D.E.E.P Choices: Volumes 1 - 3 (Soulmate Love)

by Dulin, Vernistene

  “Well I better doctor on it.”

  “You did enough ministering to it this morning and I loved it but it’s sore. Is it supposed to be sore?”

  “Baby I forget how new this is to you. Yes a lot of sex in a small amount of time can make you and or me sore. I’ll draw you a bath and you’ll sit in it and soak okay?”

  “Okay,” I smile. He goes and starts the water. I go to my closet and get out jeans, a blue sleeveless blouse, a lighter shade than my eyes and sandals. I pull out a nursing bra and bikinis. When I turn to go back into the bedroom Deep is at the door.

  “I like that nursing bra thing you got there. You’ll have to wear it for me sometimes.”

  “You are so bad, but okay.” I giggle and walk to him giving him a kiss first for the first time. He slides his arms inside my robe pulling me to him. His hands slide down and squeeze my behind.

  “I like this,” he says.

  “Me too.”

  “How long are you going to be nursing the twins?”

  “I’m down to three times a day. My milk is drying up but I want them to have all the benefits from it as long as they can. My doctor says about another month and that was three weeks ago. I know I do have to always follow it up with a bottle and baby food because it isn’t enough. There is nothing physically wrong. She was glad I made it to six months. She said some mothers sometimes go through this and there are things that can be done. But I chose to wean them because they both like the formula and do well on it. They are both very happy, healthy babies. With me working and having to travel I thought this was the better choice for us all.”

  “Baby you do what you feel is necessary. But I want you to wear that bra just for me sometimes.”

  “Deep we don’t know each other very well, but I think I got myself a kinky guy,” I say laughing.

  “Yeah BA- BEY,” He says laughing with me. “Baby on the real we need to take time for you to know and understand me and me you. I want us to have full trust of each other and I want you to know you can always, and I mean always, count on me. Never let anyone make you think different. I loved you in a heartbeat.”

  “Drakon I do trust you. I was scared. Something in me lets me know you’ll never let me or our children down. I loved you in a heartbeat too. I do think we need to learn each other. I want you to know you can always trust me and know that I’ll never run or hide from you again.”

  He smiles and drops his head then he walks to me.

  “I’m gonna let you soak while I go talk to the guys and play with my beautiful, amazing kids.” He leans down and kisses my forehead. Takes a deep breath, growls softly, shakes himself and heads down to the family room. I smile and hug myself as I go take that much needed soak.

  Three Months Later

  “Babe I need to go to the states and I want you all to come. We have to leave tomorrow. I don’t want to leave you behind. The time we spend together is precious to me. Plus Nigel wants to meet his great niece and nephew.”

  “I know baby but we have the re-opening of the Jewelry store next week-end and I have about forty more pieces that need my personal touch. Can’t we go the next time? You won’t be gone but a week right?”

  “Yeah a week, but a week away from you and the kids is a long time.”

  “Can’t you wait until after the opening? I don’t want to be without you for that long either. “

  We’ve been together non-stop for the last three months getting to know each other in and out of bed. He’s taught me what he likes and I’ve told him what I like that he does to me. Which is everything. I don’t know where he starts and I stop or where I start and he stops. It’s the oddest thing. I can start a sentence and he finishes it exactly. I do him the same way. Deep’s been running his company from his London offices and the office he set up here at the house. Deacon stayed about three weeks helping to get the house more secure and getting a security team sent over from the states. Deep wouldn’t trust our safety to anyone but his seasoned guys from back home. He had a four bedroom cottage built by the front left side of the courtyard against the seven foot rock fence for the security team with offices across the front for him. Two guest houses with two bedrooms each was built in the rear by the indoor/outdoor pool he had installed. My workshop was updated and he hired three master jewelers to make my jewelry but I do all the finishing of each piece to incorporate my style. I also let each jeweler do their own line for our jewelry store exclusively. All the buildings were done in stone to match the original house. He had three crews working sixteen hour days to get it all completed.

