Spirits of the Noh

by Thomas Randall

  Kara stood up, swung her guitar around to hang across her back from its strap, and turned to face him.

  “Oh, I’m hiding something? I guess that means I’m the one who promised we’d start over together, that we’d be a team. Wait, no, I don’t think that was me after all. Just like it isn’t me telling the first woman to come along that he’s in love with her, but not letting his daughter in on that little detail. So much for the team supreme!”

  Her father flinched. “That’s what this is about?”

  Kara grabbed her keys and cell phone off her bureau, stalked toward him, and faced off with her father at the threshold to her room.

  “Remember what you said, Dad? You said we were doing this for Mom as much as we were for us.” She gritted her teeth to keep from crying, hating the uncontrollable emotions surging up inside her but unable to put the brakes on. “So much for that!”

  She started toward him and her father stepped aside, then seemed to think better of it and pursued her down the short hall and across the living room toward the front door.

  “Kara, stop. You’re not going anywhere,” he said, voice stern.

  At the door she turned, guitar still hanging across her back. “I need some me time, Dad. But you’re all about the me time lately, so I’m sure you understand. I’m going to go find a quiet place to sit and play my guitar.”

  “I’m not sure it’s safe,” he said. “I don’t want you out after dark, Kara. Those kids—”

  “It’s not dark yet,” she retorted, though night would not be far off. “Besides, they’re runaways, remember? And I’m not running away,” she said, voice breaking. “I don’t have anywhere else to go.”

  She slammed the door on her way out.

  7

  At the rear of the dormitory, on the first floor, the students’ dining room faced the narrow strip of lawn and the deep woods beyond. The boarding students at Monju-no-Chie school ate breakfast and dinner—and picked up their bento boxes for lunch—in this room, and some commuting students had special meal plans that allowed them to eat there as well if they were arriving early for school or leaving late for home.

  During the day, the tall windows provided a pretty, though limited, view, and even now at dusk, the well-maintained grounds and shadowed woods had an air of quiet peace. But when the night arrived in full, the windows would turn black. Very little moonlight made it into the gap between the rear of the dorm and the thick pines behind it. Once, it wouldn’t have bothered Miho at all. But now she didn’t like to be down here after dark. Not by herself.

  Fortunately, she wasn’t alone.

  “It’s very sweet of you to help me like this,” she said without looking up from her work. Her hand had to remain absolutely steady as she painted the eyes of one of the masks for the Noh play.

  “I’m happy to help,” Ren replied. “This is much more fun than homework.”

  Miho smiled to herself as she finished the upper line of an eye. Being around Ren made her feel flush with embarrassment. Not that she had anything to be embarrassed about. As far as he knew, Miho only paid attention to American boys—of which there were precisely zero at their school—so he couldn’t possibly know she had a crush on him, unless Kara or Sakura had told him, and she knew they hadn’t.

  The embarrassment came from being so near him, and wanting to kiss him, which made her feel even more shy and awkward than usual. Ren always seemed so relaxed around her, so himself, and she envied that. He was funny and charming, didn’t care what anyone else thought, and, yes, it didn’t hurt that he was beautiful.

  “Really,” she said, going back to painting, taking a deep breath, forcing her fingers to hold steady. “When I asked Sakura at dinner, I wasn’t trying to recruit you. I hope you didn’t think—”

  “Miho,” Ren said.

  She finished the line of the lower eyelid and glanced up.

  Ren smiled. His bronze hair stuck up in spiky tufts. “It’s really not a major thing. Sakura has a paper to finish, and I don’t. You didn’t drag me here in chains, I volunteered. Besides, we don’t usually hang out just the two of us. I thought it would be nice.”

  Miho’s heart raced and her skin prickled. His eyes were like copper. She nodded once.

  “It is nice,” she said. “Very.”

