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by Christopher Chancy




  Leaves and Shadows

  Christopher Chancy

  To my wife Erin. Beautiful, you are ever my light in the darkness.

  Copyright © 2014 Christopher Chancy

  ISBN 978-1502444585

  Chapter One

  The Slide

  How are we going to do this?

  Erin looked down despondently at her hands resting on her distended abdomen. For seven months now, she and her husband had considered its growing size to be an absolute blessing. Now, she wasn’t sure what to think. How could something so beautiful be so utterly corrupted? It wasn’t the first time she had asked herself that question since this nightmare began last week.

  Erin looked up from her hands to the playground in front of her where her five-year-old son, Evan, played. Not for the first time, she asked herself, How am I going to explain something so complicated and so dangerous to him? Tears began to burn and she fought them back desperately, “He’s not going to understand.” She shook her head, “I don’t understand.”

  Erin watched her son as he climbed the ladder of the playground. She tried to push down the anxiety boiling inside her chest, but it seeped around her mental walls trying to draw her focus away from her son and back onto her troubled thoughts.

  Evan’s laugh brought her back to reality. He threw his arms high as he slid down one of the straight slides. The fall leaves that covered the playground equipment reduced the friction on the slide, giving him an extra boost of speed that made the experience that much more satisfying. He plopped down to ground rump first giggling.

  He grabbed handfuls of leaves from around him and tossed them into the air like confetti. He closed his deep blue eyes, elated as the red and gold leafy rain fluttered down over his sandy blond hair.

  He looked up at her, beaming. "Did you see that, Momma? Did you? Did you see how fast I went?"

  She returned his smile, albeit with a weary one of her own. He hopped up and ran for the ladder again to repeat the oh-so-fun process.

  He's so cute, she thought.

  Unbidden, her silent worries pushed back into her mind: "Like your baby was supposed to be."

  Tears welled back up and stung her eyes, causing her vision to blur. She rubbed them vigorously, then took a shuddering breath and told herself fiercely, Stop it, Erin!

  She looked on as Evan sat just inside a red tunnel slide. She looked away as he descended and found herself thinking about yesterday. She could still feel the paper gown against her skin in that cold exam room. The loud ticking of the clock behind her resonated the passing of each second. Her husband Scott's calloused hand gripped hers painfully tight as her OB/GYN came into the room.

  “Mrs. Dearborn,” he begun, “there is never an easy way to say this . . .”

  "No!" She shook her head violently. I do not want to think about that!

  "Momma?"

  She almost shrieked, not having noticed Evan approach her. His little-boy face furrowed at the brow as he looked at her with open concern.

  "Momma, are you all right?"

  "Yes, honey. Momma was just thinking about something. That's all."

  He held up his little arms in an invitation. "Do you want a hug?"

  Tears filled her eyes again. She had to force her voice to remain steady. "That would be nice." She grabbed his shoulders and pulled him into a tight hug. He hugged her back warmly. His little hand patted her back, a gesture he had picked up from his daddy.

  With her own free hand, she wiped her eyes clear. She gently broke the embrace and stared into his smiling face. "So do you like the park?"

  "Uh huh." He nodded. "I like this park."

  “I’m sorry that there isn’t anyone here for you to play with,” she told him.

  He shrugged. “That’s okay, Momma. It’s kind of nice to have this place to ourselves, just you and me hanging out together.”

  She felt a pang of love spike through the darkness in her spirit. He was such a wonderful boy. She smiled at him. "I'm so glad that you feel that way. Why don't you go play for a little bit longer? We’ll probably have to leave in another ten minutes or so. It's starting to get dark."

  "Okay." He kissed her on the cheek and ran back to the playground equipment. She touched her cheek. His kiss warmed her.

  She berated herself for letting him see her like that again. That was not what she wanted. Evan had seen his parents fret too much of late, noticing the tension and fear in their home escalate dramatically. Until a week back, these emotions were all but foreign to him.

