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by Ann Lauterbach


  as we await the address and the black

  river of reading aloud over the phone

  George Eliot’s intervention between the walls

  so that we walk through them as if turning a page

  we agreed again you and I as we have agreed before

  you are not going to be with me on the other side of the wall

  despite George Eliot and despite Daniel

  in his pink house with the book

  whose cover is reiterated on the wall

  the picture of the beautiful woman in black

  who had to decide whether to be her portrait

  or to be someone else

  not like the mother or the sister

  not like the man in the hotel room in his bathrobe

  with his whore and his

  unspeakable

  so that the only thing to be said

  is you cannot do that with me in the room

  the walls of the room and the long view across the river

  where there are others in their rooms

  and the house from the other side of the river

  looks immense

  as the life within is immense.

  LANDSCAPE WITHOUT VIEW

  These intensities their wake the jar

  fret the word

  snow on dry leaves fret fret

  the jar dark inside within in the dark

  body o body not that anyone is here

  the thick stiff night’s

  curled domain

  as of now how it is spoken

  the slide between

  the mere passage

  fret

  and surely the blind spot

  the occasion

  emphatic these intensities

  not sheltered not yet drawn

  by the most implicated

  what it looks like

  to halt crassly halt

  and the new digital figure

  axiomatic grace

  semblance ushered from sequence

  avenue or image

  sucking at the animate

  these contagious exceptions

  fugitive incursions

  even so the turbines hum

  licking at stone

  the contagion of stone

  peevish annunciation

  melded onto a screen

  as if intimate

  invisible constraint

  as if tempered

  as if conditions prevailed.

  NIGHT NEWS WITH FAKE ZEBRA

  Let us move more quickly, night,

  now night, star-encrusted, opulent.

  The indictment of thought

  is an opal’s smooth version.

  Guard our sensations, be copious

  or at least perform adequate

  vistas. I saw a pair of eagles

  from the train. The train trains on.

  They, their sitting.

  Night: longer than their perch.

  We: gathered and copious.

  The eagles: a pair.

  I warrant the arrest of the boy

  who shot another boy in this sad.

  In this sad, would you have said no?

  Bickering, passing the gun, a game

  of pass the gun.

  There are gangs.

  This is not a lesson.

  A transformation of the subject

  into another subject. Not to insist.

  Velvet Revolution, Velvet Underground.

  Lou, hello Lou? Can you hear?

  I am here in the dark church

  imagining an improvised history

  as if channeling the news.

  The eagles sit at the edge of the river.

  The camera is out of earshot. Jack

  Spicer is about to speak

  into the nearest phenomenon

  while the deer

  while the dear

  spelled d/e/a/r

  halts naturalism

  and a new equation

  only you in the pews can solve.

  Are we lost among our subjects?

  The lone bobcat

  Andrew and I saw

  traverses

  an ancient and incendiary

  commotion. Hunting season

  under the big tent.

  And then there was a magician

  strolling along in broad daylight

  with something up his sleeve.

  There is a silver zebra

  on a silver tray in a gallery in New York.

  to Michael Joo

  AFTER NEWTOWN

  Maybe there’s a top at the end of

  the world made by someone else.

  Maybe it spins and becomes a blur

  of river and sounds

  windy. And the girl

  who arrives and who gets to hold

  the top at the end of the world

  and to pull and push

  so that it spins into blue rivers

  seems never to die.

  A train passes on the ridge.

  The hemlock branches wave.

  UGLY SONNET

  Shame vanquishes the old school.

  Truck stop rape. A or the women

  falls or fall under the wheels

  of chatter around truck stop rape.

  Besieged by glare; the untidy

  aperture of historical accounting for

  truck stop rape. Flare of paper in wind.

  Some sirens, some typing on small

  handheld instruments. Minimal

  delay but very little inclusion beyond

  truck stop rape. Everywhere she saw

  eyes looking back into the harbor

  where there had been an accident and

  no chance to escape the truck. Stop rape.

