Deadlock sa-3

by Moira Rogers

  Rational thought vanished, not only unimportant but impossible in the face of such possession. Every stroke, every breath, was a new claim, one that drove her closer to the edge. Everything in her was his, and not because a hint of animal instinct hungered for him. Because he could give her what she needed.

  And she could do the same for him.

  The leather around her wrists creaked as she rocked with him. «Yours.»

  «I know.» He kissed the back of her neck. Licked it. Bit it. «All mine.»

  Words, because they were habit, though they only echoed what she could already feel through the empathy that bound them. A connection, both primal and immediate, that plucked at something deep inside her and rendered things like language obsolete.

  It was that connection that swept her away, up into a dizzying spiral of pleasure that shook her, body and mind. «Come with me. Come—»

  He shook above her, the last fine threads of control unraveling as they fell into flames together. His hips moved erratically, every thrust urging her on until nothing remained but the way he made her feel and the words he rasped against her cheek. «That’s it. You feel so good around my cock when you come. So goddamn hot when I’m fucking you.»

  «Fuck, Alec.» Another orgasm swelled through her, and she slammed her head back against his shoulder. «Fuck.»

  He came with her, roaring his pleasure as he drove into her one last time, hard enough to push her hips against the bed.

  There was no beginning and no end to the sensations cascading through her, through them both, a chain reaction fed by pleasure and desire and even more pleasure. Carmen tried to slow it down, to separate what was hers from what was his, but it was useless. Everything was shared and doubled because of it.

  «Shh.» Alec was stroking her, his hand smoothing from her shoulder to her hip in slow, gentle movements. Her wrists were free, though she couldn’t remember how they’d gotten that way, or when he’d shifted them so she was curled against his chest, her cheek pillowed on his arm.

  She pressed an open-mouthed kiss to his skin and nestled into his embrace. «I love being in your arms.»

  «I love having you here.» His hand followed her arm on the next stroke, fingers rubbing at her wrists. «Wasn’t too rough, was it?»

  «Mmm, no.» She caught his hand. «I won’t break.»

  A quiet, relieved sigh stirred the hair at the back of her neck. «Good.»

  «You were worried.»

  «Not really.» He yawned and tugged her closer. «Don’t have to worry so much with you. If I hurt you, I’ll know. I’ll feel it.»

  She’d known men who enjoyed the sexual feedback associated with her psychic ability, but never one who valued it as a way to ensure her well-being, and never one who understood her other needs so completely.

  But did he, really? The doubt rose, unbidden, but instead of pushing it away, she took a deep breath. «Can I ask you something?»

  «Of course, honey.»

  It was hard to find the words, but she tried. The last thing she wanted was to have her relationship with Alec fall apart because they couldn’t talk to each other. «The dominance. You said it’s not something you need in bed all the time, but what about out of it? Everyday stuff?»

  «I’m a bossy fucker. That’s never going to change.» His hand settled on her hip. «But the nice thing about all those wolfy instincts going away? I don’t need you to obey me. Don’t even want it, unless we’re in a dangerous situation where I need to keep us safe.»

  The fact that she wasn’t a wolf hadn’t mattered in the past, not to the other lovers she’d had to walk away from when their controlling behavior spilled over outside the bedroom. «Is that a typical alpha attitude, or are you unusual in that respect?»

  «I’m more alpha than most, but that just means I don’t have much to prove. It’s the ones who aren’t secure — they’re the ones who have to throw their power around all the damn time.»

  Maybe that had been the constant conflict. Insecurity could drive people to make all sorts of demands, and obedience was one she’d never been okay with. «I don’t need someone to control my life for me. It’s not that I think you would, but it’s caused problems in the past, so I wanted to get it out there.»

  His hand tightened on her hip, and he eased her over onto her back before propping his head up on one hand. «Dated a few controlling assholes, huh?»

  «To put it mildly.» Even her family didn’t know the extent of it, how close some of her lovers had come to crossing the line.

  The sudden feral gleam in Alec’s eyes said she couldn’t hide as easily from him. «Don’t suppose you want to let me hunt them down and kick respect into them after the fact?»

