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Darkest Before Dawn

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by Amelia Hutchins


  Sick fuck would do anything to fuck her, but he lacks the tools to get the job done. I turned and left the bitch with her lover, and made my way to the camp followers. It will take more than one whore to get me off tonight.

  I wanted to scream at what I was being forced to watch. It was sick! It was demented and I was jealous of some camp whore who he was going to use, and I was him! I blinked and in that time, I was transported again.

  I shook my head as the landscape changed and I looked around a bloodied battlefield and then down at what was impaled on my blade.

  A child of no more than ten winters lay bleeding, with a gaping wound in his chest.

  “Is it not enough to kill the men, but now he would have us slaughtering children?” I demanded as I turned to Shamus as he ran is sword through the boy’s protector. Smoke poured out of the destroyed manor nearby. In this memory, Shamus was dressed like a knight from the Middle Ages. It came to my mind that the dead were Normans that had been systematically invading England. I should have been standing with the king. Harald Hardrada, supporting his conquest of the north; however, our sire was Anglo-Saxon so we were here in the south, carrying out his will.

  “Dead sons never seek revenge, Jaeden.”

  “He was no more than a lad, one who wouldn’t even remember us being here when he grew to be a man,” I argue.

  “It’s been nigh over a hundred years since you lost your son, and yet you still blame Astrid for killing your seed. You hunted down the midwife responsible for assisting her, and removed her head. Your anger with her had nothing to do with the vow of chastity you’d taken, but everything to do with what she’d done to gain the lovers. What do you think that noble’s son would do to the monsters that removed his father from his throne when he becomes a man? By killing this child, you’ve prevented him from hunting us. Do not blame me for this choice, for I, like you, follow orders. We were ordered to kill his bloodline, and so we have.”

  “You think he’d come after us? He is naught but a child!” I growled angrily.

  “A child who would seek us out. Get it together and let it go! You would also be wise to release your dispute with Astrid. I have taken that traitorous bitch wife of yours to stop the issue you have had with her; she’s in my protection for now.”

  “I released her for a reason,” I snapped.

  “Oh aye, you were a hot-headed neophyte yourself who rashly released her. Not realizing she could run to our enemies. You would have regretted killing her, maybe not right away, but you are not as cold as you think. What she has done is unforgivable my friend, but if you had killed her, and you would have, you would have lost that last little shred of your humanity, and we need it.”

  “What she did to me, to our child, what she continues to do to torment me— deserves to be taken from her flesh every day for the rest of her miserable existence.”

  I blinked at Jaeden and the shower room came back into view, and then I pulled further away from him. “Get out and don’t come back, Jaeden. I don’t have time to deal with you and your crazy ex-wife today. I have to bury my people, which, to me, is a lot more important,” I whispered through the pain. I was pushing him away and we both knew it.

  “I’m sorry that she drugged and deceived you but I’m not sorry that I fucked you. She’s been warned from touching you again. Shamus has taken her with him south,” he ran his fingers through his tousled hair. “I’m sorry you saw that, but I didn’t show you those memories, not voluntarily, I would never have wanted you to experience that. You can’t be completely human if you are able to do that, so be careful of who you touch. I’m putting Cayla on watch whether you want it or not. She’s a little out there, but she’s good in a fight. I know you don’t want me right now, and I’ll give you space. But I told you, Emma, that this thing between us would be unlike anything you’ve ever known. I want you, and that didn’t go away just because I fucked you. You’ll get your time to think, but I have found that patience isn’t something I have very much of with you.”

  I watched him as he walked out of the shower room, and his footsteps faded down the hall. I tried for hours to push him from my mind, but even as I stood in the cemetery with wolves guarding us as night descended, I thought of nothing but him. I thought of everything I’d seen in those memories, and wondered why I had been shown them. It felt as if I’d been given that vision for a reason, but it was beyond my grasp to know exactly why. They could have been moments he felt remorse over, but who was I to say to say if he had?

