Silk

by Heidi McLaughlin

  “He’s so sexy…” “I know! I wish I was Stacy Rodriguez tonight!” The two women behind me laughed.

  My chest tightened as I watched him slip his arm around Stacy, as I watched the two of them smile together and pose for pictures.

  Tears fell down my face and I made no move to wipe them away. I kept wishing that he would turn around, that he would see my face in the crowd and walk towards me, but he kept posing for pictures—laughing and shaking hands, like he didn’t care about me at all.

  He pulled Stacy against his side as he prepared for another photo. The flash went off three times and she stood on her toes and kissed him on the cheek.

  I’ve had enough of this shit…

  I pushed my chair up to the table and walked towards the stage, weaving my way through all the suits and adoring women who kept gushing over him. I took the steps on the right side of the stage and paused, looking at Jonathan as he bent down for another kiss from Stacy.

  “Claire?” Damien grabbed my wrist. “Are you okay? Are you that ready to go? I’ll—”

  I snatched my hand away from him and walked towards the center of the stage.

  “And thank you so much for your generous gift, Mr. Statham. My company is so honored that you—”

  “Excuse me.” I stepped directly in front of the man who was addressing Jonathan.

  “Yes, Miss Gracen?” Jonathan raised his eyebrow.

  “Kyle, get security.” I heard someone murmur. “This is the tenth time this week…”

  I took one step closer to Jonathan and looked into his eyes. I wanted to say something, but the words were trapped in my throat and I couldn’t concentrate with everyone in the audience staring at me.

  I closed the gap between us and wrapped my arms around his neck, kissing him as if we were the only people in the room. I heard the crowd’s collective gasp, saw Damien’s jaw drop from the corner of my eye, but I didn’t care.

  I shut my eyes and kept kissing him, pressing myself against his chest—trying to force his lips apart with my tongue. It wasn’t until I blinked my eyes open that I realized he wasn’t kissing me back.

  I drew my arms away and stepped back—noticing that he was still raising his eyebrow at me, confused. I looked out into the silent crowd, blushing bright red as the women began whispering to one another.

  “I’m…I’m so sorry…” I stammered. “I thought that if I…that if I…” I felt the tears falling. “I’m sorry…I…” I looked around at all the people on the stage, at the angry expression that was on Damien’s face.

  I turned around to face Jonathan again and shook my head. “I’ll get out of your way now…I…I really am sorry and—”

  “Don’t be.” He pulled me back into his arms and pressed his lips against mine, suffocating me with a long, appreciative kiss. I could feel his mouth upturned into a smile as he caressed my tongue with his, as he kissed me like there was no tomorrow.

  “Mr. Statham…” Greg cleared his throat, but Jonathan held me even tighter and kept kissing me.

  “Mr. Statham? Mr. Statham!” Greg’s voice was firmer, making Jonathan finally pull away.

  “Yes, Greg?” He grinned at me.

  “You have a list of other people to take pictures with and speak to tonight. If you would like, I can escort Miss—”

  “No, I’ll take care of it.” He kissed me one more time and walked over to the people on the other side of the stage.

  I could only hear fragments of what he was saying—”First thing tomorrow…” “I need to address this now…” “Yes, I’ll sign whatever you want tomorrow…” “I’ll donate double…” “Thank you so much…”

  The orchestra began to play on the back stage—one of the organizers had frantically run back there once I kissed him, and the crowd slowly diverted their attention from us to the dance floor.

  I saw him walk over to Stacy and say a few words, and then I felt Damien grabbing my hand.

  “Is this some type of joke, Claire?” His eyes hardened. “I bring you here and you fuck my competition?”

  “What?”

  “Is that what you’ve been doing during the day while I’ve been at meetings? Sleeping with Jonathan Statham behind my back?” He sounded more angry than hurt. “Do you know how what you just did makes me look? Did you even think about that?”

  “Damien, I’m sorry you had to find out this way but…I’m in love with Jonathan and I have been for a while now…I’m sorry for agreeing to date you when I wasn’t over him. I really do mean—”

  “This is why I only date younger women. I should’ve known that someone like you with all your baggage—”

  “Excuse me?” Jonathan wrapped his arm around my waist. “Is there a problem here, Damien?”

  “No…” Damien seemed to wither a bit.

  “Are you sure?” Jonathan’s tone was threatening. I’d never heard him this heated before. “Is there something you and I need to discuss outside? It can be arranged…”

  “Fuck you, Jonathan.” Damien narrowed his eyes at me. “And fuck you too, Claire.” He said something else under his breath as he walked away.

  “See? I wasn’t lying to you.” Jonathan said. “He wasn’t right for you at all…” He kissed my hair and led me off the stage and out of the ballroom. As we walked towards the elevators, he kept looking down and smiling at me.

  I wanted to ask what he was smiling about, but I was happy simply seeing him smile again—for whatever reason it was.

  We rode up to his floor in silence, staring at one another while we held hands, communicating with our eyes.

  I wanted him to touch me again, to kiss me again, but it seemed like he was content simply holding back.

  “Mr. Statham, Miss Gracen,” the bellman said once we arrived. “Have a great evening.”

  “Thank you,” we said in unison.

