Confused by Love

by TL Messruther

  "It's okay. I told her you fell asleep and I bought you in here, so I didn't disturb her. She doesn't suspect anything," he says, smiling. I breathe a sigh of relief and throw myself back down again. I am so exhausted, I pull the duvet over my head, turn away from the sun and fall back to sleep.

  "Oy!" Claire is shaking me awake. "Come on. Your boss would like his room back now," Claire says as I try pull the duvet back over me. "Isabella! I will get Donte to bring in a glass of water if you aren’t out of this bed in thirty seconds!" Claire threatens. I look over to him and he is nodding in agreement.

  "Grrrrr," I growl to both of them as I snatch the duvet down and sit up. "I'm up, okay!" I say in a little bit of a grumpy tone.

  "Good," Claire says, "I'll wait out here for you. Do not go back to sleep!" she warns. She then turns around and leaves the room, closing the door behind her. Donte comes and jumps on the bed just in time to grab me before I lay back down again.

  "Oh no, you don't!" he says as he grabs my hands. He gets to his feet and pulls me up. I try pulling my hands free, but I can't. I give up fighting and stand up. "Not a morning person?" he asks. I don't reply; I just stand there. He grabs me by the waist and pulls me to him.

  "Time for breakfast" he says then lets me go.

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  I'm back in the car with Claire. We are all heading home. Donte is in the car in front, leading the way home. We had a lovely morning walking on the beach after breakfast, once I managed to get dressed. Then we went back to the hotel to pack. We couldn't leave until after 3:00 anyways, as my pictures for my portfolio weren’t even ready until then. Once my pictures were done, I made my way to where the stage was yesterday. All that remained was tape markings on the floor, showing where they wanted the stage to be.

  We pull up outside the office back home. I climb out and Claire says "I'll wait here for you" as I go to shut the door.

  "Okay," I reply and walk into the office. Donte is waiting for me, he holds the door open as I walk in. He shuts the door and locks it behind him. It is Sunday, so the office is empty. I have never seen it empty before. You can hear your own breathing, it is that quiet. I am dragged out of my thoughts when Donte grabs me and kisses me. I start kissing him back. His warm, soft lips are covering mine, his tongue is forcing its way into my mouth. I am almost melting in his arms. He pulls away and just hugs me.

  "This is where we have to say bye," he says in a mournful voice. I look up at him, confused.

  "Why bye? Why not see you soon?" I ask as I look into his eyes. "Is this where you tell me this weekend was fun, but won't be happening again?" I say, taking my eyes off of him and onto the floor. He puts his hand under my chin and raises my head to look at him.

  "This weekend has been the best. I did not mean bye, as in bye it won't happen again. I mean bye as in see you soon, and looking forward to it too," he says without even blinking. I look into his eyes again and the blue is shining bright, like he is being honest. I stand on my tiptoes and give him a quick kiss.

  "I can't wait for next time," I say as I pull away. As I walk away, my hand slowly leaves his. I open the office door and run to the car.

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  It is Monday evening and I have had my first day back at work after the weekend away. Donte is back to his normal, bossy self. I suspect that's because Amanda was there. He walked in the office, smiling, and I smiled back. Then Amanda walked in behind him. My mood soon turned and I felt like a spare part. My mood stayed until dinner time. I saw Amanda leave, then suddenly Nevaeh was stood behind me.

  "Excuse me Isabella. Mr. Mills would like to see you in his office right away please,” she says. My heart sinks even further. This is where he tells me the weekend was a mistake, I'm sure of it.

  "I will be right there," and I walk to the door of his office. I knock and he shouts "Come in!" I slowly open the door and he is standing with his back towards me.

  "Please, Isabella, take a seat," he says without turning around. I slowly creep into his office. He turns and faces me with a serious look on his face.

  "This last weekend,” he says, and I already know what he is going to say. I knew this was coming. It was too good to be true, "has been the best in my life. And we really must do it again. Real soon!" he says as his face shows the biggest smile I have ever seen. He really is beautiful. He comes up to me and pulls me to my feet. His statement knocks me off balance. "How about two weeks from Friday, through to Monday? We have another fashion show. I’ve just been emailed and they want you to model again," he says while hugging me. I look up at him.

  "I thought you were going to tell me you couldn’t see me anymore," I say as I try to hide the hurt I felt moments ago. He picked me up and wrapped my legs around him.

  "Princess, I have told you time and time again. That won’t happen," he says as he kisses me. My tension leaves instantly.

  Chapter 14

  I am dragged out of my thoughts as Claire walks in from work. "Hi Claire," I say as she holds up two bags.

  "Hi, we have food and wine," she says.

  "Cool, I will grab plates," I say as I jump of the sofa. We both sit at the table as Claire sorts the food out and I pour the wine. She hands me a plate of food. She knows what I like as she hands me a plate with mushroom curry with bean sprouts and a side helping of chili garlic mushrooms from our favourite Chinese takeout. Claire has a beef curry with soft noodles. We dig into our food and we start talking.

  "I have to tell you something," I say suddenly. Claire is my best friend and I can’t keep anything from her; it feels wrong. "I am sort of seeing Donte,” I say, looking away.

