Saven Disclosure (The Saven Series Book 2)

by Siobhan Davis

  “We can go underground. I have strong contacts. If we need to hide, I can make that happen.”

  Neither of us speaks for several minutes. If we go underground, I’ll be turning my back on the future I had planned with Logan. The thought alone is enough to send me into a tailspin. I know deep down that if I told Logan what’s going on he wouldn’t do anything to jeopardize my life or the lives of those I love. But he isn’t king yet. Evana’s warning comes back to haunt me. The king has his own agenda, and Logan can’t protect me from him, no matter how much he wants to.

  Jarod is right. I can’t tell him.

  “Okay,” I whisper. “I won’t tell him.”

  “Good.” Jarod reaches out, fumbling for my hand.

  “I need another favor.” I tell him about Evana’s letter, and, as expected, he readily agrees to help.

  Standing before G, explaining our trip to Sector Twenty, is one of the most nerve-wracking experiences of my life. Initially delighted with our discovery, he flips into a murderous rage when he hears the full extent of what the government and the Saven are doing to the stars in their facility. Things are thrown around the room, which would be an anxiety-inducing experience in itself without loss of sight. I flinch at every noise, every crash, every sound of something breaking, and my heart jumps erratically in my chest. Vin keeps a steadying hand around my waist, helping to keep me grounded.

  We are summarily dismissed after G’s temper tantrum, while the Inner Council convenes to begin making plans.

  Vin carts me off to the side when we reach the basement elevator, whipping the cloth bag off my head in one fluid motion. My vision blurs as I adjust to the bright light. “You’ve known about that all along, haven’t you?” I avert my eyes, too ashamed to meet his. “He can’t ever find out.” His reassuring gaze slams into me. “And he most definitely won’t hear it from me.”

  “Thank you,” I say quietly.

  He lightly places his large brown hands on my shoulders. “Things are about to get messy. Be prepared.”

  It’s little surprise to see Haydn waiting outside when I exit the building later that evening. The look on his face sends shivers through me. Ferocious eyes burn a hole in mine as he glares at me, issuing a silent challenge. I’m tempted to flip him off, but that would be childish and unfair. I know he means well but he has to stop treating me with kid gloves. Logan too.

  I attempt a peace offering. “I hope you haven’t been waiting too long.”

  He looks down at me while carefully considering his reply. “Have you got it all out of your system yet?”

  “Not by a long shot,” I retort, sticking my nose snootily in the air.

  He rubs a hand over his sturdy chest. “You’re being extremely childish.”

  I’m definitely reconsidering the decision to flip him the bird. “Don’t be absurd. I’m practically eighteen, and I know how to take care of myself. You and Logan can’t keep me imprisoned forever, no matter how well-intentioned.” I pierce him with a burning stare. “I’m going home.” I take a step forward. “Come, or not.” I shrug casually and start a jaunty walk.

  Haydn strides alongside me, and we walk in awkward silence. Every so often, I sneak a peek at his face. He reminds me of a party favor; one that’s stuffed so full of itty-bitty crap it’s ready to explode at any second. I brace myself for the impact.

  “What you are doing is extremely selfish.”

  Here we go.

  “Have you considered the stress Logan is under?”

  I’m counting to ten in my head.

  “Or how your lack of regard for your own welfare adds enormously to the burden he carries?”

  “I am not a burden!” I yell, suddenly full of itty-bitty crap myself. “Nor do I ever want to be. And of course, I understand how stressed he is. This is me trying to relieve some of that.” Honestly, I’m starting to feel like a used-up broken record.

  Haydn hauls me to the side forcefully. My back slaps against the side of the high-rise building. He lashes his fist several times against the wall, and I swear a blood vessel is about to pop in his neck. He puts his face right in mine, and if he’s hoping to intimidate me into cooperation, then he’s sorely mistaken. I edge forward, matching his furious gaze, our noses almost meeting. His jaw tenses, a muscle popping in and out, while potent anger seeps out of every pore. But I’m not afraid, because I know he’s a pussycat underneath it all. Let him vent, and then we can go back to me telling him how the new world looks.

