Union of Sin

by Eden Summers

  “I’ve already said I don’t want to get laid,” Cassie grated. This was ridiculous.

  “Believe me, I’ve heard you. But it’s a woman’s prerogative to change her mind. It’s just an option. If you want to sit at the bar and talk all night, we can. There won’t be loud music or sleazy guys annoying us. And if you start having fun and don’t want to stop, I’m sure being in the Vault will be of some comfort to you.”

  Cassie kept her mouth shut, not willing to admit going to a quieter, more familiar club was reassuring. It was still the Vault—a place she’d been to twice, yet it held palpable memories she wasn’t sure she wanted to be reminded of.

  As they turned into Shot of Sin’s street, her heart pounded. “If I want to leave, are you going to try and convince me to stay?”

  Shay shrugged. “That depends.”

  “On?”

  “If you want to leave as soon as we walk in the door. You need to give it time. At least three drinks minimum.”

  “Three drinks?” Cassie gaped. She hadn’t had more than a drink or two in a damn long time. Shay knew it too. Three would have her dancing on the bar. “How about two?”

  Shay smirked and flicked her indicator to enter the club parking lot. “Four.”

  Damn her. “Three it is. But I won’t promise to enjoy myself.”

  “Doesn’t bother me, honey.” Shay pulled into one of the few remaining parking spots and cut the ignition. “As long as I stay out long enough to work Leo into a jealous frenzy, I’ll be happy.”

  * * * * *

  “Stop pacing.” T.J. wasn’t comfortable telling someone else to stop doing what he’d been doing all week, but the way Leo huffed back and forth was filling the now empty Taste of Sin restaurant with cloying apprehension. “Why the hell are you pacing, anyway?”

  “Just anxious.” Leo checked a text message on his phone. “That’s all.”

  “With good reason.” Brute smirked.

  “Do you mind filling me in on what’s going on?” They’d been seated at the bar for an hour, yet T.J. felt like his friends had spent the whole time having a secret conversation without him.

  Brute reached over the bar and poured himself another beer. “It’s nothing.”

  Leo groaned and flung back the remaining bourbon in his glass. “Can’t we just go? Shay and Cassie will be out by now.”

  “No.” T.J. was adamant. He wanted Cassie to have a few hours to herself. Besides, alcohol would calm her nerves and make it easier for him to approach her later. He’d get her brutal honesty after she’d had a few drinks, and he didn’t want to risk arriving early. Timing was everything. “We’ll leave soon enough.”

  Leo pulled his cell from his back jeans pocket. “I might give Shay a call th—”

  “Fuck off.” Brute snatched the device from Leo’s hand. “Don’t you trust your woman?”

  Leo scowled. “Of course I do. I just think it would be best if we get a move on.”

  “I’m not keeping you here.” They were making him nervous with their bullshit attitudes. Leo didn’t stress often. He did moody and irrational, but he didn’t do anxiety. And Brute… Well, that fucker was smiling, which was an anomaly all on its own. “If you want us to meet you in the city, go ahead. It’s no big deal.”

  “It’s fine,” Leo grated. “I’ll stick around.”

  The large dining area fell silent. Brute continued to smirk to himself as he topped up his beer. Leo’s fingers kept tap, tap, tapping against the bar, while T.J. tried to think of what he was going to say to make Cassie forgive him for all the heartache.

  “You know what?” Leo shoved from his stool. “I’ve got something to say.”

  Brute swiveled in his stool, still smirking as he crossed his arms over his chest and looked at Leo. T.J. followed, leaving his scotch on the counter to turn and face the man who appeared ready to make a Hulk transformation.

  “Before we find Cassie and Shay,” Leo started. “I want you to know something.”

  “Is this the something that’s had you jittering and snarling all night?”

  Leo let out a bitter laugh. “No. We’ll get to that next. What I want to discuss is how you got in this fucked situation in the first place.”

  T.J. raised his chin, trying to steel himself against the punch to his pride. “What of it?”

  “It’s about all the guilt you piled on yourself that could’ve been eased if only you’d spoken to us. It’s about you, and your inability to let us help.”

