Reciprocity

by K. I. Lynn

  With a wail her pussy twitched, and her whole body spasmed under me as she came. Her juices flooded my face, and I drank her up. Eating her out had me so fucking hard that pre-come leaked onto my pants.

  I licked my lips and sat back, deftly pulling at my belt to get my pants down enough to get my cock out. Her pussy was soaking wet, letting me easily slide in. There wasn’t a lot of friction, but she was still tight from coming and fluttered around me as she built up for a second orgasm.

  Quick, no frills, just my cock pistoning in and out until I fired off.

  “Fuck.” My balls pulled up tight, and I shuddered. I dug my fingers into her hips as I slammed into her.

  Lila cried out, her body shaking, on the verge of coming again. I thrust hard a couple more times, and she arched against the chair and clamped down on my cock. I pushed all the way in and held my cock there, jerking with each spurt.

  Once done, I looked down at Lila and snickered between breaths.

  “You’re a mess.”

  She flipped me off, then gave me a lazy smile. “Best lunch break ever.”

  CHAPTER 13

  I chuckled to myself, earning a quizzical look from Lila.

  “What?”

  “Your hair is a beautiful fucking mess.”

  She reached up and her fingers combed through it, trying to straighten it and get out the knots I’d made. My wife looked thoroughly sexed—a look I loved to see her wear. Unfortunately, we were at the office and had to at least look presentable before we opened the door to the sixth floor conference room.

  The quiet little corner became our occasional afternoon delight spot. With the trial closing in, we both needed the physical reassurance and calm that came from touching each other.

  “I was thinking about having roasted chicken breast and red potatoes for dinner.”

  I thought it over as I pushed the tails of my dress shirt back into my slacks. “Sounds pretty good. Maybe some salad as well. My stomach hasn’t been right since that weird Indian place Drew took us to on Monday.” She smiled, laughing to herself. “What?”

  She shook her head. “Nothing.”

  I threw my jacket back on and walked over to her, pulling her to me. “It’s not nothing.”

  She bit her bottom lip, a blush creeping along her cheeks. “We’re just weird.”

  “We’re weird?”

  “I mean, I don’t watch sitcoms, but I’ve seen some when I dated Drew and spent time with Caroline. The things the people talked about were often strange to me.” I quirked my brow at her, and she sighed. “You know I have warped perceptions on reality, and our conversation was oddly similiar to those shows. I didn’t realize we’d become so mainstream and domesticated.”

  I laughed out loud. Normalcy was weird to her, and we were engaging in a normal, everyday couple conversation—the type we’d had hundreds of.

  “Baby, we’re married.”

  Her brow scrunched. “And?”

  “And we’re evolving as people and a couple. Life isn’t only about the crap we’ve been through anymore. The everyday shit, sharing it, and living life is the new us.”

  “I didn’t say it was bad, just…weird.” She tucked her head. “And I kind of like it.”

  I wrapped my arms around her and held her close. “You’ll get used to it, and it won’t be weird anymore.” She snuggled into my chest, a content sigh coming from her. “Dinner sounds great.”

  “You can make the salad.”

  I smiled and kissed the top of her head. “One of the few things I can make.”

  “You’ve gotten better at other things.”

  I nodded. “I have.”

  “You can make lasagna tomorrow.”

  “Mmm, that sounds good.”

  “Tomorrow. I’m making chicken tonight. Besides, we’ll need to stop at the grocery store.”

  I opened the door and held it for her to walk through. One of the few locals of the floor passed by, giving us a knowing look.

  I didn’t care who knew. Was it unprofessional to have sex at the office? Hell, yes. Was that going to stop me? Not a fucking chance. Discreet was what we strived for, but sometimes it was inevitable that someone heard us.

  “Your tie is messed up.” She reached up and adjusted it as we rode the elevator back up.

