Brenner and God sb-7

by Wolf Haas

  “Yes, me,” the doctor answered softly, and got honked at from behind for the crime of not stealing into the intersection while the light was still red.

  Her confession of guilt made Brenner feel completely hopeless. Because one thing you can’t forget: nothing derails a manhunt more effectively than a self-afflicted guilty search party that constantly holds up the investigation with its self-blame.

  Brenner would’ve preferred for her to tell him something about her husband. But the Frau Doctor didn’t have much of a clue about his construction business. That’s often how it is, that you don’t know exactly what kind of business your spouse actually does, main thing, the money’s there, main thing, the villa’s there, main thing, the park’s there, main thing, the yacht’s there, main thing, the staff’s there, main thing, the art’s there, main thing, the charity thing’s there, main thing, the therapist’s there, in other words, the most important things have got to be there, it’s got nothing to do with your own standards, my god, you could live a much more modest life by yourself, you could get by with a smaller villa, with a smaller park full of smaller trees, too, with a smaller yacht, with smaller paintings-and if you must, even with smaller charity things-but for the child it would be a pity indeed to grow up in cramped conditions, and that’s why it’s important for the family estate to be established a far cry from the poverty line. But now I’m talking as fanatically as Knoll, this kind of thinking’s contagious. You’ve got to be careful not to go sympathizing with Knoll all of a sudden just because he landed in the cesspit of a Construction Lion.

  For a second there Brenner thought, the Frau Doctor knows what happened to Knoll, and she wants to tell me. He asked her very cautiously whether she believed there was a connection between her law violation and the kidnapping, and the Frau Doctor, completely calm and matter-of-fact, said, “I don’t know. In my situation, you believe everything could be connected with it.”

  “We’ve all broken the law at some point,” Brenner said, purely out of discomfort.

  But he was already thinking that she probably wasn’t talking about driving too fast, parking illegally, listening to loud music after midnight, vacuuming on a Sunday, or walking off with a pretty sweater from a boutique back when she was a med student.

  “Terminating the pregnancy of a twelve-year-old girl.”

  “Is that illegal?” Brenner asked, in an effort to cover up his relief that she wasn’t mixed up in Knoll’s murder.

  “It depends.”

  “You probably did it for the child.”

  Already you can see how Brenner’s bad conscience had put him more on the side of the doctor than on the side of the law. Or not just a bad conscience, but sheer masculine sympathy for the doctor, too. And from a professional standpoint, it’s always better with confessions to give the confessor a good feeling. “Confession comes from comprehension”-they hammered that one right into him at the police academy, i.e., interrogation rule number one, if force doesn’t do anything.

  The doctor gave him a look that made it clear she would refuse any and all excuses. Some people are so incredibly stubborn, they want the kind of guilt that they can hang on to and never let go.

  “I meant to say, you must have done it for the twelve-year-old girl,” Brenner explained. Because suddenly it occurred to him that his remark-that she’d done it for the child-might have come out wrong, that maybe the Frau Doctor had thought he meant that she’d done it for the aborted child; that possibly, purely out of self-flagellation, she’d thought Brenner had referred to the aborted gnat as a “child.”

  “The girl was poor,” the Frau Doctor said. “At first she didn’t tell anyone she was pregnant, and then it was too late. But I wasn’t supposed to do it. Not anymore by that point. And not before, either. Not without reporting it.”

  They were coming back around now to where they’d first turned onto the Ring. And on this second lap around, the whole thing seemed like a hand over situation to Brenner, where the kidnapper demands, drive around the Ring until you receive the next instruction, i.e., a tactic to wear you down. And maybe that’s why you see so many cars here, day and night, driving in circles, because everybody’s waiting for their kidnapper’s next instruction.

  “I don’t want to justify it to myself, either, that there are countries where it’s legal.” The doctor’s voice snapped him out of his thoughts.

  “On the other hand,” Brenner said, because the Frau Doctor looked so crestfallen that all he wanted to do now was console her.

  “On what other hand?”