  Ren seemed to study her a moment, curiosity piqued. Miho glanced down at the mask she was working on, brain slightly frozen, and then remembered what to do next. She set about switching colors, dabbing a brush in gold paint to fill in the eyes. She would add the pupils at the end. As she worked, she wondered if he had been leading anywhere with those comments. Had he meant that he wanted to spend time with her, just the two of them, because he liked her? What would happen now? Would he ask her out? What would Sakura do? What, with her American upbringing, would Kara do?

  Long minutes passed in silence and she couldn’t stand it anymore.

  Resolutely refusing to look up, turned almost completely away from him, she spoke.

  “We’re all going to the Toro Nagashi Festival on Saturday night, right?”

  “Definitely,” Ren replied.

  “Maybe you and I could go together,” she said, so quickly and quietly that for a second she wasn’t even sure if the words had come out, if she’d had the courage to say them.

  Miho stared into the single, finished gold eye of the demon mask on the table in front of her, and it stared back, and again she felt frozen.

  “We are going together,” Ren said, a chuckle in his voice. “Didn’t we just establish … oh. Wait, you meant … oh.”

  She closed her eyes tightly, flushing now with an entirely different sort of embarrassment. Her stomach ached. Mortified, she had no idea what to say next, and then Ren touched her arm and, as though commanded by some stage hypnotist, she turned toward him.

  The sympathy in his eyes almost killed her.

  “Miho, I think you’re wonderful. You’re smart and kind and gentle, and passionate about the things you love, and you’re a very pretty girl,” Ren said, but as much as she ought to have been thrilled by those words, she could sense the but coming. “The trouble is, and don’t take this the wrong way, you’re really not my type.”

  She shook her head, backing away, wishing she could disappear into a crack in the floor or snap her fingers and just vanish. The smile that appeared on her face came from nowhere, born of anything but humor, and it felt like it would crack her face.

  “No, it’s … I understand … I’m—”

  Ren sighed. “I really thought you knew. I can’t believe they didn’t tell you.”

  Miho blinked. “Tell me what?”

  He hesitated, then turned up his hands and gave an apologetic shrug. “I don’t date girls. It isn’t something I talk about. I mean, we’re supposed to ‘fit in,’ right? So only a few people know. But I just assumed the girls would have told you.”

  After the first sentence, her cheeks began to burn.

  Backing away, she shook her head. “God, I’m so stupid. I’m sorry.”

  “Don’t be sorry,” Ren said, sadness touching his face. “That would be terrible.”

  Miho glanced down, realized she had taken another step away from him, and hated that he might be getting the wrong idea. But she couldn’t stay. Humiliation made her want to scream.

  “That’s … that’s not what I meant,” she managed. And then she took another step away from him. “You are an excellent friend, Ren. I wish I could say the same for all of my friends.”

  “Wait,” he said, getting it. “Don’t blame them. I told you, it’s not something—”

  Miho uttered a strangled laugh. “I’ve got to go.”

  She turned and fled the dining room, leaving Ren with the masks and the paint and the mess, and knowing he would clean it all up and take as much care with the masks as she herself would have. He really was a good friend.

  The soles of her shoes squeaked on the floor as she rushed down the corridor toward the front door of the dormitory. Str
aight-armed, she pushed it open and went down the front steps, striding so quickly that she nearly broke into a run. The large school building, with its pagoda-esque roof, stood silhouetted against the dark sky ahead. Night had finally fallen, but any anxiety Miho felt had given way to her humiliation and anger. She cut a diagonal path along the grassy expanse that separated the dorm from the school, a lawn that doubled as a sports field. The moon was bright tonight, and her shadow ran alongside her.

  On the east side of the school, perhaps thirty feet separated the building from the tree line, and at night it seemed a dark alley. She passed the ancient Shinto prayer shrine on the right, focused on the recessed doorway on her left. This was Sakura’s favorite smoking spot, but the shadows there were empty.

  Continuing around to the front of the school, she headed north across the grounds, walked the path that took her beneath the decorative arch at the edge of the property, and then a short way down the street to the little house where Kara lived with her father. A quiet voice in the back of Miho’s head reminded her that it might not be the best idea to bother one of her teachers at home, but Harper-sensei had always been very kind and open, and Kara was her friend, after all.

