ArousingMemories

by Samantha Cayto

  Snug in his arms, she took a deep breath and it shuddered out again before she responded to his confession. “I still love you, too, Sev.”

  Her admission released a tension deep inside. Pushing her away from his embrace, he pulled her back again for a kiss. His demanding lips met soft, wet, willing ones. She melted into his arms as her tongue welcomed his inside her mouth. He poured all his love and fear into the kiss, holding her tight to his body. He emptied his mind to all but the pleasure of the warm embrace, a warmth that turned hot very quickly. A new type of tension hummed inside. His cock sprang to life and he moaned as the hardening length met the soft curve of Haley’s body. She moaned too and deepened the kiss. Her hands cupped his ass and pressed his body more firmly against hers.

  Suddenly she released him, moved away. He groaned in frustration. “No.”

  “Yes,” she replied. “Look at me, Sev.” With great reluctance, he did as she commanded. Her cheeks were flushed and her lips swollen. Her eyes were still sad. Now it was she who held his chin in her hand. Her voice was incredibly gentle as she smashed his heart. “It’s over between us, Sev. It has to be. I understand what you’re saying about how you felt, how you feel. I have those same feelings. I hadn’t quite gotten to the part about being home with the kids, about having to tell them their father was dead, but I worry about you all the same. I would worry about you every day of our lives together. I’ll probably worry about you every day of our lives apart. I understand, though, that you are who you are, and I can’t expect you to change for me. You’d hate me for it eventually and I’d hate you if you did it to me. Living with the fear would be a necessary part of our lives together. If you can’t do it, we can’t be together.”

  Sev closed his eyes. Her words made sense. He knew they did, and he knew she was right that she couldn’t seal herself up in bubble wrap simply to allay his fears. He was the one who kept them apart. He had to change, yet he couldn’t. There was no hope.

  Opening his eyes, he looked at her and nodded. “You’re right. I’m sorry. I should have kept my hands off you.”

  She smiled at him wanly and dropping her hand away, stepped back. The loss of even that bit of contact left him cold. “It’s not your fault. I would have fallen in love with you even if you had kept your distance.”

  His ego preened, he couldn’t help it, so did his cock, but it was a waste of energy. It and he were going to have to get used to the idea they couldn’t have Haley anymore. Shit, it would take the rest of his life to accept that. But she was right. He couldn’t see changing and didn’t want her to change herself even if she thought she could. He loved the whole package as she was. He sighed and nodded his head. “Yeah, I would have loved you no matter what, too. God, what a mess.”

  “Yes, it is that,” she agreed, her mouth set in a hard line. “What are we going to do about Noah?”

  Sev winced. “Apologize?”

  “Ah,” she shook her head. “I don’t think words are going to do it. He’s mad, but worse, he’s hurt. As vulnerable as he is right now, the idea that the two of us were taking advantage of him is more than he can probably bear.”

  “You’re right,” Sev agreed. “And, he was not so far off the mark when he accused me of using him to get to you. Part of me was jealous of your relationship with him.”

  Haley grimaced. “Me, too.”

  “Yeah?”

  “Yeah.”

  He knew it was wrong, yet he was glad to hear it. Man, what a screwed-up pair they were. Make that a screwed-up threesome, except poor Noah didn’t deserve to be stuck in the middle of Sev and Haley’s messed-up love life. “We have to make this right with him.”

  “I know.” She paused and took a deep breath. He knew something was percolating inside her mind. He wasn’t sure he was going to like it. “Words won’t be enough. We need to show him how much he means to us, not as a conduit to each other, but for himself.”

  Sev’s cock started to rouse again. It understood the implication of Haley’s words apparently a split second before his mind did. “Show him together, as in the three of us getting naked together?”

  “Why not? We both care about him. Mission or no mission, he matters to us and I for one am willing to do anything to help him. Right now he needs to know how important he is as a person. His memories may never return, but I still want him to be happy.”