  Angel’s still staying with us. He and Fran are now an item. Fran is a fiery five foot six inch red-headed green eyed beauty. She loves to talk and so does Angel. He is a six foot two Puerto Rican Adonis. He says he fell for her the first time he saw her struggling with my packages at the post office. They’ve moved into the guest house together. Deep hired a full time nanny and built a nanny’s suite off the nursery. It has a sitting area, kitchen and bedroom with en-suite. She doesn’t get to do much with the twins yet. Between me, Deep, Colleen, Fran and Angel she rarely gets to hold them.

  “No baby, Angel and I can’t put it off. We have to be there in person for the signing of this new acquisition. I’ll have the plane on standby so the minute we sign and seal the deal I’m on the plane on my way to you. Baby we also need to finish our talk on where we’ll live. Here in Ireland or back in the states.”

  “I know but I want to think about it while you’re gone and have an answer when you get back, if that’s okay?” I haven’t decided because he hasn’t said anything about marriage just us always being together. I haven’t ask him about his views on marriage. I was hoping he would just offer to tell me.

  “Alright. I’ll give you that,” He says with a not so happy voice. Deep wants to live in the states and visit here. I’m not ready to live in Baltimore or Bridgeport. He says we could move anywhere but I just don’t know.

  “Where are the twins?” He ask with that dark look in his eye.

  “I’ve already fed them and they’re down for the night. They tried to stay woke for you but Angel and Fran had them in the pool all evening and tired them out. I told Angel you would get him.”

  “Wrong,” he says as he prowls toward me with that panther prey walk he has, “I’m going to get you. I’ll thank Angel in the morning and tonight I’m gonna thank you every way I can imagine.”

  “Really,” I say breathlessly as I back toward the stairs, “A good thank you or a bad thank you?”

  “Both,” he whispers still stalking me.

  My leg bumps the steps and I take off up them. Deep continues to walk slowly. I hear his soft chuckle as I enter our room. He enters filling the doorway with his tall gorgeous self. He takes two steps and has me caught against the wall. He dips his head and takes my mouth. I moan and his hands come up and hold my cheeks as he gently ravages my mouth. My arms slide around his waist pulling him close. I love how he loves me. So gently but so fierce.

  “Baby I need to get enough from you to last a week. You willing to give it to me?” He whispers close to my mouth.

  “Take all you want. From anywhere you want,” I whisper mesmerized by his eyes and melting from his voice. He takes my mouth again and when he finishes with me as the sun rises the next morning he’s done just that. He fucked me seven shades of sin and bowlegged.

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  The next morning Deep kisses me and the babies before him and Angel leave. I try not to cry. Dev does cry and reach for Daddy. Like she knows he’s leaving for a while. Drak follows suit and then we’re all crying. Deep looks so lost. His family is crying but he has obligations. I give the babies to Nanny and Colleen. They take them back inside.

  “We’ll be alright. Go. I miss you already but my down there can use the rest,” I say through tears with a giggle.

  He bends and kisses me again. He turns to get in the SUV.

  “I love you Drakon.”

  He stops and turns arou
nd. This is the first time I’ve said this without being made love too.

  He walks back to me and pulls me close. He puts his face in my hair and takes a deep breath. He draws back and looks me in the eyes.

  “Emily I love you too. Will you marry me?”

  “Huh?”

  As I walk in the house in somewhat of a daze I ask myself did he just say what I thought he said. I look at Colleen and Fran and then I just smile. The biggest smile ever. As I get the babies and dance around with them on my hips I tell them their daddy asked me to marry him.

  “Did you say yes?” Colleen shouts, “Did ya now?”

  “I think I did,” I whisper as I stop dancing, “I hope I did.”

  Fran burst out laughing.

  “You don’t know?” she ask between laughing and laughing louder.

  “I think I just nodded. He grabbed me up and kissed me then he was gone. So yes I did nod yes.”

