Songs of Love & Death

by George R. R. Martin; Gardner Dozois

  It was a good attempt, but close to babble.

  “How interesting,” said Martha’s mother, but he continued to look at Martha.

  “You disbelieve all?”

  “Robin Hood might have existed,” she said, “but fairies certainly do not.”

  “Pray God you’re right,” he said and turned again to study the weather as if willpower could change it.

  5

  ROB DIDN’T KNOW how he was presenting a normal appearance. If he was.

  The change of calendar! How could he have ignored it? How could his father?

  Five years ago the calendar had been corrected by going from the second day of September to the fourteenth. As Mistress Darby said, many of the simple folk believed that eleven days had been stolen from them. There had been riots demanding their return. People with birthdays during the eleven days had fretted about how old they were.

  He’d regarded all this with amusement. Why hadn’t he realized?

  No one could tell how faery viewed such human matters as dates and calendars, but if the rules applied to the old date, it would explain the gathering storm—and not the one visible in roiling clouds. At first it had been a dark chanting in his head, but that had turned into a cacophonous chorus that flogged him toward Five Oaks. Hurry, hurry, hurry.

  Over the past hours he’d become aware of them around him. Gleeful Oberon and furious Titania. No wonder. If the rules kept to the old calendar, his birthday wasn’t the twentieth day of June, eleven days away, but the ninth.

  Tomorrow.

  If he didn’t bed Martha Darby before tomorrow, perhaps before eleven in the morning, his hour of birth, Oberon would be free to finally exact his revenge on the line of Sir Robert Loxsleigh.

  That left no time for niceties and wooing. By kind means or cruel, he must have her in the next twenty hours. He tried to compel calm. They would be at Five Oaks in hours, even with the worsening weather. Oberon’s work, he was sure. Once he took Martha to the old hall, where faery energy burned so fiercely, she would have to believe, have to agree to anticipate the wedding. Even she, the prim daughter of a canon of York.

  If not?

  Damnation. Oberon had chosen well and done his mightiest, but he could not be allowed to succeed.

  But then the rain swept toward them, sheeting down, pounding the rough ground of the road.

  “We must stop at the next inn, Mr. Loxsleigh,” Martha said. “We risk becoming stuck in the mud.”

  “The road’s sound,” he said desperately, “and it’s not far now. Perhaps only an hour.” The coach had slowed, however, and he could feel the labor of the horses. The postilions would be miserable, but they must press on. Then the wheels sank and the coach stopped.

  He opened the door to jump out. “We must lighten the load!”

  The coach lurched forward then, the wheels finding new purchase. He fell back into his seat.

  “This is folly!” his bride declared. “Look, I see lights ahead. We must stop. We can’t climb out to lighten the load in this weather. My mother could catch her death.”

  He wanted to rail at her, but every word was true. They could not go on.

  “Very well,” he said, desperately seeking solutions. “My apologies.”

  The lights turned out to be a small inn, but called the Maid Marian. Was that a hopeful sign or a twisted joke? It had two tiny bedchambers for them, but they would have to take their supper in the common room. That didn’t matter. He made his plans.

  He ordered supper for them and hot punch, making sure it had plenty of honey and spices. When it arrived, he strengthened it with the flask of brandy he had in his valise.

  Mistress Darby declared it excellent and drank two glasses. Martha drank well of it, too. He topped up her glass when she wasn’t looking and saw her drain it again.

  Mistress Darby began to nod off. She started. “Oh, my, the long journey has tired me out. I’m for bed.”

  She left the room somewhat unsteadily. Martha rose and he saw her steady herself on the back of her chair. “I, too, am tired. You set too hasty a pace, Mr. Loxsleigh.”

  “Perhaps I did. I am simply impatient to see you in my home.”

  He watched her struggle to focus. “I am not going to marry you.”

  “You must. You know the story now. Remember Oberon’s revenge.”

  “Fablesh…” She frowned. “Fables for the credulous.”

  He grabbed her and shook her. “Why am I cursed with such an impossible woman!”

