by Carmen Faye
By 11 that night, the place was completely empty. Half the crew had run out to get some groceries while the rest were catching up on sleep from yet another long night of dealing with arsons. Two more popped up at old homes in the industrial neighborhood in just a short period of time. Luckily for me, I was off. I could focus on pulling weights and doing stair climber exercises in peace.
Then, Ash walked in. He was wet from the drizzling rain misting over the streets. He shook his head furiously when he finally found cover indoors. The drips of water dropped from him and onto the floor and that same old leather jacket. I didn’t bother stopping what I was doing to greet him. I kept my eyes straight on the television above my head as I rounded out mile four of my sprint.
He sauntered over towards me, a red, half-wilted sunflower in his hand. It took every bit of me not to smile at that. It was just such an innocent, boyish gesture for a guy like him. “You wanna stop that machine of yours and come talk to me?” he asked.
I sucked in a deep breath, as deep as I could take given my run’s tempo. “No,” I said flatly. “I’m working out.”
“You’re always working out,” he said, a slight grin coming to his lips.
“Yeah, well, I am trying to get a job with the fire department here, and my test is in a week. I’m not stopping for anyone.”
“Fine. I’ll wait. How much longer do you have to go?”
“6 miles.”
Ash walked over to a metal folding chair across the room and returned to my side. I watched from the corner of my eye as he sat down next to the treadmill and began watching the late night news. Of course, almost with perfect timing, a story of the night before’s fire popped on the screen.
Ash didn’t even bother listening to the report. “It’s the same guy,” he said. It wasn’t even a question or an accusation – it was just a fact. And one I already had gotten to.
“We know that,” I replied breathlessly. I instantly regretted engaging him at all.
“No, I don’t think you understand,” he said. “That was one of our old houses. It was a safe house. We hid our guys there who were wanted until the smoke cleared. It wasn’t a very good hiding place with all those windows, though. Cover was blown after a few months of using it.”
“A family lived there,” I told him. It was almost a test to see if he has any humanity left in him.
“Did they get out?” he asked, pulling himself forward on the chair and dipping his back down so his elbows rest on his knees. I could see him look up to me earnestly wanting to know what happened.
Well, at least he’s not a sociopath.
“Yeah,” I told him mid-stride. “We got there in time.”
He went silent as he sat back and watched the rest of the news. The minutes passed by slowly as I tried to keep up with my speed. With Ash there, though, I couldn’t focus and I found myself desperate to slow down, to stop even. I managed to push through somehow as I closed my eyes and just let the rhythm of my feet take over.
When I finally dismounted, Ash stood and offered me his hand. “That looks like hell,” he said, grinning. “I don’t understand why anyone would want to be a gerbil.”
“You mean a hamster in a wheel?”
“Hamster, gerbil, whatever the fuck,” he said, running his hands through his hair. As I toweled myself down, he turned his attention back to what he came here for. “I want to know why you haven’t responded to any of my gifts,” he said. Again, his tone was different. He wasn’t challenging me or trying some kind of intimidation tactic – he was honestly, earnestly asking, like a teenage boy with a crush.
“I didn’t ask for any of it,” I replied curtly, pulling my ponytail out and redoing it. “I don’t know why you think you could bribe me to forgive you.”
“I don’t want your forgiveness,” he said. “I want you to go out with me.”
“What?” I was completely stunned. Here I thought all of this was to say he was sorry for the shitty way he treated me the other night and for going back on his promise, but he just wanted to weasel his way back in.
“I want you to go out with me,” he repeated. “Like, on a date.”
I glared at him. “After all that, all the bullshit, you’re--”
Anticipating my question, he cuts me off. “No,” he says. “Nothing has changed. I’m not going to tell you who the guy is. I don’t trust you enough yet.”
“You don’t trust me?” I practically exploded. “Then why the hell are you here, Ash?”
He stepped towards me, a giant to my petite size. His long arms reached out and somehow found their way to my hips. I couldn’t even pull away if I tried. “I came here because the other night was something totally different from what I get with the other girls in the club. You’re not shy like them. You take what you want, and I like that. I can’t stop thinking about that sweet little pussy of yours. I haven’t even washed my jacket cause it still smells like you.”
I wanted to be disgusted at him, but I couldn’t. His arms at my hips rubbing lightly at my skin, his eyes boring holes in mine, his pink lips parting…oh God…
I pushed him away quickly, finally finding my head. “No, Ash,” I snapped, pushing him away. “No, I’m not doing this again. We’re not doing this again.”
He flashed me a piercing stare that was almost -- but not quite -- threatening. “Then I’ll be back,” he said, somehow without animus. “I’ll be back until you see what I see. You and me, we’re supposed to be together.”
I didn’t say another word. Instead, I picked up a few weights and began to curl them in my arms. My back faced away from Ash as he slid quickly out the door. In the distance, I could hear his motorcycle blaze up and drive off.