  “You are something else,” Colleen says shaking her head. “I would have ravaged the man so there would be no doubt.”

  Dev starts to get fussy and I hand Drak to Nanny who has come down to collect the babies.

  “I’ll feed her first Nanny and then we will put them down for a rest.”

  “Alright miss. I think she misses her da already.”

  “I know she does,” I say softly, “I do too.”

  Colleen heads to the back of the house and Fran goes out to the shop. I sit and rock Dev, humming an Irish lullaby my grandpa sang to me as a child when I was sad. Drak was reaching for me so I had one in each arm and sang them to sleep. Nanny takes one then the other up to the nursery for their nap.

  I head out to the shop. Frank, Herb and Colin are busy at their stations. They look up and smile.

  “Hey everyone,” I say with a smile. They all speak and nod.

  “Can I show you my design?” Colin ask. He is about six foot tall. Blond hair, blue eyed hippie type. He is nice looking in a boyish kind of way. He has awesome designs in jewelry.

  “Sure,” I walk over and we discuss his designs and mine. I go from him to Herb and finally Frank. We are all on the same page. I discuss an Idea I have with them about a ring I want to make for Deep. I want the gold to be black and I want our hair inside the band.

  “It’s doable but the gold will have to be specially ordered now. We can encase the hair and put it in the band as we melt the gold into shape.”

  “Thanks fellows,” I say happily as I go to my office. I call and find the gold and have it shipped overnight.

  “Hey Em,” Fran says from my door a couple of hours later. I just hung up from Deep. I miss him something bad and it’s just a day.

  “What’s up?” I ask.

  “Let’s go out and celebrate tonight. You me and Colleen. The guys say they will come as chaperones and detours.”

  “Detours?” I ask with a puzzled expression on my face.

  “Yes to keep the guys off us.”

  “Let me think about it. I’ll let you know later. I think I’m gonna lie down. I’m tired.”

  “Um, me too. Bet it’s from the same reason.”

  I shake my head and laugh.

  “Probably.”

  We both burst out laughing. The guys look up at us as if we are from another planet.

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  I walk to the house. The babes are playing quietly in the family room. I give them a kiss and a tickle before I lay on the chaise and fall asleep.

  When I wake my phone is beeping. I answer. It’s Deep. He just arrived in New York where the meetings are being held.

  “Hey baby,” he whispers.

  “Hey,” I whisper back.

  “You okay, you sound tired?”

  “I’m fine. I was taking a nap that turned into a long sleep. The babes must be in bed by now.”

  I walk up the stairs as we talk. I ease open their door and they are. Both are sleeping peacefully in the same crib as usual. Deep had them a special crib made with room enough for both of them but they still gravitate to each other.

  “They’re sleeping. I’m going to our room.”

  “Hey babe we’re headed to the hotel. When I get in my suite I’ll Skype you so we can play. Go get ready for me.”

  “Okay,” I reply with a grin in my voice.

  I go in and set up the laptop so it has a great view of the bed. The laptop is tied into the television. It puts Deep on the fifty inch flat screen he insisted on having installed at the foot of the bed. It gives us full visual of our entire property and any of his businesses anywhere in the world. We can also watch the twins sleep. I shower and put on the short red see through gown he left in my dressing room with a note that said wear this.

  I slip on a robe and go across the hall and check the babies again. I come back and climb into bed. I pick up a book I planned on reading and wait. And wait. And wait some more. Finally the Skype sounds and I punch in.

  “Hey baby. Sorry it took so long. I was detained in the elevator. Ran into an old acquaintance.”

  “That’s ok. I was reading anyway. How was the flight?”

  “It was good but I don’t want to discuss the flight I want to discuss you and that little red nightie you’re going to slowly take off for me.”

  “Anything you want daddy.” I giggle.

  “Daddy wants a slow striptease from his baby.”

  “In or out of the bed?”

  “Be inventive baby,” he whispers huskily as he removes his shirt, unbuttons his pants and sits back in a big chair. I have him on the big screen and he looks sexy as hell.