  She fought him off. “Cursed. Cursed. Because I will not sin in your bed I’m a curse?”

  “I want to marry you!”

  “I don’t want to marry you!” she yelled, inhibitions shattered by drink. She was magnificent. But adamant.

  “You’re mad, Mr. Loxsleigh,” she said with the careful precision of the drunk. “It’s sad, but I will not bind myself to a madman.”

  A man laughed, deep and dark.

  Martha looked around, almost losing her balance again. “Who was that?”

  “Oberon. Anticipating victory. Martha, listen to me. My birthday isn’t twelve days away, it’s tomorrow. We need to go to bed together. Now.”

  She blinked at him. “That is a most improper statement, sir.”

  “I know. Very well, we need to go on to Five Oaks. Now.”

  “Mad, mad, mad.”

  “We could ride.”

  “I cannot ride.”

  “We could share a horse.” He desperately wanted her willing. “Martha, if we don’t… wed by tomorrow I will die. My father will die. All the descendants of Sir Robert Loxsleigh, wherever they may be, will die within the year.”

  She swayed slightly. “It is impossible for us to marry by tomorrow, sir. Banns… and I do believe that you have made me drunk.”

  He approached again. “Certainly you are affected by the punch, Miss Darby. Permit me to escort you upstairs.”

  She swatted at him. “Keep away from me, you… you… horny goat.”

  That came so improbably from her lips that he laughed.

  A mistake. She backed away, muttering, “Mad, mad, mad. Keep away from me. And I will not go to your home. Not tomorrow. Not ever!”

  He watched her steer carefully toward the door. Some were made docile by drink, and some quarrelsome. Clearly Martha Darby was the latter. Some were made lusty, but he’d never trusted to that.

  He followed at a distance, ready to save her if she stumbled on the narrow stairs. Halfway up her legs betrayed her and she sat down, leaning her head against the wall, muttering, “Drunk. I’m drunk. Oh, the shame…”

  Then she slipped into a stupor.

  Rob went to where she slumped and touched her prim cap. “Martha, my love, I wish it had been otherwise. Pray God you forgive me.”

  He gathered her into his arms, aware of Titania’s exultance and Oberon’s fury and hating both equally. Titania’s lilting voice approved. But then Oberon changed his tone to coaxing.

  Will you rape her? it murmured. Despoil her limp body? What will be the result when she regains awareness and understands what you have done?

  She’ll love you, argued Titania. She’s your marrying maid. It is her destiny to love you just as it is your destiny to love her. Do it now, my knight. Do it now so you and your line can live.

  Do it now and eat bitter bread forever. Perhaps it is not necessary. Perhaps I will allow your birthday to be as your worldly custom designates.

  Rob carried Martha up to his bedchamber where he laid her on the bed. He untied the stings of her cap and took it off, then unpinned her hair. He spread it, astonished by its silky thickness, aroused by it and hungry. He leaned down and pressed his lips to hers…

  Which were slack and unresponsive.

  He inhaled, straightening. “I cannot,” he said. Titania screamed at him; Oberon laughed.

  Where was virtue and vileness here? Where was right and wrong?

  There was one last hope.

  6

  MARTHA WA
S FIRST aware of a throbbing head, and then that she was cold and wet. Then that she was not in her bed, but being carried. Was this another odd dream?

  She struggled feebly and realized she was trapped in something. In heavy cloth.

  “Hush, love, we’re home. I’ll soon have you warm.”

  “Home?” She forced her eyes open and saw a distant starry sky. Closer, she saw Loxsleigh’s shadowed face.

  “What have you done?” Her mouth was almost too parched for speech.

  “Brought you to Five Oaks. It was the only way.”

  “No…” He was going to rape her, and here in his house there would be no noble Sir Robert to stand between. She felt her own hot tears on her cold cheeks.

  He kissed them. “Don’t be afraid, love. I won’t harm you. But I had to bring you here. I had to try.”

  He put her down on the steps to open the door, but only for a moment and still swaddled, so her feeble struggles achieved nothing. They entered total darkness, but he must know it well. Of course he did.