  Yes, Miho thought. My friend.

  She made a fist, took a breath, and rapped on the door. There were lights on inside, but only a few, and it seemed very quiet. Miho fidgeted on the stoop for perhaps ten seconds before she knocked again, unable to help herself.

  “Just a moment,” Harper-sensei called from within.

  She heard the lock click and then the door slid open. The teacher wore blue jeans and a white T-shirt. He was barefoot and his hair stuck up at odd angles like he had been asleep or reading in bed. When he saw her, Harper-sensei’s eyes widened slightly.

  “Miho? Is everything okay? Is Kara all right?”

  She frowned in confusion. “She isn’t here?”

  That seemed to bring him up short. He ran a hand through his hair distractedly. “No. She went out for a walk with her guitar a while ago. I’m a little concerned about her being out after dark. You, too, for that matter.”

  Miho cocked her head. “Why?”

  He opened his mouth to reply, but even as he did, she understood. Missing kids. Harper-sensei either did not believe Daisuke and Wakana had run away together, or he was being very cautious.

  Whatever he might have said, he seemed to change his mind. Mustering a smile, he studied Miho more closely.

  “You’re here looking for her?”

  “It can wait.”

  “Is everything all right?” Harper-sensei asked.

  “Yes,” she lied. “Thank you, sensei.”

  Without another word, she started to walk away, hoping it wouldn’t seem too rude. Kara’s father called after her, promising to tell Kara she had stopped by and suggesting she get back to her dorm before curfew, although Miho knew she had more than an hour before she would be considered late.

  Time enough to keep looking, if she wanted to. But as she’d told Harper-sensei, it could wait. That part hadn’t been a lie. She felt stupid and angry, and doubted any of that would have faded by morning. If Sakura wasn’t already back at their room, she would be soon, and Miho would have it out with her tonight.

  Tomorrow morning, it would be Kara’s turn.

  The northern perimeter of the school grounds stretched for quite a distance, beginning with the bay shore where Akane Murakami had been killed. Perhaps two hundred yards west, a road began. Parking spaces were slotted along its termination point, made for people who wished to stop there and take in the scenic view of Ama-no-Hashidate. A left turn led into the school and dormitory parking lots. Traveling straight ahead, the road continued westward, away from Miyazu Bay, and a right turn led past Kara’s house, to the train and bus stations, and in the distance, to the heart of Miyazu City.

  Kara hadn’t gone very far from home. She perched on a rock wall not far from the empty tourist parking spots at the bottom of the dead-end road. When she’d left her house, fuming at her father, she’d intended to head over to the grassy slope on the bay shore where Akane had died. It was the most beautiful part of the school grounds, after all, and if she really believed that these disappearances had nothing to do with Kyuketsuki’s curse, why should she avoid it? If her father didn’t want her to be out after dark, all the more reason to be in the place that would have frightened him most, if he knew what had happened there.

  Instead, she had made it only as far as the dead-end, and decided she would be more comfortable on the rock wall, where she could dangle her legs while she played her guitar. That was what she told herself, anyway.

  As dusk had closed in and night fell, she had kept playing, pretending that Daisuke and Wakana were not on her mind at all, and aware that she was pretending. Too many thoughts and emotions warred inside her, about her father and Miss Aritomo, about her mother and what it meant to start over, and about the way Mr. Yamato had behaved that morning.

  Mostly, she kept wondering why, when there was no reason at all to think the disappearances were anything more than they appeared, she couldn’t convince herself of that. No matter how many times she tried to reassure herself, that niggling suspicion remained. It didn’t feel right. Perhaps that was Kyuketsuki’s real curse. Would Kara feel this way for the rest of her life? Every time something bad happened, would she check the shadows for monsters?

  Not long after dark, her hands grew tired and her guitar fell silent. What she wanted more than anything was just someone to talk to about this, but she felt guilty bringing it up to Miho or Sakura. Either one of them would be happy to trade their two parents for one, if that one would have cared about them as much as Kara’s father did about her. But that didn’t lessen her frustration with her dad, or her anxiety about where this whole thing with Miss Aritomo would lead.

