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The Haven

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by Suzanne Woods Fisher


  He let his mind do a rapid rewind, racing backward. He hadn’t meant to get sucked into an invitation to church, but Fern caught him off guard. He had been feeling pleased with himself for being so useful as a baby calmer-downer and, suddenly, wham! She asked him what church he planned to attend while he was staying on the property. When he gave her a blank look, wham! She told him he could come with them and to be ready at 7:00 a.m. Sharp.

  He thought he was smarter than these only-up-to-an-eighth-grade-education Amish. Ha! Pride goeth before a fall. It was one of those proverbs that his father told him, a few thousand times. And boy oh boy, was he ever falling a lot lately.

  A month ago, Will had just received an acceptance to University of Pennsylvania’s medical school—the same place where his father was a teaching professor and had a practice at the university hospital. Will was within a few short months of graduating from college. His future looked bright. It was all going according to plan.

  Then it all fell apart. Whoosh! One fell swoop.

  Two weeks ago, Will had been tinkering around on his computer with Sean, one of his fraternity friends, and hacked into the college’s registrar site. Sean was delighted—he quickly got into his files and improved his recorded grades. Will didn’t touch his own file, but then again, he didn’t need to. He was a straight-A student. He was going to graduate at the top of his class.

  It didn’t take long for someone in the registrar’s office to get suspicious when Sean, a C student, normally teetering on academic probation, asked for his transcript to be sent to Harvard to accompany his application for law school. Sean was called in for questioning, cracked immediately, and sent them off in Will’s direction.

  Will had been suspended for the semester and lost his acceptance to medical school. Something about ethics. Something about making Will an example to others.

  Will had tried to explain it all to his father, but he wouldn’t listen to any excuses. His father had always felt Will didn’t think before he acted and that was hard to deny. But in this particular case, Will didn’t do anything wrong. Sean did. But Will had never been able to win any kind of dispute with his father. Dr. Stoltz owned the truth, pure and simple.

  Then his father told him that he had already made plans for Will’s spring and summer, that Will needed to learn how to work—to work hard, to fully appreciate the opportunity he had blown. His car would be sold, his monthly allowance cut off. Will was going to be an intern for a game warden in Lancaster County. If Will didn’t mess up, then his father might consider paying for that final semester of college so that he could at least graduate and get back on track.

  Whose track? Will wanted to shout, but he held back. Even he wasn’t that big of a fool as to back talk his father. You didn’t do that. No one did.

  Still, Will was so outraged by his father’s controlling demands that he stormed out of the house. He would move away, get a job, and figure out the rest of his life without a penny from his father! He sought out his fraternity friends for consolation. He spent the evening drinking away his woes with them, and ended the night with an unexpected twist: a brake light on his car was out—the very car his father was going to take back to the dealer in the morning— and he was pulled over by a police officer. Just a routine check, the officer said, but then he sniffed the air and asked if Will had been drinking any alcohol that evening. Will spent the next few hours drying out in the bowels of a Philadelphia lockup. By dawn, Will had made two decisions: one, he was not going to let his father know about this DUI, no matter what it would take. And two, he was going to spend the next few months interning for the game warden.

  But he never expected this. To be plunked in the middle of an Amish farm. No car. No money. No television. No internet access. Not even a radio. He did have his cell phone, but he had to stand in certain high spots on the farm to get reception.

  He gazed around the farm. He was sure the game warden had told his father about this latest development by now. Will could just imagine the delight on his father’s face. And what would he do if he learned that Will was plowing fields? Even better . . . he was spreading them with manure! His father would break out a bottle of his finest champagne. He would dance a jig.

  Will wanted to quit this ridiculous bird-sitting/field-hand job. He could. There was just that sticky little problem with the law that he needed to keep under his father’s radar. He had two options: he could quit, but then he would have to face his father. Or he could stay, but he’d have to figure out how to actually do the job. Like, how to plow a field. And go to an Amish church service.

  Hard to say which option was more frightening.

