I gripped her hips and between her sinking down on me and my thrust, I settled my cock deep in her. I felt her begin to rock her hips but grabbed her waist a little tighter than I should force her to still.
"But," her innocent eyes locked on mine as I saw them pool with tears.
"That's not what I wanted, time for you pretty girl to listen." This needed to go just right or I'm about to fuck up royally.
"Whatever is going on in that pretty head of yours get rid of it. I've spent the last few months bending over backward for you and I'm done. I love you, Cara." I felt her shift and tears slipped from her eyes.
"I am crazy and you've been seeing(hiccup)…Niki." I watched her for a moment try to calm the hiccups and I rubbed her back. Her bra was in my way, I unhooked it and took it off.
"Whatever she's told you forget it, Cara, erase that fucked up shit from your head." I took her face in my hands and forced her to look at me. "Look at us, you feel me. Cara, what are we?" I asked hoping she would get it.
"You're (hiccup)… inside me." She's not getting it.
"No Cara Mia, we are connected you and I. It's not for sex, I mean yeah we do that…anyways it's you and me. Meaning we are a package deal…with one comes the other."
"But, I saw (hiccup)… her thong is (hiccup)… I'm confused Jordan (hiccup)." I wiped the tears from her face.
“Pretty girl, don't think about what I tell you or what anyone tells you. Think about what you see. My actions on top of her actions." I could see the confusion all over her face as her eyes began searching.
"You love me, the tattoos, but I see her here and I don't know Jordan." She spoke so quickly I almost missed half of it before her hiccups picked up in full force. It felt weird to be embedded to the hilt inside her while she hiccupped.
"Cara Mia, I love you. Niki is a pain in my fucking ass. I don't want her in my life I want you. I don't want you to leave my house. I'll take whatever you give me as long as you trust me and love me." Please, let her just trust me.
My cock was rock hard as she was thinking. Time ticked and just about killed me.
"Cara, you keep questioning me over and over. It's about killed me, pretty girl. I hate that you don't trust me. I get it, she scares you, but I'll do anything to earn you trust." I cup her cheeks and kiss her deeply.
CARA
My chest hurt as I tried to calm my hiccups. I felt Jordan's cock twitch inside me. Who do I believe? I'm so confused and it hurts. He says he loves me.
"Jordan, what do I do. I don't want to go, but I'm so confused it hurts. I love you so much. But she's here telling me you need her. She smelled like you."
"You're killing me, pretty girl, I don't know what I have to do to prove myself to you. Please ask me to do anything and I'll do it. I’ll tell you everything. Niki brushed me and I forced her to leave. I don't want her. Fuck me! Cara, what can I do for you to just fucking trust me." He looked broken and I could see sadness all over his face.
"I know enough about your relationship with her and I hate it. I hate her Jordan and I fear that I'm too broken."
"Fuck Cara, I don't care. As long as I have you that's all that matters." I took in a deep breath. "Please if anything trust my actions over my words."
I thought about all that Jordan had done for me since I met him. All I could think of was that he loved me. He did everything to prove it.
I had to shift again. Having his dick inside me was driving me crazy and I needed to move. What I really needed was for him to finish was he had started this morning.
Did I want to go stay with Amber? Could I trust him, his actions?
"Jordan I hate her, I don't want her in our lives at all. I don't want you around her period. It messes me up. I'm jealous of what you two had at one point." Jordan shifted and pulled me in for a kiss.
"I love you and want you in my life. I'll do anything for you, Cara. I've done everything. I've never lied to you; I don't hide my work from you even when I know I should to protect you from it." I couldn't help the smile that crossed my face, but he doesn’t tell me everything.
“You don’t tell me everything, you can’t. Why are you gone for hours late at night some days?” It was something.
“I have a confidential job yes. I tell you want I can on that. Early on Monday, Wednesday and Friday, I’m in school.” What?
“School for what?”
“For you. I’m taking courses to understand PTSD. The same Jessica took for her certificate.” No way.