  «No, I do not.» She wiggled closer. «I’d rather move forward, if you don’t mind.»

  «Spoilsport.» But he smiled as he leaned down and kissed her forehead. «Fine, I’ll behave.»

  «Thank you.» The line of his throat beckoned, and Carmen followed it with her lips. «You’re an unusual sort of man, Alec Jacobson.»

  «It’s okay. You can call me odd.»

  «Your word, not mine.» She bit his chin. «I wouldn’t say odd. I’d say…fascinating.»

  That earned her a smile. «I like that word. ’Specially when you’re saying it.»

  She could have said so much more, and would have, except that his cell phone began to ring.

  Alec heaved a sigh and rolled away. His phone sat on the night table, but when he picked it up, he frowned. «It’s your brother. Julio.»

  «Want me to answer it?»

  He passed her the phone in silence, and Carmen thumbed it open. «Hello?»

  «Carmen.» Julio sounded rough, almost hoarse. «Are you finished with your thing in Wyoming?»

  «Yeah.» She instantly regretted not telling him why she’d flown up on the spur of the moment, but she hadn’t wanted to worry him. «What’s wrong?»

  «It’s Miguel. This thing, this spell — they did it to him too.»

  A cold shiver took her, a curiously hot numbness on its heels. «They did what?»

  «They turned him.» His voice grew even scratchier, as if he could barely speak. «Miguel’s a wolf.»

  Chapter Fourteen

  Another night of travel, another pot of coffee.

  Alec was on his third cup of the morning, and glad he was used to going without sleep. «So they did the spell the night before they tried it on Carmen?»

  «Apparently.» Julio prodded at one of the stale donuts he’d brought. «I tried to reach Miguel for days, but my father gave me the runaround. I guess to give him time to recover and adjust.»

  What a fucking mess. «And has he? Adjusted, I mean.»

  «As well as can be expected.» His mouth firmed into a tense line. «Not like I’ve had a lot of access to him, though. Carmen? She’ll be lucky if she gets to see him at all. Miguel inherited our father’s love of avoidance when it comes to tough situations.»

  Alec had known Carmen long enough to know one thing. «She’s not gonna like that much.»

  «She shouldn’t.» Julio glowered. «It’s low and cowardly, and I hate that Miguel still looks up to the bastard. But he wasn’t even born yet when Dad left. He won’t ever really understand.»

  Maybe Alec had more in common with Julio than he’d thought. «Not too flattering, being the favored son because they want you to grow up into a bigoted asshole, just like them.»

  «No, it pretty much sucks ass.»

  Carmen stepped into the doorway, still clutching the cordless phone in her hand. «Miguel won’t see me.»

  She looked so upset that Alec didn’t care about dancing around Julio’s likely disapproval. He held out an arm to her, and she slid onto his lap and buried her face against his shoulder.

  Julio didn’t look happy, but he appeared to be more focused on Carmen than anything. «I’m sorry, Car. If it’s worth anything, he seemed fine when I saw him. Physically, anyway.»

  She lifted her head. «Even so, from what Mahali
a and Michelle told us, that could change. Any minute, he could have an adverse reaction to the spell.»

  «The only thing we can do is get someone to look at him,» Alec said. «Mahalia might be willing to come down. Maybe she knows a way to minimize the risk.» Or maybe the kid would always be a ticking bomb, waiting to explode.

  Julio gathered his keys and his cell phone. «I have to head over to your office,» he told Alec. «Jackson’s been helping me out with something. Are you—?» He broke off, then cursed. «Fuck it, Carmen can be mad at me if she wants. Are you going to stay here with her?»

  It wasn’t about brothers and sisters, or acknowledging that Carmen was older than Julio and fully capable of taking care of herself. It was a question from one shapeshifter to another, a tacit understanding that humans and psychics needed protection.

  Not just protection. They needed a protector. Julio would have been that protector, whether he knew it on a conscious level or not. It had nothing to do with human chauvinism or gender. Jackson belonged to Mackenzie as sure as Derek and Nicole belonged to each other.

  As sure as Carmen belonged to him.