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  The hymn ended on a long note, the voices echoing from the rafters. Then, with a wave of his hand, the Vorsinger brought the singing to an end. Sadie drew a deep breath and sat down, hoping Joe-Jo would sleep through the service. She glanced across the large kitchen to catch sight of Will. He was seated next to Amos, about midway among the men’s benches. He squirmed on the hard, backless bench. Their eyes met, and he silently mouthed, “How long does this last?”

  “Three,” she mouthed back.

  He couldn’t understand her so she held up three fingers.

  His eyes widened in alarm. “Three hours?” he mouthed.

  She gave a slight nod of her head, just as Fern jabbed her in the side with her pointy elbow.

  From her other side, M.K. jabbed her. “Don’t look now, but Gid’s watching you.”

  Of course, Sadie’s gaze shifted immediately to Gid. He was squinting at her as if he wondered what was going on in her head. Could he tell? She had no idea. Her thoughts and emotions were all over the map, like they didn’t know where to land.

  He had a look on his face that touched her. It was so sweet and so sad and so filled with love. She melted like butter. Then she stopped herself. Don’t you go soft on him, Sadie Lapp, she told herself. He’s the one who believes the lies about me. She turned her head and lifted her chin, a silent signal to him that she was still upset. She knew Gid was sensitive enough that he would feel her emotion, as real as if she had shouted.

  Sadie sensed, more than saw, an icy glare aimed in her direction. Out of the corner of her eye, Esther, the deacon’s wife, was watching her. With her salt-and-pepper hair and delicate features, Esther could have been pretty, but there was something off about her. Her mouth, Sadie decided. She looked like she’d just spit out something that tasted awful.

  The baby let out a yawn. One eye was open in a squint, like a pirate, as if he was halfway in between waking and sleeping. That worried Sadie and she shifted him in her lap, which caused both of his eyes to pop open.

  Fern glanced at the baby, then at Sadie. “If he starts his yammering, take him outside.”

  “Can’t you do it?” Sadie whispered.

  “No,” Fern said, her eyes fixed on Ruthie’s father, the new minister, who had just stood up to preach after a long and quiet interchange among the ministers and bishop as to who would begin.

  Joe-Jo let out a squeak and Sadie sighed. Ruthie’s father took his new responsibilities very seriously, especially preaching. In just a few months, he was getting a reputation of being the most long-winded, dry-boned preacher Stoney Ridge had ever heard.

  Sadie turned to M.K. “Will you take a turn with the baby?”

  “Not a chance,” M.K. whispered. “Babies don’t like me.”

  The baby’s face turned red as he started to strain. Oh no. This was worse than Sadie had feared. Sure enough, Joe-Jo’s lower regions emitted a horrible gurgling sound, then a sour tangy odor wafted around her. The women in the bench in front of Sadie turned back to look at her as if they had never heard a baby make such noises. M.K. pinched her nose. Worse still, the baby let out a howl. Once, then twice.

  Sadie jumped up and scurried out the side door with him, then rushed to the barn, far from the house so the baby wouldn’t disturb the service. Inside, she plunked down on a bench against a wall. Sadie searched the barn. A
row of cows munched contentedly from hay boxes, and a bird peeked over the edge of a nest snug against the rafters. Other than that, the barn was empty.

  As she was rooting through the makeshift diaper bag to find a fresh diaper, she heard a door slam shut. She leaned forward on the bench and looked out through the open barn door. Will strode down the porch steps that led out into the sunshiny yard and straight toward her. A cat trotted ahead of him, tail sticking up as straight as a poker. The cat glanced back now and then as if to make sure he was still following. Sadie couldn’t help but smile.

  Will came into the barn and blinked rapidly as his eyes adjusted to the cool, dim light. He grinned broadly when he spotted Sadie, snatching off his hat to reveal a thick thatch of sun-streaked hair. “Thought you might need some help quieting the baby,” he said cheerfully. “Is the goat’s milk helping with his colic?”

  “I think so,” Sadie said. She felt her cheeks start to pink up and tried to will them to stop. She glanced over at the farmhouse, hoping that no one in the house could look out the window and see them. “He hasn’t had a big crying jag since yesterday morning.”

