Lindsey, Johanna

by Reckless (lit)

  “Neil, this is incredible. I cannot tell you how happy I am to see that you are alive and well. You must tell me what happened.” She remembered what Gabriel had told her about Neil’s activities in the South Seas. “There have been dreadful rumors.”

  “Have there? I have no doubt they were spread by your new husband. When he learns that he did not succeed in murdering me, he will probably create even more slanderous tales.”

  Phoebe’s mouth went dry. “Are you telling me that Wylde has lied about you? You were not a pirate?”

  “Me? A pirate? How could you believe such a thing about your own true Lancelot?” Neil’s gaze turned very grave. “I am frightened for you, my love.”

  “I am not your love, Neil. I was never your love.” She hesitated. “Why are you frightened for me?”

  “My dearest Phoebe, you have married one of the bloodiest buccaneers who ever sailed the South Seas. The man was the scourge of the shipping routes. He captured my small vessel and looted it. Then he gave every man on board the option of death by the sword or the sea. I chose the sea.”

  “No. I cannot believe that. Neil, you must be mistaken.”

  “I was there. I nearly died. Trust me, my dearest, it is the truth. Every word of it.”

  “What happened to you? How did you survive?”

  “I drifted for days on a bit of wood before washing ashore on an island. I was driven nearly mad from thirst and hunger and the sun. Only the memory of your sweet face kept me clinging to life.”

  “Dear heaven.”

  Neil’s mouth tightened. His hazel eyes glittered briefly with rage. “It took me months to get off that damned rock. And when I finally succeeded in getting to a port town, I had no money. I was ruined when Wylde sank my ship. Everything I had was invested in it. It has taken me all this time to gather sufficient funds to return to England.”

  Phoebe stared at him. “Neil, I don’t know what to say or what to believe. None of this makes any sense. I was told that my father paid you to leave England.”

  “We both know your father was not pleased with our growing friendship,” Neil reminded her gently.

  “Yes, but did he pay you to stay away from me? That is what I want to know.”

  Neil smiled grimly. “An anonymous benefactor paid for my passage to the South Seas. I never learned his name. I assumed it was an old friend who came to my aid. Someone who knew I needed to make my fortune so that I would be worthy of you. Naturally, I seized the opportunity.”

  Phoebe felt dizzy, and not because of the sedate dancing. She tried frantically to deal with the implications of what she was hearing. “I do not understand any of this, Neil.”

  “No, my dearest, I am aware of that. But I understand only too well. Wylde has returned to England with eight years worth of plunder and has set himself up as a respectable member of the Social World.”

  “He was not a pirate,” Phoebe insisted. “I know him too well now to believe that.”

  “Not as well as I do,” Neil said softly. “He has taken from me the only woman I ever wanted to marry.”

  “I’m sorry, Neil, but you know I would never have married you. I told you that eight years ago.”

  “I could have convinced you to love me. Never fear. I am not angry with you. This marriage to Wylde is not your fault. You were led to believe I was dead.”

  “Yes.” There seemed no point informing him yet again that even if she had believed him to be alive, she would not have waited for him. She had never intended to marry him and she had always tried to make that clear to him. She had wanted Neil as a friend, not as a lover or a husband.

  “Like the pirate he is, Wylde has taken everything I valued. My ship, the woman I love, and the one memento I treasured above all others.”

  Phoebe’s eyes widened as a dreadful premonition struck her. “Memento?”

  “He took the book you gave me, my dearest. I saw him steal it that day he boarded my ship. He stripped my cabin bare of all my small valuables and then he found The Lady in the Tower. I was nearly killed trying to prevent him from stealing it. Its loss grieved me more than I can say. It was all I had of you.”

  The niggling sense of guilt that was plaguing Phoebe grew worse. “Neil, I am so confused.”

  “I understand, my love. You have been fed some very finely spun lies and you do not know what to believe. All I ask is that you remember what we once were to each other.”