  I had to consider the fact that he wasn’t human, which was insane. He told me he wasn’t like that anymore, but could I believe him? Nothing made sense, and everything was wrong. I headed to my room in a numb state, but he was there, sitting on the floor against my bed, with no shirt on.

  “I’m not leaving this room until you understand a few things. One, I’m very old and I’ve done a lot of shit that was bad. I never said I was a good person. Not once. I do what’s needed and often. Many of those memories were moments where I was caught up in bloodlust, and while I can’t say it didn’t happen again and often, I can tell you it hasn’t happened in more than a century. I’m sorry about the people who died here. The innocent dying is something I don’t relish. I get that you probably don’t want me here, but I’m not leaving until I know you’re all right.”

  I wasn’t sure how much I could trust him right now. I got that he was trying to help me, but seeing him like that had been a wake-up call. He wasn’t human and vampires were not romantic; they could kill you! Like freaking dead style, really dead, you get my meaning.

  “I can’t do this with you, not today. Not right now, after everything that’s happened.”

  “Fine, but this thing between us isn’t finished. As I said, I’m not done making you scream for me, and the thing between me and Astrid? She killed that a long time ago.”

  “Jaeden, right now I only need to be held, not fucked. I lost friends today, ones who depended on me to keep my head, and protect them. You’re a distraction I just can’t afford.”

  “Emma, I’ll hold you. Come,” he said as he moved over and held his hand out to me. I crumpled against his wide chest and let the tears loose that I’d been trying so hard to hold at bay, and even though he remained silent, his arms and hands gave comfort and his silent support.

  The moment my eyes closed, I had nightmares about his past life, and in the middle of the night, I had to ask him to leave. It was too much, too soon. He wasn’t free of evil doings and right now, I needed time to think of what I’d seen, and how to get past seeing it.

  He had done some pretty horrible things, and yet he hadn’t done anything that wasn’t understandable or forgivable considering what he had seen and experienced in his life. I didn’t know the context of why or how he’d been doing those things in the memories, only that he had. I needed to consider my next step, and concentrate on securing the shelter and protecting the people in it.

  I wasn’t me when I was around him, and right now, I needed to be the prepper girl everyone made fun of. She was tough, and never wavered from responsibility. I had to be that girl again. That meant I was going to have to let Jaeden go.

  Chapter 25

  Days turned to weeks and then an entire month had gone by in the search for who had betrayed us. Time was never ending, and every day I thought of Jaeden. It didn’t help that he would show up once a day and leave a present for me, along with a card that had the exact number of hours and minutes of how long we’d been apart written on it. I missed him terribly and the ache was pulling and nagging at me to go to him, despite what my rational mind told me. I was still working through it as best as I could, and while I may have needed him, the time apart was getting me back to what was important.

  I’d become accustomed to Lachlan being beside me in everything I did. It was as if he’d become my strength. Although I was itchin
g to ask him every silly werewolf and vampire question inspired by books and movies that spun around in my fertile imagination, I held back for now and observed. I wasn’t sure if it was because I was afraid of offending him, or if I was secretly afraid of the truth. Eventually I would have to ask. As it was, we had five people who I no longer trusted, but we couldn’t just come right out and accuse them, since they’d just deny it. Torture wasn’t an option either, since that would create panic—or worse—with the remaining occupants of the shelter.

  We’d started watching them, but it hadn’t gone unnoticed. Time would tell who’d betrayed us, but we were up against both it, and winter. I stopped going out for supplies, and I’d started depending on others to pull their weight, and the residents had rallied beautifully, pulling in a steady stream of food that we would need despite the temperatures dropping. I felt bad as the thought of not having to feed the few who had died, slipped to the back of my mind.

  “Addy, have you seen Grayson? I can’t find him and he’s not in his room,” I asked as I passed her in the hall. She’d been hanging out with Liam, who she seemed to have a thing for again. Or he had come sniffing back.

