Tied Down

by Vanessa Waltz

  “I need you to fucking come.”

  She doesn’t flinch from the rough edge in my voice. She’s lost in the pleasure of it just like I am.

  “I am!”

  I feel the explosion ripping through her body as she grips my cock hard and falls apart in my arms, sagging against me. Then I’m done, too. I’m no match against her perfect body. I ram her so hard that she screams in pain, and the ache swells like a wave. It crashes down, and I feel the hot jets of cum, and her wet thighs against mine. I let her down gently and pulse a few more times.

  “Fuck!”

  Yes, I needed this.

  Still inside her, I lie down over her, propping myself up by my elbows. Damn, I’m exhausted.

  “Oh my God.”

  Her mellowed voice breathes out in my bedroom as her chest pulses. A thrill of pride hits my chest as she turns to face me.

  “I’ve never been fucked like that. Ever.”

  I smile, pressing my wet forehead against hers. “I told you I was good.”

  She touches my chin, tracing it. “I knew you’d be. I just—”

  “Didn’t know how good it would feel?”

  I’m amused at the slight blush pinking her cheeks as she nods, the haughtiness in her eyes finally gone.

  Right around now would be the time where I’d usually invent some kind of work-related business I had to attend to because I’m an asshole and I want them out of my apartment, but I feel no desire to get rid of her. And it hits me suddenly. I want this girl again. Not just for tonight, or the next day. I want her on call whenever I want to fuck her. Why should I bang cocktail waitresses when I have a hot piece of ass who will let me do whatever the hell I want?

  But it’s against my rules. Fuck a girl more than once, and the next thing you know, they want a relationship. And then they want to meet your mother and tickets to the opera and fuck knows what else.

  Then she kisses me. Her lips are against mine before I can even summon up an excuse to suggest that she should leave, and then that compulsion is wiped away completely. She kisses me and slips her tongue inside me, making my heart pound.

  Crack of dawn. Something moves beside my bed. A shadow.

  I don’t even think. In seconds my hand clutches the handle of the gun stashed under my pillow. Then I lunge across the bed, grabbing a skinny wrist. A female cry of pain surprises me as I bury the gun in her temple, pressing her body to mine.

  “Shut the fuck up and don’t move.”

  “It’s me, you idiot!”

  Holy fuck.

  My heart clenches painfully as I recognize her voice and put the gun aside, flipping on the lamp. She blinks furiously against the bright light.

  “Sneaking out in the middle of the night, eh? Nice.”

  I should be pissed, but it’s hard not to laugh at this shit. Who the fuck has the balls to walk out on me?

  “You had to put a gun to my head?”

  “You took me by surprise,” I say, letting her go roughly.

  “I just wanted to leave before you woke up.”

  “Classy.”

  Maya crosses her arms and stares at me.

  No apology, nothing.

  “Why? So you could go back to Daddy before he woke up?”

  Her face heats up like a lamp. “You don’t understand, and I can’t explain.”

  My chest heaves in a sigh. “Fine. At least let me drive you home.”

  “No,” she says too quickly.

  No. “No” is not a word I hear very often. It makes my stomach churn to see her standing there like that, just as defiant as she was in the bar.

  Now my blood is starting to boil.

  “What the fuck is wrong with me giving you a ride home, huh?”

  “Nothing,” she insists.

  “Are you embarrassed by me?”

  “No!” Her face burns under my stare. “Please, just take my word for it. He can’t know.”

  Fine. Whatever.

  “You should stay the night. He’s going to find out anyway.”

  She tenses at that. “He can’t.”

  “It’s not safe walking alone at this time.”

  Her lips stagger with a small grin. “It’s safe for me.”

  What does that mean?

  I slide from the bedsheets and stand up naked beside her, watching how her gaze lingers on my dick, chest, and arms.

  “Give me your number so we can do this again.”

  “I told you, it was a one-time thing.”

  “Tell me I wasn’t the best lay you ever had.”