  A terrifying thought struck Phoebe. “What will you do now, Neil? Are you going to try to get Wylde thrown into prison? Because if so, I must tell you—”

  “No, Phoebe, I will make no effort to see that Wylde meets the fate he deserves, for the simple reason that I can prove nothing. It all happened thousands of miles away and he and I are the only ones who know the truth. It would be my word against his. And he is now an earl. Furthermore, he is as rich as the devil himself and I am nearly penniless. Who do you think the court would believe?”

  “I see.” Phoebe sighed with relief. That was one problem she did not have to worry about at the moment.

  “Phoebe?”

  “Yes, Neil?”

  “I know that you are trapped in this marriage.”

  “I am not exactly trapped,” she muttered.

  “A wife is at the mercy of her husband. And I pity any woman who is at Wylde’s mercy. You are very dear to me and I shall continue to love you for the rest of my days. I want you to know that.”

  Phoebe swallowed. “That is very kind of you, Neil, but you must not pine for me. Truly, you must get on with your life.”

  He smiled. “I will survive, dearest, just as I survived all those days at sea. But it would give me great solace if I could have the book you gave me when I left England.”

  “You want The Lady in the Tower?”

  “It is all I will ever have of you, Phoebe. I assume Wylde brought it back with him along with the rest of his booty?”

  “Well, yes.” Phoebe scowled. “That is to say, he brought it back with him from the South Seas along with his fortune.”

  “The book belongs to you, my love. It is yours to give or withhold. If you have any pity or affection left at all for your devoted Lancelot, I beg you to allow me to keep The Lady in the Tower. I cannot tell you how much it means to me.”

  Panic gripped Phoebe. “Neil, it is very gallant of you to want to keep The Lady in the Tower, but I really do not think I am in a position to give it to you.”

  “I understand. You must be cautious around Wylde. He is an extremely dangerous man. It would be best if you did not tell your husband that I want my keepsake back. There is no knowing what he might do. He hates me.”

  Phoebe frowned. “I would prefer that you not make personal comments about my husband. I do not wish to listen to them.”

  “Of course you don’t. A wife must contrive to believe the best of her husband. It is her duty.”

  “It is not that precisely.” Phoebe was irritated at the mention of wifely duty. “It is only that I cannot bring myself to believe Wylde was a pirate.”

  “Surely you do not believe that I was one?” Neil asked gently.

  “Well, no,” she admitted. “It is very difficult to picture you as a bloodthirsty buccaneer.”

  Neil inclined his head. “Thank you for that much, at least.”

  Phoebe was aware of Gabriel’s presence in the ballroom before she saw him. A strong sense of relief washed through her. But when she turned her head and realized he was striding straight toward her, she had a change of heart.

  She had a horrible feeling there was going to be a dreadful scene.

  Gabriel looked every inch the hawk tonight. His green eyes were as pitiless as any raptor’s. His black evening clothes emphasized the stark lines of his face and the predatory quality of his body. His gaze never left Phoebe and Neil as he approached.

  When Gabriel reached them, he took Phoebe’s hand off Neil’s shoulder and pulled her to his side. His voice was lethally soft as he confronted Neil.
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br />   “So you survived your swim, after all, Baxter.”

  “As you see.” Neil gave a mocking little bow.

  “Take some advice,” Gabriel said. “If you would go on surviving, stay away from my wife.”

  “It seems to me that what happens is up to Phoebe,” Neil said. “Her position is very similar to that of the legendary Guinevere’s, is it not? I believe I find myself playing Lancelot to your Arthur, Wylde. And we all know what happened in that tale. The lady betrayed her lord and gave herself to her lover.”

  Phoebe was outraged at the implication that she would betray Gabriel. “Stop this nonsense at once, both of you. I will not have it.”

  Neither Gabriel nor Neil paid her any heed.

  “Unlike Arthur, I am prepared to protect my lady,” Gabriel said quietly. “Arthur made the mistake of trusting Lancelot. I won’t make that mistake because I have the advantage of already knowing you are a liar, a murderer, and a thief.”