  WORLD CUP

  The world allows stop me at any point

  I am so sorry idea symbol procedure

  allows for tennis Roger Federer

  try not to consume the view I am really sorry

  after the fact after more than a few

  flying in the face of necessity allows

  for error invariably corrected the world

  corrected I am very sorry stop me at any point

  down below captured Roger Federer

  the world allows you ask what is this world

  clarity a procedural game not if then

  not consequential openly

  distributed stop me at any point motion

  transparent you can see a match pass

  to pass Roger Federer or hear

  the noise of bees oceans of bees.

  to Nick Keys

  MEANWHILE, STORM

  All these concrete things

  blown about

  habitat of improvisation

  heavily adorned

  phenomena do not grasp

  motion

  unmoored

  under the catastrophe tent

  limb rocked

  pictures

  had been

  root-bound

  or truculent not following not how

  the brown lisp

  tunneling up through spawn

  shorn

  and disobedient

  as if duplicating

  not the stiff buck

  not journalism

  pecking at our wares

  and the beautiful illusion

  also spawns

  sea in cloud

  basking on its throne

  film trashed

  in the forgotten

  as the already

  known

  deception

  in the black hall

  the relinquished s
equence

  abundant with numbers

  bitterly loaded

  patched on to the original

  sent out as flood.

  IL PLEUT

  And the ghosts of Galileo

  and Apollinaire

  are meeting in a room

  reserved for those

  in mourning for

  acts of insight

  that link

  perception

  to understanding.

  They inhale clouds

  that promise a more

  thorough oblivion

  than mere death.

  There’s a knock at the

  horizon. Someone

  has come to join them.

  She is clothed in

  white and,

  like them, is

  invisible to them.

  She speaks slant

  lines only the birds hear.

  to Ron Padgett

  DOMESTIC MODERNISM

  A chair

  and a painting

  are in love

  they resemble

  each other

  this happens

  rarely

  it takes a

  long time

  for a chair

  and a painting

  to fall in love.

  One of them

  is geometrical

  and slides

  across curves

  against

  a black ground.

  The other

  is floral.

  The floral

  once had a

  fraternal

  twin rug

  but it was

  exiled.

  to Anselm Berrigan

  UTENSIL

  Track the quick-footed more.

  Slack crib, fluid in another

  mystery. Repeat after me.

  There was a form after all

  but not recollected.

  Never look back. Do not sleep.

  Skinny little day. Shadow

  under the streetlamp.

  Girl slender also, girl advent.

  Repeat after me. Turn

  slowly to look back

  to where the footprints were.

  Seek brevity. Don’t look down.

  There are some evolving stones.

  The sky? There is no sky

  only the task ahead.

  Ahead, the easily erased.

  Repeat after me. Count her

  astonishing steps, feet

  in snow, feet in clouds.

  Do not look up.

  Cold ricochets a blistered void.

  We’re in the ghost field now

  driven across the drain bed

  into the bowl of a spoon.

  Things collect. Drops, etc.

  blown into images, pink and red.

  Don’t look away. Do not sleep.

  Repeat after me. Never let

  her hand touch your mouth.

  HARBOR SONG

  The long elation of our candor collapses in a small yard.

  Backwoods, incessant beats. Backwoods, the very nerve of fidelity.

  But say something else. Say the graphic doodles

  our condition into froth in the arguing hills over there.

  The days perish, wanting simplest ties.

  And the flexible branch lifts and falls, a kind of wave.

  Sooner or later we will enter Abraham’s drum

  and the wet slide of his hair

  will abolish our simple roomlike conditions.

  The invisible slope will drain into drops

  while Abraham beats and beats his forgiving set.

  Are the ancient songs contested? Are we too long

  in the cave, on the island, in an insular, petty drift?

  Questions are stained cups. The heart skips a beat.

  Abraham wanders off in a mood of melancholy triumph.

  The others, his mistresses, huddle on the floor.

  His mistresses are part of the inventoried world:

  they can be counted, they can be sent away

  to join others, parts of others, they can be treated

  like sentences in the inventoried world. See?

  Their rush of silver and skin,

  their elastic torsos bending,

  their sonic reverb, gaping mouths.