  She hated putting her little boy through such distress. That was how the two of them ended up at this park. Scott had other pressing business to attend to, so she decided to do something special with Evan. If what she had been told was correct, she might not be able to get away for some time.

  She could not remember specifically where she had heard about this park, but whoever mentioned it had insisted that it was phenomenal. It truly was. Evan was thrilled with it on sight. She could hardly blame him for his enthusiasm. The playground itself occupied a small patch of woodchip-covered ground within a clearing of autumn trees. The trees proudly showed off their fall colors of red, orange, brown, and gold. The ground was a leaf-covered carpet that mirrored the tree limbs above. Thirty feet to the west of the playground was a small babbling creek. The tree line held back the noise of the nearby city so that all Erin could hear were the sounds of her son playing and the nearby creek.

  This was a place of tranquility. If not for the rising tide of dark emotions within her, the moment would have been perfect. But, the nearly-perfect silence provided its own special version of hell for her, right now she didn’t want to hear her own thoughts.

  She pushed herself out of her dark reverie and looked around. It was getting darker much faster than she had anticipated. Their light was quickly dwindling as the sun set behind the tree line. The last rays seemed to shine down only on the playground itself. Evan’s hair shined like a beacon as he beamed down at her. He was standing by the opening of another tube slide.

  "Momma!" he called to her excitedly. "This slide is so cool!"

  "Cool," she mused. It was another word from her husband's vocabulary that Evan had just adopted within the last few months. Now it was his favorite descriptors.

  She looked at the slide that bore such an honorific title. It was a faded aquamarine curlicue style tube. Evan was standing at its top holding the handlebar, ready to launch himself down its dark spiral. He looked at her from his ready position with a radiant smile, picturesque in fact.

  Erin looked up at her son at the top of the slide, and a sudden sense of dread gripped her heart. Something about that slide made her feel uneasy.

  But why? she asked herself. You're being stupid, Erin!

  "Watch me, Momma!" Evan called.

  Terror leapt into her throat. A hysterical shriek burst out of her before she could stop herself. "No, Evan!"

  Evan stopped at the top of the slide. Frozen by her words, he looked down at her with a mixture of confusion and worry. "What's wrong, Momma?"

  What was wrong? she asked herself. She didn't know what her problem was. That slide was evil, she thought with some amusement. The amusement felt forced, and however odd that statement was, it was how she felt. Was that slide even there a moment ago? she asked herself soberly.

  She scoffed at herself. Okay, Erin. Now you’re just being dumb. Of course that slide was already there.

  A small voice from the back of her mind asked unbidden, "Are you sure?"

  Evan was still staring at her, and shame welled up within her as she him growing more and more fearful. This was not what she wanted for him today. She forced a smile on her face. "Nothing's wrong, honey. It's just . . . it's just time for
us to go now."

  "Aw, Momma." He looked crestfallen. "Do we have to?"

  "Yes, honey." She nodded to him. "It's getting late and it's almost dark. Now come on down here."

  He sighed. "Okay." He swung from the handles of the spiral slide to sit down inside it."

  "Not that way!" she shrieked. Again the force of her words came out before she could restrain herself.

  Evan jumped back at the shout as if he were struck physically. He looked at her tearfully. His lower lip began to tremble. "But why?"

  She shook her head. She didn't know why. She just could not understand why she felt such a sense of foreboding. Logically, she knew it was just her anxiety and hormones running on overdrive. She was freaking her son out for no apparent reason.

  "Just come down, honey. We need to go home now."

  His face imploring, it looked almost angelic in the dying light of day. "Momma, can’t I go down this slide? Just this one time. Please?"

  Her instincts were screaming at her to get him down, were warning her some the impossible danger of this odd twisty slide. It was quite dark inside there. Could something have crawled up inside it? In the end, it was Evan’s hopeful expression that won. She would not disappoint him again, not after everything else this week. Taking a deep breath through a clenched jaw, Erin nodded. "Sure, honey. One time down the cool slide, then we have to go."