  "Isabella! He is engaged due to be married!" she says, shocked.

  "It's not that simple. He was trapped into saying yes," I say. She gives me a puzzled look and I explain what Donte told me.

  "So, he doesn't love Amanda?" she asks.

  "He said he was hoping to grow to love her, because he had no one else. He says he loves me and will tell Amanda," I say, hoping she understands.

  "I do not approve of this, but if he makes you happy and he plans on telling Amanda, then I guess I can live with it" she says. I knew I could trust Claire, she is amazing.

  "Oh, and another thing, two weeks from Friday, I have another modelling shoot. Do you want to come?" I ask her.

  "Of course," she replies. She then looks at me and laughs. "Is Donte coming?"

  "Yes, he is my boss remember?" I say.

  "So I'm going to be a spare part, and in the way?" she asks.

  "You are never in the way," I say and give her a hug.

  Now that conversation was out the way, we sit and watch our soaps we recorded. By 10:30, Claire is in bed, so I pick up my phone and check it. I have a message from Donte.

  **Miss you! Hope you’re missing me just as much xX**

  I smile as I reply.

  **You still awake? I have something I need to discuss with you.**

  The message he sent was sent at 8:36. I make it sound like I needed to talk about something work related, in case Amanda is with him.

  **Of course, princess. Are you okay? I have been waiting to hear from you, and you have been very quiet.**

  I take a deep breath.

  **I hope you don't mind, but I told Claire about us. She is my best friend and I had to tell her. She is okay with it and says she won’t tell anyone. XX**

  I sit and wait for an answer. Eleven o'clock comes and still no answer, so I decide to call it a night and go to bed. Just as I hit the top step, my phone goes off.

  **I don't mind. I wouldn't want you hiding things from your friends. As long as I manage to tell Amanda before someone else, then everything is okay. Oh, by the way, I miss you so much!**

  He can be so sweet sometimes.

  ** Mr. Mills, I am going to bed now. I will see you tomorrow at work. Claire won’t say anything. I miss you too. See you at work. XX**

  I hit send. I put my phone on silent and walk to my room with a gr
in that almost takes up my full face.

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  This week is pretty much the same: work, sneaky text messages, and quick meetings just so we could spend time together. It is seven on Friday night and I am home alone. Claire has gone to her parents for the weekend. I decide to quickly text Donte.

  **How is your evening? I'm at home alone. Wish you were here.**

  I wait for a reply, but don’t receive one. I decide to grab a glass of wine and watch a movie. I put on ‘Love Actually’. I'm always a sucker for a love story. About twenty-five minutes into the movie, the doorbell rings. I pause the movie and go to answer it. I am wearing my shorts and vest PJ set. I open the door and am almost knocked off my feet. Donte picks me up, swings me around, then he carries me in the front room. He kicks the front door shut with his foot and kisses me. His tongue in my mouth again and he kisses me like his life depends on it. He pulls away, gasping for air.

  "Well, good evening to you, too. To what do I owe this pleasure?" I ask.

  He laughs and replies, "Well, you’re here on your own and so am I, so why not be home alone together?" he says, grinning at me.

  "So, where is Amanda?" I ask.

  "She is away until Wednesday, interviewing new staff for her shop, so I'm all yours," he says, matter of factly.

  "Well, you’re going to have to sit and watch this movie with me," I say, pointing to the TV.

  "Anything for you, princess," he says. "What movie is it?"

  "Love actually," I say smiling at him.

  Donte and I snuggle on the sofa watching the credits to the movie. As the credits start to roll, he asks, "Well princess, what do you want to do now?"

  "Anything," I reply. He looks at me and smiles. He stands up and turns the TV off.

  "I thought we were watching another movie?" I ask.

  He looks at me and laughs. “Well, I think we could do something better than that!" he speaks quietly.

  "Oh yeah? And what’s that?" I ask.

  "How would you feel about making our own private love scene?" he asks, looking straight into my eyes. I almost combust on the sofa right then and there.

  "I think we can do that," I say, chewing the inside of my gum. Donte grabs my hand and pulls me up off the sofa. He lifts me in his arms and carries me upstairs.

  "Which room is yours?" he asks as he reached the top step.

  "Second left," I say as he continues to carry me. He walks in my room and slams the door shut.

  "Good thing Claire isn’t home," I say as he puts me down.

  “It wouldn’t matter if she was here or not. Regardless, I'm going to make you come apart in my hands before I make you scream," he says as he pulls my T-shirt over my head.

  "Oh," is all I can say.

  "If you’re not ready, we don't have to," he says, looking worried.

  "No, I have wanted this, too," I say, looking into his beautiful eyes so he knows I'm being honest. He smiles and continues to undress me.

  Now I stand before him naked and he is still fully clothed. He bounds up to me and picks me up once more. He kisses me, his mouth sealing over mine. He slowly sits on the bed, my legs wrapped around his waist. He lays me down so he is hovering over me. His mouth still on mine. I think if he makes me wait much longer, I'm going to combust. I grab his T-shirt and pull it over his head, his mouth releasing mine for only a second. I manage to undo his buttons on his jeans and slide them down his legs.