  “I didn’t think I needed it,” he snarled. Cassie was his wife. His love. His responsibility. He cleaned up his own messes…well, usually he did. Only this time, he’d left a trail in the form of an email.

  “Yes, you did. You’ve just been kidding yourself for so long you started believing your own lies.”

  “Fuck you.” T.J. slid to his feet. The last thing he needed was a guilt trip. He’d had enough guilt to last a lifetime.

  “Don’t get defensive. I’m just trying to tell you, you’ve gotta realize, no matter how much you want to, you won’t always be able to protect her. Sometimes you’ll need to rely on us to help. Sometimes she’s going to be fine all by herself. And then there’ll be other times when no matter what any of us do, she’s still going to get hurt, and there’s nothing you can do about it.”

  T.J. winced. This was what it all came down to. His issues. His guilt. “I know.”

  “Do you?” Leo raised a disbelieving brow. “Because you fucked up in Brisbane and didn’t bother telling me about it. How could you keep that from us? How could you quit sleeping in your wife’s bed for six months, killing yourself with guilt, and not breathe a word of it to me?”

  “It wasn’t something either Cassie or I wanted to share.”

  “Yeah, well, it says a lot about our friendship, doesn’t it?”

  Whoa.

  “Hold up.” T.J. raised his hands in surrender. “Cassie’s everything to me. I didn’t want to share information that would upset her.”

  “And if you had shared that information, I would’ve kicked your ass to next Tuesday. Brute too. Aren’t I right?” He jerked his chin at Brute.

  “Yeah.” The sadistic grin vanished from Brute’s features. “Everything would’ve been out in the open. We would’ve made you pay for your mistakes and you would’ve moved on. None of this would’ve happened.”

  “It wouldn’t have stopped the guilt.” They didn’t know what it was like to deal with the what-ifs.

  “No, it wouldn’t.” Leo inclined his head in acknowledgement. “But we could’ve helped with that too. It didn’t have to be like this.”

  T.J.’s chest constricted, squeezing the air from his lungs. He couldn’t look back now. He couldn’t admit he’d done the wrong thing by her again. There was too much blame already. That night in Brisbane had changed him. She’d been so scared. Her beautiful skin pale as a ghost when he’d slammed into that bathroom.

  “It wasn’t your mess.” The shame at placing her in that position, the fear of it ever happening again, had been his burden to bear.

  “It fucking was,” Brute raised his voice. “That’s what Leo is trying to tell you. You’re like a brother to us. And you know what? You’ve always had Cassie, and now Leo has Shay, but I’ve only ever had you guys at my back. We’re not meant to go through shit like this on our own. So next time, quit being a fucking tool and ask for help.”

  T.J. swallowed over the dryness in his mouth. “I don’t like relying on other people when it comes to Cassie.”

  “Why?” Leo slumped back onto his stool. “What’s the big deal?”

  T.J. shook his head and broke eye contact. “Cassie is everything,” he murmured the painful truth. “She’s perfect. I can’t fault anything about her. Even the way she’s handled this divorce—fighting for me, when deep down I always wanted her to, then giving up when I cou
ldn’t handle her anguish anymore. She’s all I’ve ever wanted. And more than I’ll ever deserve.”

  He stared at the scuff marks on his black shoes. “Doing this by myself was an attempt to make up for all my mistakes. I’d let her go and take the fall. I was happy to do it because then I’d never have to spend another night lying awake, wondering when I’d put her in another position where she’d get hurt. I deserved this mess.” And he deserved a lot more. “I just can’t go through with it. I love her too much.”

  They didn’t respond. He sat there, silent, their gazes weighing heavy on T.J.’s shoulders.

  “See…I’m pathetic.”

  “That’s not breaking news.” Leo chuckled.

  T.J. glanced at his friend from the corner of his eye and tried to laugh, but the sound came out halfhearted. He couldn’t find humor in this. “What if I let her down again?”

  “And what if you don’t get the choice?” Leo cocked a brow. “I’d rather go in, guns blazing, full speed ahead, than not have a chance at happiness at all.”

