The Soloist (Movie Tie-In)

by Steve Lopez

  Table of Contents

  Title Page

  Copyright Page

  Dedication

  PREFACE

  Part One

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Part Two

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Part Three

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24

  Chapter 25

  Chapter 26

  Chapter 27

  Chapter 28

  Chapter 29

  Chapter 30

  Chapter 31

  Acknowledgements

  About the Author

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  Published simultaneously in Canada

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  for the support and benefit of Nathaniel Ayers.

  Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data

  Lopez, Steve.

  The soloist: a lost dream, an unlikely friendship, and the redemptive power of

  music / Steve Lopez.

  p. cm.

  eISBN : 978-0-399-15506-2

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  For Alison and Caroline, who made Nathaniel part of our extended family. And for Nathaniel’s mother, the late Floria Boone, whose love never wavered.

  PREFACE

  I’m on foot in downtown Los Angeles, hustling back to the office with another deadline looming. That’s when I see him. He’s dressed in rags on a busy downtown street corner, playing Beethoven on a battered violin that looks like it’s been pulled from a dumpster.

  “That sounded pretty good,” I say when he finishes.

  He jumps back three steps, eyeing me with suspicion. I see the name Stevie Wonder carved into the face of the violin, along with felt-pen doodles.

  “Oh, thank you very much,” he says, obviously flattered. “Are you serious?”

  “I’m not a musician,” I answer. “But yes. It sounded good to me.”

  He is black, just beyond fifty, with butterscotch eyes that warm to the compliment. He is standing next to a shopping cart heaped over with all his belongings, and yet despite grubby, soiled clothing, there’s a rumpled elegance about him. He speaks with a slight regional accent I can’t place. Maybe he’s from the Midwest or up near the Great Lakes, and he seems to have been told to always stand up straight, enunciate, carry himself with pride and respect others.

  “I’m trying to get back in shape,” he says. “But I’m going to get back in there, playing better. I just need to keep practicing.”

  “So you like Stevie Wonder?” I ask.

  “Oh, yes, certainly. ‘You Are the Sunshine of My Life.’ ‘My Cherie Amour.’ I guess I shouldn’t have written his name on my violin, though.”

  I write a column for the Los Angeles Times. The job is a little like fishing. You go out and drop a line, cast a net. I’m figuring this vagrant violinist is a column. Has to be.

  “I’m in a hurry at the moment,” I tell him, “but I’d like to come back and hear you play again.”

  “Oh, all right,” he says, smiling appreciatively but with trepidation. He looks like a man who has learned to trust no one.

  “Do you always play in this spot?” I ask.

  “Yes,” he says, pointing across the street with his bow to Pershing Square, in the heart of downtown Los Angeles. “I like to be near the Beethoven statue for inspiration.”

  This guy could turn out to be a rare find in a city of undiscovered gems, fiddling away in the company of Beethoven. I would drop everything if I could, and spend a few hours pulling the story out of him, but that will have to wait for another day. I’ve got another column lined up and not much time to shape it. The deadlines come at you without mercy, even in your dreams.

  “I’ll be back,” I say.

  He nods indifferently.

  Back at the office I sweat out another column, scan the mail and clear the answering machine. I make a note on the yellow legal pad where I keep a list of possibilities.

  Violin Man.

  It’s got potential. Who knows where it will go?

  Part One

  1

  I can’t get the image out of my head, this odd picture of grubby refinement. But when I go back to look for the violinist in Pershing Square, I come up empty. His disappearance only makes the mystery more provocative.

  Who was he? Where did he go? What is his story?

  Three weeks later, he’s back, reappearing in the same spot, and I watch from across the street for a while before approaching. His playing is a little scratchy and tentative, but just like before, it’s clear this is no beginner. There’d been some serious training in there, somewhere along the way. He doesn’t appear to be playing for money, which seems strange for a homeless guy. He plays as if he’s a student, oblivious to everyone around him, and this is a practice session.

  Strange place to practice. The ground shakes when buses roar by, and his strings are barely audible in the orchestra of horns, trucks and sirens. I gaze at the tops of buildings adorned with gargoyles and grand cornices. Men and women move about, duty-bound, ignoring him for the most part as they disappear around corners and into entryways. The man plays on, a lone fiddler. He throws his head back, closes his eyes, drifts. A portrait of tortured bliss.

  When he pauses, I move in.

  “Hello,” I say.

  He jumps back, startled ju
st as before.

  “Do you remember me?” I ask.

  “I remember your voice.”