  “Baby I have you on the flat screen here so give daddy a good show.”

  I start swaying and running my hands through my hair. I slide them down my body slowly as I stare directly into the lens hopefully into Deep’s eyes. I hear a knock.

  “Put a robe on baby. I’ll be right back. I’m not turning you off. It’s probably the guys so put on the granny robe you got.”

  I run in the closet and get out the big terry cloth robe I used while I was pregnant. I grab my book and sit on the bed like I’m reading it.

  “Hello Deep,” I hear this very sexy voice say, “I thought you would be ready for me but not this ready.”

  “What are you doing here? How did you know where I was?”

  “This is where we stayed. I called your office and your secretary told me you would be here this week so I came. Didn’t you miss me?”

  I look at the screen. I see blonde hair and a hand rubbing the front of Deeps pants and chest.

  “What the hell!” I shout. Deeps face comes in view long enough to see the tears roll down my face. I turn the television off and crumble onto the floor.

  The phone starts to ring but I won’t answer it. The house phone or my cell.

  I call Colleen and Fran ask them to come over. I tell them what happened. They are just as hurt as I am. They sit with me till I cry myself to sleep. I toss and turn all night.

  The next morning I don’t feel any better. I feel sick. Colleen comes in and talks to me. I’m wrapped in a blanket in the family room watching the twins play. Nanny is sitting in a corner quietly.

  “Em, don’t let what you saw turn you. You shut it down before you saw it all. He loves you and I know he does. He is your heart and you are his. Please Em just talk to him one time.”

  I didn’t know Colleen had talked to Deep last night and again this morning.

  “Okay,” I whisper, “it can’t make it any worse.” It’s around seven in the morning there and around noon here.

  “Go to your room and Skype him. You need to see his face and he yours.”

  I nod and trudge upstairs. I turn on the computer and it pops up on the television. I didn’t break the connection last night. I just turned it off.

  “I sit on the bed and wait. Deep’s face appears. He looks haggard. Like he didn’t sleep all night. I start to cry again. My mind says he was up with her. My heart knows he was up because of me.

  “Baby are you okay?”
he ask gently.

  I shake my head no. I can’t speak the tears are rolling down my cheeks.

  “Em I’m sorry. I didn’t invite her here and I put her right out. I told her in no uncertain terms that I have you and you are all I will ever want.”

  I am looking at my hands. I can’t look up.

  “Baby please look at me. It wasn’t anything. I love you.”

  “I know,” I whisper and clear my throat, “It’s just she touched you. I saw another woman put their hands on what I thought was just mine from the first day we touched. She’s the woman in the paper with you. You and she were smiling with your arm around her. I saw it when I was getting clippings for the twins’ album. It’s the only one I didn’t use.” I start silently crying again.

  “Oh baby that was an old picture. It was before I ever met you. We had two dates. One of the dates was the night that picture was taken. I was staying here at this hotel and she did come back to my room with me. I can’t lie to you about that but that was over two years ago. I haven’t been with anyone since I first met you but you. Em baby please.”

  I finally look up and he gasp. My face is all red and my eyes are swollen from all the crying and not much sleep.

  “Oh baby, I am so sorry. I’m coming home. I can’t see you hurt like this and not be there to hold you and show you how you are my world. You and our babies. I’ll be there tonight.”

  “No Deep finish your meetings. If you come home you would have to plan to go back and I wouldn’t be able to stand it a second time. Please finish. I overreacted and I apologize. I should have let the trust I have for you show me the truth. I felt it in my heart just my head was telling me different. It reminded me of how my dad cheated on my mom in her face. He would invite them to our family parties and sneak off with them. I know my mom knew but she never let on. Not till she left him for a brief time. He promised not to do it again and she came back. She found some other woman’s underwear in her bed. She never told me. I heard her and my dad arguing. This was about a month before they were killed. I flashed to that last night Deep and it paralyzed me. I’m sorry. You’re not him.”