  I followed him to his suite and he pulled me inside, pushing me against the wall as soon as the door shut. “I can’t believe you did that…That was quite shocking…” He pulled a clip out of my hair and kissed my neck.

  “And why is that?” I moaned as he grazed my skin with his teeth.

  “The Claire Gracen I know would never run on stage and kiss me like that, especially not with everyone watching…”

  “The Jonathan Statham I know wouldn’t be analyzing anything that Claire Gracen does.”

  “That kiss doesn’t excuse you leaving me for three months.” He removed another clip. “I’m still very angry with you…”

  “I love you too.”

  He grinned as he looked into my eyes. “Say it again.”

  “I don’t feel like it right now. I need to take off my dress first, and then I’ll need to think about repeating it.”

  “Are you being difficult with me on purpose, Claire?” He reached behind me and brushed his fingers against the zipper of my dress. “Say. It. Again.”

  “After I take my dress off.”

  “Your dress isn’t coming off.” He unbuckled his pants and pressed his erection against my thigh.

  “Why not?”

  He reached underneath my dress and felt around for my panties, smiling when he didn’t find any. “Because I’m going to make love to you while you’re wearing it, and I’m not going to stop until it falls off.” He traced my jawline with fingertips. “And because it always takes you half an hour to get undressed, and I’ve waited long enough.” He picked me up and carried me into the bedroom, gently laying me on the bed.

  He slid his shirt over his head and stepped out of his pants. Then he slowly moved on top of me. “Now, you know how I feel about repeating myself. That hasn’t changed since you left me, so I’m going to give you one last chance to—”

  “I love you, Jonathan.”

  He smiled as he bent down and gently traced my lips with his tongue. “I love you too, Claire.”

  I opened my eyes and smiled at Jonathan. I was curled up against him in a huge Jacuzzi, relaxing as his hands lathered shampoo into my hair. />
  I was sure we’d broken the world record for the number of times we’d had sex tonight, and if we hadn’t, I was sure that we would break it tomorrow.

  I sighed as he poured a wooden ladle over my head to rinse out my hair. He was careful not to let the suds fall anywhere near my eyes, scooping just enough water that the soap fell down my back.

  “I need you to promise me something, Claire.” He kissed the back of my neck.

  “What is it?”

  “That you’ll never leave me again. Once was more than enough.”

  “I promise.”

  “Good…” He set the ladle on the ledge. “Because if you go back on your word and even attempt to leave me again, I guarantee I won’t let you stay away for three fucking months. You’ll be lucky if you get away for three minutes.”

  “Have I ever told you how romantic you are?”

  “It’s part of my appeal.”

  I smiled. “Can I ask you something?”

  “Always.”

  “Are you and your mother okay now?”

  He stilled. “We haven’t been with each other in forever and you care about the person who pulled us apart?”

  I nodded.

  “We’re okay,” he said, sighing. “I’m paying for her to get one on one counseling and we see each other once a week over lunch. Maybe with time we’ll do more, but that’s all I can handle right now. I don’t appreciate the way she treated you, and it’ll take me a while to get over that.”

  My heart swelled. “I was just wondering…”

  “I really would’ve believed you.” He gripped my hips and swiveled me around so I was facing him, straddling his lap. “You should’ve told me and all this never would’ve happened.”

  “I know…”

  “Don’t keep anything like that from me again. We’re not supposed to have boundaries, remember?” He kissed my lips and I nodded.

  He picked up a loofah from the side of the tub and brushed it against my arms. He massaged my wrists and brought my right hand up to his face.

  “How did this happen?” He circled a purple bruise with his thumb.

  “I was running on the bridge one night and I slipped over some glass on the sidewalk. I used my wrist to brace the fall and nearly broke it on the way down. I had cuts everywhere.”

  His jaw tensed. “When was this?”

  “It was three or four weeks ago. Strangest thing though: As soon as I fell, these two guys came out of nowhere and bandaged all my cuts up. They even carried me back to my car…They said they were EMTs out on a late night jog and always carried their backpacks just in case something like that happened…Crazy coincidence, huh?”

  “Extremely crazy.” The muscles in his face relaxed and he washed me until I was clean. “Your turn, sweetheart.”

  I rolled my eyes and laughed. I reached over to grab another loofah and saw a thick ring band on the ledge. It was silver and it had the engravings of all the same charms I had in the necklace he’d given me—even the white and red flags. The only difference was that the entwined “M” and “L” were repeated twice and our names were etched in tiny cursive within each letter.

  “You had a ring made to match my charm necklace?”

  He nodded. “I was going to show it to you the day you left me…I wanted us to open our boxes together.”

  “Hmmm.” I ran the loofah against his chest. “What do the “M” and the “L” stand for?”

  “I never said anything about that to you before?”

  “No…” I shook my head.

  “Well, guess.”

  “My love?”

  “No.” He kissed my shoulder.

  “Mid-life?”

  “No.”

  “Mid-life love?”

  “Mid-life love?” He raised his eyebrow. “You think I would honestly give you something that stood for that?”

  “No, but…” I shrugged. I couldn’t think of anything else. “Tell me what it means then…”

  He sighed and took the loofah away from me. He pulled me against his chest and kissed my hair, running his fingertips against my lips. “My last.”

  The End