  He gave her a bright-eyed smile. An instant later, he catapulted himself down the slide with an elated, "Whee!"

  Erin felt her heart clench in a vice as he disappeared down the tube. She stared anxiously at the bottom opening of the slide. The seconds crawled by with agonizing slowness. She sat on that bench paralyzed as the sun dropped further in the sky. The shadows had already begun to fall on the top of the slide, darkening the interior further.

  "Evan?" she called out quietly, almost tentatively.

  Only the sound of the nearby brook answered her call.

  "Evan!" Erin called again. Panic began to fray at her self-control.

  There was no answer.

  "Evan!" she screamed louder.

  Still no answer. This time she stood up and trotted over to the slide as quickly as her pregnant belly and locking joints allowed her.

  "Evan, this is not funny." Reason struggled to reassert dominance again.

  She stooped down on her knees in front of the formerly colorful slide, now washed dark by the descending shadows. Her ample belly made the short stoop awkward but not entirely unmanageable. Once she lowered herself, she looked up into the tube. The closing shadows of night had now made the interior pitch black. There was no hint of her son.

  "Evan!" she shrieked. Her voice was oddly metallic as it resonated off the plastic. She tried to crawl up into the tube, but her pregnant abdomen made the task too difficult.

  She shouted into the slide, "Evan! Come down here now! I mean it!" She annunciated each syllable perfectly with a blend of fear and anger.

  The unbidden voice in the back of her head spoke again. "He can't hear you."

  Shut up! she told herself harshly. He's just stuck in the middle of this stupid slide. Of course he can hear me. He's just scared. He played a joke on me and took it way too far. Now he's just scared of the consequences of making me angry.

  She forced her voice into a soothing tone. "Honey. Please come down. You just scared Momma, that's all. Just come down now and we’ll go home."

  "Evan doesn't play cruel jokes . . . but he is scared.”

  Shut up! she told herself. She tried to push herself up the tube, but between the angle and her belly it was impossible to negotiate her way up. She frantically crawled out backwards and made for the ladder leading to the top of the playground equipment. Night had now fallen completely on the park and the surrounding forest. Above the tree line, the stars began to blink in the sky.

  She puffed vigorously as she ran, partly from exertion, but mostly out of fear. She began to climb clumsily up the ladder. In her haste, her foot slipped off the rungs. Only her sweaty white-knuckled grip kept her from plummeting backwards and severely injuring herself. She took a deep breath and climbed the rest of the way up without incident. At the top, she awkwardly forced her way past the playground’s side railing.

  Once she was on top of the equipment, she ran over the pretend bridge to the villainous slide. The soles of her shoes slapped down on the playground equipment with metallic clomps as she ran across it. She came to the top entrance of the slide and shouted down into its recesses. "Evan!"

  Erin strained her ears to listen for anything. Silence was the night’s only response. The darkness even seemed to swallow the sound of the brook. She sat down into the slide, putting her legs and feet into the abyss of the tube and waddling her hips as she tried to ease herself further down into the tight confines of the spiral.

  By now she knew that something was definitely wrong. Her maternal fear for her son's safety banished all thoughts of self-preservation.

  "Evan! Momma's coming, baby!" she called.

  She descended further down into the tube. She rounded the spiral as she gingerly felt ahead with her feet, deeply afraid she would come across her son's injured body.

  "Or worse,” the dark voice added, though she was concentrating too much on her descent to command it to silence.

  Suddenly the hands that she used to brace herself came down on a small pile of crunching leaves that her legs somehow missed in their initial sweep. Her hand slipped out from beneath her and she lost control. She plunged forward into the darkness screaming.

  She did not appear at the bottom of the slide.

  Chapter Two

  Darkness

  "Ahhhhh!"