  He’s still suspicious of me, suspicious of everything around him, it seems. He says he was trying to remember a Tchaikovsky piece he once knew quite well, but now it is as elusive as the meaning of a dream. It’s obvious that he’s troubled in some way, like so many others who wander the streets as if they inhabit a different planet than the rest of us, wrapped in many-layered outfits to keep from coming unraveled. He’s wearing a ratty blue sweater with a light brown T-shirt over it and the collar of a shirt spilling out over the top of it all. Wrapped around his neck, like a scarf, is a yellow terry-cloth towel. His pants hang low on his waist, fitted for a man three sizes bigger, and his grimy white sneakers have no laces.

  He tells me his name is Nathaniel Anthony Ayers. From Cleveland. He’s going to keep practicing until he’s proud of what he hears, he says, and I tell him I might like to write about him for the L.A. Times.

  “Seriously?” he asks. “You’d really want to write about me?”

  “Why not?” I ask.

  He’s a handsome guy, lean and fit-looking, with a strong jaw and clean white teeth. He reminds me a little of Miles Davis. I ask where he lives and he says at the Midnight Mission, one of the biggest rescue operations on nearby Skid Row. Not inside, he specifies. But on the street, though he showers and takes some meals inside.

  “Why not sleep inside?”

  “Oh, no,” he says. “I wouldn’t want to do that.”

  I wonder how safe it can be for a man trying to reconnect with Tchaikovsky as drug dealers, prostitutes and hustlers work streets teeming with the lame and the afflicted. Skid Row is a dumping ground for inmates released from the nearby county jail, and it’s a place where the sirens never stop screaming.

  “Maybe I’ll come by and visit you at the mission,” I tell him.

  He nods, but I can see he doesn’t trust me. He tucks the violin back under his chin, eager to get back to his music, and I know that if this one ever pans out, it’s going to take some time. I’ll have to check back with him now and again until he’s comfortable enough to open up. Maybe I could go on his rounds with him over the course of a day or so, see if anyone can help fill in the blanks in his story or explain his condition. As he begins to play, I wave good-bye, and he responds with a suspicious glance in my general direction.

  Two weeks later, I go looking for him once more and he’s disappeared again. I stroll over to the mission at Fourth and Los Angeles streets, where I see street people by the dozens, some of them drug-ravaged, some of them raving mad, some of them lying so still on the pavement it’s hard to tell whether they’re napping or waiting for a ride to the morgue.

  I check with Orlando Ward, the public information man at the Midnight. He tells me he’s seen the violinist around, but doesn’t know the backstory. And he hasn’t seen him lately.

  Now I’m worried that I’ve lost the column.

  Weeks go by and I get distracted by other things, shoveling whatever I can find into that empty space on the page. And then one day while driving to work from my home in Silver Lake, a neighborhood five miles northwest of downtown, I cut through the Second Street tunnel and there he is, putting on a one-man concert in a location even noisier than the last one.

  He remembers me this time.

  “Where have you been?” I ask.

  He says he’s been around, here and there. Nowhere special.

  A car whooshes by and his mind reels.

  “Blue car, green car, white car,” he says. “There goes a police car, and God is on the other side of that wall.”

  I nod, not knowing what to say. Maybe he’s a little more unreachable than I realized. Do I take notes for a column, or do I make a few calls to see if someone can come and help him?

  “There goes Jacqueline du Pré,” Nathaniel says, pointing at a woman a block away. “She’s really amazing.”

  I tell him I doubt that it’s the late cellist, who died in 1987.

  Nathaniel says he isn’t so sure.

  “I don’t know how God works,” he tells me sincerely, with an expression that says anything is possible.

  I scribble that down in my notebook, and I also copy what he’s written on his shopping cart with a Magic Marker:

  “Little Walt Disney Concert Hall—Beethoven.”

  I ask Nathaniel if he has moved to this location to be near the concert hall and he says no, he isn’t even sure where Disney Hall is, exactly.

  “Is it around here?” he asks.

  “Right up the hill. The great big silvery building that looks like a schooner.”

  “Oh, that’s it?”

  He says he moved to this spot because he could see the Los Angeles Times Building two blocks away.

  “Don’t you work there?” he asks.

  Having lived in Cleveland, New York and Los Angeles, Nathaniel tells me, it’s reassuring to be able to look up at the L.A. Times Building and know where he is.

  He plays for a while; we talk for a while, an experience that’s like dropping in on a dream. Nathaniel takes nonsensical flights, doing figure eights through unrelated topics. God, the Cleveland Browns, the mysteries of air travel and the glory of Beethoven. He keeps coming back to music. His life’s purpose, it seems, is to arrange the notes that lie scattered in his head.