  Then, as she sat there, she realized who she could talk to. Duh, she thought. Way to go, Harper. He’s only supposed to be your boyfriend.

  Shifting her guitar to one side, she fished her cell phone out of her pocket. The breeze rustled her blond hair, which she’d left a mess when she’d bolted out of her house. The last thing she’d been thinking about was her appearance. Rippling with the wind, the water lapped against the rough ground a dozen feet below the edge of the retaining wall. The moonlight shone on the bay and glinted off small stones on the shore beneath her dangling feet, and as she slid open her cell phone, she could picture it shattering if it fell from here—or her guitar, if the strap came loose.

  Kara clutched them both more tightly as she scrolled her contacts list and thumbed the button for Hachiro. It rang only twice before he picked up.

  “This is a nice surprise,” he said.

  “Are you still dressed?” she asked without thinking. Then, blushing a bit, she backtracked. “That didn’t come out right.”

  “It’s an interesting way to start a conversation,” Hachiro said. “You sound upset. Wait, what’s that noise?”

  “The wind,” she explained. The way her head was cocked, the breeze blew against the phone and made a shushing noise. “I’m not upset, I’m … okay, maybe I am, but not with you. I had an argument with my father earlier. Now I’m a wandering …”

  She tried to think of a Japanese word that was the equivalent of minstrel or troubadour, but could only come up with ongakuka, which meant “musician,” so she took another tack.

  “I’m out by the bay with my guitar but I don’t feel like playing anymore and I’m still too upset to go home. If you’re still dressed, do you want to come outside and talk? I mean, we could talk on the phone, but—”

  “For you, I’ll get dressed,” Hachiro interrupted.

  That made Kara laugh, and already she felt some of her anxiety seeping out of her. “I’ll walk over and meet you in front of the dorm.”

  “Okay. See you in a minute,” he replied, and the line went dead.

  Hachiro had been sweet on the phone, but she wished he hadn’t hung up so fast. It would have
been nice to chat with him as she walked. On the other hand, if he really did have to put some clothes on, that would have been difficult for him. She smiled at the image that came into her mind of him trying to pull on a T-shirt while talking on the phone, and slid her cell back into her pocket.

  Swinging her guitar behind her back, she stood up and gazed out at the bay. It had a different sort of beauty at night, an ethereal calm that made her want to walk out to Ama-no-Hashidate and stroll the white sands. But that would have been too far to stray from home after dark. Her father hadn’t come looking for her, and probably wouldn’t unless she stayed out past the school’s curfew. He would want her to have some freedom, especially tonight. Give you your own space was how he would have put it.

  But now, as she crossed the dead-end road and then started across the grounds toward the front of the school, she wanted less of her own space, not more. Despite the moonlight, the night had deepened, and off to her left, down the slope, she could see the shadows that gathered in the place where Akane had been murdered. With a shudder, she pulled her gaze away.

  The way ahead of her was even darker. The school loomed ahead, a monolithic black outline silhouetted against the night sky, and to the left, where the east wall came so close to the trees, the path was nothing but inky shadows.

  A little shiver went up the back of her neck and she couldn’t help but turn and look back the way she’d come. She felt watched, and it was not a welcome feeling. Picking up her pace, she hurried over to the corner of the school and plunged into the darkness, just wanting to get to Hachiro now, a part of her wondering if she should just have headed home.

  Her guitar bounced a bit on its strap, clunking against her back. When she’d rushed out of the house earlier with it slung behind her, she’d felt cool, like someone out of a movie. Now it seemed ridiculous. Her guitar felt like a burden, and she didn’t like that at all.

  The leaves rustled in the trees off to her left and she jerked away from them, heart pounding, and let out a little yelp of alarm that sounded to her ears like a cat’s yowl. She wanted to be embarrassed, but now the back of her neck felt warm and she couldn’t drive from her mind the certainty that unseen eyes were watching her.