  A scream tore from her throat as she plummeted. Her hands clawed for the sides of the tube to halt her sudden inexplicable momentum, but she could not find purchase, only the hard plastic of the frictionless incline and the crunching leaves. The slide expanded to an impossible enormity just beyond the first bend. Wind rushed in her ears and blasted her hair from her face as her speed increased faster and faster, deeper into the darkness below.

  The slide suddenly leveled off and she pitched off of its plastic surface. She remained airborne for only the briefest of moments before she crashed back first into an immense pile of and odd papery substance. The paper exploded outward on impact of her landing then avalanched back over her, enveloping her into its shifting mass.

  Erin lay there stunned as her heart climbed down from its terror induced ride. “What just happened?” she panted and immediately gagged. Her rapid inhalation sucked the strange material into her mouth.

  She sat bolt upright and cried out as a jolt of lightning stabbed up her back. Her scream became a coughing fit as more of the stuff flew into her mouth. She collapsed into a ball, her throat clenching, her lungs racked in spasms, and stabbing electricity shooting up her spine.

  She cupped her hands around her mouth, forming an imperfect pocket of air. She hacked and wretched against her palms, trying desperately to reassert some control over her breathing. She lay there for some time, lost in her pain and confusion immersed in the darkness. Drool pooled in her mouth trying to coerce her to vomit, but she spat it out into her hands desperately. She didn’t care that the spittle splattered back against her face as long as she did not recollect it back into her mouth.

  Finally her consciousness wrestled control back from her instincts. How long it had taken for it to reassert itself was impossible to tell. In the dark, the passage of time was incalculable. The enveloping material crackled and swished against her ears. She kept her eyes shut because when she opened them she couldn’t see anything but the blackness, and the paper irritated them causing her eyes to water. With only her sense of touch to orient her, she pulled her t-shirt over her face and slowly, tentatively sat up. Her back threatened to spasm again, but she froze and allowed the feeling pass. It did so quickly. As she finally pushed herself up, she allowed herself a controlled deep breath. Her shirt pulled against her mouth,
and she could feel her paper prison press in with her breath. She exhaled and her shirt pushed out and the paper reluctantly gave way. She reached up with one hand straight out, feeling the paper move and scratch against her arm’s bare skin. Even with her arm fully extended, she could still feel her hand completely covered.

  How deep is this stuff? she thought. As she regained control of her thoughts, several things became abundantly clear. She did not know where she was. She did not know what was covering her. And she could not see. She wondered whether she still be inside this stuff if she stood up. What if the surface was ten or even twenty feet above her head? What if it didn’t have a surface at all?

  A claustrophobic terror compressed her heart and her breath quickened. She felt every morsel of paper hugging her body. “Where am I? Where am I?” she asked out loud again and again. Each recitation became more and frenzied. “Where am I! Where am I! WHERE AM I!”

  Terror fully gripped her as she threw herself to a standing position and grunted as her back ignited, refreshed with another dose of pain.

  She ignored it as she punched through the surface about chest height and breathed in. The air had a strong, pungent odor, but it was good to breathe in without flecks of who-knows-what flying into her mouth.

  She looked around and discovered to her dismay that the all-consuming darkness remained. There weren’t any far-off city lights, nor any headlights from vehicles in the distance. She looked up and found that she couldn’t even see any stars. It was a blackness of night so complete that it almost made her wonder if light would ever exist again.

  “Am I blind?” she thought. She waved her hand in front of her face. She still couldn’t see it, but she felt the breeze it created. Erin touched her face, her cold fingers probing delicately. Her face felt normal. She seemed unharmed, so what was this place? And why was it so devoid of light?

  It was also completely silent. She hadn’t noticed at first for the loud rustling of the paper. But now that her head was free, she could hear nothing more than the sounds of her own breathing and heartbeat. They drummed in her ears within the oppressive darkness, rhythmic and loud.

 

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