His tongue lightly flicked her hardened nipple and Alex could feel and hear how wet she had become as he continued to massage her sex. He moved to her other nipple and Alex felt totally out of control. She never wanted so much. Never needed so much.
“Ian...Ian”, she whispered.
“What baby?” he answered.
“Don’t stop, don’t ever stop.”
“Oh, baby. I couldn’t stop if I wanted to.”
“Please now Ian. Please now.”
Ian answered in a low throaty voice, barely able to speak himself.
“No baby. I told you I wanted to taste your whole body tonight. I’m hungry for you Alex. I’m not finished tasting you.”
The pleasure was more than Alex could bear. How could a man who made her so angry most of the time treat her with such tenderness and...love. Okay Alex. Wake-up. This man does not love you. He desires you. Don’t get carried away with crazy thoughts just because of how he’s making you feel right now. Ian’s voice brought her back to the moment.
“Just lay back and enjoy baby. I want to please you. I want to make you come hard all night long.”
With those words he gently parted her legs. His gaze had still never left hers and he continued to hold his gaze on her eyes as he lifted her legs and so gently and softly kissed each of her inner thighs.
“You’re so wet baby. So wet. It’ll be so easy to slide inside you. But not yet. I’m going to make you wetter than you’ve ever been. You will want me more than you’ve ever wanted any other man.”
Another man. Right, Alex thought. There’s never been another man I’ve ever wanted. She wanted to tell Ian that but she knew if she ever did it would be sure to scare him away and that was the last thing she wanted to do.
“I don’t want you to ever want another man but me Alex.”
His mouth had now found its way to the lips between her legs. His tongue flicked and teased her swollen nub as he caressed her thighs and buttocks and brought her legs to rest upon his shoulders. The pleasure was too much. Alex could no longer fight her release. He softly and so tenderly suckled her clit and sent her over the edge. She bucked and slithered and tried to get away from his mouth...his tongue… but he held on to her buttocks tightly, not allowing her to get away as he continued to devour her sex.
“Stop please Ian. Oh god, please stop,” she cried as the convulsions continued to take control of her body. My god how I love what he does to me, how I love how it feels but dear god I need it to stop. I need it to stop now.
“Ian she cried. Ian no!” But he held tight and didn’t release her. As her convulsions began to subside she felt tears trickling down her cheeks.
Her body trembled as she pleaded with him.
“Ian! Dear god please. I can’t, I can’t do this any more. Please!”
Ian raised his head from between her legs and eased her higher up on the bed. He lay down beside her and took her in his arms.
“What’s this?” He asked. “Why the tears? Did I hurt you?”
He cupped her face with both hands gently brushing the tears away with his thumbs and tenderly placed a kiss on each cheek and finally her lips. Alex had no strength to talk. They laid there for several minutes with Alex holding her and saying he was sorry. What the hell could he possibly have to be sorry for the damn idiot? Once Alex had the strength she breathlessly spoke.
“Oh, Ian please stop. You have absolutely nothing to be sorry for. I just can’t talk right now. You’ve exhausted me. It’s been so long. It was beautiful Ian. Beautiful. That’s why the tears.”
He rose above her and smiled. “Thank god. I couldn’t begin to think what it was I could have done to hurt you. I never want to hurt you Alex. I hope you know that. I know I hurt you over and over again but I never want to hurt you.”
“Shhh…Ian. It’s okay. You don’t need to say any more.” A wicked grin crossed her face. She had suddenly regained some strength. “I know you’re not done with me are you?” She grasped his still bulging shaft and stroked him.
“Don’t Alex. Any other time I’d welcome your touch but I won’t last if you touch me now. Watching and listening to your orgasm almost set me off. I want to be inside you. Do you want me inside you Alex...or have you had enough?” He taunted her.
“Not nearly enough Ian. Not nearly enough. I’ll go crazy if I don’t have you inside me. Now!”
Ian rose above her and teased her opening, rubbing the tip of his shaft back and forth over her moist lips.
