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by Lorine Niedecker


  So this was I

  in my framed

  young aloofness

  unsuspecting

  what I filled

  eager to remain

  a smooth blonde cool

  effect of light

  an undiffused good take,

  a girl

  who couldn't bake

  How I wish

  I had someone to give

  this pretty thing to

  who'd keep it—

  something of me

  would shape

  Am I real way out in space

  asked Paul, then you see—

  they rave to me of contests.

  Compete, they say—my violin—

  with tap-dance-acrobatics.

  The winner plays the floor

  with his feet.

  On a row of cabins

  next my home

  Instead of shaded here

  birds flying through leaves

  I face this loud uncovering

  of griefs.

  What irony that I

  with views verdant like the folk

  should be the one

  to go.

  In moonlight lies

  the river passing—

  it's not quiet

  and it's not laughing.

  I'm not young

  and I'm not free

  but I've a house of my own

  by a willow tree.

  The cabin door flew open

  the woman fell out

  it is not known whether

  she fell on land or sea

  the man's grave

  grave face

  who were they

  undoubtedly they knew tender moments

  between sex and well-dressed courtesy—

  men are tender with women

  not passion-violent

  when they are happy in general

  and she-impossible to be grateful

  without showing it

  before the earth fell away

  that they went out on Sunday to see.

  The elegant office girl

  is power-rigged.

  She carries her nylon hard-pointed

  breast uplift

  like parachutes

  half-pulled.

  At night collapse occurs

  among new flowered rugs

  replacing last year's plain,

  muskrat stole,

  parakeets

  and deep-freeze pie.

  When brown folk lived a distance

  from my cottages my hand full of lilies

  went out to them

  from potted progressive principles.

  Now no one of my own hue will rent.

  I'll lose my horticultural bent.

  I'll lose more—how dark

  if to fight to keep my livelihood

  is to bleach brotherhood.

  For Paul and Other Poems

  FOR PAUL

  Paul

  now six years old:

  this book of birds I loved

  I give to you.

  I thought now maybe Paul

  growing taller than cattails

  around Duck Pond

  between the river and the Sound

  will keep this book intact,

  fly back to it each summer

  maybe Paul

  What bird would light

  in a moving tree

  the tree I carry

  for privacy?

  Down in the grass

  the question's inept;

  sora's eyes…

  stillness steps.

  Nearly landless and on the way to water

  I push thru marsh.

  I lost a view…I saw

  (and proceed in depth in place of lateral range)

  the child with bigger, stiller eyes than sora's.

  Homer's wandering thru hell.

  And we can't afford to hire him.

  He loses ground building cabins—

  outdoor knickknacks—that block a view.

  He himself and his wife demand more elephants

  on glass shelves than we have books.

  In summer silence moves.

  Fall pheasants' cry:

  rifle shells-in-tin-box-rattle,

  over us wax-leaf poplars shine and shudder

  as my mother,

  continue after the mind is blown.

  Understand me, dead is nothing

  whereas here we want each other,

  silence, time to be alone

  and Paul's growing up—

  baseball, jabber, running off to neighbors

  and back into the Iliad—“do you really believe

  there were gods, all that hooey?”

  And his violin—improvising

  made a Vivaldi sequence his,

  better than I could have done with poetry

  at twice his age…

  so writes your father, L. before P.

  A start in life for Paul.

  The efforts of a life

  hold together as Einstein's

  and lead to expectations of form.

  To know, to love…if we knew nothing,

  Baruch the blessed said, would we exist?

  For Paul then at six and a half

  a half scholarship—

  turn the radio dead—

  tho your teacher's gone back to Italy

  stumped by American capital.

  In my mind, the child said,

  are rondeau-gavottes 1 to 11,

  here is number 12.

  How bright you'll find young people,

  Diddle,

  and how unkind.

  When a boy appears with a book

  they cry “Who's the young Einsteind?”

  Einstein, you know, said space

  is what it's made up of.

  And as to the human race

  “Why do you deeply oppose its passing”

  you'll find men asking

  the man with the nebular hair

  and the fiddle.