I would hear that same sound every single day for the next five days. He would appear while I was grocery shopping, while I doing laundry at the shop, even while I visited my mom on my day off. And each time, my answer for him was always no.
Tonight was going to be no different. I don’t even bother slipping on clothes. My boy shorts and sports bra would be enough. He continues to knock as I swing open the door and shout loudly, “What the fuck are you doing, Ash? Do you know what time it is?”
His mouth hangs open wide as he takes me in. “I think I came at exactly the right time.” He pushes past me and sits on the hotel’s old green couch next to a sack of groceries I had forgotten to put away earlier. He pats the open side with his hand, but I refuse to go sit next to him. I stand near the door, hoping he will make a quick exit like usual.
“What do you want, Ash?”
“I want to ask you out again.”
“No.”
“Then I’m not leaving until you say yes.”
“Then you get to watch me sleep because I’m not staying up any longer. I have my fire department exam this weekend. And you’re a fucking asshole.”
“Great. I’ll sleep with you.” Ash stands up and walks over to the bed. One by one, he unties his shoes and drops them to the ground. Next, he strips off his jacket, jeans, and shirt. To my surprise, he folds them up neatly and places them on the bedside table.
Despite being totally taken with that chiseled body, I cross my arms over my chest and stand firm, “Like hell you’re sleeping in that bed with me. I will call the cops.”
“No you won’t,” he teases. “You don’t want me to leave. I can see the way you’re ogling me.”
“Ogling? What motorcycle god uses the word ‘ogle’?”
“I do. But I could use other words like leering, or maybe even eye-fucking…”
I tap my toe impatiently on the floor as I try to think of my options. He isn’t going to move, and the clock is winding down. I have to be up in a few short hours if I want to get in a morning run before my shift…ugh! Why does he have to be such a jerk!
With my face in a permanent pout, I walk back towards the door and lock the deadbolt and then turn off the overhead lights. In the dark, I put out my hands, searching for the end of the bed. What I find is his
thick, muscular leg poking out from under one of the hotel’s thin sheets. My hand tries to fly away, but he catches me as he laughs. I tumble over his body and down into the empty side of the bed.
“Please, don’t touch me. I really just want to go to bed.”
“So do I,” he protests. “You think I spend my days looking for ways to taunt you? I work, too, Dani. Believe it or not.”
“Oh, I believe it, Ash,” I snap, unable to hide my sarcasm. “I believe it’s called drug smuggling and murdering your enemies.”
He answers me totally deadpan, “It’s hard work.”
“I’m sure it is,” I say, repressing my instinct to smile at his delivery.
I feel a hand slide across my bare hip and rest just around my thigh. He pulls me in closer to him as he whispers, “I like something to hold onto when I sleep.”
I’ve just about had it with him. My blood is boiling and I’m ready to go off. My legs spin around, leaping on top of his hips. My arms shoot across his chest as I lean all of my weight down to pin him in place. Ash looks up completely disarmed as his hands shoot up by his head. “Woah there, girl.”
“Shut up!” I scream out, totally without fear. “I don’t want you here! I don’t want you at all! Do you get me? You are a grade-A asshole who thinks he knows everything and can get anything he wants. It’s not working on me. I’m going to say th---”
He cuts me off, flipping me on to my back in one swift, totally unexpected move. I try to continue yelling at him, but just as I open my mouth, his lips are on mine, pressing down hard and fast. His mouth is electric, a total wave of energy that flows through me. I try to fight back, but I am completely useless when he takes me like this. My hands that were clawing at him retreat. My legs stop kicking. My hips rise slightly to rub softly against his hard-on.
There’s something so infuriatingly sexy about the way he manages to find a way to dominate me. I hate letting this happen. I want to kick myself back to reality, but with his mouth diving deep into mine and our breaths linking up, I can’t seem to get out of this haze of wanting, lusting, needing. Inside me, everything softens and opens for him, and I realize that nothing is going to stop this, even if I want it to.
Finally, he breaks free from me, but he doesn’t stop or take a moment off. His lips slide down the long length of my neck, his head pushing my head back to give him more space to travel. His rough, stubbled skin itches up against the softness of my chest and shoulders and along the line of my sports bra. His hand grapples with the tight, restrictive fabric until it can peel itself down the side of my arms and over the large humps of my breasts. My chest springs free, blooming for him.
He kneads my breasts together, circling them around. The weight of his hands and my chest moving together presses down on me as I am completely transported. I can feel the hint of his fingers slide gently across my tender nipples, the knuckles coming together of a slight pinch as the rest of the hand rotates. By the time he is finished, the pink tips are completely hard.
Ash relaxes into his work as he sighs heavily. His mouth closes and then parts slightly around one of my nipples, not quite touching the skin. The feeling of his hot air tickling and teasing me sends shockwaves through my blood. My breath sticks in my throat as I try to focus up on a spot of the hotel wall. Then comes his mouth. Moist and sweet, it’s just the right amount of hot and cold for me as my breasts slightly peel up higher so that he can get a better taste of me.