  “He was with Cat and Sarah about an hour ago,” she said before giving her full attention to Liam who was whispering in her ear.

  I left them to make a list of things we’d need to add to our winter stores, when things went really bad.

  I saw the door to my father’s room had been opened a sliver, and light coming through it. I approached carefully and pushed it open. The moment I did, my heart dropped, and I was trembling. Pictures had been removed from the wall, and across my own picture in red marker was the word liar in Grayson’s handwriting. “No,” I whispered as I turned to the bed where the tapes were scattered on the blanket along with the recorder.

  I left the room in a huff only to plow right into Lachlan who placed his hands on my shoulders to steady me. “What’s wrong, Lass?”

  “Grayson, help me find Grayson!” I shouted as everyone around us stopped what they’d been doing and looked at me.

  “He left, Emma,” Cat said quietly. “He and Jimmy left a little while ago. They wanted to see if there were any good comic books left in town.”

  “You just let him walk out!” I shouted with enough anger to make poor Cat cringe. “He’s only a child; did you miss the memo where we were fucking attacked?”

  “Emma, that isnae helping,” Lachlan said as he placed a calming hand on my shoulder.

  I felt sick. Jimmy had been on our top five list, and I’d been leaning towards him as the guilty party. “Lachlan, could you send your men out to track him but tell them to keep their distance? The rest of you, suit up. Lachlan?” I asked after he’d shouted out orders and his men had left to track Grayson’s scent.

  “Emma?” his voice was a rough growl as he sniffed Grayson’s sweatshirt to get his scent.

  “Have you ever heard of the Sentinels?”

  His eyes narrowed on me. “What kind?”

  I blinked, and stammered. “Uh, I don’t know. The name came up and I didn’t know that there were different kinds. I sorta assumed that they were like you guys.”

  He shook his head thoughtfully. “Nae, should I have?”

  “I guess not,” I said as I pulled on my gear and slipped the knives and guns in the waiting pouches and holsters. “I’m going for Jaeden, he can cover more ground than we can.”

  “Ye sure he wants to see ye? Ye did ask him tae leave and ye never once responded tae him, lass.”

  “I know, but I at least have to try. It’s Grayson. I’d do anything for him.” Jaeden might be upset, but he knew why I was holding back and he had been here every day. I hoped that was worth something.

  I rode the Ducati to the property line of the estate and covered the rest of the ground on foot. I ignored the surprised looks from the vampires as I made a beeline for Jaeden who was near the front of the manor with several other vampires including Shamus and Raphael. They were lounging on the benches near the entry and a female was submissively at Jaeden’s knees. She wasn’t touching him, but I could tell he was doing his best to ignore her presence. Astrid was standing a few feet away from them, watching him closely.

  I was almost to him when she saw me and cut off my path. “Oh I don’t think so,” she sneered.

  “Get out of my way,” I said with urgency.

  “He doesn’t want you, I told you, it was a game we play and he has been very aggressive with me since he finished with you,” she taunted suggestively.

  It had been only a month since I’d been in his bed, but then again, he was a hot-blooded male and while I considered it a possibility, if he had gone back to her, then fuck him. Somehow seeing some of his memories, I seriously doubted he’d gone back to that well. I met his eyes and watched as Shamus stood up to intervene but Jaeden stopped him.

  “You know what Barbie? Screw off. I don’t care if you’re together. I just need his help to find my brother,” I growled with meaning, knowing he’d hear me.

  Shamus smiled wickedly at Jaeden and took a few steps towards us. Astrid placed her hand on my shoulder and dug her perfectly manicured fingernails into my exposed flesh and I yelped, right before I whirled around and punched her, sending her flying across the wide expanse of lawn. I looked down at my hand and then back up to where she was sprawled with her ass in the air and struggled for a moment to sit up.