  “On the other hand”-it’s always bad to begin a sentence with “on the other hand” when you don’t know what you want to say after that-“it wouldn’t have done anybody any good if the abortion had waited any longer,” Brenner stammered. “How many months along was she when she came to you?”

  “We calculate in weeks, not months.”

  That was her entire answer.

  “Got it. There used to be a saying: ten months but no cash on delivery.”

  Brenner thought he could lighten up the mood a little, but the doctor hardened at his remark, and it wouldn’t have surprised him if she’d driven straight to the Hotel Imperial.

  “I just meant,” Brenner said, “if they were that poor. Twelve years old and life already screwed up. You’ve got to help. You can’t just force morality about becoming a mother on a child like that. Women used to die because of illegal abortions!”

  “I didn’t come to you for consolation,” she interrupted him. “My problem is that I can’t tell the police. I was even prepared to. But my husband’s convinced that this is exactly what Knoll set out to accomplish.”

  “Knoll knew about it?”

  Brenner was starting to feel like he was riding a merry-go-round as the palaces along the Ringstrasse went past him again, the Opera, the Hofburg Palace, the Parliament, the Burgtheater, and down to the Mint again, to the Ring Tower, around and around in circles. Or a few laps around the Lilliput Rail, but for some reason, instead of trees they passed buildings, and for some reason instead of Helena, it was her mother who sat beside him, and for some reason instead of being happy he was-how shall I put it-devastated would be an exaggeration; more like numb.

  “My husband turned to Reinhard, and Reinhard advised Knoll not to use his evidence. Or else he’d call his loan due. We’d looked it up in the Land Registry-which bank Knoll was keeping the money in that he’d bought up the other units in the building with.”

  Defense Ministry, Museum of Applied Arts, City Park, Schwarzenberg Square, Opera.

  “I’ve wished ever since that he wouldn’t have let himself get cowed by Reinhard. Then that maniac wouldn’t have taken my child away from me.”

  Brenner shot her a look like she was only telling him half the truth. But he couldn’t very well call her on it. He wasn’t telling her everything, either; quite the contrary, he even asked her now whether she’d heard anything from Knoll in the meantime, i.e. intentional misrepresentation.

  “You know what I think?” she said, while they were stopped at a red light at the Schottentor for the fourth time. “Knoll is calmly waiting for me to go to the police myself with this story about having illegally terminated the pregnancy. Then I’ll be ruined professionally, and he’ll send Helena back to me.” Her voice faltered for a moment, but she kept impressive self-control-not even half a tear. “And he’s accomplished everything without making himself known. He’ll be rid of me without ever making contact with me.”

  “It really wouldn’t have been badly orchestrated,” Brenner had to admit. “But most of the time criminals aren’t thinking about it from so many angles.” He couldn’t exactly tell her that Knoll was dead. Drowned in the cesspit behind her own house.

  Instead he just pulled out the photo that Knoll had given him. “Was this your underage patient?”

  The Frau Doctor looked at Brenner as if he were Knoll himself.

  “Do you know where she lives?” Brenner asked smoothly. />
  “Where did you get that photo?”

  Brenner shook his head. “Surely you have her address somewhere.”

  “You really don’t get it! I don’t want you to find this girl. This isn’t about her.”

  “So where does she live?”

  Approximately one centimeter before a jingling streetcar crossed the tracks, the doctor yanked on the steering wheel and came to a stop at an empty taxi stand in the adjacent lane. She gave Brenner a look as if to say, the entire conversation had just been sadistic foreplay leading up to this second when she was going to eat him alive, the man who’d managed to misplace her child.

  “I get it, you don’t want to put your patient in a difficult position. That it’s purely about Knoll for you. But the direct route doesn’t always get you anywhere,” Brenner explained to her, and shocked himself by how consistent this was with the truth according to Knoll. “Often it’s only through the detours. Our professions aren’t so different on this score. Doctors ask, too, whether you have cold toes at night when you go to them because of a headache. And those are opposite ends of the body.”