Ian entered her slowly. He groaned and began to pump slowly but as she arched her hips toward his he lost control and pumped harder and faster. He had wanted to take her slow and make it last. He found that he really did want to show her how he wanted her for more than just sex. He wanted to show Alexandra that he needed and loved her though he knew he’d never be able to tell her as much in words.
The climax came fast and furious, as he knew it would. She was so tight, so wet...she was a witch who had him under her spell. He cried out her name and she too screamed again in release. He felt her lips tighten around him as she climaxed yet again. He pumped harder and faster and cried out her name over and over as his seed filled her. As Ian collapsed atop Alex he thought about how much he loved to empty himself inside her. How much he’d love to empty himself inside her and give her his child.
Whoa Foster! You’ve got to stop those kinds of thoughts!
They snuggled together exhausted from the fury of their lovemaking. They gently kissed each other on the lips and held each other as they drifted off to sleep.
***
Alex awoke to the shrill of the telephone. What idiot would be calling at this hour? She felt the weight of Ian’s arm across her waist and she turned and smiled. He’d stayed the night. She couldn’t remember the last time he’d spent the whole night with her. He always had some excuse why he had to go home. But last night when they hadn’t been pleasuring each other he’d held her and she had never awakened so gloriously happy in her life. Except for the damn phone ringing.
She reached across Ian for the phone.
“Hello?”
“Alex? It’s Peter. Where are you?”
“I’m at home. Comfy in bed.” Ian stirred at the sound of her voice and turned to her and smiled. Oh, how she loved that smile! She would give anything for that smile to be the first thing she saw every morning. If only he didn’t make her so angry so often. He quickly began kissing her and caressing her and she giggled, forgetting the caller.
“Alex? Are you still there? What do you mean you’re still in bed? Are you sick?”
Ian was driving her crazy. She would have to end this conversation fast.
“Why are you calling me at this hour Peter? Couldn’t this wait until I got to the office?”
“Ian stop it,” she mouthed and smacked him on the rump when he started to suckle her nipple.
“Can’t help it. I’m starving baby.”
Peter’s voice brought Alex back to the call at hand.
“Okay Alex, I can hear that asshole is there with you and that's your business I know. But the least you could do is call and let the rest of us who love and worry about you know you’re still alive if you’re going to be late.”
“Late? What are you talking about Peter it’s...,” she glanced at her alarm clock to see that it was 10:00 a.m.! My god, she had overslept...not surprisingly.
“Peter I am so sorry. I didn’t realize what time it was. My alarm didn’t go off for some reason this morning.”
“Sure doll. If that’s the excuse you want to give okay. But can we expect Mr. Foster to let you come in at all today?”
The annoyance and jealousy in Peter’s voice didn’t escape Alex’s notice.
“Listen Peter. I’m sorry and I’ll be there within the hour but I would appreciate you keeping your snide comments and thoughts to yourself. My personal life is none of your business just as yours is none of mine.”
Alex hung up the phone and Ian could feel how her bod
y had tensed up under his touch because of Peter’s call.
“Alex. Come on now. Don’t let little Mister Busybody spoil our morning.”
“I’d like to know why my alarm didn’t go off. I specifically remember setting it before I jumped into the tub last night.”
She lifted the alarm to examine it and Ian took it from her and placed it back on the nightstand.
“Alex, you’re not going to be very happy with me but I shut it off. I called and checked your schedule with your secretary yesterday so I knew you had no appointments or court hearings set for today sooooo,” he sighed, “I’m the reason your alarm didn’t go off.”
“Ian, why would you think it would be okay for you to do something like that? Damn it now you’ve gotten me in hot water with Peter who is already extremely jealous of my relationship with you and...,” she stopped when she saw the wicked grin spread across his face.
“Why you dirty rascal. That’s exactly why you did this isn’t it? You wanted to make Peter jealous?” Ian laughed but didn’t deny her accusation.