  She reaches out with her hand, that look blazing in her eyes again. “It’s not about that. I can’t just do whatever I want.”

  I don’t buy that.

  I pick up my slacks from the floor and pull out a small white card with my private phone number. If she even knew how rarely I gave it out to girls, she’d be honored, but of course the dumb idiot doesn’t. I haven’t had a comare in ages, and I’d like to have her as one. I take her hand and gently close her fingers around it.

  Then I bend my lips to her ear and I feel her shiver. “Call me the next time you feel like a good fuck.”

  “I don’t think so.”

  A grin stretches my face. “Maybe the next time you fight with your dad.”

  She stuffs the card in her jeans without looking at it and I walk her to the door, opening it for her and giving the whole hallway front-row seats to my cock. Maya doesn’t want to leave. It’s all over her body. From those nipples sticking out like pins on that fuck-me dress she wears, to her eyes locked on mine.

  “You’re trying to tempt me back inside.”

  “Is it working?”

  The blush spreading over her cheeks tells me yes.

  “Don’t you care that anyone could see you right now?”

  “No.”

  A smile cracks her face and suddenly she takes a step forward. She bumps her lips against mine. For a moment I think she’s coming back inside, but she pulls back almost immediately. It’s just a cheap goodbye.

  “Bye, Johnny.”

  I don’t say a word as she backs away from me and walks down the hall.

  This isn’t goodbye.

  Smoke curls around my fingers. I blow out a stream and watch as my cigarette makes calligraphy in the air.

  A man stands above my table, waiting for me to notice him. My silence hangs over his head like an axe. He clenches and unclenches his hands.

  What a moron. If he had any brains, he would make me notice him. Maybe he’s playing it safe. Maybe he knows I wouldn’t have a problem with blowing out his brains in the middle of this restaurant. No, he doesn’t say a word. He’s real quiet. Like a dog waiting for scraps.

  I hiss the smoke through my teeth, and then the waiter comes to my table with my Marechiara pizza. A blood-red pie sits on my table, thin crust, the big black olives wrinkled with the heat with the pits still inside. None of that canned olives shit. Napoletana is one of my favorite pizza places in the city. It’s cash only, of course. The owner fought me hard against paying me protection money, and my love of the pizza in the place kept me from torching it until he finally buckled down and gave me my money.

  “Uh—Johnny?”

  I don’t even look at him. “What?”

  “L—listen, I just wanted to apologize.”

  I finally flick my gaze to him. He’s a strapping, young guy with at least fifty pounds on me, but he looks at me as if I’m Jesus Christ. His hands are clasped in front of his body and his head is bowed, as if in penance. I can taste the fear sweating off his body. He’s waiting for a reaction from me. A condemnation or a reprieve. I won’t give him either.

  “Apologize for what?”

  I slide a slice of pizza onto my porcelain plate and cut into it with my knife and fork. Dignified. Slow. A boss can’t just shove pizza down his fucking throat like some fat fuck. The hot sauce stings my tongue. It’s like fire, but it tastes so goddamn good that I can’t help but keep eating. I grip my wineglass
and the dry vintage slips down my throat, adding fuel to the burn.

  “I fucked up, but I can fix this. Please let me fix this.”

  His shaking voice makes my tongue curl.

  “How?” I cut my gaze over his, staring into his widened eyes. “I’ve been planning this heist for almost a year, you dumb fuck.”

  Millions of dollars of untraceable cash, just sitting in the airport. Begging to be stolen. My whole crew knows about the heist, of course.

  “I can get the keys. I have a plan—”

  “François told me about your plan.”

  The dismissive tone almost brings him to his knees. “There’s a short window. Fifteen minutes. I can get copies of the keys made.”

  I doubt he can get anything done. “Do it.”

  Relief washes over his face, and I almost want to laugh at him. I’d probably kill him anyway, just to tie up loose ends. I don’t trust him to keep his trap shut if anyone’s busted, because he’s not a member.

  “Thank you, John.”

