“What do you see, child?” asked Oldpappy.
“The river’s going to carry them away,” said little Peggy.
“I hope not.”
Little Peggy began to cry.
“There, child,” said Oldpappy. “It ain’t always such a grand thing to see afar off like that, is it.”
She shook her head.
“But maybe it won’t happen as bad as you think.”
Just at that moment, she saw one of the heartfires break away and tumble off into the dark. “Oh!” she cried out, reaching as if her hand could snatch the light and put it back. But of course she couldn’t. Her vision was long and clear, but her reach was short.
“Are they lost?” asked Oldpappy.
“One,” whispered little Peggy.
“Haven’t Makepeace and the others got there yet?”
“Just now,” she said. “The rope held. They’re safe now.”
Oldpappy didn’t ask her how she knew, or what she saw. Just patted her shoulder. “Because you told them. Remember that, Margaret. One was lost, but if you hadn’t seen and sent help, they might all have died.”
She shook her head. “I should’ve seen them sooner, Oldpappy, but I fell asleep.”
“And you blame yourself?” asked Oldpappy.
“I should’ve let Bloody Mary nip me, and then father wouldn’t’ve been mad, and then I wouldn’t’ve been in the spring house, and then I wouldn’t’ve been asleep, and then I would’ve sent help in time—”
“We can all make daisy chains of blame like that, Maggie. It don’t mean a thing.”
But she knew it meant something. You don’t blame blind people ’cause they don’t warn you you’re about to step on a snake—but you sure blame somebody with eyes who doesn’t say a word about it. She knew her duty ever since she first realized that other folks couldn’t see all that she could see. God gave her special eyes, so she’d better see and give warning, or the devil would take her soul. The devil or the deep black sea.
“Don’t mean a thing,” Oldpappy murmured. Then, like he just been poked in the behind with a ramrod, he went all straight and said, “Spring house! Spring house, of course.” He pulled her close. “Listen to me, little Peggy. It wasn’t none of your fault, and that’s the truth. The same water that runs in the Hatrack flows in the spring house brook, it’s all the same water, all through the world. The same water that wanted them dead, it knew you could give warning and send help. So it sang to you and sent you off to sleep.”
It make a kind of sense to her, it sure did. “How can that be, Oldpappy?”
“Oh, that’s just in the nature of it. The whole universe is made of only four kinds of stuff, little Peggy, and each one wants to have its own way.” Peggy thought of the four colors that she saw when the heartfires glowed, and she knew what all four were even as Oldpappy named them. “Fire makes things hot and bright and uses them up. Air makes things cool and sneaks in everywhere. Earth makes things solid and sturdy, so they’ll last. But water, it tears things down, it falls from the sky and carries off everything it can, carries it off and down to the sea. If the water had its way, the whole world would be smooth, just a big ocean with nothing out of the water’s reach. All dead and smooth. That’s why you slept. The water wants to tear down these strangers, whoever they are, tear them down and kill them. It’s a miracle you woke up at all.”
“The blacksmith’s hammer woke me,” said little Peggy.
“That’s it, then, you see? The blacksmith was working with iron, the hardest earth, and with a fierce blast of air from the bellows, and with a fire so hot it burns the grass outside the chimney. The water couldn’t touch him to keep him still.”
Little Peggy could hardly believe it, but it must be so. The blacksmith had drawn her from a watery sleep. The smith had helped her. Why, it was enough to make you laugh, to know the blacksmith was her friend this time.
There was shouting on the porch downstairs, and doors opened and closed. “Some folks is here already,” said Oldpappy.
Little Peggy saw the heartfires downstairs, and found the one with the strongest fear and pain. “It’s their Mama,” said little Peggy. “She’s got a baby coming.”
“Well, if that ain’t the luck of it. Lose one, and here already is a baby to replace death with life.” Oldpappy shambled on out to go downstairs and help.