“Yes, Alex I wanted to make Peter jealous. I wanted him to wonder what we did all night and all morning. I can see him stewing all morning trying to decide whether or not to call you. It must have driven him mad!”
“You are an evil person Ian Foster. Just evil!” She laughed at the incredibly gorgeous grin Ian had on his face but she truly felt horrible for Peter.
“Hey, you’ve told me time and time again how you’ve tried to discourage Pete yet he keeps panting after you like a little puppy dog. I thought I’d help you out a little. If you’d like I’ll have a little talk with Mr. Grainger and set him straight and tell him to quit sniffing at your skirts.”
“Ian stop it! Peter is really none of your business. I’ll handle him. He is a dear friend, my best friend actually and I don’t like him being played with like this. I’ve always been completely honest with him about my feelings and even though he hasn’t given up on me I don’t like you rubbing our relationship in his face. ”
“Okay fine. But like I said, let’s not let him ruin our morning. Okay?”
He took his fingers and twined them through her hair with his left hand and held her head as he slowly lowered her head back so he could nuzzle her throat. With a feathery touch his lips caressed the hollow of her throat and she could feel his heart racing as she touched her hands to his muscular chest.
“Last night Alex you begged me not to stop. Then you begged me to stop. Which is it now Alex? Do you want me to stop or do you want me to fill you up and make you come again?”
“Oh, Ian. Please don’t ever listen to me when I tell you to stop. Don’t ever listen to me.”
Their mouths claimed each other’s and Ian rolled her over on top of him and gently lowered her onto his throbbing shaft.
“You’re not going to make it to work within the hour baby,” Ian said with a grin.
“Who cares,” Alex moaned as he filled her and she slowly started to make love...to the man she loved.
***
The man she loved. Alex knew it and admitted it to herself now as she showered. She loved Ian Foster and had loved him for years. That was why she had put up with all of his crap for so long. He is arrogant and conceited. Brilliant and beautiful. He is cold, uncaring, and evasive. Attentive, tender, and loving. The warm water slithering down her body reminded her of Ian’s touch and how it warmed her and made her feel so alive. Yesterday had been one of the greatest days of her life. She had spent nearly the whole day in Ian’s company as well as half the day today. She was in love with a man who was resigned to spending his life alone taking only the bits and pieces he got from her and his entourage of women. He never admitted to having any feelings for her other than lust but she couldn’t believe that the man who made such tender, urgent love to her last night could have done so unless he felt something for her. He’d even said he wanted to make her forget about being with any other man. What did he mean if he didn’t mean he wanted a future with her and only her? She had almost screamed out loud that she loved him this morning. She had come so close but she knew that would have spoiled everything and sent Ian running out the door. She was going to have to play it cool or he’d walk out of her life forever. She knew she was foolish and yes, she was acting like a school girl, but she would rather have what she had with Ian, no strings attached, than nothing at all.
Ian was dressed and making coffee while Alex showered. What the hell had he been thinking spending the night? The whole night had been a huge mistake. And telling her that he’d even planned on spending the night! He had to undo the damage he’d done and fast. He was finding it harder and harder to resist the little nymph so it was time to back off and put some distance between them. He’d actually told her he didn’t want her to want any other man but him. Plus, he’d deliberately set out to make Peter, the main man in her life, jealous so he would back off and leave her alone. He’d actually found himself wanting to make her pregnant as he spilled his seed inside her. Foster, you are losing it pal! You need to run and run fast from this woman. It was time to make a clean break. Time to break it off and not go back. It was the only way to keep his career aspirations safe.
Ian sat at the table reading the morning paper and sipping coffee when Alex entered the kitchen. What she would give to have this scene every morning. She felt kind of free and liberated now that she had admitted to herself that she was crazy in love with this complicated man.
Ian offered her a cup.