  “If you don’t get copies of the keys, don’t come back at all.”

  I watch him leave, an uneasy feeling eating away at my stomach as he walks away. Then I beckon toward Chris, who kneels to my side immediately.

  “I want you to follow him. And then I want you to take care of him.”

  Chris doesn’t betray any shock. His young face freezes for a moment, and then his dark eyes slide to mine. “Take care of him?”

  You know what I mean.

  Then he leans back and nods, patting his front jacket pocket as he heads outside.

  It takes a split second for me to make a life-or-death decision.

  Like I said, I don’t give second chances.

  The Mafia is a family, yes, but it’s mostly a business. We’re in it for the money, not the fucking honor. I surround myself with people who are valuable. I don’t give a fuck whether someone isn’t one hundred percent Italian.

  I grab another slice of pizza and carelessly tear into it with my teeth as that girl pops into my head again. It just galls me that someone might discriminate against me, of all people. All week I couldn’t get that cunt out of my mind. Can’t forget the way she let me fuck her. The screams she made when she came on my dick. All week I’ve been waiting to bump into her in that bar, like some schmuck.

  Whatever. I’ll find a new piece of ass to fuck. I always do. Hell, even in this restaurant. Women turn their heads to look at me, sitting with a few of my soldiers. I could ask the waitress out. She has a nice ass.

  Not as nice as hers.

  I swallow painfully as that truth sinks in. How can I forget her? I spanked her ass right before I sank my dick into her. Before that, she climbed into my lap naked. I can still feel her skin gliding in my palms. Her gorgeous curves bounced in front of my face. She let me put my hands all over her—she let me do things to her that I only did with hired pussy.

  I smile into my wineglass as blood rushes to my cock. Fucking hell, I cannot get hard in this place.

  “François, we need to head up to Sorel-Tracy. There were problems with the last shipment.”

  His face twists slightly, but he nods. He hates bikers on principle. Hell, we all do, but we don’t have to like each other. We just have to work together.

  They run all the drugs, and I handle just about everything else because I never wanted to be involved in drugs. I facilitate the shipments, and the bikers sell the drugs on the streets. Getting twenty-five years for possession is not worth it to me. Anyone in my crew caught selling drugs gets his head chopped off.

  I get up from the table and my bodyguards follow me outside. I slide into the passenger seat of my car as François takes the wheel, and my thoughts linger on a certain brunette as he drives. Finally we get to that concrete shit-hole of a fortress that is like a beacon should the CSIS ever decide to raid the place. The walls are thick, and guards patrol the towers with guns.

  François lays on the horn and the metal gate screams as it swings aside.

  “Putain de merde.”

  Carlos waits just inside the community, wearing his filthy leather jacket. We roll the car into a dirt parking lot and I open my door, fixing a smile on my face.

  “Carlos, good to see you.”

  “John.”

  He nods at me, and then we walk toward that shack he calls a clubhouse. I’ll have to wipe the dust from my shoes when I get out of here. I walk past a lot of sullen, drawn faces. Like dogs at the pound. What a depressing place to live in.

  The clubhouse has a bit of charm. Inside, there are strippers wearing pasties, gyrating on poles as those bearded fucks ogle them. Loud rock music grates against my ears. A biker grabs a passing stripper and pulls her onto his lap, groping her tits for everyone to see. I sneer at them as I walk by. These people have no fucking class. I don’t want to touch any surface, because I have a suspicion that the entire place is covered with a film of cum and pussy juice.

  Thankfully we enter Carlos’s office, and my bodyguards wait outside. He walks behind his desk and my eyes wander over the dusty room, passing over a couple of golden frames. A figure catches my eye.

  My heart jumps in my chest and I lean in, studying the picture frame. It’s a photo of Carlos, and his wife and daughter.

  So? What’s got me so excited?

  The daughter. The picture is a few years old, but there’s no mistaking those pouty lips and haughty eyes. Maya. The girl I’ve been fantasizing about is also the daughter of the president of Les Diables MC.

