IGMS - Issue 12

by IGMS

  Was the water in the pool darker than the night sky? It wasn't possible; but the water was darker, and the pool wasn't a pool, it was a cave, and it was deeper than the Earth was wide, darker than the butt-backside of the moon. Evan curled his toes against the concrete surrounding the pool.

  If he touched the water; if he dipped into it, let it swirl over his head; if, if, if! The water was cold on the tips of his fingers, cold up to his elbows as he leaned over. He was hot, he was flaming, flaring, roasting, and the pool was dark and lovely and cool. Cool pool, I'm a fool on a stool, she's a jewel by the sea, my Annabel Lee.

  Evan kissed the surface, and his eyelashes brushed drops of water into his eyes. Fingers, hands, elbows, arms, face, now for his shoulders, then his back, his hips, his legs and feet and toes, all in, all within the beautiful, foul water, drifting downward forever, to the end of the world.

  No dare, this time. This time, he'd go in on his own, go in to stay, forget the summer that no longer buzzed in his bones. Suck in water and scum, meet Annabel Lee, or whoever, beneath the waves, the water, and give up, give in.

  Evan opened his eyes. There was only darkness beneath his face. But he could feel movement down there; the water trembled, and in the darkness, in the deepness, his lips and cheeks knew that the movement had the shape of a hand, a lovely, long-fingered, hand, soft as algae, sweet as . . .

  "No," Evan whispered, and withdrew. His head and shoulders and arms were wet, but the rest of his body stretched out long on the concrete, toes pointing toward the pool-house.

  The end of the world lay beneath the water, waiting. Something damp and light hung between his upper lip and nose; Evan reached for it, plucked it away. A light, brittle body, even after hours in the pool. A dead wasp.

  Evan fled. The water chuckled after him, touching, touching the sides of the pool.

  The pool-house was full of dead wasps. Their bodies crunched under Evan's feet as he crossed to the windows, gagging on the stink of the bug bombs they'd set off. Grant followed him with a push broom, clearing swaths of concrete of the hard red and black bodies. The windows were jammed; Evan hammered on them to get them to rise, and by the time they did, his head was spinning and his nose was burning. He stuck his head out of the pool-house and sucked in the fresh air.

  And refused to look at the black, blank pool.

  Grant had swept the dead wasps into a pile, and was flicking them one by one into an open drain on the floor. "Maybe it doesn't want to drown you. Maybe it wants a . . . consort."

  "Concubine."

  "Boy-toy." Grant used the toe of his flip-flop to kick some of the wasps into the drain hole. "What if it's a merman?"

  And then they were quiet. Grant brushed the rest of the pile of wasps into the drain, and Evan brought in another broom to knock the nests down from the corners of the room. The open windows didn't let in much air, and the room was hot and sticky. They cleaned the walls and the floor, the lockers and shower stall. All the grit, and the spiders, and the remaining wasps, all were swept into the drain and washed down with the garden hose. The drain gurgled and bubbled, then the mess disappeared down its throat.

  "Folderol," Evan said, staring at the drain as the mess of dirt and cobwebs and dead wasps throbbed and chuckled at him.

  Grant said automatically, "Balderdash."

  "Malarky."

  Deep foulness, stinking, lovely water, whispering, and what did it whisper for him? The end of the world, the end of Dad, of Uncle Hector and Grant, and summer, and everything; the end of Evan, within the warm water.

  Grant turned the hose on him, holding his thumb over the end so it sprayed out hard. It caught Evan on the side of the head. "Wakey, wakey, Evie."

  Evan wrestled the hose away from Grant, and chased him out of the pool house. They horsed around until Dad came from the porch and yelled at them to quit wasting water. Grant sprinted to the faucet and turned it off. He thumped the side of his head with his palm to dislodge the water in his ears, grinning at Evan all the while.

  But Evan knew there was plenty of water, a world of it, within that pool. And at the very deepest, sand all the way to the bottom of the universe.

  "There's sand at the bottom," Evan blurted. "Why would anyone put sand at the bottom of a pool? It can't drain, it can't . . ."

  "We should go look," Grant said. He stretched his arms above his head like he was reaching for the sun.