  “Which you don’t know everything about.”

  “That the head’s on the opposite end of the body than the toes, even non-doctors know that.”

  But the next moment nearly saw Brenner and the Frau Doctor become Vienna’s latest criminal case. Because a furious taxi driver pounded on the windshield, and if Brenner hadn’t immediately locked the doors from the passenger seat, everything would have been over, guaranteed. He suddenly had an inkling of what Knoll’s last seconds must have been like, because unfortunately the passenger-side window was open a crack, and the atmosphere inside the car changed because of the killer cabbie, as if the entire car were sinking into a cesspit.

  Interesting, though: the attack was good for the conversation, because as they drove off in a hurry, their conversation popped back into gear.

  “I don’t know the girl’s address. I don’t keep any records of my crimes.”

  “And she doesn’t have a name, either?”

  “I only really know her first name. And even that she told me in an immigrant’s Viennese. How the kids talk who are born here but speak another language at home.”

  “Oida! Oida! Oida! Oida! Go shit I say!” Brenner thought he could impress the Frau Doctor with how well he could imitate this throat malady. Maybe elicit a small smile in the midst of a desperate situation.

  “You do that very well,” she said, but not with a smile; no, so coolly that despite the 77-degree weather, the windshield-washing fluid would’ve frozen, guaranteed, had he not just refilled the antifreeze a few days ago. Under better circumstances an even wittier reply would have come to him. But stricken as he was, he only heard hurtfulness in her remark. He only detected from it that she counted him among them, her staff; that he was the sort who, right from the outset, never had a chance in his life with someone like the Frau Doctor, because of education, because of age, because of manners, because of language, because of money, because of everything.

  “And her first name was probably fake, too,” she continued. One thing you can’t forget: for her, the remark had been no big deal. She really did have other concerns. “Maybe it was just a nickname: Sunny.”

  “Probably short for Susanna,” Brenner said, because he couldn’t help but think of the Susanna who’d once won the grand prize at the Linzer police department’s Christmas raffle, believe it or not, a ski weekend in Hintersoder for two, and no one was allowed to call her Susi-only Sunny.

  “Short for Susanna,” the doctor replied, “I don’t think so. Susanna isn’t a particularly common name among immigrant girls. I think it’s more likely English.”

  And Brenner, with particularly good pronunciation, “The sunny side of the street.” Not sung, of course, just spoken.

  “Sunny side,” the doctor repeated pensively, as though she had to think about what it could possibly mean.

  “I once paid for a young woman’s abortion, too,” Brenner began, hoping that with this story he’d get somewhere with the Frau Doctor yet. “In my police academy days. Her name was Hansi, short for Johanna.”

  “Aha.”

  “It was still illegal at the time, so she drove all the way to Amsterdam. I paid for all of it. Train, hotel, abortion.”

  “And you went with her?”

  “No, I didn’t have enough money. Two train tickets, then staying overnight, plus meals on top of that. But in hindsight I have to say, it would’ve been cheaper if I had gone. Because she changed her mind in Amsterdam.”

  “She discovered herself with drugs instead.”

  “Not drugs, exactly-hashish. And after a fun week she returned without the abortion.”

  “So you’re a father?”

  “Was.”

  The doctor looked at him with utter sympathy, and Brenner saw the old Frau Doctor in her again, the one who was always personable and friendly.

  “Two years she let me pay alimony, but then the finance director in Graz married her. She was the type that men chased after. Although to be honest, I have to say, I only liked her from the side. But the finance director took her nonetheless.”

  “Maybe he liked her from the front, too.”

  “No, I meant he married her in spite of the kid. And after the wedding she admitted that the child hadn’t been mine at all, but another classmate’s from the police academy. He probably paid for the abortion, too. But the alimony, only me, because my classmate died on the Matterhorn before the child was born.”