  “You’ve sure changed your tune since hooking up with Shay.”

  “Yeah? Well, maybe you should do the same. You can’t protect Cassie twenty-four-seven. You need to start trusting her to make the right decisions. To start believing Brute and I have your back, as well as hers. It’s not rocket science. And besides, if you don’t hurry up, the decision might be taken out of your hands. I’m not sure how long she’ll be left alone in the Vault when she has Shay at her side, egging her on.”

  “The Vault?” T.J. scrutinized his friend, waiting for the punch line. “What have you done?”

  Brute leaned over the bar again to place his empty glass in the sink. “We saved you the hassle of driving into the city.”

  “Wha—”

  “Calm down, my friend. I did exactly what you would’ve done if you had the ability to think clearly.” Leo released a long huff of breath and wiped a hand down his face. “Cass is somewhere safe, with men we know, also under the surveillance of Travis behind the bar.”

  “That’s why you’ve been flustered all night?” Fucking hell. Cassie was in the goddamn Vault.

  “Flustered isn’t a word worthy of how I’ve felt the last two hours, knowing Shay has been in a sex club with your wife.”

  “Then why the hell—”

  “It was better than the alternative of them going into the city.” Brute snatched his wallet off the bar and shoved it in the back pocket of his dress pants. “It’s not like I could warn every club-goer in Melbourne to keep their hands off your wife, like I can in our own club.”

  “You did that?” Brute’s assurances did nothing to curb T.J.’s jealousy.

  “Of course we did,” Leo growled. “However, it doesn’t mean my manipulative girlfriend won’t talk anyone into testing my authority.”

  Chapter Nineteen

  “Was I right? Or was I right?”

  Cassie rolled her eyes at Shay and chuckled. “You were right.”

  It helped that the three mandatory drinks had gone down in quick succession to fight her nerves, but it was also comforting to spend her last night as a married woman in a place she felt close to her husband.

  She hadn’t been able to stay mad at him. Once the tears faded, she’d understood why he’d kept the information to himself. She still didn’t appreciate the way he coddled her, but there was forgiveness in her heart. And longing too. Being back in his club didn’t ease her tumultuous emotions.

  The vibe tonight was different from the masquerade party. Most people were focused on drinking and foreplay instead of nudity and sex. No dress code was in force either, meaning most people were in evening attire instead of underwear.

  It was laid-back. Sexy. With security at the back entrance and on-call for any issues that could arise. The guests Shay had invited to play were also happy to do their own thing, with the understanding Cassie was only available if words of consent were physically spoken.

  Which would never happen. Not only because she wasn’t ready, but because it would be disrespectful to T.J.

  “Can I buy you ladies a drink?” The deep, unfamiliar voice drifted over Cassie’s shoulder, making her tense.

  “Not for me, thanks, Luke.” Shay grinned. “I’m spoken for tonight.”

  Cassie swiveled in her stool, coming face-to-face with muscled beauty. The man was ripped, showing an expanse of gorgeously tanned skin from his shoulders all the way down to his silk boxers.

  “How about you, beautiful?”

  Cassie jerked back at the compliment. He was handsome as hell, half-naked and wanted to buy her a drink? No, thank you. She needed to cut her teeth on someone less perfect.

  “She’s with me tonight,” Shay spoke for her.

  The man’s lips curved, exposing a glimpse of flawless white teeth. “With you? As in, the two of you together?” He raised a brow. “I have to admit, I’d love to see that.”

  “No.” Shay rolled her eyes. “We’re not together. Just friends sharing a few drinks.”

  “That’s a shame.” The man shrugged and began walking away. “Seeing the two of you all hot and heavy would’ve been the highlight of my year.”

  Cassie’s eyes bugged as she turned back to the bar. “Jesus Christ. Is he serious?” She glanced at the bartender for confirmation, not trusting Shay for a truthful answer.