  Then wild candlelight showed a high, painted ceiling. “My boy, my boy! You’re home and with your bride. Praise be to God!”

  Martha turned her head and saw a tousled-haired man in a night robe, candle in hand.

  “Welcome, my dear, welcome. Oh, happy day. But why such a journey? The poor girl must be chilled through. Bring her up, bring her up. She can lie in my bed for now.”

  “No!” Martha cried. Not the father, too.

  “No,” Rob Loxsleigh said. “I must take her to the old hall.”

  “The old hall? She’ll catch a lung fever.”

  “I hope she’ll catch credulity.” Already striding across the entrance hall, he called, “The calendar change. It changed my birthday. We have no time! Bring brandy and water. Rouse the servants to prepare her a bed.”

  “Please,” Martha cried. “Please, don’t.”

  But he rushed forward into darkness, struggling to open doors, leaving them wide behind him, and all around her a cacophony of voices swelled—high voices, low voices, merry and angry, coaxing and threatening, tangled up in a song. In that song. Her nightmare song.

  A man growled, “He plans to rape you. Fight, mortal creature, fight!”

  She tried, but was helpless.

  Then Loxsleigh stopped. Small-paned windows let in a trace of light and Martha’s eyes were accustomed to the dark. They were in the ancient part of Five Oaks. And the nightmare song and creatures whirled around.

  A dream. This had to be a dream!

  He put her on her feet, supporting her still.

  The lady was there, the one in iridescent robes. She smiled like a Madonna, but with blank eyes. Titania.

  The man paced around them like the panther she’d seen in the Tower of London. “He cannot rape you. He’s too puny for that. You have only to resist.”

  Titania pressed close in a cloud of woodland perfume. “Dear child, you have only to surrender to Rob, to that which you most desire.” Her hand brushed Martha’s forehead and the dull throb there faded. The room seemed brighter by the moment, and all her senses heightened. The song turned sweet.

  “You love Rob Loxsleigh,” whispered the Queen of Faery. “He loves you. You were destined from birth. And the threat is real, dear child. Refuse and my lord will have his way.”

  “Then stop him.”

  “I have brought you together. Now it lies in your hands.”

  “You demand that I sin!”

  Titania laughed. “I demand nothing. It will annoy me if my lord wins this little contest, but there are many others.”

  Faery, Rob Loxsleigh had said, are not benign.

  Martha realized that whether the light came from a magical glow or from the fey folk themselves, she could see. The room was long and low and paneled in dark oak, but held no furniture. Rob stood nearby, wild haired and grim, watching her, but prepared, she understood, to abide by her decision.

  Here, now, she could not deny the reality of the threat. It showed in Titania’s heartless smile and in handsome Oberon’s simmering anticipation. He waited to exact revenge for an offence half a millennium old. Others flowed around the room and in and out of the dark walls, watching and chattering. They were enjoying the show, as people watch animals fight to the death simply for amusement.

  The unearthly song swelled—sweet, yes, but chanting both love and death.

  Martha turned to Rob. “They are vile. We must deny them both.”

  He took her hands. “Martha, Martha, they are as wind, wave, and lightning. Deny them if you will, but you will still die. Or rather I will, and my father. My uncle and aunt, my cousins and my cousin Cecilia’s newborn child. Who knows how many others carry Sir Robert Loxsleigh’s blood? Trust me, love. There is only one way. Come to my bed and lie with me. We will be married as soon as may be, but Oberon will be thwarted only if we love each other tonight.”

  “It would be wrong,” the dark lord growled in her ear, “and you know it. What good can come from that?”

  “We can pledge ourselves now,” Rob argued. “We can say our vows. I will keep them, as will you. There can never be any other for you or me.”

  “By your beliefs, it must be in a church,” Oberon argued. “Think of the scandal. Your reputation…”

  It was as if all around held their breath, as if the very room, the old house, the one built by Robert Loxsleigh in a faery glade guarded by five oaks, held its breath. Even the song stopped. But Oberon had misplayed his hand. Martha’s morals still quailed, but to let innocents die for her reputation would be vile.