  He patted the gray mare that stuck her head over the stall for affection. “Is this service really going to last three hours?”

  She nodded. “Fern should have warned you.”

  Will grinned. “I have a feeling she intentionally kept that to herself.”

  No doubt, Sadie thought. Fern seemed to have taken an instant disliking to Will, and Sadie wasn’t sure why.

  “And it’s all in that language?”

  “Two languages, really. The preachers preach in Penn Dutch, but when they quote Scripture, it’s in High German.”

  “So you’re fluent in three languages?” He let out a whistle. “I can barely manage English.”

  She smiled. “All the Amish know three languages.” She put a blanket down on the bench and placed the baby on top to start the preparations to change his diaper. She hoped Will would take the hint and go back to the farmhouse before someone noticed them.

  He didn’t. He sat across from her on a hay bale and stretched one long leg. “Sure is a beautiful day. I’d just as soon pay my respects to the Almighty outside than in a stuffy house.” He grinned at her. “Did you see that mouse scurry along the walls? My mother would have screamed to high heaven if she saw that.” He started in on a rambling story about going to church as a child, and at some point Sadie stopped listening and just started to change the baby’s diaper. If the smell and sight didn’t bother him, then she wouldn’t let it worry her. She was rattled enough by the presence of Will. She knew she shouldn’t pass more time with him, especially here, at Sunday church.

  They’d scarcely met, yet she felt . . . tingly. Confused. Undeniably impressed by his strong presence and protective ways. His thoughtfulness. And, she admitted, his deep voice and warm looks disturbed her in a thrilling way. Was this how it started? You fell for someone because of the tilt of his smile, or because he could make you laugh, or in this case, because he made you feel as if the two of you shared a special connection. With a jerk, she stopped herself from that line of thinking. Oh, Sadie Lapp, this isn’t good. This isn’t good at all. She was not starting anything with Will Stoltz.

  She wrapped the yucky diaper in a plastic bag and stuffed it into the diaper bag. Then she brought out the bottle of goat’s milk.

  Will, still talking, stopped midsentence. “Want me to feed him? I’m not so good with diapers, but I can feed a baby.” He reached out his hands for the baby.

  “Will,” she started, then hesitated. “You should probably get back into the service.”

  “Why?” he asked, looking genuinely surprised. “I thought I’d keep you company.”

  Sadie winced. “It doesn’t look right for us to spend time together.”

  Will scoffed. “That’s ridiculous! We’re just two friends, talking on a spring morning.”

  How could Sadie phrase this in a way a non-Amish boy could understand? “It’s not just a spring morning. It’s a Sunday morning. A churchgoing morning. The best day of the week. A morning of worshiping God, an afternoon of friendship. Heart and soul—Sundays are meant to fill you up. And the young men don’t talk to the young women. At least not until later in the day, after lunch.”

  Will was stunned. “You’re pulling my leg.”

  She shook her head.

  “And lunch too? So we’re not just heading home after the three hours?”

  He looked so woebegone that she nearly laughed out loud. Some of her shyness left her.

  “You’ll enjoy the lunch.”

  “Will you sit with me?”

  “Oh no! No, no, no. You’ll eat with the men. The men eat first. The women and children eat later.”

  That shocked him even more. “So . . . many . . . rules.”

  “Oh, you don’t know the half of it!”

  “Does it bother you? All those rules?” He lifted his knee. “Rules bother me.”

  Somehow, that didn’t surprise her. “When you grow up with these rules, you don’t even think twice about them. It’s just the way it’s always been.”

  He looked at her. “Maybe that’s the problem. Folks don’t think enough about the rules. Maybe the rules need to be streamlined a little.” He made an axing motion in the air. “You know, simplify things.”

  A male cardinal whistled from a branch on the tree outside the open barn door, catching Sadie’s eye. The little bird was strutting along the branch, hoping to woo a mate. “I suppose our life may seem complicated to an outsider, but to us, the rules are supposed to create simplicity. We don’t have to worry about what to wear or what fancy car to buy.”