Little Peggy, though, she just stood there, looking at what she saw in the distance. That lost heartfire wasn’t lost at all, and that was sure. She could see it burning away far off, despite how the darkness of the river tried to cover it. He wasn’t dead, just carried off, and maybe somebody could help him. She ran out then, passed Oldpappy all in a rush, clattered down the stairs.
Mama caught her by the arm as she was running into the great room. “There’s a birthing,” Mama said, “and we need you.”
“But Mama, the one that went downriver, he’s still alive!”
“Peggy, we got no time for—”
Two boys with the same face pushed their way into the conversation. “The one downriver!” cried one.
“Still alive!” cried another.
“How do you know!”
“He can’t be!”
They spoke so all on top of each other that Mama had to hush them up just to hear them. “It was Vigor, our big brother, he got swept away—”
“Well he’s alive,” said little Peggy, “but the river’s got him.”
The twins looked to Mama for confirmation. “She know what she’s talking about, Goody Guester?”
Mama nodded, and the boys raced for the door, shouting, “He’s alive! He’s still alive!”
“Are you sure?” asked Mama fiercely. “It’s a cruel thing, to put hope in their hearts like that, if it ain’t so.”
Mama’s flashing eyes made little Peggy afraid, and she couldn’t think what to say.
By then, though, Oldpappy had come up from behind. “Now Peg,” he said, “how would she know one was taken by the river, lessun she saw?”
“I know,” said Mama. “But this woman’s been holding off birth too long, and I got a care for the baby, so come on now, little Peggy, I need you to tell me what you see.”
She led little Peggy into the bedroom off the kitchen, the place where Papa and Mama slept whenever there were visitors. The woman lay on the bed, holding tight to the hand of a tall girl with deep and solemn eyes. Little Peggy didn’t know their faces, but she recognized their fires, especially the mother’s pain and fear.
“Someone was shouting,” whispered the mother.
“Hush now,” said Mama.
“About him still alive.”
The solemn girl raised her eyebrows, looked at Mama. “Is that so, Goody Guester?”
“My daughter is a torch. That’s why I brung her here in this room. To see the baby.”
“Did she see my boy? Is he alive?”
“I thought you didn’t tell her, Eleanor,” said Mama.
The solemn girl shook her head.
“Saw from the wagon. Is he alive?”
“Tell her, Margaret,” said Mama.
Little Peggy turned and looked for his heartfire. There were no walls when it came to this kind of seeing. His flame was still there, though she knew it was afar off. This time, though, she drew near in the way she had, took a close look. “He’s in the water. He’s all tangled in the roots.”
“Vigor!” cried the mother on the bed.
“The river wants him. The river says, Die, die.”
Mama touched the woman’s arm. “The twins have gone off to tell the others. There’ll be a search party.”
“In the dark!” whispered the woman scornfully.
Little Peggy spoke again. “He’s saying a prayer. I think. He’s saying—seventh son.”
“Seventh son,” whispered Eleanor.
“What does that mean?” asked Mama.
“If this baby’s a boy,” said Eleanor, “and he’s born while Vigor’s still alive, then he’s the sev
enth son of a seventh son, and all of them alive.”
Mama gasped. “No wonder the river—” she said. No need to finish the thought. Instead she took little Peggy’s hands and led her to the woman on the bed. “Look at this baby, and see what you see.”
Little Peggy had done this before, of course. It was the chief use they had for torches, to have them look at an unborn baby just at the birthing time. Partly to see how it lay in the womb, but also because sometimes a torch could see who the baby was, what it would be, could tell stories of times to come. Even before she touched the woman’s belly, she could see the baby’s heartfire. It was the one that she had seen before, that burned so hot and bright that it was like the sun and the moon, to compare it to the mother’s fire. “It’s a boy,” she said.
“Then let me bear this baby,” said the mother. “Let him breathe while Vigor still breathes!”
“How’s the baby set?” asked Mama.
