything, we can’t trust you with that information anymore.”
I managed to contain my frustration. Of course you can’t trust me, Dad. That’s why you won’t let me venture even into the kitchen. That’s why my bedroom window is bolted from the outside. That’s why you’re monitoring my every move.
I get up, trying to find something else to do beyond thinking the same thoughts, asking the same questions, running into the same dead ends. Yesterday, I requested a plasma to read on, searching for anything to stave off the boredom. My request was denied—plasmas are far too versatile, I suppose.
“You have a visitor.” I look up and see the silent housekeeper in the doorway. It’s the first time in twelve hours my bedroom door has been opened. “In the gardens. Follow me.”
I slip a t-shirt over my head and follow her down the hall, too surprised to respond. She leads me toward the fountain under the trellis, blooming with honeysuckle and wisteria, and turns back to the house. I glance around. A guard stands not far off, just out of earshot, and I wonder on whose account I’ve been allowed such freedom.
“Vale.”
I remember the last time I heard that voice, scared and confused, as she pleaded for us to turn ourselves in. It’s not what I want to remember. I dip my hands in the cool water of the fountain, resisting the ur
ge to lean over and dunk my whole face underwater.
“Hey.” I shake my hands off and face Moriana Nair. Drinking in the sight of her, one of the best friends I’ve ever known, I wonder what’s going through her mind. She’s cut her hair shorter now, and her bangs almost shroud her eyes. In tall boots and a simple white tunic she’s every bit as beautiful as I remember. If only Miah could see her now. Wearing a little frown and furrowed brows, she doesn’t look happy to see me. “It’s been a while.”
“What happened, Vale?” Her voice is low, accusatory.
I can’t help but look around, wondering if some miniscule drone is nearby, recording our conversation. How much is safe for me to say?
She takes a step forward. The trellis above us casts her figure in a shimmery interplay of sunlight and shadow. Moriana crosses her arms and keeps her distance. I know from one hard look that she doesn’t trust me. Even though I want to, I can’t trust her either. And I can’t ask the question burning on my tongue: Where does your loyalty lie?
“It’s a long story,” I say.
She takes a step closer, her expression full of recrimination.
“It’s not true, is it? What they said about Jeremiah.”
“No.”
“He didn’t kidnap you?”
“What do you think?”
“I don’t know what to think, Vale.” I’m surprised by the fury in her voice. In the light, she takes on a mythic quality: fierce and powerful. Her hands are clenched into fists at her sides, belying her anger. “Everybody has a different story. Seems like the truth is buried beneath a landslide of lies, and I don’t even know where to start digging.” She looks around the garden as if she’s unable—or unwilling—to look at me directly. “Even you. I thought you and Miah were my best friends. But then you just disappeared, ghosted. Without so much as a note.”
“We didn’t want to put you in danger. We had to leave.”
“And kick your best friend to the curb?” For a second she looks down, defeated, before lifting her chin again and glaring at me. Her words slice through me in a place I hadn’t expected. I had never thought about our leaving as a betrayal. We believed we were protecting her, not hurting her.
“Miah and I discovered things about the Sector that made us question everything. I had to find those who disappeared. I learned the truth about the SRI massacre, and it wasn’t pretty. If you want the truth, you have to dig, deeper than most are willing.”
“Why do you think I’m here?”
“Because my mother asked you to come.”
She shrugs, her fingers fluttering over the petals of a purple flower. I know I’m right by the way she shifts her glance away, a hint of embarrassment darkening her features.
“She did ask me, but—”
“You wouldn’t be allowed here if she didn’t trust you.”
“I’ve been asking to see you for weeks.”
That’s something. “What has she told you?”
“The same thing she’s told everyone. That Jeremiah kidnapped you, that he and his father took you to the Resistance and coerced you into working with them. That you managed to escape and make your way back to the Sector, but when they found you, you were sick and injured and it took you weeks to recover.”
I hadn’t heard that last bit. “And what part of that do you believe?”
She shakes her head. “None of it. Miah and his dad?” She sounds exasperated. “They were barely on speaking terms, and I’m supposed to believe they were long-time collaborators?”
“What do you want to know?” I ask, and motion for us to sit on the bench near the fountain. She sits beside me but keeps a healthy distance.
“Everything. Tell me what really happened.”
I nod. That much, I can do. After all, my enemies know the real story. Why shouldn’t Moriana? What do I have to lose? So I tell her everything.
“It started during a mission with the Seed Bank Protection Project. We were looking for Eli, but he got away. Instead, I came home with Remy and Soren Skaarsgard as prisoners.” Her eyes widen. She sits on her hands and listens to the rest of the story without interruption.
