Lost Girl (Soul Bound Book 1)

by E. M Jefferson

  “Alice?” I was surprised to see how quick she had gotten here as she stood by the bar waiting for me,

  “Belle” Her mouth fell open as I exited the elevator dressed in Dante’s clothes. “Holy fuck! Someone got some action! Bitch you better give me details down to the T”

  “Alice please” I said with wide eyes as we were not the only people here. There were a few other people chilling out that had taken a sudden interest in our conversation. Well mainly me as I was dressed in the famous Dante’s clothes.

  “Girl you are telling me everything!” She said in an over the top voice before grabbing my arm. I think she expected me to try and run from her questioning look. If only I could. Sigh

  “I will but please can we go?” She may have grabbed me, but she was looking up at me as if it were a miracle, I was alive.

  “Alright but I expect you to tell me everything along the drive” She tells me with a stern look. I didn’t even know she could drive……Am I the only one who doesn’t have a licence?! This is bullshit! I want a car.

  “Fine” I said as she dragged me out the club, but she didn’t need to as I would have left on my own. Oh, well fun times. Now I wasn’t so scared of bumping into Dante, I took note on the fact that her ass was peeking out between her shorts as well as her top being inside out and backwards.

  Giggling at how she looked “OMG! Alice have you seen yourself in the mirror?!”

  Alice stops and turns around slowly where I nearly bumped into her on the stairs “No I haven’t. I get a phone call from a dear friend who everyone through was missing and rushed over to find her dressed in a man’s clothes with bruises around her neck” Giving me a pointed look I sink inside the jumper.

  “Alice I’m- “

  “Save it girl. Its clear your fine but I am dying to know what I have missed in the last two days, especial as you haven’t come to work and Alex tried to kill Dante” Hells whores and beast balls just what the fuck have I missed?!

  “Please tell me Alex is still alive?”

  “He is after I quote. You are lucky I can not kill you for Belle would never forgive me. Man, he has it bad for you” That was actually really thoughtful of him. “That was after Alex pulled out a gun on him and pressed it against his head. No one knew what to do as he was literally staring down the barrel as if it wouldn’t hurt him”

  “And Alex is still alive yes?”

  “Yep. They both walked away, and Dante came back on his own, but Ty said he was back at home alive and in one piece” Mental panic over. “Right this is my beauty of a car. Now missy its time to spill the beans and give me the dirty details” Alice stands with her hands on her hips as she gives me her evil eyes. I only just now realised we were standing in the parking lot.

  Ignoring her I get into her blue beetle that has emoji sticks all over it and cats. Alice walks around the side and gets in starting the car up. But she doesn’t leave until I start talking.

  “What do you want to know?” I groan out.

  “Everything! What happened?! Why are their bruises on your neck? Did you have sex?! Was it as amazing and fantastic as anyone would imagine? Was he big?! Did he know how to use it?!”

  “Wow slow down with the questions” Damn! How she said that all in one breathe amazed me. I could see her eyes burning with more questions as I let out a small laugh. “Should I start at the beginning?”

  Like a child she tries to jump and up and before saying “Yes! Yes! Yes! Tell me! Tell meeee”

  “Ok. My defence classes with Max kind of went bad as he caught me in the head and gave me a conscious. This led me to pass out in an ally way which I through was real as I fought jackalopes in funky customers”

  “Your telling me you didn’t realised it was all fake when you saw Jackalopes in customers?” She shook her head at me like she couldn’t believe how naive I could be.

  “What? One of them was dancing in a tutu and I wanted to keep it!”

  “You know what Belle. Please don’t ever change who you are”

  “Alright I promise. Well after this I woke up in bed with Dante, freaked out and fell out the bed. We had an argument that lead into wild dirty sex”

  “Where did the bruises come from?”

  “I think he has a fetish for wrapping his hand around my neck, but it didn’t really hurt”

  “Tell me it was consensual otherwise I will attempt to blow his man hood off before mounting it to my wall!”

  “Why would you put it on your wall? …. Never mind don’t answer that” But by the wicked smile she was going to tell me whether I wanted to hear or not.

  Musical laughter rang out before she wiped a fake tear from her eye “That my friend would be so I could imagine what his cock would feel like while I used my B.O.B” Dear lord she was so weird but I loved her for it.

  “Girl you nuts”

  “Enough stalling and tell me more”

  “If you drive then I will tell you about round two” Like a child in the cookie jar she launched out the parking lot. “Jesus fucking Christ! Try not to kill us will you!” I held on to the door for my life as she spun the car around before driving it like she stole it. I hope she didn’t as I didn’t fancy getting pulled over and explaining the situation.