  Alec curled his hand around her hip and nodded once, the gesture for Julio even though his words were for Carmen. «Wherever she needs to go, I’ll take her.»

  «Okay.» Some of the tightness around his eyes relaxed.

  «Go, Julio,» Carmen said softly. «Alec is here.»

  «Yeah, Alec is here.» Her brother said it with finality, and he smiled as he tucked his phone in his pocket. «Don’t worry about Miguel. He’ll figure out soon enough how Dad and Uncle Cesar operate, and then he’ll come around.»

  Carmen returned his smile, though Alec could feel her sadness. «Shouldn’t take long.»

  Julio left, and Alec turned Carmen until he could meet her eyes. «We’ll take care of your brother. I promise.»

  «If he lets us,» she corrected.

  «Mmm.» A nice, noncommittal response, because Carmen didn’t need to know the truth. Not yet.

  Miguel, though… Well, if the kid wanted to be a shapeshifter, he could learn the first rule of being a shifter in New Orleans.

  No one got to refuse to see Alec Jacobson.

  Alec finally tracked Miguel back to his apartment, where he knocked hard enough to rattle the door. «You’ve got five minutes to let me in, kid, before I kick in the lock.»

  After nearly a minute, the door opened a crack, with the security chain still engaged. «What do you want?»

  Miguel’s power vibrated in the air. Steady and strong, but not dominant. Not like his brother. Not like Alec himself. «You’re a new wolf in my town, Mendoza. So open the damn door.»

  It shut, and the chain clinked. When the door reopened, Miguel backed away, his gaze lowered. «Come in, I guess.»

  Alec stepped inside, breathing a silent sigh of relief that he wouldn’t have to kick Carmen’s brother around the apartment to clarify their respective places in shapeshifter hierarchy.

  Once the door was closed behind him, Alec crossed his arms over his chest and studied the boy. He looked tense, a little twitchy.

  He snorted as he reached for an open bottle of beer on the coffee table. «Carmen didn’t come with you?»

  «No, because you» Alec froze. Inhaled. Miguel’s scent permeated the apartment, but it wasn’t the only one. Hazelnut, vanilla and cinnamon, mixed with the distinct something that screamed—

  «Kat.» The name came out as a growl. «Why the hell has Kat been here enough for this place to smell like her?»

  Miguel shrugged. «Why do you smell like my sister’s been riding you like a pony?»

  Blind rage made the room swim. Alec uncurled his fists, just to have something to do other than knock Miguel’s teeth down his throat. «If you want to stay in this town, you will damn well show your sister more respect than that. And if you want to lay a hand on Kat and not lose it, you’ll show her more respect too.»

  «So the truth is disrespectful?»

  «You’re not an idiot. Don’t act like one.»

  «Neither are you, so don’t ask me why Kat’s been here so much the place smells like her. She’s been here because she wanted to be.»

  Alec closed his eyes and counted. To five, because he was Carmen’s brother, and a new wolf who’d probably been through hell. «Fine. Kat’s not my business. Your sister is, though, and if I hear you talking about her like that again, I will beat some manners into you.»

  Oddly, the kid smiled. «Yeah, okay. I apologize.»

  «Good.» Slightly mollified, Alec leaned against the kitchen table. «Just so you know, the reason I’m worried about Kat is because new wolves can have trouble adjusting. Instincts, unpredictable strength… You can hurt someone without meaning to. Especially if they’re human.»

  «I appreciate the concern, but I’m not going to hurt anyone.» His smile turned rueful. «I’m not new, not completely. I’ve always been half wolf, right?»

  Which was part of the problem. «Did your father tell you how much more dangerous that makes it?»

  «He didn’t have to, Alec.» He tapped his temple. «I’m psychic, remember? He told me what he wanted me to hear, but he couldn’t hide what he didn’t, and neither could the witch. Not from me.»

  Julio and Carmen hadn’t mentioned the possibility, but maybe they hadn’t considered it. «So you know this spell could take a nasty turn now or in five years?»

  «I was willing to risk it.» He sobered, his expression turning stormy. «I didn’t know they were going after Carmen, with or without her permission. I would have stopped them.»