  Soon, they will become an incandescent spray

  that Abraham will arrange in the harbor.

  Do not shut the windows. The sounds from the sea

  are important. They resemble notes, or drops.

  Abraham resembles Abraham but is not Abraham.

  to Abraham Gomez-Delgado

  BASEMENT TAPE

  Now comes

  as a vanishing

  so be it a vanishing

  not political the day was not political

  although misery of exception although

  there are those soon to be

  disappeared

  massive injunction

  in the little dialogues with

  the held

  all so

  inconsequential among

  a starved

  among a twilight.

  The sexual apricot depresses me.

  Come forward little migrant

  orange emblem.

  Come into the iterated

  without a face, but, yet, with

  a pit.

  Glorious pit.

  Glorious structure of inner abatement.

  O give it up!

  Give up the image!

  Give up the announcement of the image!

  Give up the spectacle!

  Give up the announcement of the spectacle!

  Give up the thing and its image and its spectacle!

  As we were saying by the unlit fire one night, as we were saying.

  And the swimmer—you know the one I mean—his torso!

  Like a ship!

  UNDER THE SIGN

  Having dreamed of my dead sister

  raging with urgent

  need, she

  conducting us through intolerable

  passages, now forgotten, I

  have burned my right hand

  after sunset

  small dark clouds above

  the river I cannot see

  while listening to

  a scratched CD of a Haydn

  piano sonata so that

  certain passages

  rapidly repeat

  and having spent some moments

  thinking of the vision

  that accommodates

  all that is unforeseen

  as the world now

  becomes without sequence.

  ALICE IN OCTOBER

  It is impossible to say anything else, Alice said to herself. I think everything has been said, so the only thing to do is to repeat what has been said but to repeat it somewhere unexpected. I suppose this is what writers do, or some of them. It’s a little like a baseball that starts in the pitcher’s glove and travels to home plate and then gets hit far off into the stands, changing its history as it goes. I wonder if this is a good analogy, she said to herself, and then decided it wasn’t at all, that she had confused the elements of the argument, so that saying or writing something had become a baseball. There was some kind of difficulty between the immateriality of thought and the materiality of a baseball, even one with Babe Ruth’s signature on it, which could be worth a lot of money.

  Money seemed to negotiate this place between the immaterial and the material.

  The day was windy, the leaves were already partly down from their niches, bittersweet vines were crawling and twisting around the trunks. She walked down to th
e river, which gave off a strong, brackish odor that reminded her of the sea. Perhaps, she thought, if you do one thing every day at the same time you feel better about the way everything shifts around you, and you are not sure of your relation to these shifts—if you are part of them, or apart from them. What if you decide to be tossed from pillar to post, and not attempt to hold on? What does one hold on to anyway? What pillar and what post? I wish I could hold on to the light, but that is an impossibility, the same as holding on to time.

  I suppose that memory is a way of holding on to time, but it seems to me quite inaccurate and clumsy, compared to a tree with its rings or a skeleton, both of which hold time much more firmly in place. I guess while we are alive there isn’t any chance of holding on to anything. And then when we die, something or someone holds on to us, for a while, and then that goes away as well.

  THE TEARS OF EROS

  after Bataille

  A format

  thrown from purchase

  exaggerated, a

  wish-bloodied sign,

  disoriented comfort, a

  reversal played as habit

  and fortuitous, a gaze

  as if the image

  could make its way

  into desire’s unmade bed

  there configured by ghosts

  and night’s arrival

  marked by force,

  a vicissitude, pun,

  or a chronic tryst

  felt slowly between

  lovers, bequeathed

  and the essential veil

  inward as soil

  bitterly tossed

  is thinly deceived

  as mud and seed

  not ever to capture

  or recall but

  to send again

  the bliss quotient

  also undetected a new

  molecular dust

  to open

  now culpable

  now nude now bare life

  and emancipate

  pictorial restraint

  from veracity’s cave

  and the recalcitrant

  disembodied

  by silent advent

  day’s vigilant stare

 

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