The Complete Short Stories of W. Somerset Maugham: East and West (Vol. 1 of 2))

by W. Somerset Maugham

  “He never suspected it even,” she said. “He knew Margery much too well.”

  The weeks passed and at last Gerry sailed. He went from Tilbury and Margery saw him off. When she came back she cried for forty-eight hours. Charlie watched her with increasing exasperation. His nerves were much frayed.

  “Look here, Margery,” he said at last, “I’ve been very patient with you, but now you must pull yourself together. This is getting past a joke.”

  “Why can’t you leave me alone?” she cried. “I’ve lost everything that made life lovely to me.”

  “Don’t be such a fool,” he said.

  I do not know what else he said. But he was unwise enough to tell her what he thought of Gerry and I gather that the picture he drew was virulent. It started the first violent scene they had ever had. She had borne Charlie’s jibes when she knew that she would see Gerry in an hour or next day, but now that she had lost him for ever she could bear them no longer. She had held herself in for weeks: now she flung her self-control to the winds. Perhaps she never knew exactly what she said to Charlie. He had always been irascible and at last he hit her. They were both frightened when he had. He seized a hat and flung out of the flat. During all that miserable time they had shared the same bed, but when he came back, in the middle of the night, he found that she had made herself up a shake-down on the sofa in the sitting-room.

  “You can’t sleep there,” he said. “Don’t be so silly. Come to bed.”

  “No, I won’t, let me alone.”

  For the rest of the night they wrangled, but she had her way and now made up her bed every night on the sofa. But in that tiny flat they could not get away from one another; they could not even get out of sight or out of hearing of one another. They had lived in such intimacy for so many years that it was an instinct for them to be together. He tried to reason with her. He thought her incredibly stupid and argued with her interminably in the effort to show her how wrong-headed she was. He could not leave her alone. He would not let her sleep, and he talked half through the night till they were both exhausted.

  He thought he could talk her out of love. For two or three days at a time they would not speak to one another. Then one day, coming home, he found her crying bitterly; the sight of her tears distracted him; he told her how much he loved her and sought to move her by the recollection of all the happy years they had spent together. He wanted to let bygones be bygones. He promised never to refer to Gerry again. Could they not forget the nightmare they had been through? But the thought of all that a reconciliation implied revolted her. She told him she had a racking headache and asked him to give her a sleeping draught. She pretended to be still asleep when he went out next morning, but the moment he was gone she packed up her things and left. She had a few trinkets that she had inherited and by selling them she got a little money. She took a room at a cheap boarding-house and kept her address a secret from Charlie.

  It was when he found she had left him that he went all to pieces. The shock of her flight broke him. He told Janet that his loneliness was intolerable. He wrote to Margery imploring her to come back, and asked Janet to intercede for him; he was willing to promise anything; he abased himself. Margery was obdurate.

  “Do you think she’ll ever go back?” I asked Janet.

  “She says not.”

  I had to leave then, for it was nearly half past one and I was bound for the other end of London.

  Two or three days later I got a telephone message from Margery asking if I could see her. She suggested coming to my rooms. I asked her to tea. I tried to be nice to her; her affairs were no business of mine, but in my heart I thought her a very silly woman and I dare say my manner was cold. She had never been handsome and the passing years had changed her little. She had still those fine dark eyes and her face was astonishingly unlined. She was very simply dressed and if she wore make-up it was so cunningly put on that I did not perceive it. She had still the charm she had always had of perfect naturalness and of a kindly humour.

  “I want you to do something for me if you will,” she began without beating about the bush.

  “What is it?”

  “Charlie is leaving the Marshes today and going back to the flat. I’m afraid his first few days there will be rather difficult; it would be awfully nice of you if you’d ask him to dinner or something.”

  “I’ll have a look at my book.”

  “I’m told he’s been drinking heavily. It’s such a pity. I wish you could give him a hint.”

  “I understand he’s had some domestic worries of late,” I said, perhaps acidly.

  Margery flushed. She gave me a pained look. She winced as though I had struck her.

  “Of course you’ve known him ever so much longer than you’ve known me. It’s natural that you should take his part.”

  “My dear, to tell you the truth I’ve known him all these years chiefly on your account. I have never very much liked him, but I thought you were awfully nice.”

  She smiled at me and her smile was very sweet. She knew that I meant what I said.

  “Do you think I was a good wife to him?”

  “Perfect.”

  “He used to put people’s backs up. A lot of people didn’t like him, but I never found him difficult.”

  “He was awfully fond of you.”

  “I know. We had a wonderful time together. For sixteen years we were perfectly happy.” She paused and looked down. “I had to leave him. It became quite impossible. That cat-and-dog life we were leading was too awful.”

  “I never see why two persons should go on living together if they don’t want to.”

  “You see, it was awful for us. We’d always lived in such close intimacy. We could never get away from one another. At the end I hated the sight of him.”

  “I don’t suppose the situation was easy for either of you.”