  She looked into the man’s eyes. “I will lie with you tonight, Rob Loxsleigh, my husband in all but the ceremony.”

  The chorus burst into song again, a song of wild rejoicing that clashed with thunderous rage. Rob took her hand and raced her out of the ancient part of the house, back to the entrance hall, lit now by a branch of candles. The noises faded and then stopped.

  Martha knew that the faery had gone. Gone on to other entertainments.

  Rob took her into his arms, holding her tight and close, burying his head in her hair.

  Her loose hair, Martha realized, as it had never been except between brushing and pinning.

  He separated and kissed her, a gentle, reverent kiss. “You will not regret this.”

  “No, I don’t believe I will.” But she swallowed before saying, “Do we do it now?”

  He smiled. “We have all night. You’re damp in places and wet in others. Come up to your room and be comfortable.”

  She went up with him, hand in hand, but still embarrassed. She could hear servants around, woken from sleep and talking softly. About her. They would all know…

  But she would not sacrifice hundreds to her discomfort.

  He led her to a room where three maidservants worked, still in their nightwear with tied shawls atop. They cast her looks, but smiling ones. Did they know? Did everyone here know?

  The room was lit with candles and warmed by the flickering flames of a new-laid fire. Two of the servants were running warming pans through the bed. The other was spreading a nightgown over a rack before the fire.

  “I’ll leave you in their care,” Rob said, smiling down at her.

  She could do nothing but smile back. “I’m all awhirl.”

  “I know. Be comfortable. I’ll return later.”

  The subject still embarrassed her too much for speech, but she nodded.

  He left and she surrendered to the maids’ care. They gave her small beer to slake her thirst, and stripped off her damp outer clothing. Martha wouldn’t let them strip her naked. She retired behind the screen to take off her shift and put on the nightgown.

  The maids toweled dry her hair and then settled her into the warm bed with a cup of chocolate and a sweet cake. There was a plate of fruit as well, but Martha could eat nothing.

  The servants left. She sipped the chocolate, which was richer than any she’d tasted. And she waited.

  All awareness of faery
had gone, making her realize how it had lived in her for days, ever since that encounter in the park. Instead, there was a growing peace, a growing certainty that all was now right, despite the lack of church and clergy.

  She was drinking the last of the chocolate when Rob came to her, shining and handsome again, in a rich, blue robe.

  “My peacock, I see.”

  “At your command,” he said, crossing the room to her. “Always.”

  He extinguished the candles until only fire lit the room and came into the bed beside her. “I’m sorry it must be this way, my love, but it will be holy.”

  He was naked and she had to look away, even though she said, “I know it.”

  Wildly she thought, It would never have been like this with Dean Stallingford!

  He took her hand and she felt his warm lips on her knuckles. “Look at me, Martha.”

  She turned her head shyly, but he’d pulled the covers up to his neck. There was nothing to embarrass her except that he was here, a man in her bed.

  He took her hand, her left hand, and slid a ring onto her third finger. “My pledge to you, dear heart.”

  Martha raised her hand and saw a complex ring of gold, set with small, smooth stones.

  “I’ve carried that for years, love, as I sought my marrying maid. Come, let me love you now.”

  He gathered her into his arms and kissed her, and there was all the magic she remembered from that other kiss, so long ago, a day ago. Heat and sparkles danced through her and this time she felt no need to resist. Shyly, she kissed him back. Her hands encountered his skin and she laid her hands on him, uncertainly but with growing pleasure.

  She moved against him, her whole body twining with his so they seemed one. Especially when he raised her nightgown high, then took it off. She stared up at the bed canopy as he put hands to her naked breasts. And then his mouth. But then she was lost to anxiety and swept up into his passion, her need building so that when he thrust inside her, she cried out as much in satisfaction as in pain.

  The pain was short and soon forgotten. The pleasure built until she thought she’d die of wanting more. Until it came, and she didn’t die, but ended up hot and sticky in his arms, laughing softly at the splendor of it. “So that,” she said, “is magic.”