“Just right,” said little Peggy.
“Head first? Face down?”
Little Peggy nodded.
“Then why won’t it come?” demanded Mama.
“She’s been telling him not to,” said Little Peggy, looking at the mother.
“In the wagon,” the mother said. “He was coming; and I did a beseeching.”
“Well, you should have told me right off,” said Mama sharply. “Speck me to help you and you don’t even tell me he’s got a beseeching on him. You, girl!”
Several young ones were standing near the wall, wide-eyed, and they didn’t know which one she meant.
“Any of you, I need that iron key from the ring on the wall.”
The biggest of them took it clumsily from the hook and brought it, ring and all. Mama dangled the large ring and the key over the mother’s belly, chanting softly,
“Here’s the circle, open wide,
Here’s the key to get outside,
Earth be iron, flame be fair,
Fall from water into air.”
The mother cried out in sudden agony. Mama tossed away the key, cast back the sheet, lifted the woman’s knees, and ordered little Peggy fiercely to see.
Little Peggy touched the woman’s womb. The boy’s mind was empty, except for a feeling of pressure and gathering cold as he emerged into the air. But the very emptiness of his mind let her see things that would never be clearly visible again. The billion billion paths of his life lay open before him, waiting for his first choices, for the first changes in the world around him to eliminate a million futures every second. The future was there in everyone, a flickering shadow that was never visible behind the thoughts of the present moment; but here, for a few precious moments, little Peggy could see them clearly.
And what she saw was death down every path. Drowning, drowning, every path of his future led this child to a watery death.
“Why do you hate him so!” cried little Peggy.
“What?” demanded Eleanor.
“Hush,” said Mama. “Let her see what she sees.”
Inside the unborn child, the dark blot of water that surrounded his heartfire seemed so terribly strong that little Peggy was afraid he would be swallowed up.
“Get him out to breathe!” shouted little Peggy.
Mama reached in, even though it tore the mother something dreadful, and hooked the baby by the neck with strong fingers, drawing him out.
In that moment, the dark water retreated inside the child’s mind, and just before the first breath came, little Peggy saw ten million deaths by water disappear. Now, for the first time, there were some paths open, some paths leading to a dazzling future. And all the paths that did not end in early death had one thing in common. On all those paths, little Peggy saw herself doing one simple thing.
So she did that thing. She took her hands from the slackening belly and ducked under her mother’s arm. The baby’s head had just emerged, and it was still covered with a bloody caul, a scrap of the sac of soft skin in which he had floated in his mother’s womb.
His mouth was open, sucking inward on the caul, but it didn’t break, and he couldn’t breathe.
Little Peggy did what she had seen herself do in the baby’s future. She reached out, took the caul from under the baby’s chin, and pulled it away from his face. It came whole, in one moist piece, and in the moment it came away, the baby’s mouth cleared, he sucked in a great breath, and then gave that mewling cry that birthing mothers hear as the song of life.
Little Peggy folded the caul, her mind still full of the visions she had seen down the pathways of this baby’s life. She did not know yet what the visions meant, but they made such clear pictures in her mind that she knew she would never forget them. They made her afraid, because so much would depend on her, and how she used the birth caul that was still warm in her hands.
“A boy,” said Mama.
“Is he,” whispered the mother. “Seventh son?”
Mama was tying the cord, so she couldn’t spare a glance at little Peggy. “Look,” she whispered.
Little Peggy looked for the single heartfire on the distant river. “Yes,” she said, for the heartfire was still burning.
Even as she watched, it flickered, died.
“Now he’s gone,” said little Peggy.
The woman on the bed wept bitterly, her birth-wracked body shuddering.
“Grieving at the baby’s birth,” said Mama. “It’s a dreadful thing.”
“Hush,” whispered Eleanor to her mother. “Be joyous, or it’ll darken the baby all his life!”
“Vigor,” murmured the woman.