  “It wasn’t my fault that I fell in love. You see, it was quite a different love from the one I’d felt for Charlie. There was always something maternal in that and protective. I was so much more reasonable than he was. He was unmanageable, but I could always manage him. Gerry was different.” Her voice grew soft and her face was transfigured with glory. “He gave me back my youth. I was a girl to him and I could depend on his strength and be safe in his care.”

  “He seemed to me a very nice lad,” I said slowly. “I imagine he’ll do well. He was very young for the job he had when I ran across him. He’s only twenty-nine now, isn’t he?”

  She smiled softly. She knew quite well what I meant.

  “I never made any secret of my age to him. He says it doesn’t matter.”

  I knew this was true. She was not the woman to have lied about her age. She had found a sort of fierce delight in telling him the truth about herself.

  “How old are you?”

  “Forty-four.”

  “What are you going to do now?”

  “I’ve written to Gerry and told him I’ve left Charlie. As soon as I hear from him I’m going out to join him.” I was staggered.

  “You know, it’s a very primitive little colony he’s living in. I’m afraid you’ll find your position rather awkward.”

  “He made me promise that if I found my life impossible after he left I’d go to him.”

  “Are you sure you’re wise to attach so much importance to the things a young man says when he’s in love?”

  Again that really beautiful look of exaltation came into her face. “Yes, when the young man happens to be Gerry.”

  My heart sank. I was silent for a moment. Then I told her the story of the road Gerry Morton had built. I dramatized it, and I think I made it rather effective.

  “What did you tell me that for?” she asked when I finished.

  “I thought it rather a good story.”

  She shook her head and smiled.

  “No, you wanted to show me that he was very young and enthusiastic, and so keen on his work that he hadn’t much time to waste on other interests. I wouldn
’t interfere with his work. You don’t know him as I do. He’s incredibly romantic. He looks upon himself as a pioneer. I’ve caught from him something of his excitement at the idea of taking part in the opening up of a new country. It is rather splendid, isn’t it? It makes life here seem very humdrum and commonplace. But of course it’s very lonely there. Even the companionship of a middle-aged woman may be worth having.”

  “Are you proposing to marry him?” I asked.

  “I leave myself in his hands. I want to do nothing that he does not wish.”

  She spoke with so much simplicity, there was something so touching in her self-surrender, that when she left me I no longer felt angry with her. Of course I thought her very foolish, but if the folly of men made one angry one would pass one’s life in a state of chronic ire. I thought all would come right. She said Gerry was romantic. He was, but the romantics in this workaday world only get away with their nonsense because they have at bottom a shrewd sense of reality: the mugs are the people who take their vapourings at their face value. The English are romantic; that is why other nations think them hypocritical; they are not: they set out in all sincerity for the Kingdom of God, but the journey is arduous and they have reason to pick up any gilt-edged investment that offers itself by the way. The British soul, like Wellington’s armies, marches on its belly. I supposed that Gerry would go through a bad quarter of an hour when he received Margery’s letter. My sympathies were not deeply engaged in the matter and I was only curious to see how he would extricate himself from the pass he was in. I thought Margery would suffer a bitter disappointment; well, that would do her no great harm, and then she would go back to her husband and I had no doubt the pair of them, chastened, would live in peace, quiet, and happiness for the rest of their lives.

  The event was different. It happened that it was quite impossible for me to make any sort of engagement with Charlie Bishop for some days, but I wrote to him and asked him to dine with me one evening in the following week. I proposed, though with misgiving, that we should go to a play; I knew he was drinking like a fish, and when tight he was noisy. I hoped he would not make a nuisance of himself in the theatre. We arranged to meet at our club and dine at seven because the piece we were going to began at a quarter past eight. I arrived. I waited. He did not come. I rang up his flat, but could get no reply, so concluded that he was on his way. I hate missing the beginning of a play and I waited impatiently in the hall so that when he came we could go straight upstairs. To save time I had ordered dinner. The clock pointed to half past seven, then a quarter to eight; I did not see why I should wait for him any longer, so walked up to the dining-room and ate my dinner alone. He did not appear. I put a call through from the dining-room to the Marshes and presently was told by a waiter that Bill Marsh was at the end of the wire.

  “I say, do you know anything about Charlie Bishop?” I said. “We were dining together and going to a play and he hasn’t turned up.”

  “He died this afternoon.”

  “What?”

  My exclamation was so startled that two or three people within earshot looked up. The dining-room was full and the waiters were hurrying to and fro. The telephone was on the cashier’s desk and a wine waiter came up with a bottle of hock and two long-stemmed glasses on a tray and gave the cashier a chit. The portly steward showing two men to a table jostled me.

  “Where are you speaking from?” asked Bill.

  I suppose he heard the clatter that surrounded me. When I told him he asked me if I could come round as soon as I had finished my dinner. Janet wanted to speak to me.

  “I’ll come at once,” I said.

  I found Janet and Bill sitting in the drawing-room. He was reading the paper and she was playing patience. She came forward swiftly when the maid showed me in. She walked with a sort of spring, crouching a little, on silent feet, like a panther stalking his prey. I saw at once that she was in her element. She gave me her hand and turned her face away to hide her eyes brimming with tears. Her voice was low and tragic.