  “You don’t get many choices, though.”

  “No, but we don’t have as many problems that come with choices, either.”

  “Like what?”

  “Like . . . debt.”

  He jerked his head toward her, as if she hit a sore spot. “Touché.” He stood up to leave. “Well, I’d better get back inside so I don’t tarnish your sterling reputation.” He winked at her and sauntered back to the house, slow and easy.

  Her sterling reputation? She supposed it might seem that way to him, but from the cool reception she received this morning from some of the women, it didn’t feel like a sterling reputation. She felt quite tarnished. On an ordinary morning before the church service started, Sadie and her friends clustered to share the latest news. Over by the horses, the young men clumped together, smacking one another on the back, shifting their gaze toward the girls, bragging about the number of calves or lambs or pigs born on their farm since last Sunday’s church.

  Today, however, Sadie was not welcomed into the circle like she usually was, like she hoped to be after returning home from a long stay in Berlin. A few faithful friends ventured over to get a glimpse of the baby. No sooner did they ooh and aah over the baby but their mothers captured their arms and escorted them straight up to the farmhouse without giving them a chance to say a word. Her throat tightened, recalling the embarrassment of those moments when a few others sent supercilious looks of disapproval her way. She felt the needles of a hundred eyes on her, and every whisper held her name. How could things have changed so quickly? For the first time in her life, she knew of no rule that could tell her how to behave.

  A plain brown female cardinal flew close to the red male, clearly intrigued. The male did a little smug hop, drawing closer to the female. That boy got just what he was after, Sadie realized, with his dashing red feathers and bold whistle.

  Will returned to the farmhouse and tried to slip back to his seat on the bench next to Amos and Hank without being too obtrusive, but he moved a hymnal to sit down and accidentally dropped it. He was sure that every single person in the room turned to look at him, stunned. Was he the first person to ever drop a hymnal?

  The preacher was still preaching, in a language Will couldn’t understand, and he didn’t know how he was going to be able to sit still for at least two more hou
rs. Maybe he shouldn’t have asked Sadie how long this service lasted. Maybe it would be better not to know. He glanced at others around him and wondered who they all were, what their lives were like. Did they act this pure and pious all the time? The woman in the far corner on the left with those two daughters—did they ever fight? Did her husband ever forget her birthday? Did he ever make harsh, sarcastic remarks to their children?

  He watched the minister wave his arms expansively as he delivered his sermon. He gazed meditatively at the church members, first the men, then he turned to face the women. Did that minister enjoy a good joke? Had he ever gotten drunk and given anybody a black eye? Cursed? Did he ever have a lustful thought?

  Or what about the plain little man sitting in front of Will? He looked pretty timid, but maybe he drank and smoked on Saturday nights. Across the room, next to Fern, was a woman with three young children. The little boy, probably one or two years old, had received numerous pokes from his sisters seated on either side. Now he moved over to sit on his mother’s lap.

  Will looked at Mary Kate, whose chin was lifted high and eyes were darting around the room. He wondered what went through that busy mind of hers. Sadie told him he had no idea how many rules governed their lives. How could someone like M.K. ever be satisfied with this strict Amish life? It seemed to him that every day looked like the day before, and the day after.

  After a while, Sadie came inside and wedged between M.K. and Fern. The baby must have fallen asleep, because Will saw Sadie tuck him into the basket by her feet. He watched her for a while, mesmerized. The more time he spent with her, the more attractive she became to him, with her soft light hair, the long neck, those eyes the color of an azure sky. Will wondered if she knew she was pretty. He doubted it. She seemed terribly naïve. How would someone as pure and innocent as Sadie ever survive in the cruel world?

  He almost smiled at the irony of his thoughts. From one family came M.K., who seemed like the type who would want to push every envelope: Draw a line and watch me cross it! And then there was Sadie, who saw the rules of the church as comforting, the way a snug seat belt in a car is meant for your protection. How could two sisters begin at the same spot but end up as such different individuals?

 

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