  “Chill out and relax. Now tell me about round two and don’t forget to inform me off his size cause girl. I am soo jealous of you right now”

  “You wouldn’t be after you hear the rest” Telling Alice about what happened over the last two days made me feel better about how conflicted I felt. But I didn’t stop there as I started to tell her about the Beast who visits my dreams and how I felt like there was two sides to me. Everything came pouring out as I couldn’t do this on my own anymore and really needed some girl advice.

  “Have you spoken to anyone else about this?”

  “No… I feel like its all in my head. Well at first, I did until I meet the Beast and jumped into the water. Then the shit storm with Dante happened and now I feel like theirs something wrong with me”

  “It sounds like you have a spilt personality or…… A part of you remembers your past as is trying to stop you from getting with either of them. My advice would be sample them both and see who’s better”

  “That’s the problem! I really want Dante as yes, he is a cruel arrogant asshole but sometimes, I can see the broken man inside him. Whereas the Beast doesn’t want this me, he wants the old me. But neither of them asked me what I wanted”

  “I don’t think he is as cruel as he tries to be. You have got to understand he has a reputation to uphold and if anyone sense weakness or even attachment then who do you think they would target?” She looks at me as I take in her words. They would target me as I would be the weakest link.

  “Its me isn’t it?”

  “Bingo my friend. Look all I can say is if you believe he can make you happy then go for it. I’m a sucker for love stories but. Don’t let him control you or dictate your life. You need to show him you his equal not below him. Dante is a King therefor if you want to stand by him then show him your inner bad girl and walk it” I get what she’s saying but can I really do that? Or is the self-doubt becoming too much? “Hey look at me. You need to stop doubting yourself and be who you are. You are not some walk over who needs pity. You are a strong person who can stand up for herself. Don’t let anyone take that away from”

  “How did you become so wise?” Truly amazed at the advice she had given. Instead of belittling me she listened to how I feel and gave me her best advice. Even if she didn’t like what I said, she’s letting me make my own mistakes or possible the best decision possible.

  “I learned not to judge people and let them make their own mistakes. Only then will people really learn. Plus, everyone is different and prefer different thing…. I wish you the best of luck with Alex” Alice says as she pulls up at the apartment.

  Her words sobered me up to how I might find Alex as I don’t know if he would be enraged or worried about me. Maybe first worried then
enraged at where I have been. I inhale a long breathe before getting out the car and making my way home. I could hear music within my mind playing like a song to my death as dark as it seemed. I felt like what ever happened now will change our relationship. Long gone is the shy girl who couldn’t look anyone in the eye let alone hold her head up. She had gone and be replaced by someone with more confidences, someone who could stand their ground.

  How times has changed since working behind the bar changing who I am. The ding of the elevator door goes off as I reach my floor. But a gloomy feeling washes over me as I unlock the door and open it.

  “Alex” I shout as I hang my keys up and take Dante’s jacket off before heading into my room. I don’t hear anyone shout back and I don’t know whether it is a blessing or not. Getting out of my borrowed clothes I put mine on before heading into the living room.

  As I start to wonder where Alex is, I don’t need to pounder that question long as he is sitting on the sofa. I watch as his head turns towards me from the sound of my feet. His body is tensed as he gives me a straight face. He doesn’t say anything as his eyes are vacant which scares me.

  “Alex are you ok?” I ask warily.

  “I am ok she asks. Am I ok? I don’t know Belle as I through he had killed you. Instead you had been warming his bed where you couldn’t even have the decency to have called me!” He said snarling at me. “DO you have any idea what I tried to do?! I nearly fucking killed him Belle! I took a gun and pointed it at his smug face as all I could see was him killing you!”

  “Alex I’m- “

  “Your what, fucking sorry?! Damn right you should be after everything that has happened! You could have fucking told me! That is all I ask Belle”

  “I know, I fucked up. I should have told you, but please can I explain the full story?”

  “What else is there to know?! And what the fuck are those bruises around your neck?!”

  “Well you see- “

  “He fucking did this didn’t he?! I’m going to fucking kill him” Alex has gone mad with rage if I don’t calm him down, I know he will do something he regrets.

  “ALEX! STOP!” I screamed at him. “Yes, he did this to me, but it wasn’t in the intent to harm me! It was from having sex!”

  “And the black eye?” He doesn’t look convinced

  “Max in self-defence” The anger I felt deflates. “I lost focus and ended up getting a black eye and concussion. That how I woke up in Dante’s bed”

  He looked sceptically at me before saying “So help me God, if you lying to me Belle”

  “No Alex. I’m not lying plus were Fae remember” How I wished I wasn’t.