  “I brought Margery here and put her to bed. The doctor has given her a sedative. She’s all in. Isn’t it awful?” She gave a sound that was something between a gasp and a sob. “I don’t know why these things always happen to me.”

  The Bishops had never kept a servant but a charwoman went in every morning, cleaned the flat, and washed up the breakfast things. She had her own key. That morning she had gone in as usual and done the sitting-room. Since his wife had left him Charlie’s hours had been irregular and she was not surprised to find him asleep. But the time passed and she knew he had his work to go to. She went to the bedroom door and knocked. There was no answer. She thought she heard him groaning. She opened the door softly. He was lying in bed, on his back, and was breathing stertorously. He did not wake. She called him. Something about him frightened her. She went to the flat on the same landing. It was occupied by a journalist. He was still in bed when she rang, and opened the door to her in pyjamas.

  “Beg pardon, sir,” she said, “but would you just come and “ave a look at my gentleman. I don’t think he’s well.”

  The journalist walked across the landing and into Charlie’s flat. There was an empty bottle of veronal by the bed.

  “I think you’d better fetch a policeman,” he said.

  A policeman came and rang through to the police station for an ambulance. They took Charlie to Charing Cross Hospital. He never recovered consciousness. Margery was with him at the end.

  “Of course there’ll have to be an inquest,” said Janet. “But it’s quite obvious what happened. He’d been sleeping awfully badly for the last three or four weeks and I suppose he’d been taking veronal. He must have taken an overdose by accident.”

  “Is that what Margery thinks?” I asked.

  “She’s too upset to think anything, but I told her I was positive he hadn’t committed suicide. I mean, he wasn’t that sort of a man. Am I right, Bill?”

  “Yes, dear,” he answered.

  “Did he leave any letter?”

  “No, nothing. Oddly enough Margery got a letter from him this morning, well, hardly a letter, just a line. ‘I’m so lonely without you, darling.’ That’s all. But of course that means nothing and she’s promised to say nothing about it at the inquest. I mean, what is the use of putting ideas in people’s heads? Everyone knows that you never can tell with veronal, I wouldn’t take it myself for anything in the world, and it was quite obviously an accident. Am I right, Bill?”

  “Yes, dear,” he answered.

  I saw that Janet was quite determined to believe that Charlie Bishop had not committed suicide, but how far in her heart she believed what she wanted to believe I was not sufficiently expert in female psychology to know. And of course it might be that she was right. It is unreasonable to suppose that a middle-aged scientist should kill himself because his middle-aged wife leaves him and it is extremely plausible that, exasperated by sleeplessness, and in all probability far from sober, he took a larger dose of the sleeping-draught than he realized. Anyhow that was the view the coroner took of the matter. It was indicated to him that of late Charles Bishop had given way to habits of intemperance which had caused his wife to leave him, and it was quite obvious that nothing was further from his thoughts than to put an end to himself. The coroner expressed his sympathy with the widow and commented very strongly on the dangers of sleeping-draughts.

  I hate funerals, but Janet begged me to go to Charlie’s. Several of his colleagues at the hospital had intimated their desire to come, but at Margery’s wish they were dissuaded; and Janet and Bill, Margery and I were the only persons who attended it. We were to fetch the hearse from the mortuary and they offered to call for me on their way. I was on the look-out for the car and when I saw it drive up went downstairs, but Bill got out and met me just inside the door.

  “Half a minute,” he said. “I’ve got something to say to you. Janet wants you to come back afterwards and have tea. She says it’s no good Margery moping and
after tea we’ll play a few rubbers of bridge. Can you come?”

  “Like this?” I asked.

  I had a tail coat on and a black tie and my evening dress trousers.

  “Oh, that’s all right. It’ll take Margery’s mind off.”

  “Very well.”

  But we did not play bridge after all. Janet, with her fair hair, was very smart in her deep mourning and she played the part of the sympathetic friend with amazing skill. She cried a little, wiping her eyes delicately so as not to disturb the black on her eyelashes, and when Margery sobbed broken-heartedly put her arm tenderly through hers. She was a very present help in trouble. We returned to the house. There was a telegram for Margery. She took it and went upstairs. I presumed it was a message of condolence from one of Charlie’s friends who had just heard of his death. Bill went to change and Janet and I went up to the drawing-room and got the bridge table out. She took off her hat and put it on the piano.

  “It’s no good being hypocritical.” she said. “Of course Margery has been frightfully upset, but she must pull herself together now. A rubber of bridge will help her to get back to her normal state. Naturally I’m dreadfully sorry about poor Charlie, but as far as he was concerned I don’t believe he’d ever have got over Margery’s leaving him and one can’t deny that it has made things much easier for her. She wired to Gerry this morning.”

  “What about?”

  “To tell him about poor Charlie.”

  At that moment the maid came to the room.

  “Will you go up to Mrs Bishop, please, ma’am? She wants to see you.”

  “Yes, of course.”

  She went out of the room quickly and I was left alone. Bill joined me presently and we had a drink. At last Janet came back. She handed a telegram to me. It read as follows:

  For God’s sake await letter. Gerry

  “What do you think it means?” she asked me. “What it says,” I replied.