  Neil’s eyes flickered with fury. “Phoebe will realize the truth soon enough. Her heart is pure. Even you could not corrupt her, Wylde.”

  He turned on his heel and walked away.

  Phoebe realized she was holding her breath. When Gabriel made to drag her off the dance floor, she felt her left leg buckle. He caught her instantly.

  “Are you all right?” he demanded.

  “Yes, but I would appreciate it if you would cease hauling me across the room like this, Wylde. People are starting to stare.”

  “Let them stare.”

  Phoebe sighed. He was going to be impossible. “Where are we going?”

  “Home.”

  “Just as well,” Phoebe said. “The evening has certainly been ruined.”

  Chapter 16

  How in bloody hell had Baxter survived? Gabriel wondered. By rights the man should have been dead.

  Gabriel watched Phoebe closely as the carriage rumbled through the crowded streets. He did not have a clue as to what she was thinking. The realization that he did not know how she was reacting to the fact that Baxter was alive alarmed him as nothing else could have done.

  It seemed to Gabriel that he had been doing battle with Baxter’s ghost since the first time he had met Phoebe. Baxter had always been there, hovering in the background. It had been bad enough dealing with Phoebe’s memories of him. Now Gabriel found himself dealing with the man in the flesh. Why couldn’t the bastard have stayed dead?

  Gabriel’s fingers tightened on the carved grip of his walking stick. He was impatient to get Phoebe home, but they were not making swift progress. Elegant lacquered coaches and fancy gigs of all sorts clogged the path. It was nearly midnight and the ton was in full motion, moving from one soiree to another in a frenzy that would not end until dawn.

  It would have been a good deal faster to walk home, but Phoebe was wearing only a pair of satin dancing slippers that would have been cut to ribbons in minutes on the pavement. And, too, there was always the problem of footpads. The streets were not safe, Gabriel reminded himself.

  And neither were the ballrooms.

  Of the two, Gabriel decided, he would have preferred to take his chances on the streets.

  Baxter was supposed to be dead.

  Gabriel eyed Phoebe’s unreadable expression. “What did he say to you?”

  “He did not say very much,” Phoebe said slowly. She was staring out the window. “To be perfectly frank, I had difficulty taking in what he did say. It was such a shock to see him there. I could not believe it.”

  “Phoebe, tell me exactly what he said to you.”

  She turned her head and met his eyes. “He said he was not a pirate.”

  Gabriel glanced down at his hand and saw that he had clenched it into a fist around his walking stick. He forced himself to relax his fingers. “He would deny it, of course.”

  “Yes, I suppose so. What pirate would admit to his villainy?”

  “What else did he say to you?”

  Phoebe caught her lower lip between her teeth. Gabriel was coming to know that expression well. It meant she was thinking. He groaned inwardly. Phoebe was always at her most dangerous when she was thinking. The lady was far too intelligent for her own good and she had an imagination which rivaled his own.

  “He said,” Phoebe murmured, “that you were the scourge of lawful shipping in the islands, not him.”

  Gabriel had known this was coming, but the foreknowledge did nothing to lessen his fury. “Damn the man. Damn him to bloody hell. He is a liar as well as a murderer. You did not believe him, of course.”

  “No, of course not.” Phoebe’s gaze slid away from his. She went back to studying the dark, crowded streets.

  Gabriel’s stomach clenched. It was not like Phoebe to avoid his gaze. He reached out and caught hold of her gloved hand. “Phoebe, look at me.”

  She glanced at him through her lashes, her eyes clearly troubled. “Yes, my lord?”

  “You did not believe him, did you?” Even as he said the words, Gabriel knew they sounded more like a command than a question.

  “No, my lord.” She looked down at her hand, which had been swallowed up in his. “Gabriel, you’re hurting me.”

  He realized he was crushing her fingers. He released her hand reluctantly. He must stay calm and in control. He could not allow emotion to cloud his judgment and influence his actions. There was far too much at stake. He forced himself to lean back in the seat and assume what he hoped was a bored expression.