  A deep sadness enters his eyes before Alex sits down. “Belle, I can’t loss you, not to him. Please think this through”

  Sitting next to Alex I lean my head on his shoulders where he wraps his arms around me. The fight leaves us both as we settle next to each other. “I promise you Alex, you will never loss me. Were family always will be. But please let me make my own mistakes and if this all ends bad. Then you can say I told you so”

  He lets out a deep exhale “That’s where your wrong. It would be me picking up the pieces of your broken heart as I can see you have already fallen for him. Just don’t lose yourself. Don’t change who you are”

  Words are not need between us as I can feel his pain and worry. But the worst part is, I had hurt him when I did not even bother to call. That should have been my first priority.

  Chapter Twenty-one

  Collective unconscious

  I was following a stone path that I didn’t know where it led to, but I felt compelled to follow it. Either way it was a strange place as I knew it was a dream from the blue grass and green sky like everything was upside down. However, it felt so real as I walked along the path, which would move and change the further I went. Little people who were attached to the stones like cards would get up and run. It was so bizarre.

  Even the trees which were white, and blue would re-root their selves as they moved to a new location as half skeleton birds would leave their nest and fly out. I have no idea what they were as their feathers was colours of pink, yellow, blue and red but their body was devoid of skin and muscles. Only their bones and rib cage could be seen like cages waiting to capture a poor soul. I shrived just thinking about what they would do. They had legs like a normal bird however their eyes bugged out and would fall out their sockets before going back in.

  What an unusual creature. Just what is this place? And how the hell did I end up here? If I didn’t know better, I would say I was tripping on acid or my wandering feet had taken me to a delusional place. But I knew I was still safe within my bed as I could almost picture my sleeping form. Could my soul have detached from my body and ended up here? If that is the case, then who had summoned me?

  Soon enough these throughs had left my mind as I wandered further along the moving path where I became fascinated by the plants that would……Sing? Yep its official my mind has gone to lala land.

  “Are you lost pretty lady” The mushroom plant said in an Irish accent? What the fuck! I rubbed my eyes to double check I’m not seeing or hearing things now. “I think we got ourselves a newbie here in Underland”

  Dear God save me now! Talking fucking plants!

  “Hey! Its rude to ignore someone when their talking to you!”

  “I don’t think she understands…… don’t think she’s all there in the head either” The smaller one said as it tilted its mushroom head.

  I looked at them in a puzzled expression “Hi?”

  “Oh, look. She’s just ignorant instead of rude! And now she’s staring! What’s a matter love, never seen a talking mushroom before?” It folded its leaves over in annoyance.

  “Er no. But. If you can tell me how to get out that would be great” I said wondering if this was indeed a dream or a really crazy out of this world experience.

  “Sure, just follow the path” It said before disappearing.

  “Maybe next time be nice” The other one quipped before it to disappeared. I could feel the edge of my mouth twitch in annoyance as they disappeared.

  Shaking my head in a “What can you do” I walked along the path. Not quite sure that thing was being honest, but it was my first choice anyway.

  “Damn it! Just how fucking far must I walk?” I curse out. I had been walking for what like miles and yet there is not fucking end to this path. Kicking a stone in annoyance I stand in shock as I hear the rock like creature scream out in pain before exploding into shards.

  Oops

  “My, my, my. Looks like someone has a bad temper” A voice says like ice, enough to freeze me to the spot.

  Turning around it takes me a moment to react as I’m shocked by the unearthly colour of his eyes. Pure hell fire. Not the red people so often think but the purest form of neon blue that could burn a soul. Fire that is uncontrollable that can spread across the lands and devour them without a second through.

  “What are you?” I say as I slowly put distance between us. Dream or no dream this man is dangerous. His hair is pitch black and, on his head, are a pair of white bunny ears coming out the top which stand upright.

  He stares at me for a moment before his gloved head reaches up to his whiskeys and twirls one before saying “Really Belle? Here I through we had such a smashing moment the last time we met”

  “I’ve never meet you before. I think I would remember a man that had a fetish for rabbits” I watch as his head tilts to the side before a sinister smile twist his face.

  He walks slowly towards me until I’ve taken my feet of the path and been back into something hard. “That’s where your wrong. The night we meet was the night you saw a Jackalope staring into your eyes. But instead of wanting to run away you wanted to play”

  “That was a dream” I say with gritted teeth.

  Rabbit man rolls his eyes dramatically. “Once again, people tell you dreams are not real. That the subconscious part that dwells in dreams can be n
othing more than fragments of your imagination”

  “Dreams are nothing but a person worse fears, hopes and achievements that plays out in the subconscious while our bodies rest”

  “Wrong. Take this place for example” He says spreading his arms wide making me take in the scenery. “This world is very much real as your precious earth. Underland is known as the collective conscious where very few people can enter but. It is not a world many want to leave as madness and illusions are the greatest here. Wrapping a creatures soul in madness until nothing is left”

  “Seriously, you expect me to believe that this” waving my hand around “is Wonderland where Alice falls down the rabbit hole and meets the Mad Hatter” I snort out unable to believe this lunatic.