“Coffee. Thank you so much. I truly need this before facing Peter this morning. Oops. I guess I mean this afternoon.” Alex was trying to keep conversation light because the stern look on Ian’s face hadn’t escaped her when she walked in the kitchen. Brace yourself kid. Here comes the brush off. She had seen that look before. She just hadn’t figured that after last night... it always started with his rambling.
“Look Alex. I really gotta get going. I wasted enough of the day as it is. It’s been fun and I hope you’re not in too much hot water with Peter. The way he has the hots for you, I doubt he’ll hold it against you for long. After all, you are his star defense attorney and the most beautiful thing he’s got in his life. I’m going to be working on that Ashland Grove murder case over the next couple of weeks so I doubt you’ll see much of me. See ya later baby.” He grabbed his jacket and gave her a quick kiss on the cheek and started toward the door.
“Ian wait.” Alex’s sweet voice stopped him in his tracks. He was afraid to turn and look in those angelic eyes but he did. Hurt. The hurt was there. He’d done it again and couldn’t…...wouldn’t do it again.
“What is it Alex?”
“That’s what I want to know Ian. What is it? What have I done or said to upset you and send you running this time?”
“What are you talking about Alex? Please I need to go. I don’t have time to get into any deep discussions now. We’ll talk about it later. I’ll see ya later.”
“Will you? Will you see me later? I thought, well I thought last night and this morning were beautiful. I don’t know what I’ve done to upset you. Please tell me and I’ll make it right,” she pleaded. “I’m sorry whatever it was.” “Begging. I’m begging to this man. What is wrong with me?” Alex thought.
Ian couldn’t breathe. His chest tightened and he couldn’t find the words to soothe her. He needed to get out of there.
“Alex there’s nothing wrong, really. Quit worrying. I gotta go.” He gave her another quick peck on the cheek avoiding the look in her eyes and raced out the door closing it behind him and leaning back on the door to take a deep breath. This was getting harder and harder. This had to be it. He couldn’t go through this again and he knew damn well he couldn’t put her through this again. What was that girl’s name he took to the Governor’s Ball last month? Jennifer. That was it. He was going to have to spend some time with Jennifer tonight or go crazy thinking of Alex. Damn it. He could hear her crying. He raced to his car and as far away from Alex as he could go
.
Alex was not going to let him do this to her again. She would have herself a good cry and then get on with her life. This was too much. She had finally realized she loved the clod and that made this rejection hurt so much worse. It was time she listened to Peter. Time she got the bastard out of her system. But she was going to have that good cry first.
***
Alex walked into the office and saw Peter who immediately ceased his conversation with his partner, Don Anderson, and started toward her.
“Please Peter, I’m sorry. Truly sorry. Despite what you think I overslept because my alarm didn’t go off and I’m sorry I was so short with you on the phone. I need to get to work and I warn you, I am in a horribly cranky mood despite the extra sleep. So please. I don’t even want to talk about it.”
Peter followed her into her office and shut the door. She turned on him with anger flashing in her eyes. “Peter did you hear a word I just said? I DO NOT want to talk about it!” She just couldn’t hold back the hurt or the anger she was feeling. She covered her face with her hands and the tears flowed. “Please Peter. Just leave me alone!”
Peter made his way to her and took her in his arms. He could tell when she had walked through the door by her red-rimmed eyes and the miserable look on her face that she had been crying. Peter held her, stroked her hair and comforted her without saying a word. When the tears had subsided and she had calmed herself she found the strength to pull away from Peter’s comforting arms.
“It seems that I find myself in this situation a lot with you doesn’t it Peter? I’m sorry. I’m fine now. I’ll be okay.”
“Alex you’re not okay. I can see that. I told you just yesterday that I’d always be there to pick up the pieces for you and I meant it.”
“Peter please...”
“No Alex. Listen to me. I love you. You’re under my skin whether you like it or not. When you’re ready to give me a chance I’ll be ready. Now I’ll leave you alone.” He turned to leave and Alex grasped his arm. She was ready to take this step. She had to take this step to save her sanity.
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