  Seventy-four hours after her daughter’s disappearance, the Frau Doctor began to cry because of this story. Brenner apologized for mentioning his classmate’s death. But she said it was okay, her nerves were just fried, and really she should be the one to apologize for burdening him with her story. And you see, that’s another similarity between the medical profession and the detective profession. Because just like patients will often change their minds in the waiting room, my tooth doesn’t hurt after all, so too did Helena’s mother lose her courage, and instead of wanting any more help from Brenner, she just wanted to be rid of him as soon as possible.

  Brenner felt so sorry for her that up until the moment when he got out of the car, he’d been considering whether to betray every shred of common detective sense and tell her that Knoll was dead. And you see, that was exactly the wrong question. Because really he should have been asking himself why her voice changed so suddenly, why she revoked her trust in him when he told her the story about the police academy. If he’d just tugged on these flimsy strings, the entire solution probably would have presented itself, and five people wouldn’t have had to die.

  But maybe the time simply wasn’t ripe yet, seventy-four hours after the disappearance. Because one thing you can’t forget: the Zone of Transparency doesn’t tear open until the fifth day, i.e., one hundred hours, at the very earliest.

  CHAPTER 15

  Between the seventy-fourth and the eighty-eighth hours, Brenner did some first-rate investigative work that was never fully appreciated afterward. It all got overshadowed by the next day’s madness. Obviously, with a development like this, the detail work gets lost. The carpenter can’t bid personal farewell to every wood shaving with a thank-you speech for the top-notch collaboration, and once a crime really gets escalating, when a murder is paid a visit by its little children, the subsequent murders, then a detective can’t be praised for everything that he did right.

  But because everyone glossed right over it, I’d like to at least touch on it briefly. I have to say, it was brilliant how Brenner spearheaded the search for the Yugo-girl. For Sunny. He achieved peak detective form there, and there’s only one thing to be said: hats off.

  I don’t get it either. It’s a sign of our times that nobody properly appreciates these things anymore. The clean detective work, the police procedural, the craftsman’s skill, none of it has any worth today. Even Brenner himself didn’t think anything of it, or didn’t look back proudly
on it later. Because it is what it is, and what it is is his job. And I can understand it somehow, too, how he didn’t pat himself on the back; how, even though he was exhausted from his encounter with the Frau Doctor, he still managed to drum up the only people who could get him in the door of the Yugo-scene. And how he tracked down Milan, freshly fired from the gas station, home in front of the TV, and sent him through the Yugo-disco circuit with Sunny’s photo. Milan was thrilled about his new assignment. The only touchy subject was when Brenner asked whether he could maybe get hold of a gun. Brenner hadn’t meant any offense, along the lines of, anyone who sells beer out the backdoor can get hold of a gun, too. He just didn’t feel completely at ease anymore since he’d discovered Knoll. But that was also the only mistake he made that day, everything else first-rate.

  For Brenner, things were going exactly like they would for everyone else afterward, which is a way of saying, what happened to him would radiate out to everyone else that night. But we haven’t gotten nearly that far yet. Because seventy-seven hours after Helena’s disappearance he hired Milan, and seventy-eight hours after Helena’s disappearance he already had two liters of weak Schrebergarten coffee in his stomach, half a kilo of powdered sugar in his blood, and twenty Schrebergarten scandals in his thick skull. Among them, though, was the explanation for why Knoll had bought the cottage. Believe it or not, his attorney had filed a neighbor’s injunction against the MegaLand project-in other words, immediate halt to the construction.

  Eighty hours after Helena’s disappearance, Brenner picked up pills for his headache at the drugstore, and as soon as they started working a little, not quite eighty-one hours after Helena’s disappearance, he called Kressdorf and disguised his voice, posing as a journalist who was hoping to find something out about MegaLand’s halted construction. Interesting, though: Kressdorf wasn’t impressed one bit and was even quite confident that the injunction wouldn’t hold for long.

  He didn’t get anything more out of Kressdorf, and I have to say, it’s for the best. Because otherwise maybe Brenner wouldn’t have wrung from his frustration the courage to call Natalie, too. And he really did learn something from Natalie. Or better put, from the truth written in flames. But for now, pay attention.