The Black Obelisk
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"Herr Kroll, what's the meaning of this?" the desk sergeant asks in perplexity.
"It is the power of music," Georg replies. "A farewell song for a man who is going out into the wide world. It's harmless and really ought to be encouraged."
"Is that all?"
"That's all."
"It is disturbance of the peace," protests one of the men who made the arrests.
"Would it have been disturbance of the peace if they had been singing 'Deutschland, Deutschland über alles'?" I ask.
"That would have been different!"
"Throw them out!" shouts the sergeant. "But they're to keep quiet from now on."
"They'll keep quiet. You're not a Prussian, are you?"
"Franconian."
"That's what I thought," Georg says.
We are at the station. It is windy and there is no one on the platform but us. "You will visit me, Georg," I say. "I'll do all I possibly can to meet the women of your dreams. Two or three will be there for you if you come to visit me."
"I'll come."
I know he will not. "You owe it to your tuxedo at least," I say. "Where else could you wear it?"
"That's true."
The train bores through the darkness with two glowing eyes. "Keep the colors flying, Georg! We're immortal you know."
"So we are. And you, don't let them get you down. You've been saved so often it's your duty to survive."
"Sure," I say. "If only because of the others who weren't saved."
"Nonsense. Simply because you're alive."
The train roars into the station as though five hundred people were waiting for it. But only I am waiting. I look for a compartment and get in. The compartment smells of sleep and people. I open the window in the passageway and lean out. "When you give up something, you don't have to lose it," Georg says. "Only idiots think that."
"Who's talking about losing?" I reply as the train begins to move. "Since we lose in the end anyway, we can give ourselves the luxury of winning beforehand like the spotted monkeys of the forest."
"Do they always win?"
"Yes—because they don't know what winning is."
The train is already rolling. I feel Georg's hand. It is too small and too soft and there is an unhealed scar on it from the Battle of the Pissoir. The train moves faster, Georg is left behind and suddenly he is older and paler than I thought. Now I can only see his pale hand and pale head and then nothing more but the sky and the fleeing dark.
I go into the compartment. A commercial traveler with eyeglasses is wheezing in one corner; a woodsman in another. In the third a fat man with a mustache is snoring; in the fourth a woman with sagging cheeks and a hat askew on her head is emitting quavering sighs.
I feel the sharp hunger of sorrow and open my bag, which is in the luggage net. Frau Kroll has provided me with sandwiches for the trip. I fumble for them unsuccessfully and get the bag down out of the net. The quavering woman with the tilted hat wakes up, looks around furiously and goes back challengingly to her quavers. I see now why I could not find the sandwiches. Georg's tuxedo lies on top of them. Very likely he put it in my bag while I was selling the obelisk. I look at the black cloth for a while, then I get out the sandwiches and begin to eat. They are admirable sandwiches. The whole compartment wakes up for a moment at the smell of bread and liverwurst. I pay no attention and go on eating. Then I lean back in my seat and look out into the darkness, where now and again lights fly past, and I think of Georg and the tuxedo and then I think of Isabella and Hermann Lotz and of the obelisk that was pissed on and that saved the firm in the end, and finally I think of nothing at all.
25.
I never saw any of them again. Occasionally I planned to take a trip back, but something always interfered and I thought I had plenty of time. Suddenly there was no more time. Night broke over Germany, I left it, and when I came back it lay in ruins. Georg Kroll was dead. The widow Konersmann had gone on spying and had found out that Georg and Lisa had had an affair; in 1934, ten years later, she revealed this fact to Wat-zek, who was then Sturmführer in the SA, Watzek had Georg thrown into a concentration camp, despite the fact that he himself had divorced Lisa five years before. A few months later Georg was dead.
Hans Hungermann became Cultural Guardian and Obersturmbannführer in the new party, which he celebrated in glowing verses. For this reason he lost his position as educational director in 1945 and was in difficulties for a time. Since then, however, his pension application has been approved by the State and he is living in comfortable idleness, like countless other party members.
Kurt Bach, the sculptor, was in a concentration camp for seven years and came out an unemployable cripple. Today, ten years after the collapse of the Nazis, he is still fighting for a small pension, like innumerable other victims of the regime. If he is successful he will get an income of seventy marks a month—about one-tenth of what Hungermann receives and also about one-tenth of what the new democratic State has been paying for years to the first chief of the Gestapo— the man who organized the concentration camp in which Kurt Bach was crippled—not to mention, of course, the substantially higher pensions and indemnities paid to generals, war criminals, and prominent former party officials. Heinrich Kroll, who got through this period handsomely, looks upon all this with pride as proof of the incorruptible justice of our beloved fatherland.
Major Wolkenstein had a distinguished career. He joined the party, had a hand in the Jewish decrees, lay low for a few years after the war, and today, along with many other party members, is employed in the Department of Foreign Affairs.
For a long time Bodendiek and Wernicke kept a number of Jews hidden in the insane asylum. They put them in the cells for incurables, shaved their heads, and taught them to behave like madmen. Later Bodendiek was packed off to a small village because he had had the temerity to protest when his bishop accepted the title of Counselor of State from a government that regarded murder as a sacred duty. Wernicke was discharged because he refused to give lethal injections to his patients. Before that he had succeeded in smuggling out his hidden Jews and sending them on their way. He was sent to the front and fell in 1944. Willy fell in 1942, Otto Bambuss in 1945, Karl Brill in 1944. Lisa was killed in an air raid. So was old Frau Kroll.
Eduard Knobloch survived it all; he served the just and the unjust with impartial excellence. His hotel was destroyed, but it has been rebuilt. He did not marry Gerda, and no one knows what has become of her. Nor have I ever heard anything of Geneviève Terhoven.
Weeping Oskar had an interesting career. He went to Russia with the army and for a second time became commandant of a cemetery. In 1945 he was an interpreter with the occupation forces, and, finally, for several months he was burgomaster of Werdenbrück. After that he went back into business, this time with Heinrich Kroll. They founded a new firm and prospered greatly—tombstones at that time were in almost as great demand as bread.
Old Knopf died three months after I left Werdenbrück. He was run over one night by a car. A year later, to everyone's surprise, his wife married Wilke, the coffinmaker. It has been a happy marriage.
During the war the city of Werdenbrück was so demolished by bombs that hardly a house remained intact. It was a railroad junction and so was bombed repeatedly. A year afterward I was there for a few hours between trains. I looked for the old streets but lost my way in the city I had lived in so long. There was nothing left but ruins, nor could I find any survivors of that earlier time. In a little shop of rough boards near the station I bought some picture post cards with views of the city in the time before the war. That was all that was left. Formerly, if one wanted to remember his youth he went back to the place where he had spent it. One can hardly do that in Germany today. Everything has been destroyed and rebuilt and is strange. Picture post cards have to take its place.
The only buildings that have remained completely undamaged are the insane asylum and the lying-in hospital— principally because they stand some distance outside the city
. They were immediately filled to capacity again and are still full. Indeed, they even had to be substantially enlarged.