  “Forgive me, my dear. Baxter’s return from the dead has been unsettling for both of us. The man always was something of an inconvenience.”

  “Gabriel, I must ask you a question.”

  “Yes?”

  “Is there any possibility, any chance at all, that you were perhaps wrong about Neil’s occupation out there in the islands?”

  Goddamn the man. In the space of one waltz he had accomplished a great deal. But then, Baxter had always had a way with women.

  “No,” Gabriel said, willing her to believe him. “Baxter was a damned pirate. There is no question about it.”

  “I was rather hoping there had been some sort of terrible misunderstanding.”

  “If you had seen the bodies of the dead men Baxter left behind when he had finished with his work, you would not suggest there had been a misunderstanding.”

  Phoebe looked stricken. “Dead men?”

  “I regret that you are forcing me to be unpleasantly blunt about this. If you do not wish to hear any more of the details, you must accept what I have told you. Baxter was a cutthroat. Did you think such men went about their business in a gallant fashion?”

  “Well, no, of course not, but—”

  “There is nothing in the least romantic about piracy. It is a bloody business.”

  “I realize that.”

  But he could see the doubt in her eyes. Obviously she could not envision her precious Neil Baxter as a monster. “Phoebe, pay close attention to me, because I do not want to have to repeat this. You are to stay away from Baxter. Do you understand?”

  “I hear you, my lord.”

  “You are to have nothing to do with him.”

  “You make yourself very plain, sir.”

  “The man is a consummate liar. And he hates me. It is perfectly possible he will try to use you in some fashion to avenge himself on me. You heard what he said about playing Lancelot to my Arthur.”

  Phoebe’s eyes flashed with anger. “I am not Guinevere, my lord. I would not betray you with another man, regardless of the circumstances.” Her expression softened. “You can trust me, Gabriel.”

  “I have always found that it is better not to put such delicate things as trust to the test, You are not to go anywhere near Baxter. You will not dance with him again. You will not speak to him. You will not acknowledge his presence in any fashion. Is that clear?”

  Phoebe veiled her eyes with her lashes. “My family once tried to give me similar orders regarding you, Gabriel.”

  He raised his brows.
“And you did not obey them. I am very well aware of that fact. But you will obey me in this. You are my wife.”

  “I may be your wife, but I wish to be treated as an equal. Anyone can tell you I do not respond well to commands.”

  “You will respond to my commands, Phoebe. Or there will be bloody hell to pay.”

  He’d handled her badly.

  Gabriel examined the conversation he’d had with Phoebe over and over again after he dismissed his valet. He poured himself a glass of brandy and began to pace back and forth across his bedchamber.

  The bald truth was that he could not think of any other way that he might have dealt with the matter. He had seen the uncertainty in her eyes. Baxter had put doubts into her mind.

  Gabriel knew he had to keep Phoebe away from Neil Baxter at all costs. The only way to do that was to forbid her to have anything to do with the man she had once thought was her own true Lancelot.

  Unfortunately, Phoebe did not take orders well.

  Gabriel’s groin throbbed with a sudden, fierce need to possess her. He was consumed with a desperate urge to sink himself into her softness. When she gave herself to him in bed, he felt completely certain of her. During that hot, wet time when he was deep inside her, he knew she was his.

  Gabriel stopped pacing and put down the brandy glass. He went to the connecting door and opened it.

  Phoebe’s room was shrouded in darkness. He took a step toward the canopied bed and frowned when he realized she was moving restlessly on the pillows. She was asleep, but she was making tiny little sounds of protest. He could sense the fear in her and knew at once that she was in the grip of another nightmare.

  “Phoebe, wake up.” Gabriel sat down on the edge of the bed, took hold of her shoulders, and shook her gently. “Open your eyes, sweet. You are dreaming again.”

  Phoebe’s lashes fluttered. She came awake with a gasp and levered herself up on her elbows. For an instant her eyes were wild in the shadows. Then she focused slowly on him. “Gabriel?”

  “You’re safe, Phoebe. I’m here. You were having another nightmare.”