  “So do I,” he confessed, and it was true. He cared about Noah, and the look on the guy’s face when he accused them of using him had been heartbreaking. Sev was willing to do whatever it took to make it right, too. If it meant watching Noah, another man, make love to Haley, then so be it. It was little enough sacrifice for a friend. “Okay,” he agreed. “After this is all over, we go to him and fix it.”

  Haley shook her head. “We go now, or we may never work up the nerve to do it.”

  “You’re exhausted and we still have a terrorist attack to worry about.”

  “I’m not that tired.” When he stared down her obvious lie, she conceded. “Okay, I am that tired, but this is more important, and there’s nothing more for me to do about tomorrow. Everything that can be done, has been done, and I’ve got people everywhere on the lookout. Knocking off early today won’t make any difference. Let’s do it now.”

  He knew a losing argument when he was in one. Without another word, Sev waved her on and with a little trepidation and a lot of arousal, he followed her down the hall.

  * * * * *

  Noah was back to pacing his room again. What else was there to do? He could turn on the tube, although it would only serve to remind him how many people might die tomorrow because of him. Maybe it wouldn’t happen. Both Haley and Sev said they believed the Sons would continue with their plan, but that was supposition. They could have abandoned the plan, thinking Noah had survived and ratted them out. Wishful thinking, yet it was all he had. He didn’t even have the two people who had been his lifeline this week. Whether he had been right about their uncaring manipulation of him, it didn’t matter now. After the way he had lit into them, they wouldn’t be giving him the pleasure of their touch again. He was truly alone. The thought made his eyes prick with tears. He was beating them back as a useless gesture when there was a knock on his door.

  He groaned. He wasn’t up for a visit from the doctor or the nurse. Maybe if he ignored them… There was another knock, firmer this time. Apparently not. “Come in,” he called out in weary tone. He lacked the energy to hide his sadness. But it wasn’t either of the people he expected. It was the two he hadn’t. First Haley, then Sev entered. They looked grim.

  “May we still come in now that you know it’s us?” Haley asked.

  He opened his mouth to say no from pride alone. “Yes.” Fuck pride.

  Sev closed the door, and the two of them stepped up to within a few feet of him. The looks on their faces were now those of two little kids confessing to the crotchety neighbor that yes, they were the ones who had lobbed a baseball through his window. Their expressions were part apprehension, part determination and with a bit of hope mixed in as well. It gave him hope, too. Maybe he wasn’t so alone after all. Haley stepped closer. He didn’t flinch or back away when she reached up to stroke his cheek. The touch was wonderful. Her words even more so.

  “We’re so sorry, Noah. Truly sorry. We never meant to hurt you. You mean too much to both of us.” Leaning forward, she pressed a soft kiss against his lips. “When I’m with you,” she continued in a low, seductive voice, “I think of only you. I love your tongue lapping up my clit. Your cock fills my pussy to perfection.”

  His eyes closed, pictures of what she had said popped into his mind. His cock hardened at the memories. Another kiss landed on his lips, this time with teeth nipping at his flesh. A hand, one too large for Haley, cupped his backside.

  “I love your ass,” a masculine voice growled in his ear. “Seeing it makes me hard. Sliding into it makes me harder.”

  Noah’s cock stiffened inside his jeans even more. A low moan escaped
him before a more rational part of his brain intervened. This was madness. He was angry at them, and they had jobs to do. Opening his eyes, he looked right into Haley’s. Her pupils were dilated, her lids at half-mast. Her lips were parted in invitation. Out of the corner of his eye, Noah glimpsed Sev staring at him.

  “What are you doing?” He managed to push past his own growing arousal. When Haley merely grinned, he turned his head to look at Sev. “What?” he started to say again and was silenced by a swift, hard kiss, his question swallowed up by the other man’s lips. Sev’s tongue invaded Noah’s mouth, stopping all protest. Still, Noah tried to resist the craziness. He brought his hands up to push Sev away and ended up grabbing a fistful of the guy’s shirt and clinging instead. Small, sure fingers cupped his cock and squeezed. He groaned at the dual assault, helpless against it.

  Sev broke off the kiss abruptly and tugged at his hair. “We’re going to fuck you.” His tone brooked no dissent, and the look in his eye was the one Sev used when issuing a command.