  I notice for the first time that his violin, caked with grime and a white chalky substance that looks like a fungus, is missing an important component or two.

  “Your violin has only two strings,” I say. “You’re missing the other two.”

  Yes, he says. He’s well aware.

  “All I want to do is play music, and the crisis I’m having is right here. This one’s gone,” he says of the missing top string, “that one’s gone, and this little guy’s almost out of commission.”

  His goal in life, Nathaniel tells me, is to figure out how to replace the strings. But he got used to playing imperfect instruments while taking music classes in Cleveland’s public schools, and there’s a lot you can do, he assures me, with just two strings.

  I notice while talking to him that someone has scrawled names on the pavement where we’re standing. Nathaniel says he did it with a rock. The list includes Babe Ruth, Susan, Nancy, Kevin and Craig.

  “Whose names are those?” I ask.

  Oh, those people, he says.

  “Those were my classmates at Juilliard.”

  2

  I half run back to the Los Angeles Times Building, a downtown landmark that squats on the better part of one square block kitty-corner from City Hall. For nearly four years, it has been my headquarters, the place where I have sweat hundreds of columns for the California section. This is my seventh newspaper in a thirty-year career that included a four-year stint at Time magazine. Although I’m not much past fifty, there are days, to be honest, when I wonder how many more years I have left. Desire isn’t the problem. The question is whether newspapers will still be relevant at a time when readers are flocking to the Internet and our most solid core of subscribers is slowly dying off, with newsroom cut-backs keeping pace.

  The antidote for such fear and loathing is, of course, a good story. When you’re in the chase, the adrenaline pumps, minutes seem like seconds, and in your single-minded state you are for all intents and purposes a zombie, ignorant of everything around you and capable of nothing but checking out the lead. I’m out of breath as I cut into the back entrance of the slab-gray Times Building, thinking all the while that Juilliard in Manhattan is one of the elite music schools in the world, and if Nathaniel really studied there, with a little more legwork I’ve got myself a good column. Though I had written thousands of stories in a career that included stops at The Philadelphia Inquirer, Oakland Tribune and San Jose Mercury News, I still came upon each one like a kid at an Easter egg hunt, as if I wasn’t certain I’d ever find another.

  One of the great joys of my job is the chance to hold the feet of public officials to
the fire. I also love exposing the vanities of the rich and famous and delivering public floggings to corporate villains and self-important fools who deserve nothing less, but there is no satisfaction like the discovery of the story that sits right in front of you, so obvious it’s practically invisible. A bum with a violin, living out of a shopping cart and worshipping a Beethoven statue, turns out to be a Juilliard alum. My chance encounter had affirmed a golden rule in journalism: everyone has a story, so get out of the office and talk to people. There’s no telling what you might find.

  My desk is on the third floor of the newsroom. Wisecracking hacks call the area Baja Metro because it’s south of the main Metro section. The typical greeting to fellow journalists is a grunt or a “Hey,” not much more, and I toss out a few before plopping into my chair and flipping my notebook onto the junk pile I live with. I Google Juilliard, which has no list of alums on its Web site. I call the number, leave a message for someone in publicity and e-mail my question as well. It’s late in the day in New York and no one at Juilliard seems prepared to drop everything and investigate my query. I give it another try by phone and finally get an answer, but it isn’t the one I’m looking for.

  Sorry. There doesn’t seem to be any record of a student by the name of Nathaniel Anthony Ayers.

  Damn. There goes a good hook. If the poor soul is that delusional, he’s even sicker than I thought. Is it dementia? Bipolar disorder? I’m no doctor, but I am able to diagnose the mild dread that is now washing over me, accompanied by a nervous stomach. These are the symptoms of a columnist with no column. Fortunately, I’m not scheduled to write today, and surely something will turn up by the next deadline. Something always does.

  I reach for the yellow legal pad, but my list of column ideas seems warmed over, not a single clear-cut winner in the bunch. Maybe that’s because I still can’t get my mind off Nathaniel. I’m not a bad judge of people, a skill that comes from thousands of reads, and he seemed like a decent fellow, charismatic and compelling in his own way, climbing onto the stage each day at his Little Walt Disney Concert Hall. Juilliard or no, he still intrigued me, and his choice to move from the Beethoven statue to the tunnel struck me as peculiar. With very few pedestrians there, he wouldn’t make much money and he’d never replace the two missing strings.