  We were walking down the hall back to her office when I noticed Caroline standing in front of Lila’s office, tapping her foot with her arms crossed in front of her. What had her so pissed?

  “My God, Nate, can’t you wait a few hours until you get home?” She huffed as we neared.

  I grinned at her. “No.”

  She rolled her eyes, then pointed at her watch as she looked at Lila. “Tick-tock, girl. We have lunch plans, and you’re eating into them with your sexcapades.”

  “Oh, crap!” Lila looked down at her watch and headed into her office to get her purse and coat.

  “Yeah, you forgot, didn’t you?”

  “No, time got away from me.”

  Caroline quirked her brow. “How long were you two getting it on?”

  I checked out the time, doing the math of when we left. “We were pretty quick.”

  “Nate!”

  I peeked in and saw that Owen had already left for lunch. “I know it’s no secret from her, so stop acting embarrassed. Besides, baby making has no schedule.” I grinned.

  Caroline’s head snapped to me. “Wait, what was that? Baby making?”

  I glanced at Lila, who was glaring at me. Hadn’t she told Caroline? Weeks had passed, and Caroline was out sick for a week in there, but I thought she would be the first person Lila told. Caroline gave me a “I hope you know what you’re doing” look.

  Lila sighed. “I was going to tell you about it over lunch.”

  “You sure as hell are.”

  “I’ll see you later,” Lila said as she gave me a kiss and headed down the hall.

  Once they were out of sight, I headed down to my office. As soon as I entered, I slammed my head against the door. Was I forcing my desires for a family on Lila? Did she even want children, or was she placating me? There was the possibility that the trial on Monday was consuming her thoughts—perhaps that was why?

  The answer was clear to that one. Her demeanor told me the stress of the trial was getting to her—hence the romp this morning. She was the one who called me to meet—an unusual occurrence.

  I was hard.

  Then again, I seemed to be hard all the time.

  Fucking PTSD. It affected my mood, often in a bad way, and heightened my already high-demanding sexual needs. At its worst, I was an asshole who needed his dick wrapped in warmth twenty-four-fucking-seven.

  Our addictive dependence on each other wasn’t considered healthy, but it was what we needed to function. We craved each other to calm the storm within.

  Getting off only gave me a moment of peace, but it was a moment.

  I had to get it all out, because in the morning, I needed to be strong for Lila. The trial was starting, and my shit needed to take a back burner.

  Staring at the TV, I palmed my cock as thoughts of fucking her unconscious took hold. She wasn’t home. Her art class, or, as I liked to call it, separation-of-her-dependency-on-me class, was going on until eight.

  Another fucking hour.

  My cock couldn’t wait that long. My balls ached and the head leaked, begging to explode. If I didn’t get myself in check, she was going to come home to something destroyed, and that would make her worry. Then she’d let me fuck her until I felt better.

  The problem with that scenario was I’d feel worse because I knew what she was hiding below the surface.

  She couldn’t hide from me.

  The pain, the fear—it shook her to the core to an almost debilitating degree. Yet, she went on, putting on that damn face, telling me everything was all right when it fucking wasn’t. It was a left-over defense mechanism that I didn’t even think she realized she’d been doing for the past week.

  My fist sl
ammed down next to my side, and I yelled out a curse. Frustration didn’t even describe my situation.

  I wanted to be selfish. I was dying to push my cock into her mouth and fuck her face, her throat swallowing around me; to slam my cock in her pussy, making her cry out as I fucked her hard, releasing all of my pent up rage and fear; to feel her tight ass constrict around me. I wanted to tie her to the bed and pound into her over and over until she came so many times she passed out. Make us both forget what was coming.

  My tongue swiped across my lips, muscles flexing as my hand opened and closed on the couch cushion. Hips, toes, hands—all curling in need.

  To taste, to take, to devour.