  “The mission.” Noah tried for sanity one more time, amazed his head was clear enough for any rational thought given how aroused his body was. “Fucking me hasn’t worked so far. You don’t have time to keep trying.”

  A hand cupped his chin and turned it to the left. Haley shook her head at him. “We’re not doing this for the mission, Noah. We’re doing this because we want you and because it matters to us that you understand how much we want you. As for the mission, that’s for me to worry about. Your job is to lie back and enjoy the ride.”

  Although her tone was softer than Sev’s, she was still giving an order. One of the things Noah could remember was how to follow orders, and the bottom line was he trusted both of these people. “Yes ma’am,” he breathed and closed his eyes, reveling in two sets of hands, one large, one small, caressing his body and stripping him of his clothes.

  Chapter Nine

  Haley breathed a silent sigh of relief at Noah’s acquiescence. Her eyes met Sev’s and saw the same reaction. They hadn’t discussed what they were going to do or how they were going to do it, stopping on their way to Noah’s bedroom only to pick up some lube from Sev’s room. Yet, somehow they knew. It was all about showing this young man how important he was to them. Their own feelings for each other were buried in their common task. While it might have seemed difficult if she had stopped to think about it, Noah’s body, his obvious arousal at their touch, pushed aside everything but him.

  Sev nibbled on one side of Noah’s face, planting kisses along the man’s jaw and worked his way up to the earlobe. There was a flash of white teeth as Sev latched on to the lobe and tugged gently. The sight called up vivid memories for Haley’s body, and her nipples and clit throbbed. Her fingers tightened instinctively on Noah’s cock. He grunted in response. A good start, but not nearly enough. There was too much fabric between them. Dropping to her knees, Haley unfastened the button on his jeans and eased the zipper open. The hard ridge of his arousal forced her to go slowly when all she wanted to do was yank the pants off. When they were open, she hooked her thumbs on the waist of both pants and shorts and slid them down his legs. His cock sprang free and waved hello.

  Sev tugged Noah’s shirt up and over his head and twisted the guy’s naked arms back. He held him steady while Haley pulled the other clothes free of Noah’s legs and bare feet. Now the object of their desire was fully naked, fully aroused and at their mercy. She caught the wicked gleam in Sev’s eyes as he sank his teeth into Noah’s flesh where neck met shoulders. The younger man shuddered. Wetness seeped into the folds between Haley’s legs. How had she never realized how hot the sight of two men together could be? The fact that each of the men was her lover caused her blood to sing in her veins. She had to join the fun or die from longing.

  Noah’s cock stood right in front of her, a feast for the taking. With a greedy mouth, she sucked it down in one swallow. The smooth heat of his flesh slid easily into her throat. With one hand, she clasped his thigh to give herself leverage to suck and lave. With the other, she cupped his tightened balls, her fingers fondling the soft, small globes. Her own body went white hot with desire. Her skin felt too tight. She ached and longed to rub her breasts and clit against his leg. But it wasn’t about her. It was about Noah, only Noah. She could hear Sev murmuring something to the other man. The mere sound of her old lover’s voice kicked her arousal up even more.

  The sight of the woman he loved going down on another man should have made Sev’s blood boil, and it did, but not in the way he would have expected. His cock, already straining painfully against his fly, became harder and pulsed with need. He was holding Noah’s wrists together in back while his other hand tweaked the guy’s nipples into hard nubs. He was sucking and nipping at Noah’s shoulders and neck. To satisfy his own need, he pressed closer to the other man and moaned in pleasure as his hard cock rubbed against Noah’s body. They both shuddered at the contact, and the way the kid’s breath hitched, Sev knew things were going to end too fast if he and Haley didn’t slow their pace a bit.

  Looking down, he saw Noah’s cock disappear once more into the wet, welcoming home of Haley’s luscious mouth. Sev clenched his teeth against the groan fighting to get out. He knew firsthand how great Noah’s cock felt at the moment, and his own cock wanted in on that action. But no, this was about Noah. “Hold up, sugar,” he managed to grind out. “We don’t want him coming too soon.”