“Really!” I didn’t mean to get excited.
“Yes really, I want to be someone you can go to and to be able to really help you. I’ll do whatever it takes to keep you in my life, Cara.” I had to think for a moment.
“That book she gave you, can we get rid of it.”
“Tyler does great things with fire, but I’ll let you rip out some pages. I’ll do the rest.” I scrunched my face.
“Why?” Jordan dropped his head.
“I found hidden pages.” Oh, yeah those.
“I’ve seen them.” There’s shame all over Jordan’s expression.
“What do you mean you’ve seen them.” I’m not an idiot.
“The pages that open inside at the spine. I’ve seen those pictures. The nasty ones of your…” Jordan puts a hand over my mouth. I think for a moment about licking his hand.
“I’m so sorry for those. I was an idiot for them. I can’t believe you’ve seen them, Cara. I’m so ashamed.” I could hold them over his head, but why.” I pull back from him and move off his lap.
“Jordan that was you then, this is you now.” I drop to my knees in front of him and grab his dick in my hand.
“Cara you don’t have to…oh shit.” I take him into my mouth and release him with a popping sound. I take a second and run my tongue around his piercing.
“You’re mine right. Only mine.” I state right before I take him back into my mouth. I’m careful when I run my teeth along his length.
“Only yours and watch your teeth.” I release him again and he grabs my chin.
“Come back up here.” I get back on his lap and place him back inside me.
"You’re only mine." I had to shift. I needed him.
“Only yours pretty girl, but you can’t leave me.”
"Jordan I'll stay, but do me a favor."
"Anything pretty girl."
"Are you done talking about this, cause if we are can you please fuck me now. I can't handle this position anymore if you’re not going to fuck me." I know if I'm going to get it for cursing.
"You sure you want me to fuck you now. Pretty girl, I won't be slow or soft, but hard and rough." He shifted his hips thrusting his dick deeper into me. Which I thought was impossible.
"Please." Next thing I know Jordan moved me on my back and pulled out of me. I watched him kick off his shoes and take off his pants.
"You promise me you’re not leaving," I smiled and let out a giggle.
"I promise, but you better prove to me you want me. You said actions over words. Fuck me and prove you love me." I wasn't sure if that was a good idea but that else could I say.
"I hope you can handle that pretty girl?"
CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
Jordan called Tyler before we left. He told me that Tyler was with the MC right now, but we could meet them at the main house. I’m guessing that was where I went first.
We stopped and ate burgers before going over to meet with Tyler. I wasn’t sure what was going to happen but I was happy Jordan brought the book with him. I wasn’t allowed to touch it until we got there. Jordan kept saying he was sorry for those nasty pictures. I mean I can’t blame him for them.
“I know I made a promise not to leave you, but if you say you’re sorry for those nasty pictures one more time I will leave. I’ll go stay with Amber do you fucking hear me?” I told him because all he was doing was reminding me of them.
“Okay, I’m done. You’re not going to my sister’s and I am keeping track of your swearing.” Oh p
lease.
“You just keep the tally because you like to spank me.” I hear him laugh.
“Yes, and you like it to. Especially since I fuck you when I’m done.” I feel my cheeks warm. “I bet if I reached between your legs I’d find you so fucking wet for me Cara.”
“Jordan, you’re not helping.” He let out another laugh.
“I guess I’ll have to fuck you later.” I looked out the window as we arrived at the MC house.
Sierra and Brandon walk outside to meet us. I hop out of the truck and wait for Jordan to round it. He stretches his arm out to me and I take his hand.
“I hear you need our land out back and Tyler’s pyrotechnics. This could be fun.” Brandon began to laugh.
“You just want to see him set off fun colors into the sky like he did that one night.” Sierra whacked his arm.
“Hell yes, I do woman. It was wicked. All sorts of colors with the flames. Hell yes. I mean it's why we keep that cooled shed in the back. It’s all his.” I just shake my head as Tyler runs up to us.