  He would have tried and possibly ended up in worse shape than his sister. «I took care of her. And as long as you’re in New Orleans, I’ll take care of you too. That’s how this works. But it comes with a price. I’m the law in this town, and you don’t get to flout that.»

  Miguel finished his beer. «You’re not the law in New Orleans. Trust me, I’ve heard that from my Uncle Cesar enough times over the last week to have it drilled into my head. After he got tired of yelling at my dad for pulling this stunt with the witch, he was happy to expound. At length.»

  Tension made it hard to sound casual. «Oh, he was, was he? And what did he have to say?»

  «The gist if it? That one day you were going to overstep your bounds just enough for him to nail your ass to the wall.»

  It sounded about right, like the blustering bravado of a man who was sure Alec would never force that confrontation. «I’ve crossed that line a dozen times this month, kid. Your uncle hasn’t shown up with the hammer yet.»

  «He’s glad you don’t want what he has,» Miguel said matter-of-factly.

  Maybe having a psychic shapeshifter around could be useful. «I don’t want what he has. But if he brings trouble to this town, I’m going to be the one who ends it.»

  «Only one way to do that. You’re sure he never wants you to challenge him? Well, he’s sure you don’t want to.» Miguel fixed a pointed look on Alec. «And you already have one psychic shapeshifter. Go talk to Julio and leave me out of your shit.»

  Shit. «It’s rude to snoop.»

  «Yeah, about that. Number one, this is my apartment. Number two, you think pretty damn loud. It’s hard to ignore.»

  «You are going to be a pain in my ass, kid.» Alec straightened and let his power off the leash. Barely, enough to give the boy a taste of real magic. «And that’s fine. But I’m not going to let you break your sister’s heart. She’s been through hell. Your father and uncle damn near got her killed. What is she going to do that’s so bad you won’t even see her?»

  Remorse darkened Miguel’s eyes, though determination steeled them. «I could tell her I’m okay, and that I knew, one hundred percent, what I was getting myself into. But telling her that is only going to remind her that she can’t protect me, not the way she’s always wanted to. Things like that hurt her, worse than thinking I’m being an immature jackass who doesn’t want a lecture.»

  They were both caught in a trap with no g
ood way out. Nothing new, except for the pathological need growing inside him. The need to protect Carmen from the world, from pain, from everything. Even her own family.

  It was a need he’d have to get a chokehold on — fast. «You can’t avoid her forever.»

  «I’m not planning on it. Just…a little more time.»

  «Fine. But I want you to do something for me.»

  «What’s that?»

  «See a spell caster I know. Couple times a month, make sure nothing unusual’s going on. For your sake and your sister’s.»

  He wanted to say no, that much was clear. But when he finally answered, he said, «Sure. I could use a new poker buddy.»

  Alec released the breath he’d been holding. «Thanks.»

  «You’re welcome.» He set his empty bottle on the coffee table. «Julio said Carmen’s fine. Is she?»

  «Yeah. She’s fine, and she’s going to stay fine.» Might as well get one thing out there. «No matter what your father and uncle try next. I’m not in the habit of asking people to pick sides against their own family, but you’re in a hell of a spot right now. If things get worse…»

  «I’m with Carmen,» Miguel said, not a shade of doubt coloring his voice. «Julio and I both, we’re with her.»

  «Good.» Alec straightened, then hesitated. «If you’ve got questions or problems with the wolf shit — and you don’t feel like asking your brother — Kat has my number.»

  «Thanks, but I’ll make it.»

  Maybe. There was one more thing the kid deserved to know. «Watch your step with Kat. I’m the least of your worries if you hurt her.»

  «Andrew Callaghan. She told me.»

  Kat had her own skewed perspective of Andrew’s supposed indifference to her, one she seemed stubbornly unwilling to relinquish. «Kat’s smart and empathic, but she doesn’t get instinct, not really. Try to remember that.»

  Miguel nodded. «I’m keeping it in mind.»

  «All I can ask.» Of Miguel, anyway. Alec made it out the door and into the parking lot before he allowed himself a frustrated growl. Kat had a lot of talking to do.