  “Fuck you,” the man in question interjected, eyes still closed, a look of pure pleasure on his face.

  Sev nipped his left earlobe. “No, sweetheart, I’m going to fuck you and I don’t want you coming until I’m buried deep inside your fabulous ass.”

  Haley chuckled and, looking down at her once more, he saw she had released Noah. She looked back at him with her wet lips in a wide grin. His heart stopped beating for a second as he fought the urge to drop to his own knees and devour her. Instead, he looked away and said, “Let’s get this guy on the bed.”

  It was difficult to let go of the tension, the fear over the past and the future, of the sense of betrayal, but Noah made himself do it anyway. He concentrated on the way his body felt, the hum of his blood made hot by Haley’s and Sev’s touches. His cock pulsed with need. He let them guide him to the bed and place him in the middle face up. With his eyes still shut, he could see nothing. The lack of sight made the other senses more acute. The sheets were cool and crisp. There was the flowery scent he knew was Haley and the spicier one that meant Sev. They were touching him again with their fingers and their tongues. Oh God, how had he come to be so lucky? Two people loving him with such devotion and tenderness. Reaching out on either side of him, he touched them, too, although it wasn’t the same.

  “Why am I the only one naked?” he murmured.

  “Hmm,” Haley murmured back in his ear. “I suppose we can rectify that.”

  “Absolutely,” was Sev’s amused reply.

  Noah opened his eyes to tiny slits to watch the show. Kneeling beside him, facing each other, his two lovers undressed for him. They didn’t rush to strip, but neither did they linger over it. They were deliberate in their actions, that was it, and each of them watched the other. They were enjoying the show the other one afforded. When Haley removed her shirt, her chest was flushed and her nipples jutted out in hard points. Noah sucked in a breath at the sight of those tempting soft mounds. His fingers clenched reactively, clutching the sheet beneath him. Turning his head, he saw Sev was also bare-chested. The sight of those hard pecs drove him equally wild. He licked his lips, thinking of what he could do to those little brown points.

  Thoughts of breasts and nipples, woman’s and man’s, fled, however, when his lovers bared their bottom halves. Haley’s soft mons beckoned him, yet so did Sev’s large, hardened cock. The triangle between Haley’s thighs glistened with her juices, and the head of Sev’s cock was equally wet with his arousal. Unable to resist the temptation, Noah reached up and cupped Haley, his finger sliding between her slick folds. At the
same time, he clasped Sev’s cock with his other hand and squeezed the hard flesh. They both rewarded him with low moans. But Haley slapped his hand away and Sev pressed his thumb into Noah’s wrist to break Noah’s grip.

  “Ah-ah,” the other man admonished. “We’re here to pleasure you.”

  “Shit,” Noah complained through strained breath. “Touching you is what I want.”

  Haley silenced him with a kiss. Her lips pressed into his and her tongue begged entrance. Her hair covered his chest, tickling his aroused nipples. He wanted to touch her again so badly. She had brought his hand up to rest beside his head, though, and she held it down with a strength he had only guessed at before. Sev held Noah’s other hand down by his waist before starting to lap Noah’s abdomen, tracing a line from navel to pubes. Sev’s clever fingers fondled Noah’s balls at the same time. They had him well and truly trapped, so there was nothing to do but lie back and enjoy.

  His lovers licked and kissed and nipped their way up and down his body from face to nuts. Haley stuck to the top, taking her mouth from his only to press it against his jaw and neck, and to take first one nipple between her lips and suck and then the other. Sev lapped his way down between Noah’s legs, his tongue licking the folds of Noah’s inner thigh. The sensation made Noah jerk his hips. There was a small vibration of air against his sensitive flesh as Sev chuckled at his reaction and the sound didn’t stop even when Sev sucked Noah’s balls into his moist mouth. Noah groaned and bucked at the assault on his body from both ends, and he thought his blood was going to boil over from the torment. He needed his cock into something now! He needed the sweet release. Suddenly it all stopped. He wasn’t being touched at all.