  “Definitely.” Travis had a smug expression on his handsome face. “We don’t see a lot of girl-on-girl action down here.” He grabbed her empty glass and placed it in a dishwasher rack on the sink. “It happens. Just not often, and probably not with women as lovely as the two of you.”

  “You’re so smooth, Travis,” Shay cooed.

  “Yeah.” Cassie had to agree. “He almost deserves a little show-and-tell for his efforts. Don’t you think, Shay?”

  The ease in which she slid back into the single mindset confronted her with the force of a punch to the stomach. Had she really just said that? Christ.

  “Can I have another drink, please?” She tapped the bar and breathed out the ache in her lungs.

  “Are you serious?” Shay asked, the corner of her lips twitching.

  “About the drink?” Travis and Shay were both looking at her—her friend in humor, the bartender with a scowl.

  “We don’t joke in the Vault, Cass.” Travis’s tone was low. Her heart climbed into her throat. Wait. Was he joking? “Read the rules and regulations. We don’t condone misrepresentation.”

  “Oh, fuck off, Travis.” Shay swiveled on her stool to face Cassie. “It’s all about keeping lines of communication open. If you’re teasing, it gives false hope and mixed signals, which can be dangerous in a place like this. But ignore him, he’s being overly dramatic.”

  Okay. He definitely wasn’t joking, which kind of pissed her off. She had enough to deal with without her lame attempt at humor being taken out of hand.

  “Then maybe I wasn’t misrepresenting.” She cocked a brow at Travis and swiveled her stool toward Shay. “I wouldn’t want to be seen breaking the rules in my husband’s club.”

  “Now I know that’s the liquor talking.” Shay snorted.

  “Doesn’t have to be.” Cassie straightened her shoulders. She wasn’t sure where the confidence was coming from…oh, wait, yes she did. Those three mandatory drinks her scheming friend made her have were kicking in nicely. “I’m single, remember?”

  “But Shay isn’t,” Travis drawled.

  “Mind your own damn business. I’m sure Leo would be satisfied with a blow-by-blow recount.” Shay leaned forward, resting her palms on Cassie’s thighs. “What do you think?”

  Cassie’s throat dried in an instant. Where was the liquid courage now? The corner of Shay’s mouth quirked as she leaned in, brushing their cheeks together before resting her lips near Cassie’s ear.

  “I started flirting back becau
se I thought you were joking,” Shay whispered. “Now I’m kinda nervous because you might be serious.”

  Cassie closed her eyes, keeping up the façade as she nuzzled the side of her face into Shay’s hair. “I was totally joking.”

  Was… Now she wasn’t so sure. Shay’s attention was nice. Soothing. The brush of another body against hers sparked a warmth inside her chest that she hadn’t expected. When she opened her eyes, more than one gaze was upon them, the interest from club patrons making the lonely parts of Cassie feel adored again. “I thought uptight Travis and your friend Luke deserved a show.”

  “Hmm.” Shay continued to brush her lips down Cassie’s neck, each touch sparking a frenzy of heat in her veins. “So how far did you want to take this?”

  “Mmm.” Cassie arched her neck, half of her playing along with the pretense, the other half falling under the spell of arousal. “I hadn’t thought that far.”

  Shay was so soft and unfamiliar. She was unlike anything Cassie had ever felt before. Her dating life had only ever consisted of men. And not many at that. But they had all been highly masculine partners, with rough skin and calloused hands. The attention from Shay was entirely different. Exquisite in its delicacy. Instead of dominant and demanding, it was tender and fragile.

  The hands on her thighs were still, the fingertips rubbing in intricate patterns over her sensitive skin. She ran her fingers through Shay’s hair, enjoying the brief slide out of loneliness. But it was the infrequent, slight hitches in the other woman’s breathing that made Cassie’s nipples harden to tight peaks.

  They were both aroused, no matter what act they were trying to play.

  “I’ve never kissed a woman before.” The words whispered from her lips. Maybe it was a mistake. Maybe it wasn’t. Honestly, she didn’t care. “I wonder what it would be like to kiss you.”

  Shay pulled back, a mischievous grin tilting her mouth. “I was thinking the same thing.”