It’s not easy reliving the tale. The memory of Aulion slapping Remy across the face, her head snapping back against the pole, of him leaning over Soren’s already battered body …
My voice is thick: “Once I started asking these questions, I couldn’t stop until I had all the answers. I had to tell someone, but you were too close to Corine. You wouldn’t have believed me. So I told Miah, and he agreed we had to leave.”
I can tell she still isn’t satisfied.
“Moriana, the Sector is murdering people. By my own mother’s command. Once I told Miah what I’d discovered, his life was in danger. We couldn’t risk putting you in danger, too.”
“Why didn’t you take me with you?”
I can’t bring myself to say aloud what Moriana already knows.
After a few seconds of silence, she turns away. “Is it because you didn’t trust me? Neither of you trusted me.”
“It’s not that simple.”
“It is that simple. You should have told me.” There’s no forgiveness in her voice.
“We wanted to tell you, but it was more important to keep you safe.”
“Keep me safe?” she spits. “You think I was safe after you left without a word? You think the Watchmen left me alone? Believed I didn’t know anything? Believed my boyfriend and my best friend wouldn’t trust me enough to tell me something?”
“We were trying—”
“Don’t tell me what you were trying to do, Vale. Let me tell you what you did do. You left me alone. To face the consequences of your actions.”
Silence.
“Did you fight with the Resistance?” she asks, her voice hard-edged. “For them?”
“Yes.”
“Why?”
Images dart like minnows through my mind. Remy’s cold, confused face the last time I saw her before she left Okaria. Soren and Remy tied to a pole, abused and broken. Blue lightning crashing through Brinn’s body, Gabriel kneeling over her. Fire raining down on starving Farm workers as they scattered, screaming, trying to escape the Dragon’s flames. Destroyed fields, hollowed-out mountains, and poisoned water.
I reach out and take Moriana’s hand, twine her long, slender fingers with mine. I make eye contact and refuse to look away. “I believe there is a moment of reckoning, when we each come to our own understanding of the truth.”
“You don’t understand what a threat the Resistance poses.”
I squeeze her hands. “I’ve come to realize that it is just the opposite.”
She curls her lip in disbelief. “There has to be some kind of misunderstanding. You told me earlier that your mom killed Tai and Brinn, but that can’t be true. Your mom has been nothing but great to me. She made sure the Watchmen didn’t get rough when they questioned me. She kept the media from hounding me. She was there for me over and over again when you and Jeremiah weren’t. She wouldn’t hurt anyone.”
I stand abruptly, and run my fingers through my hair. Made sure no one got rough? Wasn’t it Moriana’s voice in the microphone the night I was captured? They’ll kill me, too, they’re going to destroy everyone …
“Moriana, when was the last time you spoke to Jeremiah?” If you believed Corine would never do anything to hurt you, why did you say they were going to kill you?
She looks up at me, blank-faced. “The Solstice, of course. That was the last time I saw him.”
“I didn’t ask when you saw him,” I say, too sharply, and she narrows her eyes. “When did you last speak to him?”
“Don’t play word games with me, Vale. I haven’t heard his voice since the Solstice.”
“Where were you the night I supposedly escaped and made my way back home?”
She is silent for a moment as she thinks.
“I was at the lab. Corine had me working on a project late that night. I heard about everything on the Sector broadc
ast the next morning.”
“You weren’t at your apartment that night? Think carefully.”
“No, I’m sure of it. Why? Is it important?”
The whole thing comes together in my mind, like a blurry picture coming into clear focus. Moriana wasn’t at home, and she certainly wasn’t being tortured by my mother and father, who wouldn’t want to hurt a potential ally. She was never on the line with us that night at all. Moriana’s life was never in danger. Someone must have scanned her vocal patterns and used them to create a perfect imitation of a terrified Moriana Nair. What better way to bait me and Jeremiah, after all? Corine would’ve protected her; she wants Moriana on her side. But that wouldn’t stop her from using Moriana to get to us.
I shake my head. “Maybe it’s not.”
She stands, wringing her hands. “I have to go. I’ve stayed too long already. I’m expected back at the lab.”
“Will you be back?” I dread the answer.
“I don’t know.” She turns and disappears through the garden, casting a long shadow in the late afternoon sun.
The silent housekeeper must have been in my room while I was gone because everything is spotless, except for a short stack of old books on my bedside table. They must have given into my pleas for some kind of entertainment. I rub my temple, the conversation I just had with Moriana ringing in my ears. I take a long breath, quelling the surging headache, and pick up a book.
The chancellor’s mansion has about four hundred books in the library collected over the years from abandoned schools, homes, and universities. The book in hand turns out to be Les Misérables by Victor Hugo, a book I’d read while at the Academy. I decide that brushing up on my Old French will be a good distraction.
I thumb through the pages and come to one of the parts where Marius and Enroljas are rallying their friends to join the student revolution. I can’t help but think about when Remy and I did the same with the Farm workers only two months ago, dreaming of something better, just like these students in ancient Paris.