  "Do we need a condom?" he asks. I shake my head.

  "I’ve got an IUD in," I reply. He drops his trousers to the floor then sits on the bed, naked.

  He is beautiful, in or out of clothes. His skin is flawless, apart from a tattoo above his left breast. He has muscles that could melt anyone who just looked at them. He is perfect. How lucky I am to at least have him for a short period of time. He makes his way up the bed and lies beside me.

  "Are you sure?" he asks. I nod. I'm way beyond sure. I want him and I want him bad. He starts kissing my breasts. My left nipple goes between his teeth as my right nipple rolls between his finger and thumb. His erection is digging in my side. He pushes it further so I can feel it. He looks at me and smiles. I grab his erection and he takes a sharp, deep breath.

  His hand slowly makes its way down my body, slowly skimming down my stomach, down to the top of my legs. His hand skims my sex as his hands go further down my legs. He reaches my knee and lifts it up. Before I know it, he has me on his knee. His mouth and fingers are still working over my nipples. He slides his spare hand way back up my leg and it stops at my sex. He looks into my eyes as I look into his and he slowly inserts a finger in me. I let out a small groan as his tongue ravishes mine. He pushes his finger further in and started moving it, in and out. I arch my back and his tongue works on my nipple faster. I’m close to coming apart. He inserts a second finger and before I knew it, my orgasm hits me and runs through me like wildfire. He slowly retrieves his fingers and lifts me up slightly. He angles his erection at my entrance and slowly lowers me onto him. I moan and try to pull back up. The fullness is amazing. He grabs my hips and stills me. I force my body further down his length, he smiles and pushes his body forward. I grab his hair and pull his face down to mine. I kiss him hard, my tongue invading his mouth. He starts raising his body and dropping it back down again. He starts getting faster and harder, filling my sex. I throw my head back, releasing his lips from mine. He rams harder and harder inside me. He lowers me onto the bed. He grabs my face between his hands, and starts kissing me again, his tongue stroking mine. He is still inside me, pushing me deeper, his weight is on me, holding me down. My pending orgasm is getting closer. I throw my head back and arch my back as he pushes deeper. My climax comes thick and strong, making me cry out in pure joy. A few more thrusts and he empties himself inside me.

  He sits up and pulls me up with him. He has one hand on my back as his other hand holds my head in place as he gave me a quick kiss. He pulls me to his chest and just holds me. He lets me stay like this for a while. He then suddenly moves and pulls out of me. He lays down and brings me back on his chest. He pulls the duvet up and kisses my head as he strokes my back. I am happy and very comfy where I am. I soon fall into a deep sleep, smiling.

  I wake up at three in the morning because something wakes me. Donte is climbing out of bed. He sees I am awake, bends down and whispers in my ear, "It's okay, princess. I'm just going to the bathroom." A few minutes later, he walks back into the bedroom, totally naked. I love looking at his body; it is perfect. He climbs back into bed and pulls me back to his chest, where I am more than happy to go. He puts his arm around me and gently strokes my back as I fall back to sleep.

  Chapter 15

  I wake the next morning and Donte is gone. I felt a bit sad to see he hadn't stayed or said bye, but part of me understood why. I only have limited time with him. I drag on my bathrobe and walk downstairs for some coffee. I am shocked to find Donte sitting at the breakfast bar in his boxer shorts. He sees me and stands up. He walks over to me, puts his arm around my waist and walks me to the bar stool he just vacated. He sits me down, spins me around and walks away. I look up at him and laugh. He picks up a mug of coffee and a full cooked breakfast.

  "I thought you had gone. You know when I woke up and you weren't there. Now I see you’re spoiling me," I say as he puts my food on the table.

  "Princess, I would never leave without saying goodbye and doing this.” He bends and gives me a loud, wet kiss. "As for spoiling you, it's only what you deserve." He grabs another plate and mug, then sits beside me. He puts his hand on my thigh and squeezes. He then starts to eat his breakfast.

  After breakfast, I make my way upstairs to jump in the shower. I turn the water on and drop my bathrobe. I climb in the shower and lift my head under the running water. I grab my shampoo off the bath side, pour some into my hands and start rubbing it in my hair. Another set of hands joins mine on top of my head. I jump out of my skin.

  "Only me, princess. Don't be
so jumpy," he says as he kisses my back. I didn't even hear him open the bathroom door.

  "Sorry. I didn't hear you come in," I say as I turn and force my lips against his. I notice he is still in his boxer shorts.

  "Aren't you going to take them off?" I say, pointing to them.

  "No need," he says as he looks down at them. "They’re already wet, and so are you," he says as his hands move around to grab my sex. I laugh and slap his hand.

  "I need to shower," I say as he looks into my eyes.

  "What's the rush? I have until Wednesday," he says. "Which means we have all day for a shower" he says as his hands run through my hair. "Let me wash the shampoo out before it runs into your eyes." He rubs his fingers on my scalp and I close my eyes, enjoying his touch. His fingers move from my hair and glide down my wet body. I inhale sharply as his fingers slowly enter my body.