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Under the Sign

Page 6

by Ann Lauterbach


  7.

  Cast the small occasions of research

  into a cup of

  steady words—

  forgive me

  I am jumping with

  instinct—

  cast the apparition of time

  into the play of integers

  and their daughter N-7

  forgive me I am

  jumping with the unspent

  as if it were a pardon.

  A PLAN

  Perhaps we should put all circles together

  and then all squares. And let’s

  sequester blue from its neighbor

  then ask it to perform in the biggest atrium.

  In the greatest episode of an ordinary life

  there is tenderness

  but this is not recalled on an ordinary day.

  The sequence, on an ordinary day, is mute.

  It steals and flaunts, it has the animating

  iteration of an impostor. Perhaps

  we should put everything in a shelter.

  The lament is recursive: Jerusalem, Jerusalem.

  UNTITLED (FATE)

  1.

  Rescind the error margin gap

  adumbrated by the machine

  mentioned with colored dots

  during the wish for a separation

  between sensation and trace

  when we came close

  a kiss

  to suggest

  the indelible

  to be free from

  linguistic

  song of the thrush

  to move

  into the ungathered.

  2.

  The diction of the road

  fails its intention.

  We’re on some other path

  along sight lines

  unpermitted to land.

  Dear instructor,

  is fate shaped by an idea

  withheld from daily force

  and from the thing I

  thought I saw

  on the grave of the unknown?

  The iris is the color of a bruise.

  The world is uneven in its orbit.

  3.

  Having not read the signs,

  having missed the cues—

  Absence.

  A bowl.

  Glassy.

  A FOLD IN TIME

  Not to swerve off the road

  dust runs in the family

  of the dream

  speaking into the sheet

  shrouded in you

  in which you

  shortly after the curtains

  addressed the flood

  the ratio

  were detained, saying

  repeated frequently

  need to want spoken

  near the foxed copy of Yeats

  under the stained eaves

  had been abused

  thematically after the earrings

  whispered at the door

  want to need ushered in

  as the dream is not in the real

  the door is not in the dream

  rose cloth shade

  hidden dark assembly

  charged objects in space

  what is called optimism

  among the not dead

  certain distributions

  leaning toward the mouth

  spoken in the

  western sky

  embrace or image

  not biography although

  this too, dear instructor,

  and the thump of footsteps

  that cruel intimacy

  at the threshold

  above the abrasion:

  Did you cry?

  Prayer spoken, arrested.

  to Nat Tripp

  AT/OR (RAÚL ZURITA)

  1.

  Gray wool rags

  peripheral rider

  a column has broken

  strained

  desert well

  you haven’t seen

  a girl’s head against a white tent

  not blue

  not blue.

  Look where?

  Some small

  differences in shade

  form to form

  a splinter on the road

  the bait raining.

  2.

  Desperate empirical!

  You see nothing the drab is walks by

  into the forgotten

  into the shuffle

  sun flaps its white wing

  inhales the landscape

  nobody is looking nobody sees

  sun

  exhales poem.

  UNTITLED (THE DISINHERITED)

  1.

  The writer’s swan passes, quoted

  in a dark interior.

  As and of difficult.

  No signal.

  The photos, however,

  are sincere. The light

  dull on the swan

  equipped with mean beauty.

  Some motion

  among those who belong

  and those who visit.

  Make no mistake.

  The land, its uses, its

  little shingles,

  theirs.

  2.

  Among us we hunt the fickle root.

  Slide on over, Hon.

  My brim is too wide, I cannot

  see out.

  Earnest collaboration among birds.

  Sing sweetly now that the branch is clean.

  Fix the roof.

  I’m warming up for the real thing

  although I still can’t hear you

  under this sign, this

  sky booth.

  3.

  Unblessed forum counters relative merit.

  Truth vortex!

  The day wet, late, wet, late.

  The light, dull.

  The barn massively pictorial.

  The house massively perfect.

  Barn not empty.

  Barn full of the weights of the dead.

  Here, have this, a clay

  sculpture of a

  naked girl

  on her hands and knees

  before a black thing.

  4.

  Gist trouble markets war talk.

  The irreducible bad guys at the door.

  The sad gray cadets.

  Stone the infidel!

  Vocabulary of lost causes

  meets vocabulary of

  found causes

  and we and they

  launch combat.

  No signal.

  5.

  Of course the present

  is open is

  calamity in waiting is

  marked

  previously unharmed

  in a frame.

  The present is endangered.

  Sell it.

  6.

  Incised on the heels of the domain

  no time to set the sleeve ratty logic

  of the shield misgivings

  traced along the shore’s bony apparatus.

  Come back! A call in the septic dream.

  The trees are marked for departure.

  The river is laced with icy aisles.

  7.

  The negative is a posse! See how it rides

  across the game, how it

  spells exception after the ship, the ripped sail,

  the extinguished horn, the engulfed mast

  passed on. The one we love is

  in this dungeon of blur, this mobile thread.

  How lucid this is

  depends
on where you are from.

  Back home, shuffling

  men in slippers, a woman asleep in a slip.

  Or else, back home, she is

  awake and the sun lays stripes on her face

  through the blinds. We hear, more recently,

  that the estate has been

  abandoned, the marriage collapsed.