“Dude the sun needs to go down before we can get this party started, but I got something set up out back that you would like. Well beautiful, you would like it.” I smile at him.
“Well, why don’t we go inside. I mean that’s where everyone else is.” We follow them inside and into the bar area.
At the tables, I see Justin, Rachel, and Kristina. Rachel jumps to her feet and walks over to use. I think for a moment she wants to see Jordan. Her eyes scan our joined hands.
“Jordan as much as I do adore you, I want to steal your girl for a moment.” She gives me a big smile.
“Should I be worried about this?” Jordan says and Rachel laughs.
“You worried I might keep her. I mean I don’t know if she swings my way, but hey if she grabbed your attention she must be worth it.” Jordan drops his head to, I guess, look at the floor, and shakes it side to side laughing.
“After earlier, I think she’s mine and you can’t take her.” There’s this strange smile on his face.
“Oh darn, I wanted to teach her how to make my cherry cokes.” Oh hell no. I let go of his hand.
“Sorry Jordan, I have to go with her. I want to learn this.” I giggle.
“Really, a chick stole my woman. How’s this fair?” I can’t help but giggle more.
“No, a cherry coke stole me. I’ll be back, promise.” He gives me a smile.
“Go on, but I’m watching you two. Justin, we need to talk.” There’s that scary voice I haven’t heard in a while. I follow Rachel to the area she was at last time. It’s like a mini bar compared to the other side of the room.
“Why is there two sides to the bar?” Rachel looks over at the other bar where Jordan has gone to with Justin. I love how Justin looks frightened.
“That side we can lock up if we know children will be here. This side doesn’t lock up. I think this side is better anyway. “We get to the area and I follow her behind the counter. I watch her pull out some items as Kristina walk over.
“How are you doing Cara?” I think about it for a moment.
“I think me and Jordan are great. I just wish I could get rid of my nightmares now.” Kristina pressed her lips together and taps the table.
“What’s the problem in your dreams?” Hmmm, I think about this for a second as I watch what Rachel does.
“The shadow person in my dreams. I don’t know who it is.” Kristina laughs and Rachel stops what she’s doing and grabs my shoulders hard. Then she shakes me. She actually shakes me.
I hear the sound of a chair falling over. I can’t turn to see who it is. There’s a loud commotion.
“Jordan, you stay right there,” Kristina yells at him. Rachel literally puts her nose against mine.
“Is the shadow male for female?” I think for a moment.
“Female, the voice is high pitched.” I think it's female, but I could be wrong. Rachel pulls back so I can see her better.
“Then you tell that bitch to back the fuck off. Slap her, fight her, do what it takes.” Easier said than done.
“I’m dreaming and each time I’m tied to the bed.” She spins me around so fast that we almost knock heads. Rachel pulls me back flush against her body.
“Do you see that gorgeous man standing right there?” She points to Jordan and then wiggles her finger at him. I watch Jordan walk over to us. He looks just as confused as I am.
“Yes, I do.” She then puts her head on my shoulder.
“Take your shirt off for me Jordan.” Her voice is sweet like honey. I listen to her and am about to protest when he strips it off. “Now turn so we can see your new scar.”
Jordan turns and I can see the scar on his side. It’s a reminder that in trying to save me he could’ve lost his life.
“Come closer please,” Rachel says to him and I now want to slap her. Jordan moves to stand in front of me. Rachel slides her hand down my right arm and takes my hand in hers.
I’ve never really touched his scar. Rachel forces me to trace the scarring. I can feel all the bumps and ridges of it. Then she takes my hand and places it over his heart. I can feel her breath on my ear.
“Do you feel that? I mean I can feel his heart beating. How can someone in your dream keep you from this? He saved you, then Ryan killed Travis for you. Whoever she is in your dream fight it. It’s your dream you dictate whether you’re tied to a bed or not.” Rachel then kisses my cheek and let’s go of my hand.