  "No. It's dark down there, anyway. The deeper I went, the darker it got, until I couldn't even see the surface."

  "We could wrap our flashlights in duct tape."

  "No." But yes, into the dark again, into the quiet, yes, lovely fingers reaching for my face, reaching for me. Drain hole by the sea, my Annabel Lee, burbling, gurgling forever in the dark. He sucked in and held the air until his lungs burned. He let it out in a whoosh. Expel the pool, purge the darkness, poof! Fill the end of the world pool with a gutful of summer breath.

  "I'm going," Grant said.

  Evan caught up with him at the tent. Grant was shucking off his shoes and jeans. He was wearing his swimming trunks underneath. He'd been planning this, planning to dive into the pool all along. Grant found his flashlight, flicked it on, off, on again. Off at last.

  "That water is really disgusting," Evan ventured.

  "I'll keep my mouth closed."

  It wouldn't matter. Evan knew. The water would creep into Grant through his ears, through the ends of his blonde hair, through his skin. It would seep and creep into Grant, and when whatever-it-was touched him, it would steal summer out of him, too. And how could there be another birthday dare if there was no summer ever again, in either of them?

  Evan stood in front of the tent flap. "No."

  "Get out of the way," said Grant. The tent was too small for him to stand up in, but he moved forward, pushing his arms against Evan's chest.

  Evan shoved him back into the tent.

  "Stop it," Grant said. A bit of a whine flickered in his voice. He tried to stand, but Evan grabbed him by his shoulders and pushed him back.

  And this time Grant didn't try to stand. He crouched, and lunged at Evan, catching him around the midsection. Evan wheeled back and lost his balance. Grant fell with him, and, in a moment, they were scraping and scratching at each other, rolling in the grass and hot sun. Grant slammed the butt of the flashlight into the small of Evan's back once, twice, before Evan clipped the side of Grant's face with his elbow. But somehow, Evan wound up beneath Grant, covering his face while Grant aimed punches at him.

  Grant stopped trying to hit him. He got up, and Evan uncovered his face. A dark bruise was forming beneath Grant's left eye. He wiped some grit off his face and turned to the pool. Like that was all, like this was over, and in the past it would have been. That's the way it was, and sometimes in the past, it had been Evan on top, to get up and walk off silently. In a couple of hours, Grant would come back and apologize, and . . .

  Not this time. There'd be no apology if Grant kissed that water. So Evan didn't let him walk off. He rushed forward and tackled Grant from behind. Evan ploughed forward, squeezing with his arms, pushing with his legs, jerking Grant viciously to the side to try and throw him off his feet.

  Grant cried out as he fell. The sound of it broke across Evan's ears -- he was hurting Grant; Grant his best friend since they'd been babies, Grant his cousin, Grant who knew about the cigar he'd stolen from Dad's boss, Grant who meant summer to Evan. Grant who had never cried like this before. And yet, and yet, if Evan didn't stop him, the water, the darkness, and the end of the world!

  Evan had jumped Grant from behind, and now he was going to betray him worse, as he brought up his knee like a girl would, right between Grant's legs. It was the end of the world already, this fighting with Grant, hurting him like this, but at least Grant wouldn't breathe that water through his ears, through his skin.

  Evan's knee caught Grant's thigh. Grant slipped back, pushing with his arms and digging with his feet to get away from him. Evan scrambled after, tr
ying to pin him, but he was too fast. Evan saw Grant's fist curl, and the hard glint in his eyes. Pain exploded in Evan's groin. He sagged to the ground.

  Grant panted, "Stay down this time." His flip-flops popped and smacked as he turned and walked away from Evan. Toward the pool.

  Evan wanted to stay down. The pain between his legs crept slowly into his stomach and lower back. Stay down, stay down, three minutes and forty two seconds is all it should take to satisfy Grant's curiosity. Evan held his crotch and rolled and watched the ground dip away to blue sky and clouds and gnats wheeling above him.

  He heard a splash from the direction of the pool. Start counting now, he thought, one Mississippi, two Mississippi, three . . .

  Evan got to his knees. His balls felt as big as grapefruits as he walked, as he waddled, to the stinking hole, the end-of-the-world pool. Sepulchre by the sea, Annabel Lee.