  His steely gaze hooks on mine, and his look is probing in the extreme. Looking for what, I’m unsure, but I hold his stare defiantly. His eyes wander, remaining a beat too long on my lips. Suddenly, I’m hyperaware of his exaggerated breathing, the close proximity of his body mass, and altered expression. He’s still looking at me with fierce intensity, but there’s some different emotion developing behind it now.

  Equally as potent.

  Definitely as dangerous.

  Undoubtedly, wildly unpredictable.

  My heart thud-thuds against my ribcage, and uninhibited panic claws its way up my throat.

  Dipping down, I maneuver around him, creating much-needed space, before he does something stupid. Something completely reckless. Something he’ll later regret.

  Without looking back, I run all the way to the apartment. I sense him following close behind, but he doesn’t attempt to catch up to me, and I’m glad. I don’t know what the hell happened back there, but I’ve zero desire to repeat or analyze it.

  I jump in the shower and try to wash away the strains of the day. Scrumptious smells greet me when I exit the bathroom. I dress in a light summery pink dress and pad barefoot out to the living area. I’m jittery as hell and I hate that.

  Ella is chatting to Haydn as he stands at the stove stirring a large pot. She jumps up the instant she sees me, nearly hugging me to death.

  “How did today go?” I ask.

  “Ah, fine. It’s not the most exhilarating of jobs, but it was okay. You should see the VP’s house. Wow.” Her mouth forms a wide O.

  “Dinner’s ready.” Haydn removes plates and quietly serves the meal. Ella chatters away throughout dinner, not noticing the tense looks dashing back and forth across the counter.

  I’ve only just finished eating when Haydn hops up, performing his peculiar half-bow thing. My shoulders stiffen with regurgitated stress as I slowly turn around.

  King Adjani stands in the room behind us, his traditional grim expression even grimmer. Ella nearly chokes on her food.

  “Ms. Owens. A word, please.” It’s clear it’s not a request. He stares at me with barely restrained rage, and for the very first time, I wish I could cower behind Haydn’s protection because I’ve never felt more terrified in my entire life.

  CHAPTER 10

  Haydn steers Ella out of the room as I step into the living area. “Take a seat,” the king demands in a snappish tone, gesticulating toward the couch.

  “No, thank you. I’ll stand.” That goes down well. Not.

  He takes a step closer to me until we’re positioned toe-to-toe. My heart rate spikes unnaturally, but I remain outwardly calm. “I imagine you think you’re so clever. But I know who you really are, and you won’t get anywhere near my son.”

  “I don’t know what you’re talking about,” I reply truthfully. “Whatever you think you know, you are mistaken.”

  He cocks his head to the side, analyzing me with discernable skepticism. “I know you care for my son. I felt it when we were in the underwater warehouse.”

  “Of course, I care for him. I … I love him.” Moisture pools in my eyes. I said it. I got the words out.

  “Interesting,” he says, tapping a finger against his lips. “You mean that.” He inclines toward me, roughly grabbing my arm. “Tell me what Griselda has planned. You owe Logan that much.”

  I try to wriggle out of his grip, but his fingers are digging into my flesh, and his hold is ironclad. “I don’t know what you’re talking about, and I don’t know an
yone named Griselda. You’re hurting me.”

  He crushes my arm, and I bite back my cry.

  “Stop playing games. I’m running out of patience.”

  “I’m not! I haven’t a clue what you’re talking about!” I eyeball him, putting as much venom into the stare as I can. I don’t care if he’s Logan’s father. I detest him as much as he appears to detest me.

  Releasing my arm, he plants his hand on my forehead, concentrating like last time. He releases me a minute later, scrubbing a hand over his jaw, staring worriedly into empty space. His jaw clenches as he refocuses on me. “Nevertheless, this changes nothing. You will stay away from my son. Do you understand me?”

  “Yes!” I lie, massaging the tender skin on my arm. Yes, I understand you, but I’m not ever agreeing to it. No one tells me what to do anymore.

  “Good.” It looks like he’s debating saying more, but that is the final word to leave his lips before he teleports away. I collapse onto the couch, my entire body quaking with fear.