I look up at Jordan who has a smile on his face. I step closer to him and move my hand to pull him to me for a quick kiss.
“Okay now put your shirt back on.” Everyone laughs at me, but I laugh with them. I spend my time with Rachel and Kristina even Sierra comes over to us.
JORDAN
It was nice to hear her laughing again. I’m sitting on a stool next to Justin as Brandon talks. I think from the conversation it's worth looking into. Little situations that might need the services of my company.
Tyler was then talking about getting a house. He’s been staying here as far as I know. I think it has a lot to do with his past.
“You finally find a house?”
“Yeah, I need to get out of here and on my own. Hell, I have enough money saved that I bought the place outright.”
“That’s great Tyler. You were great to have here, but you do need your own place. I mean shit I don’t even live here.” Brandon has never lived at the MC’s main house.
“Hey, Justin I want to talk with you now.” I turn to give him my attention.
“Sure man, what is it?” I know he’s scared of me.
“Dude chill. I won’t correct your nose again. I just wanted to personally thank you for the help you have given Cara.” He nods his head and looks up at me, finally.
“It’s no big deal man. I mean I could see the wall that she’s built up. I just wanted to help. I have no intentions to step on you and your woman.” He offers me his hand and we shake on it.
“Well, it’s been helpful. I just hope after tonight that this is all done and over with. I’m so tired of these rounds we play.” Tyler looks at me around Justin with an eyebrow raised.
“You talk with Niki yet and get rid of that issue?” Damn it.
“Niki, why does that name sound familiar.” I’m now staring at Justin. “What’s her full name?”
“Nicole Ann Marie Rivers, why?” Now he has peaked my curiosity. He seems to be thinking something.
“What does she look like?” I happen to have that damn book with me so I open to one of the most decent photos of her. “I know her. I mean I know a guy who.” His eyes go wide and he hops off the chair. Justin backs away from me.
“Justin speak now!” Brandon barks the order at him.
“I know a guy. He showed me photos he was commissioned to take of her. It was a job someone paid him big money to handle.” That freaking explains the photo’s she had, not only of herself but with me.
“That answers a lot of questions.” I run my ha
nd through my hair.
“He’s good at his job Jordan. I mean no one would have a clue that he took the photos or anything. He’s a spook.” Well, that would cover why the twins had no idea where the photos were coming from.
“Do you have a way to get in touch with this man?” Justin takes another step back from me.
“Dude I won’t fucking break your nose.” He gives me this look like I’m talking bullshit to him.
“Yeah I don’t trust you on that. Last time you gave me a black eye and when I thought things were cool you broke my nose.” Tyler, Brandon and I all broke into laughter.
“Yeah, I did do that. Dude, you have to understand though you deserved it.” He stops.
“You say that now, but I don’t know if you wouldn’t do it again.”
“I said I won’t, scouts honor.” His eyes squint.
“I don’t trust that, how about on Cara’s honor.” What the hell! “Come on I’m legit here.”
“Fine on Cara’s honor I won’t break your nose again.” He comes back and takes his seat.
“You do realize man I had two black eyes and a bruise that lasted longer than a month. Hell, I got to keep my good looks up if I want to get laid.”
“Justin, I’m surprised with as much as you act like an idiot that you get laid at all.” Sierra and the girls came over to us. Cara came up by my side and I hopped off the stool. I picked her up and sat her on the bar top.
“You do know I can stand just fine.” She tells me with a straw between her lips.
“Yes, but I want you here.”
“You’re something sometimes and Justin you’re not a pussy so stop acting like one. You shouldn’t be afraid of Jordan anymore.” Did she just say the word pussy?
“Cara Mia you should be damn lucky you’re sitting on that ass or I would smack it for saying pussy.” She turned to me and sets down her cup.
“If I want to say pussy I can say pussy. I mean the last time checked I have a pussy so what’s the big problem if I say pussy.” The way she rolls her head at me makes the fact that she's trying to make a point is cute as hell. I can’t help it and laughed.
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