  If he is of constant depth

  if he has the feeling—

  numbers plus their good

  by the time he's twelve

  I want that chord, he cries,

  and the sun and moon and stars

  so what…

  boy, are you Greek

  without the Wisecrack god

  The young ones go away to school

  come home to moon

  like Frederick the Great

  what was it he ate

  that had to be sown

  in the dark of the moon

  Isn't it funny

  people run their acres without a hat

  figuring rain in the next moon change

  while you on a stool

  at numbers in a heavenly scale

  know the moon changes

  night and noon

  Some have chimes

  three long things

  as you come in.

  They smile

  and give you lettuce

  because you've brought

  your violin.

  O Tannenbaum

  the children sing

  round and round

  one child sings out:

  atomic bomb

  Not all

  is check-writing

  but as the queen, Elizabeth,

  beside the barge that night

  “Longing

  to listen…

  Muzik is a nobl art”

  In the great snowfall before the bomb

  colored yule tree lights

  windows, the only glow for contemplation

  along this road

  I worked the print shop

  right down among em

  the folk from whom all poetry flows

  and dreadfully much else.

  I was Blondie

  I carried my bundles of hog feeder price lists

  down by Larry the Lug,

  I'd never get anywh
ere

  because I'd never had suction,

  pull, you know, favor, drag,

  well-oiled protection.

  I heard their rehashed radio barbs—

  more barbarous among hirelings

  as higher-ups grow more corrupt.

  But what vitality! The women hold jobs—

  clean house, cook, raise children, bowl

  and go to church.

  What would they say if they knew

  I sit for two months on six lines

  of poetry?

  Not all that's heard is music. We leave

  an air that for awhile was good, white cottage,

  spruce…What if the sky is gone and they hold

  the hill armed with tin cans—they're not bad kids—

  you have the world. Remember the little

  lovely notes “the little O, the earth.”

  This thing is old and singing's new—you

  just more full. Come, we'll sit without birds

  between city bricks. See! The sun hits.

  Tell me a story about the war.

  All right, six lines, no child should hear more.

  The marshal of France made quite a clatter:

  Dear people, I know you're too hungry to flatter

  but eat your beef-ounce from a doll's platter,

  you'll think it's a roast wrapped in a batter.

  Along came the bishop his robe a tatter:

  Sleep and it won't matter.

  Laval, Pomeret, Pétain

  all three came to an end.

  Bourdet, Bonnet, Deladier

  so did they.

  They tried each other

  they sold out their brother

  the people of France.

  Let's practice your dance.

  Thure Kumlien

  Bigwigs wrote from Boston: Thure,

  we must know about the sandhill crane,

  is it ever white with you

  and how many eggs can you obtain?

  For Thure the solitary tattler

  opened a door

  to learned birds with their latest books

  who walked New England's shore.

  One day by the old turnpike still crossing

  the marsh, down in the ditch

  he found a new aster—to it he gave

  his name as tho he were rich.

  Shut up in woods

  he made knives and forks

  fumbled English gently:

  Now is March gone

  and I have much undone

  It would be good

  to hear the birds

  along this shore intently

  without song of gun

  Your father to me in your eighth summer:

  “Any fool can look up a term,

  it's the beat and off beat, the leg lifted

  or thudded that counts.”

  And “Now that I'm involved in two houses

  each one a system, I realize

  the less one has the richer one is

  if one could sit in one spot

  and write.

  Paul's playing ‘Handle.’

  His eyes are clear in this air,

  he sees what few others can,

  the lawn is mown,

  we're here till we go.”

  To Paul now old enough to read:

  Once a farmer, Crèvecoeur

  tried to save his heart

  from too much hurt.

  Hero of vegetables,

  hero of good

  he learned to know every plant

  in his neighborhood.

  He loved Nantucket, grazing land

  held in common.

  Here one lawyer only found

  the means to go on.

  Green, prickly humanity—

  men are plants whose goodness grows

  out of the soil, Mr. Stinkweed

  or Mrs. Rose.

  …

  Read Crèvecoeur and learn fast—

  the firefly, two pairs of wings

  and a third to read by

  disappearing.

  What horror to awake at night

  and in the dimness see the light.