  Haydn comes bounding into the room, stopping mid-step when he catches my expression. “What happened?”

  I huddle into the corner of the couch, knees bunched. “I’m not quite sure. He’s a total psycho.”

  Haydn perches on the edge of the coffee table, his leg jerking nervously. “You can’t say stuff like that about the king.”

  I scoff. “He isn’t my king. And I’m calling it as I see it. None of that conversation made any sense.”

  “What did he want?”

  I rub a tense spot between my eyebrows. “He wanted to know what Griselda was up to, and he said …” I watch Haydn’s face pale. “What? You know who she is?” I move closer.

  Haydn rests his chin in his hands as he contemplates something. Reaching out, I gently hold his wrist. “Tell me what you know.”

  Haydn scans my face, flipping from my hair to my lips and back up to my eyes. “I … you know, when I first met you … the thought did enter my mind. And Logan’s too. But that makes no sense. No sense at all. Or maybe …”

  He leaps up, and I flinch, startled. “Haydn. What’s going on? You’re talking in riddles.” He jabs a button on his comport. “Wait!” I lunge for him. “Don’t leave!”

  “I’ll be back soon. Stay in the apartment.” He presses the button and then he’s gone.

  I pace back and forth, nerves dangling by a thread. I’m sick of all this secretive crap. What aren’t they telling me?

  Ella jerks her head around the corner the minute Logan materializes out of thin air. We shriek in unison. “Jeez, you almost induced heart failure.” I pat my chest as air shuttles out of my lungs.

  “Sorry.” He hangs his head, studiously avoiding looking at me.

  Ella mouths “What’s up?” I shrug. The hell if I know.

  I make quick introductions, and Logan spans the room to shake Ella’s hand. “It’s very nice to finally meet Sadie’s sister. She’s told me so much about you.”

  “Likewise.” Ella smiles.

  He stands awkwardly, definitely out of sorts.

  “Ella, would you mind giving us some privacy. We have some things to discuss.”

  “Sure thing, sis. Nice meeting you, Logan,” she says amiably, wandering back toward her bedroom.

  I cross the room to Logan, circling my arms around his waist. “I’m so glad you’re here.” Snuggling in, I inhale his potently masculine scent, instantly feeling comforted. His arms hang dejectedly by his side, and he’s quiet, distant. Anxiety of the worst kind churns inside me. I step away, folding my arms protectively. “What’s wrong?” I whisper.

  He picks his head up, looking at me directly for the first time. His expression is carefully guarded and impressively neutral, but determined. Oh, no. I know that look. I remember the countless times in Thalassic City when he confronted me in the same guise.

  He can’t do this to me again.

  A sharp pain rips my insides to shreds. “You’re breaking up with me?” I ask, disbelief undercutting my tone. Somehow, I manage to string the words together cohesively.

  Slowly, he nods, his Adam’s apple visibly jumping in his throat. My heart splinters in two, and I think my lungs may have forgotten how to function. Panic swirls in my gut. I don’t understand where this is coming from, or why. I know things have been a little fraught lately, but not enough that he’d feel the need to do this. We stare wordlessly at each other as his acknowledgment registers. I quickly put two and two together. “Is your father making you do this?”

  That catches him unawares. His brow creases as he reflects on my statement. “Why would you assume that?”

  “Because your father was here literally minutes ago telling me pretty much the same thing.” I squeeze myself tighter, praying I keep it together. A gnawing hole has opened up in that innermost part of me, the chasm widening with every passing second. If this is it for us, then I want to bow out with my dignity intact. Though a part of me—a considerable part of me—wants to vent, and scream, throw things at him, wallop him with my fists, and slap him repeatedly until he feels the hurt I feel, I won’t reduce myself to acting like a fishwife. And to be honest, things would never have worked out between us if he’s going to consistently pander to his father’s demands. I don’t want to be in a relationship with someone who won’t put his own needs, and my needs, first. I didn’t think Logan was this far under his father’s thumb, but I guess I was mistaken.

  “I didn’t know he was here. What did he say?” He batters his forearms.