  Jaeden got to his feet, ignoring Astrid’s angry huff of breath as he did so; his eyes were hard on her as he approached us. Shamus looked surprised at the outcome of the scuffle, but Jaeden looked as if he’d known how it would end before it began. He was walking towards me when she stood up to try again.

  “Enough, Astrid, go to your master. You should stop telling lies to poor Emma.”

  “Honestly, Jaeden, just fuck them both. They’re willing to fight over your cock, why not use it in bed?” Raphael said smoothly, as if this was normal behavior.

  Had no one else noticed that I’d just hurled a vampire across the lawn? No, just me? She moved with inhuman speed, but it was as if I predicted it, and it seemed as if it all happened in slow motion. I watched as she approached me, her body contorted as if she was running towards me, but again, in slow motion. The moment she reached me, I side stepped and she flew full tilt into a pile of debris that had been behind me.

  The entire yard exploded back into real time as she screeched her anger and hatred at me. I blinked to where she stood back up and moved to attack again, but Shamus blocked her way. “Did you see that?” I asked, confused at how I’d managed to best her. This was like the night with the rogue wolves all over again.

  “See what, Emma?” Jaeden asked, narrowing his eyes at me. “You tossing Astrid on her ass? Yes, we saw it.”

  “No. The whole world just slowed to a halt?” Hadn’t it?

  “No it didn’t,” he said as tried to draw me away from Shamus and Astrid. He was looking way too sexy for his own good. He wore a leather jacket with a V-neck shirt beneath it. His pants were held up with a studded belt that matched his leather boots. He looked as if he’d been through hell since I’d last seen him. “What happened to your brother?” he asked carefully.

  “I need help,” I pleaded, not giving a crap who thought I was pathetic; this was my brother who I’d raised. “He’s in danger.”

  “Why me, why don’t you just ask your wolf?” he asked coldly. His eyes remained hard, but for a brief second, I caught sight of pain in their blue-green depths.

  “You know what? Lachlan was right. I’ll find him without your help. You can go right to hell, Jaeden,” I said as I gave him my back only to come face to face with Shamus. “I’m leaving.”

  “Are you? I’m curious about you, and very willing to help you for a price,” Shamus said with a light Irish accent. “I’d like to know more about you, sweet
Emma.”

  “I’m not interested at this time,” I said politely. This guy scared the shit out of me, and I didn’t want to piss him off or offend him.

  “At this time?” he asked as his eerie purple eyes watched me.

  “I’m leaving,” I said as I looked over my shoulder to find a very angry Jaeden glaring at me.

  I made it to my bike before he grabbed my arm and spun me around. “Why did you come here when you have an entire pack of wolves at your beck and call?” he growled.

  I ripped my arm from his hold. “Go back to your life; I can find him alone,” I snapped with enough anger to turn him to ash. I’d just wasted my time when I could have been searching for Grayson. The cool crisp air was doing little to cool my temper.

  “I’m not with her, nor will I ever be again. You can’t walk into my camp and demand I help you after a month of you acting like what we did didn’t happen. I have been brutally honest about who and what I am. I’ve been to your shelter once a day since you threw me out; did the wolf tell you that?”

  “I needed time, Jaeden, I told you that. I didn’t come here for you. I came here for help. You told me to let you help and I’m asking you for it now. He’s my brother and he’s with someone who allowed people inside the shelter to kill them. You told me to trust you, so here I am, and what do you do? You let your friggin’ Barbie doll attack me. That doesn’t make me want to trust you. I knew you came each day, but if you can’t handle me taking a little time to come to grips with all of this and get my priorities straight, then maybe it’s for the best we just part ways.”

  “You didn’t even acknowledge I was there. All I got was Lachlan telling me to get lost with your scent all over him. So tell me, Emma, just how close did you and Lachlan become in the last month while you pretended I didn’t exist, because according to him, you guys were pretty fucking close.”

  “I’ve been with one man in my entire life if that’s what you’re asking, Vampire. It was you, in case I was so forgettable.”

 

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