  BEAUTY AND CONSOLATION (RICHARD RORTY)

  Sometimes there’s an altar:

  world, dressed

  flagrant & discerning

  stopped above or lines of flight

  arrested seemingly arrested

  an altar:

  quotidian in pace a cart’s wheel, a tag

  made for the mildest enterprise

  to follow and so anticipate an edge

  as if wanting to sail

  or to move closer along the periphery

  a table or cloth or now a hole

  through which a needle

  cannot pass

  the sign having landed on the wall

  in its garb of light

  waiting for its name

  after nature

  not web not wing marked

  for some better foil

  than the diction of the real

  hovering or suspended a call

  to pivot on the unconsoledas

  an image

  drawn from the lover’s pocket

  into the nearly opaque blank

  straining the ordinary from its only or also there

  crawl space of the lungs mold dust

  not, dear instructor, auto-

  biography

  while listening to

  Richard Rorty talk of

  Nabokov

  and

  kestrel, cedar waxwing, rare

  orchids, his hurt companion stymied.

  to Joan Richardson

  UNTITLED (THE RIVER)

  1.

  And Diogenes placed a crown of pines

  on his head victorious Diogenes

  spitting in the face

  of the ignorant teams

  Diogenes crowns the horse

  who stood his ground

  Diogenes

  the dog illumined.

  Because he said so

  trussed under the moon

  the blessing garbled as usual

  forgiveness

  spilled on all the stones.

  Historical stones, as they were what

  touched the core

  trussed behind a shut door

  under an invisible moon.

  Because no one mentions

  rust across the river

  sun tissue streaked or hairy

  the familiar beasty hills

  the atomic flaw

  breasted and phallic

  across the wide gray surface.

  All this, dear instructor,

  our material journey

  blown onto a radiant scarf

  as some remnant rhymed with

  scant flow

  or distilled into thought’s

  crowded integers not to turn away

  to acknowledge the tracks of sky

  marking our way

  or drawn above

  in such yields no market could furnish.

  The affinities their stake

  at the terminal hour

  you will not recall the willow

  you will lie down

  how on the train

  others exist

  along the way passages

  her floral scansion

  ripped

  the horizon divided

  intelligence

  of love’s song to the ghosts

  they or Diogenes

  who might

  prevail

  reading ashes leaves cards

  no preference

  among their habits the ghosts

  bored at rush hour

  among the gossips

  knocking sparks from each other

  the tide withstanding

  habit bored by any occasion

  rising from lamps along the tracks

  moving under a huge blue tarp

  as if something had erupted

  opening the book.

  2.

  But if love of data refutes mystery

  must the philosopher walk away?

  The poet is a procrastinator

  and a revisionist. She observes

  the river is for the birds. She recalls

  the sacred Nantucket coast.

  Her vision is empirical

  even as a love of mystery refutes data.

  Geese on the baseball field.

  A flag, red tile, a metallic balloon.

  The aggression of sorrow.

  Marianne’s orange jumpsuit.

  Had better launch another trial

  without jury

  without the old cavern

  endowed with a seamless, impervious argot.

  If the last revolution

  discovered silence

  while the rest heard

  over the swerve

  a telltale scream

  braided or sewn down onto the field—

  what now?

  UNTITLED (THE NEUTRAL)

  1.

  That we might find here

  that we might hope to find

  expertise

  descending

  or sleeping with everyone

  or guided by questions

  the neutral

  sitting like a duck on the river

  as an argument

  unbound in the face of it

  the fact of it

  and such easy equations

  reminiscent scores

  to trip out over the exquisite form

  the ancient in rags

  the past as an arrangement

  with knowledge

  forgive these slight durations

  the moments of prosody

  outside our chamber

  haunted by an

  articulate sublime

  without coastal reference

  without the bloodied narcolepsy of desire.

  Try the pathos of ghosts on your side

  the riven energies of need

  the rabbit is waiting

  the sparrow is waiting

  a creature lurks below the broken adage

  and so beware of whatever is next

  whatever has been left out

  about to turn up

  in the known stories of the home

  —she ran away, he did not stay—

  in the sarcastic iterations of the norm.

  2.

  Or instead we might find

  the neutral

  on a bright morning in

  late July, and wonder, in this shade, what

  is happening all along

  the scintillant edges of time.

  If to mourn is

  to be alive

  and if the shape of knowing

  is only the shape of not knowing

  what else is riding

  along this edge

  as it leaks

  onto the shapes of things—

  blurry cascade

  unattached

  until it touches

  the evident.

  Is that this?

  Circling over the tidy episode

  a constant

  as of a bird over prey

  the heart’s insistent refrain

  wingless as a chant

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  wandering

  how the mind wanders

  into the verbal shade

  leaving and returning

  iterated as echo or prayer

  summoning from the shade

  inarticulate benevolence

  care enters the dismissal of care

  drawn across the virtues of a stage.

  3.

  A rustling in the wings.

  Restless mercurial

  annoyance: nothing gets started.

  You are waiting for me

  but I do not appear, even in disguise.

  The stage keeps unfolding its infinite domain.

  At the final curtain, certain names

  are cut into morphemes: no and win

  fall from their origins in the adored dark.

  Meanwhile atrocities are creased

  into the percale

  one by one, as if drones

  left behind in a prohibited archive.

  No one is writing this act.

  Author! Author! calls the diminished crowd

  wandering from the plummy sunset

  caressing the hills. Backlit

  hawks turn and turn above the scenery.

  TO THE GIVEN

  Dear instructor,

  tonight I am

  word poor and so unchained

  and the world seated

  could be

  sensed partially

  your back to it my looking away

  trace of a cry in the air

  accumulating from afar

  a clarity of means

  because

  entrenched in beloved

  semblance

  to climb into the given as

  music or the simplest conduct—

  touching the threshold

  migrating

  serene as matter or

 

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