  “It doesn’t really matter, does it? He says jump and you say how high.” Okay, so maybe I’m struggling to hold onto that dignity.

  That strikes a chord. The vein in Logan’s neck pulses angrily. He opens his mouth—no doubt to retort—but snaps his lips shut before he shares what’s on his mind. He closes his eyes momentarily. When they reopen, I catch a quick glimpse into his soul, and he’s in agony. Hurt and pain, and longing and regret, flicker briefly in his eyes before he shuts down again.

  Tentatively, I step toward him. He backs away, shaking his head, and the rejection hurts intensely. It feels like someone is hacking out my heart with a pitchfork—awkward and slow and messy. Bloody.

  He couldn’t have wounded me any deeper.

  “Don’t make this any harder. Please. I’m so sorry, Sadie, but I can’t keep living like this. I’m not cut out for the long-distance thing, and it hurts more than if I was alone. No matter what we feel, it would never work out.” He at least has the decency to look me in the eye when he’s shattering my heart. My world. My hopes and dreams.

  “What about our Eterno connection? I thought that meant something.” My voice quivers a little, and I clear my throat, desperately trying to cling onto my self-respect.

  He looks sad as he drags his hands through his hair. “I don’t see any way of making that work for us, and … perhaps I was mistaken about it.”

  I clap a hand over my mouth so he doesn’t see my trembling lip. Tears prick my eyes but I blink them away. I don’t believe him. Not when he’s been so insistent before. I think he’s trying to convince himself of that as much as he’s trying to convince me. I don’t understand what’s going on here. Something tells me I don’t have the full picture, but does it even matter? Whatever the reasons are, it doesn’t change the base fact: He doesn’t want me anymore.

  When I feel reasonably confident I can speak without betraying my emotion, all I say is “I see.”

  Averting his eyes, he looks everywhere but at me. “Haydn will stay here to protect you for the time being, and I’ll organize new accommodation for you. In the meantime, my father has permitted you to remain here.”

  “How very decent of him,” I snap. “But it won’t be necessary. I’ve already started looking for my own place, and I’ll move out as soon as I find somewhere suitable.”

  “What? Why?” Confusion splashes over his handsome face.

  “I don’t see how that’s of any relevance now. And for the record, as much as I’m fond of
Hayden, I don’t need him babysitting me anymore. He’s your bodyguard. Take him with you.” I start to inch away.

  “Wait!” Logan yells frantically. “You need his protection. Trust me.”

  “I think we’re a little beyond that, Logan. And you don’t need to pretend like you care.” Stupid tears well in my eyes again, and this time I can’t stop a sneaky one from pitching down my face. I swipe it harshly away.

  “Sadie,” Logan says softly. “Of course, I care.”

  “Then why?” I throw my hands into the air. “Why are you doing this?”

  He steps toward me unexpectedly, drawing me into his arms. I stifle a sob as I allow him to embrace me. It’s utterly stupid, because I know I’m going to pay for it later. But for now, I need him to hold me one last time. His lips brush my hair as he crushes me to him. “I wish things could be different, but they can’t. This is for the best.” He hugs me one last time before prizing my arms off him.

  This is truly happening, and I don’t think my heart can withstand it. The only positive to come out of this is that his life is safe for the time being, and now I have a legitimate reason to advise both the VP and G that I can no longer fulfill the assignment. At least that’s something.

  Logan dips his head, fiddling with the buttons on his comport. It feels so final. I can’t let him leave like this. Not when there are important things that have been left unsaid. I don’t want to look back and regret not telling him. “Wait a sec.” My hand clasps his wrist, and he looks up. “I need to tell you something.”

  He gives me his full attention, and though his expression is stoic, I now see if for what it is. He’s wearing a mask, putting forward a carefully presented front. He hurts as much as I do. Although, that’s of little comfort.

  Heart racing, I gaze directly into his beautiful blue eyes, allowing myself to luxuriate in his focused stare one final time. Blood thunders through my veins, and there’s a panicky fluttering feeling in my chest. My palms feel sweaty. I blow air out of my mouth as I exhale profoundly. “I love you.”