  Without bothering to strip off his jeans or his shirt, Evan dropped through the scum on the top of the pool. The water was as slick and warm as it had been yesterday. Darkness was just beyond his fingertips, and somewhere below that, Grant.

  And something else, something with fingers, and lips, and if it touched him, he'd scream his lungs out.

  It was harder to swim down this time. He couldn't kick at all, and had to rely on his arms. He was tired from fighting Grant, and from working all morning long in the pool-house. The darkness seemed always out of reach, and the taste of the pool was in his mouth this time, really there, not just somehow-seeped through his ears. Down, and down, and down!

  Something hard bumped against his fingertips and spun away. Grant's flashlight. Evan chased after it, caught it. Its beam seemed diffuse and weak -- but still. Hope against the darkness. Evan swung the beam toward the bottom of the pool.

  The darkness no longer moved away. It surged up and over him in a rush. The flashlight's beam guttered and ceased. Nothing, nothing but deepness and darkness and silence, and no wonder Grant had let go of it, it was so useless. Worse, it was like the bait that those deep sea fish used to lure other fish into their mouths, a little bit of hope, a little bit of bouncing light, hello, goodbye!

  A hand on his chest, soft and cool. It slid upward, to his throat, and though Evan screamed like he'd known he would, he never ran out of air, and those fingers traced his open lips, his eyes, his ears, and the back of his neck.

  Two!

  The voice thumped through the pool, and as it spoke, Evan felt the fingers on the back of his neck give a little stroke, teasing the hair there.

  Two boys!

  Evan wasn't floating any longer. He wasn't buoyant. He was sinking. He flailed and kicked, but the hand drew him down delicately, softly, until he felt sand. But it wasn't sand, couldn't be, because his toes were passing through it too easily.

  Quiet, quiet!

  The sand sucked at Evan's waist, climbing his lower back now, colder than the water, slick and gritty all at once. The hand on his neck drifted up to play with the hair on the top of his head, and to press him ever-so-gently deeper in. Evan struck and writhed in the silence.

  And felt his open palm slap someone. Flesh! His fingers knew what flesh felt like. Evan could feel Grant's short hair, soft as rabbit fur in the water. He was up to his chest in the sand.

  Two boys! Sweet playmates, for me, for me, under the waves, under the sea!

  The voice giggled and rhymed as Evan struggled. Be, sea, me, lee, free, on and on. Evan locked his arms around Grant's chest and pulled. He didn't succeed in doing anything but forcing himself farther down. And Grant didn't move, he just hung limp and placid in the sand. Evan tugged on him again, kicking his legs in the sand for purchase, yanking on Grant's torso until his back burned with the effort.

  Hush! Hush!

  He wouldn't hush. This wasn't the ocean, this wasn't a cave, this was a scummy pool filled with algae and stagnant water and mosquito larva, and there were no waves, and Annabel Lee was dead in Poe's poem. She didn't hunt after the boy she'd loved in childhood, she didn't try to drown him, and anyway, what girl had Grant or Evan ever loved?

  Alone! Alone!

  The hand on Evan's head withdrew, and with it, the darkness. For a moment, Evan caught sight of something swimming in the water. A long, naked body; a slender woman with pale hair that spread over Evan and threatened to touch his face. A bulbous mass hung beneath her waist, something obscenely chubby and . . . clutching. She was gone in a flicker of whiteness, down to the sand.

  And Evan was drowning in the murk, buried up to his ribs. All the aches of the day, his crotch and lungs, doubled into him. Evan gagged and surged, struggling out of the gripping, greedy sand. Grant's limbs were as limp as ever, jouncing idly at Evan's movements. A little, clear bubble of air hung in Grant's open mouth. Evan watched it, even as he fought up, fought against the burning in his chest, the ominous pop-pop-pop in his brain. That bubble of air, that was Grant's soul, and if it fled into this foul water, Grant would be gone, deader than dead, with no more sense or will than a blob of green algae.

  The bubble trembled against the edge of Grant's teeth. It was slipping, slipping . . .