“Better nothing at all than tears,” said Mama. She held out the crying baby, and Eleanor took it in competent arms—she had cradled many a babe before, it was plain. Mama went to the table in the corner and took the scarf that had been blacked in the wool, so it was night-colored clear through. She dragged it slowly across the weeping woman’s face, saying, “Sleep, Mother, sleep.”
When the cloth came away, the weeping was done, and the woman slept, her strength spent.
“Take the baby from the room,” said Mama.
“Don’t he need to start his sucking?” asked Eleanor.
“She’ll never nurse this babe,” said Mama. “Not unless you want him to suck hate.”
“She can’t hate him,” said Eleanor. “It ain’t his fault.”
“I reckon her milk don’t know that,” said Mama. “That right, little Peggy? What teat did the baby suck?”
“His mama’s,” said little Peggy.
Mama looked sharp at her. “You sure of that?”
She nodded.
“Well, then, we’ll bring the baby in when she wakes up. He doesn’t need to eat anything for the first night, anyway.” So Eleanor carried the baby out into the great room, where the fire burned to dry the men, who stopped trading stories about rains and floods worse than this one long enough to look at the baby and admire.
Inside the room, though, Mama took little Peggy by the chin and stared hard into her eyes. “You tell me the truth, Margaret. It’s a serious thing, for a baby to suck on its mama and drink up hate.”
“She won’t hate him, Mama,” said little Peggy.
“What did you see?”
Little Peggy would have answered, but she didn’t know the words to tell most of the things she saw. So she looked at the floor. She could tell from Mama’s quick draw of breath that she was ripe for a tongue-lashing. But Mama waited, and then her hand came soft, stroking across little Peggy’s cheek. “Ah, child, what a day you’ve had. The baby might have died, except you told me to pull it out. You even reached in and opened up its mouth—that’s what you did, isn’t it?”
Little Peggy nodded.
“Enough for a little girl, enough for one day.” Mama turned to the other girls, the ones in wet dresses, leaning against the wall. “And you, too, you’ve had enough of a day. Come out of here, let your mama sleep, come out and get dry by the fire. I’ll start a supper for you, I will.”
But Oldp
appy was already in the kitchen, fussing around, and refused to hear of Mama doing a thing. Soon enough she was out with the baby, shooing the men away so she could rock it to sleep, letting it suck her finger.
Little Peggy figured after a while that she wouldn’t be missed, and so she snuck up the stairs to the attic ladder, and up the ladder into the lightless, musty space. The spiders didn’t bother her much, and the cats mostly kept the mice away, so she wasn’t afraid. She crawled right to her secret hiding place and took out the carven box that Oldpappy had given her, the one he said his own papa brought from Ulster when he came to the colonies. It was full of the precious scraps of childhood—stones, strings, buttons—but now she knew that these were nothing compared to the work before her all the rest of her life. She dumped them right out, and blew into the box to clear away dust. Then she laid the folded caul inside and closed the lid.
She knew that in the future she would open that box a dozen times. That it would call to her, wake her from her sleep, tear her from her friends, and steal from her all her dreams. All because a baby boy downstairs had no future at all, except a death from the dark water, excepting if she used that caul to keep him safe, the way it once protected him in the womb.
For a moment she was angry, to have her own life so changed. Worse than the blacksmith coming, it was, worse than Papa and the hazel wand he whupped her with, worse than Mama when her eyes were angry. Everything would be different forever and it wasn’t fair. Just for a baby she never invited, never asked to come here, what did she care about any old baby?
She reached out and opened the box, planning to take the caul and cast it into a dark corner of the attic. But even in the darkness, she could see a place where it was darker still: near her heartfire, where the emptiness of the deep black river was all set to make a murderer out of her.
Not me, she said to the water. You ain’t part of me.
Yes I am, whispered the water. I’m all through you, and you’d dry up and die without me.
You ain’t the boss of me, anyway, she retorted.
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