  Time is white

  mosquitoes bite

  I've spent my life on nothing.

  The thought that stings. How are you, Nothing,

  sitting around with Something's wife.

  Buzz and burn

  is all I learn

  I've spent my life on nothing.

  I'm pillowed and padded, pale and puffing

  lifting household stuffing—

  carpets, dishes

  benches, fishes

  I've spent my life in nothing.

  Sorrow moves in wide waves,

  it passes, lets us be.

  It uses us, we use it,

  it's blind while we see.

  Consciousness is illimitable,

  too good to forsake

  tho what we feel be misery

  and we know will break.

  Jesse James and his brother Frank

  raided, robbed and rode away.

  Said Frank to the rising Teddy R:

  You're my type, you're okay.

  Once on his way to a Shakespeare play

  Frank was almost caught.

  The gunnin Jameses and the writn Jameses—

  two were taught and all were sought.

  No killers were Frank and Jesse James,

  they was drove to it. Their folks was proud.

  Let no one imagine they were bad as kids—

  brought up gentle in a bushwhack crowd.

  …

  May you have lumps in your mashed potatoes

  Henry and Wm. cried

  to those who stood up to them in argument

  and their words haven't died.

  Don't melt too much into the universe

  but be as solid and dense and fixed

  as you can. This what Henry and Wm.

  said in the evening after 6:00.

  Old Mother turns blue and from us,

  “Don't let my head drop to the earth.

  I'm blind and deaf.” Death from the heart,

  a thimble in her purse.

  “It's a long day since last night.

  Give me space. I need

  floors. Wash the floors, Lorine!—

  wash clothes! Weed!”

  I hear the weather

  through the house

  or is it breathing

  mother

  Dead

  she now lay deaf to death

  She could have grown a good rutabaga

  in the burial ground

  and how she'd have loved these woods

  One of her pallbearers said I

  like a dumfool followed a deer

  wanted to see her jump a fence—

  never'd seen a deer jump a fence

  pretty thing

  the way she runs

  Can knowledge be conveyed that isn't felt?

  But if transport's the problem—

  they tell me get a job and earn yourself

  an automobile—I'd rather collect my parts

  as I go: chair, desk, house

  and crankshaft Shakespeare.

  Generator boy, Paul, love is carried

  if it's held.

  Ten o'clock

  and Paul's not in bed!

  He's reading Twelfth Night

  all Viola said.

  Drink to three, the family

  around the bathroom tap.

  Little Paul—Corelli,

  what's that?—belly!

  Wash and say good night

  to variants and quarto texts,

  emendations, close relations.

  Let me hear good night.

  Adirondack Summer

  If he's not peewee wafted

  tiny glissando

  in deep shade

  or a newspaper

  he'll attack exercises ever calculated

  to floa
t the ear in beauty.

  The slip of a girl-announcer:

  Now we hear

  Baxtacota in D Minor

  played by a boy who's terrific.

  This saxy Age.

  Bach, you see, is in Dakota

  but don't belittle her,

  she'll take you where you want to go ta.

  Now go to the party,

  Master Paul Kung.

  Wear your mother's ancient

  imitation silk black dress,

  whisk brush for beard,

  your bathrobe's braid-tie

  hung safety-pinned from Eton cap

  turned front to back,

  shoe string side burns

  to hold the beard.

  What you don't know,

  that even yet

  players come dressed with shields

  and spears.

  Dear Paul:

  the sheets of your father's book of poetry

  are bound for England.

  At last, after the hardships

  he can say “take back to your ship

  a gift from me,

  something precious, a real good thing…

  such as a friend gives to a friend.”

  You ask what kind of boats in my country

  on my little river.

  Black as those beside Troy,

  but sailless tar-preserve-black fish barges

  and orange and Chinese-red rowboats

  in which the three virtues

  knowledge, humanity, energy

  Sometimes ride.

  All children begin with the life of the mind—

  if there were no marsh or stream

  imagine it

  99 children go into business

  selling angleworms,

  the hundredth develops free fingers in John Sebastian Brook.

  “Paul's playing ‘Handle.’

  His eyes are clear in this air,

  he sees what few others can,

  the lawn is mown,

 

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