“Slow down,” he says as I find one of my legs wrapping instinctively around his long hip. “I want to enjoy this.”
But I can’t just ignore my needs. I find his darkened eyes and say with a voice I am not sure is mine, “No. I want you inside of me. NOW.” My hand pushes past his torso and towards his boxers. I push them off easily as my other hand wrestles with my tight boy shorts. Ash tries to wrestle me still, but I wiggle under him until I find his stiff cock. He stops almost immediately as he realizes what I am about to do.
This round, it’s my time to work. I don’t need to do much. He’s been growing since he slipped into my bed, possibly before. But still, I lightly trace my pointer finger along his shaft, spinning it around his tip. Instead of stopping at the base, I move towards his balls until I can cup them in my palm. He goes completely quiet as I start to gently massage.
When I travel back up his rod, I’m more than ready. I can feel my own pussy crying out for him as the blood pours to the cave inside of me. I hold onto his cock and guide it straight into my opening. He follows, a curl of his lips forming, as both of us wait for that first entry point. He splits me quickly, pushing me open. His massive cock invades me, forming up against my walls and curves like he was meant to be there all along. It’s the missing piece that my body has craved these last few weeks.
I wrap my arms around his back and dig my fingers slightly into his skin. The other leg hitches around his back so my hips are slightly elevated off of the ground and turned up towards his dick. It’s my go-ahead for him to start, and I hold on tight, ready for the pounding of a lifetime.
But Ash doesn’t go at that insane speed I expect from him. He’s not in a rush at all. Instead, he takes his sweet time, licking his lips as he pulls himself all the way out and then entering me again just as slowly. It’s a horrible tease for me. I just want this dirty, quick fuck, but he is refusing. Instead, he’s teasing me, tempting me. It’s enough to drive me mad every time I feel the gaping openness of my folds.
I find myself crying out to him, “Please! Ash! No! More!” Each word is more and more punctuated as I lose all control. “Fuck! Me!”
He stops completely as he leans back down to my ear. His sticky breath tickles the small hairs of my neck as he whispers quietly, “I didn’t ask you to beg this time.”
I try to whip my head over to him, to argue, but he’s beaten me to it. Before I can say one word, his cock dives deep in me. There is no time to prepare for this as Ash launches deep within me. His hips vibrate over and over as his thrusts manage to get deeper inside me with each stroke. My nails dig into him as I practically beg for him to take me.
Both Ash and I are moving now -- my hips in circles spinning around his shaft while he plummets back and forth. There are no words for what I’m feeling, no sensation even close to the unrelenting desire to tear into him. He feels it, too. I can sense that by the way he locks his eyes on mine. I don’t dare to look away or even blink for fear that he would quit. On this bed, in this world, it’s just the two of us riding one another towards something much bigger than ourselves.
As I let out a small moan, a hint that I am close to completing, I suddenly feel as if I am floating. Ash’s arms pick me up from around the waist and fly me upwards towards him. I grab hold of his neck as I rest my chin in his shoulder. The new, more intense position of his cock still driven inside of me makes me bite down on his flesh. He doesn’t push me away or yell for me to stop. He moves slower, caressing his hips into me, until I am ready to take control. My body bounces lightly on his until I find just the right sweet spot.
“I want to see you cum,” he growls as he holds me in place. “I want to watch you.” I bite down on my lip as I move even higher and quicker, willing myself to just let go. A flood of light fills me from the inside out. My legs go numb as I let the sensations take over. Everything in me feels as if it is being ripped out and put together in one instant until…
My mind goes completely blank as something wild and unleashed takes over me. I pull him closer, impossibly closer. Ash’s head lowers between my breasts and his hands wrap around me, holding me in place. His breath intensifies as mine eases up. I pull myself up to my knees, giving him even more leverage to screw me deeper. I can’t even move by the way he is plummeting his entire body into mine.
I feel myself slipping despite him holding onto me. It’s too much, too fast, too hard. I fall to the side, careening towards the edge of the bed. My head falls over the side as he rolls back onto my hips. In his hands, his cock spills out his seed ri
ght between the crevice of my breasts. I can feel the warm liquid roll its way towards my neck and chin as I watch him finish.
Ash lets out a long few puffs of air before running back towards the bathroom. The light flickers on and he hands me over one of the new luxury, high thread count towels I bought for myself. Thank goodness because those hotel towels would be too scratchy on my sensitive skin. He gingerly wipes off his cum, careful to get every bit of it, and then uses the other side of the towel to wash himself down.
I scurry back to bed, careful not to look at the clock. Whatever sleep I am going to get tonight is going to have to be enough. I wouldn’t trade those moments of pure ecstasy for anything. Even though I am dying to continue laying into him about his attitude and the problems of trust between the two of us, I am more than satisfied.
Ash finds his way back into bed, his arm drapes around me, and I feel the warmth of his body seep into mine. For the first night since the fire, I actually sleep. Wonderful, amazing, protective sleep.