  I flipped the front edge of my shirt over my head and pushed my shorts down enough to pull my cock and balls out. The head was red and angry, my dick begging for Lila to make it all better. When was the last time I’d gotten off by my hand? It had been few and far between since I’d met her, so much so that my cock was practically trained to come from Lila and Lila alone.

  I moved my hand up my shaft and hissed as I hit the underside of the sensitive head, setting up a slow, teasing, steady pace. It wouldn’t take much to come.

  I recalled some of our favorite escapades, one of my favorites coming to the forefront—the alleyway in Noblesville. The thrill of being seen, watching as my cock claimed her pussy…

  I was lost on the edge of coming. Every muscle was so tight, statue-like as my fist flew up and down my cock. My mouth was open, eyes cloudy. I didn’t hear her come in, but she stood before me, fuzzy.

  The realization she was watching was too much. With a strangled cry, I tipped my head back and tightened my grip on my cock as the first pulsing shot from my balls exploded onto my stomach.

  Everything was gone, quiet, except the ecstasy that filled me with each spurt that left my body. I pulled the last drops out and relaxed back into the couch, spent. My vision cleared, though my lids were still heavy as I tried to catch my breath.

  Lila was still watching me. The beast was satiated, my muscles relaxed. I stared back at her. “Come here.” I beckoned her over, holding out my hand.

  As she got closer, I reached up and cupped her face, guiding her lips down to mine. It was soft, and through her touch, I knew sex wasn’t what she needed.

  I grabbed some tissue and wiped up the mess I’d made before pulling my t-shirt back down and tucking my cock away. Once that was done, I tugged on her arm, positioning her over my lap, straddling me. Her arms wrapped around my shoulders, while her head rested in the crook of my neck. It felt so good to have her close, but I needed closer, and I held her as tight as I could, breathing her in. I released my grip and swept my hand up, then down her back.

  “How was art class?”

  She shrugged in my arms. “It was okay. I’m not very good, though, so I think when it’s up, I’ll stop. Maybe find something else.”

  “Anything catch your eye?”

  She hummed against my neck. “Not really. Maybe I’ll just take more swimming or dance classes, just so I can keep up with you.”

  I kissed the side of her head. “You’ll be caught up in no time.”

  She looked so down. “I really just miss being with you.”

  “I know. Me, too. But, I also understand why Darren wants us to have separate activities, even though I hate it.”

  She nodded. “I missed you.”

  “I missed you, too.”

  She heaved a sigh and sat back. The crushing anxiety that plagued her earlier in the day was gone, but what replaced it was almost as bad. It was like she was preparing for battle. Shutting herself down, closing in. The way her arms were held in tight and wrapped loosely around her waist told me everything.

  I reached out and tilted her head up so I could look in her eyes. “Don’t shut me out, baby.” Tears started to pool in her eyes, and she wetted her lips before she looked down. “Hey, none of that. Look at me.” The sight of tears brimming made my chest clench. “I love you, Lila, and I’m here for you. I know tomorrow is going to be difficult, but you’re not alone anymore.”

  Her body jerked in my arms before a whine clawed its way out of her chest and broke into a sob. The sound tore at me, shredded me to pieces. There was nothing I could do. I felt helpless, and I hated the feeling. I wanted to take away all her pain, but had no clue how.

  Tears streamed down her cheeks. “I need lovey hugs.”

  I drew her in and held her tight as she cried into my chest, letting out all of her fear. She was strong, but I also knew how fragile she was. My only hope was that the following days didn’t break her.

  CHAPTER 14

  When the alarm went off, neither of us moved to turn off the blaring sound. We stared at each other, gathering up the strength to leave the bed. Knowing that as soon as the alarm was silent, we had to get ready.

  She sighed and curled against my chest. I wrapped my arms around her, wishing I could keep her there—that she didn’t have to go through what was coming.

  The volume of the alarm grew to an almost deafening level, and I couldn’t take it anymore. I slapped down on the snooze button to shut it up.

  Five more minutes.