  Oh fuck.

  My heart races and I swallow the urge to curse out loud. Everything makes sense now. Her hesitation to fuck me. No wonder.

  And she had no idea who I was the whole time. She said her dad would be pissed. No fucking kidding. This could start a war.

  Fuck me.

  I lean back into my chair as Carlos gives me a sharp glance. “What’s funny?”

  I look into his suspicious eyes, wishing I could tell him:

  I fucked your daughter.

  Chapter Four

  Maya

  “Pick up every last piece, you little bitch.”

  On my hands and knees, I look up at the man who stirs a flash of rage in my chest.

  You fucking pick it up.

  I don’t dare say it out loud, not when his men surround him and he looks as though he might knock out my teeth if I say something wrong.

  But I want to take the pile of broken mirror shards in my hand and fling it into his face.

  “I don’t know what the fuck is your problem. I try to support your hobbies, and you pay me back by trashing your salon?”

  The edges of the mirror shards cut into my palm as he kicks aside one of the broken pieces.

  “It’s not a fucking hobby. It’s going to be my career.”

  Deep laughter cuts into me, his bright eyes lit with malevolence. “A career? You want to make a living out of cutting people’s hair?”

  “I should sell dope to kids instead?”

  Screw him, acting as though he’s fucking better than me when everyone knows about the drugs in schools.

  I stand up and toss the shards in the garbage bin, turning my back on Dad. He grips my shoulder and the air squeezes from my chest when he shoves me against the wall.

  “Who the fuck makes sure you have clothes on your back? Food in your stomach? Me. I don’t want to hear you bitching about how I make a living.”

  His arm crushes my throat and I dig my nails into his arm. He’s not going to kill me. I know that. He just wants to scare me.

  You don’t scare me, Dad.

  “Carlos, enough.”

  Mom’s voice cracks across the converted garage and I hear the sound of her boots snapping the broken fragments.

  He releases me, and I breathe hard through my nose, never looking away from him. “You’re done at that coffee place,” he seethes.

  The bottom drops out of my stomach.

  It’s my one refuge. The one place I feel normal. It’s much more
than just a job. It’s a ticket to my freedom. I can’t just give it up.

  “I’m not quitting.”

  “Then I’ll go down there and I’ll quit for you, and my way won’t be nearly as nice as yours.”

  A boiling pressure builds up behind my eyes. “You can’t keep me locked up like some slave!”

  “Carlos, maybe she could work there once a week.”

  Once a week? That’s not nearly enough hours to get out of this fucking place.

  “Fuck that!”

  His face whitens with rage. “One more word out of your fucking mouth and I’ll make you wish you’d never been born.”

  But I already wish that.

  “You’re quitting the job. Today.”

  He took away my freedom to date men, and now he’s taking away my right to earn a living. It’s too much. Tears sting my eyes, and I look away from him. Don’t fucking cry. Smash his face in, instead. God, I really want to. He walks out of the garage, turning his head around to give me a final smirk.

  And that sets me off.

  With my mother watching, I take the garbage can in both hands and scream, hurling the can across the garage as all the mess slides over the room. Then I pick it back up and bash the metal against the heavy sinks. It’s like a loud gong, crashing against my ears. BANG. BANG. BANG. I trash it until there are heavy dents in the cheap metal, and then I hurl it to the floor.

  “WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?”

  Mom screams at me, her hands wrapping around my arms. I whirl around and yell at her furious face.

  “I don’t care! He’s taken everything away from me!”

  “Clean this shit up!”

  “Fuck that.”

  I walk quickly out of the garage, my face burning as my eyes immediately seek out the gate. The tall bars seem to touch the sky from where I stand, and then I realize that in all probability, I’ll never, ever leave this place.

  “Hey, Maya. What’s wrong?”

  A timid female voice snaps me out of my trance and I quickly wipe my face when Beatrice steps in front of me, her eyebrows knitting together.

  “Nothing. I’m fine.”