  Evan did the only thing he could think of. He put his mouth over Grant's, and held it there. Grant's soul would be safe, summer would be safe, closed up in the space between their mouths, protected against the end of the world, and the hostile water.

  Sand churned around them, but now Grant's legs were coming free. Evan strained and lifted and drew him up, drew him out, and sucked a piece of his soul into his throat. It tasted like rain and woodsmoke, heavy, vibrant, and Evan breathed it back forcefully. Ram it down, that was the idea, push it so deep into Grant's chest that it would never come free, never, never.

  It wasn't as far as he remembered to the surface. Lights glared through the water -- one, two, three suns, burning through the scum. Evan dragged himself and Grant toward them.

  Shadows loomed over them suddenly, and thick hands plunged through the algae to tear Grant out of Evan's arms. Then more hands were grasping at Evan. Not Dad's hands -- not this time. A tall stranger pulled him out of the water and hauled him over to the edge. The smell of burning diesel choked the air.

  Grant! Evan tried to say, but vomited dark water instead. Grant gurgled and barfed to his left, and someone murmured words of comfort and amazement. Evan heard the stomp of Uncle Hector's heavy boots, and the pop and smack of Dad's sandals, and then they were there, grabbing them, huddling them together so tight that Evan had to struggle to get to the edge of the pool to vomit again. Grant, too.

  "We couldn't find you under there," Dad was babbling. He scrubbed his hands through Evan's hair. "We heard you go in, and then . . ."

  Uncle Hector said, "Next year, no pools. No water at all, I swear, it's the Mojave Desert for us. We'll camp at the salt flats for the whole summer."

  The pool was shallow now. A fat hose draped over the other side, drawing the water down steadily, to the thrum and buzz of a pump. Evan could see the black water gushing out of the back of the pump in a furious stream.

  Someone came and put a blanket over Evan, and shined a tiny flashlight in his eyes, and coaxed them all away from the edge of the pool. And then Grant was next to him, and they sat shoulder to shoulder, sniffling, until Grant put his arm around Evan, and it was an apology, it was gratitude. It was more. It was summer. Evan had held Grant's breath in his throat, he'd pushed life back into him, and here it came around again, warm and sweet. Straight from Grant's skin, through Evan's, right to his own very bloodstream, buzzing directly to his bones.

  And behind them the pump droned on, sucking the black water in and spitting it out, out, out. Out into the darker night.

  Hologram Bride: Part One

  by Jackie Gamber

  Artwork by Julie Dillon

  Between 1908 and 1924, over 20,000 Asian women immigrated to Hawaii to marry Japanese sugar plantation workers. Strong restrictions in immigration laws forced workers to arrange marriages on photographs only. The U.S. Immigration a
ct of 1924 abruptly stopped these arrangements, but by 1930 picture bride unions birthed over 100,000 offspring--a powerful presence in what would become the 50th state of the union.

  Mama Iris put her wrinkled hand over the words in my book and bent to peer into my eyes. "You're no longer a child," she said.

  I pulled my book out from under her hand, spun in my chair, and pretended not to listen.

  "They won't extend another year," she said. "You've known this day was coming."

  They. The Alliance Government, she meant, and they were kicking me out. Tomorrow was my 20th birthday, and I would no longer be an Alliance ward. For two years Mama Iris had manipulated a loophole to extend my wardship in the orphanage while I taught Kindergarten, but those same two years I'd been repeatedly turned down for a permanent teaching post. "I don't see why they won't let me stay," I said, closing my book. "I'm a good teacher."

  "You're the best teacher I've had for the little ones," said Mama Iris.

  "This is the only home I've ever known, why doesn't that mean anything to them?"

  Mama Iris sighed. "I don't know." She hobbled to the window and stared down into the street. Gray clouds crippled the sunlight, but it managed to squeeze through the dusty pane and deepen the furrows of her face.

  She tapped her cane against the glass. Ash that had settled on the outside sill puffed into the air and sifted away. "The sickness will come to you out there, Karla. Tomorrow you will face the world without ventilated air, without breathing treatments. Without medicine."

  "Are you trying to frighten me?"

  Her knob of silver hair wobbled when she nodded. "I suppose I am."