  I went back to my position of trying to pull her inside me. When time was up, we reluctantly separated and moved to get up.

  A low pressure front had come through overnight, and we both groaned in pain. The first steps were rough—my leg didn’t want to move right. Another reminder of what lay beneath the scars all over my body. Lila was the same, and her hand covered the opposite wrist.

  My whole body ached and was stiff. Mornings like this sucked and made an already difficult day that much worse.

  We showered and got ready, our pace slower than normal.

  Lila’s eyes were clouded and unfocused. She wasn’t ready for today, but she never would be. The day was a means to the end, and I’d be there, helping her get through it as best as the court would allow. Being a witness meant we’d be separated, testifying without each other in the room.

  It was going to be a shit day, but we’d get through it together.

  That was, if my ass didn’t end up in jail for killing the fucker.

  My blood still boiled over it, and the image burned in my mind. I honestly wasn’t sure I could keep myself in check and the beast on a leash. Everything in my being wanted to beat the shit out of him, to break every bone in his body for everything he’d ever done to her.

  I glanced over at her. The light was gone from her—she was just a shell—much like when we first met. Her hands shook as she pulled a shirt from its hanger and slipped it on. I stepped forward and helped her get it over her head, smoothing it down her waist.

  “I can’t do this,” she said, looking up at me.

  She was so afraid and so lost.

  One of my hands sat on her waist while the other cupped her cheek. “You can. You’re stronger. They can’t hurt you. Don’t let fears bring you down.”

  “What if my father is there? Bad enough I have to tell an entire court room what they did to me, reliving it over and over again as they dig in deep. Having to have my past brought up to all those people. But to deal with him as well?”

  “I’ll be with you.”

  She shook her head. “No, you won’t. You’ll be in another room. Cut off.”

  “No, not cut off. It’ll only be a few feet and some walls between us, but I’ll be there. You’ll be able to feel me.”

  A tear slipped down her cheek, and I wiped it away. “I need to be able to touch you. How can I get through this day without you?”

  “By remembering that by testifying, you’re sealing his fate. You’ll be able to say the words, knowing I’m not far away and that there are witnesses and a bailiff there to protect you from him.”

  She sniffed and drew in a shuddered breath, then nodded.

  We finished getting ready and headed out. The drive was silent and a bit unnerving with how locked down Lila was. I reached out and took her hand in mine. Her
fingers twined with mine, a long breath coming from her as she relaxed, even if it was just a little.

  Her grip tightened as we walked up to the courthouse—a death grip of fear. Heading down the hall, we saw Lawrence, the prosecutor, standing in front of the courtroom, with Noah next to him.

  Lawrence looked between us and settled on Lila. “Are you ready?”

  She shook her head, her voice soft and small. “No, but I never will be.”

  He pursed his lips and nodded, then ushered us in.

  She reached out and grabbed Noah’s hand. He stepped forward, giving her a hug and kissing the top of her head. “I know. But it will get so much better after this. I promise.”

  She nodded, and we moved to find our seats.

  I hated that we had to be at the courthouse so early, and hated that we spent the morning doing nothing but waiting as the jury was selected. Waiting to get the damn show on the road and get this the fuck over with so we could move on.

  One less threat to deal with. One less monster on the streets.

  There was no doubt in my mind he would go to prison. What I did waver on was if we could get all the major felony charges. Not getting one could mean around five or more years less on his sentence.

  I didn’t even get to see the cleaned-up version of Adam. A bailiff came for me. I wrapped Lila in my arms and kissed her hard.

  “You’ll be okay. I’m here.”

  The fear was clear in her eyes, but she nodded. Everything in me wanted to run away with her, to keep her from the pain, but it was a necessary evil. I was shuffled back to my “holding cell,” Lila’s fingers slipping through mine as we were led away to separate rooms.

  My knee bounced as I stared at the clock, watching as each second ticked by. It was almost five—they would end for the day, and I could see Lila again.