The Tightrope Walker
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I didn't think I'd seen him in Trafton, either.
I associated that face—those large round glasses and the attaché case—with a background of wooden benches.
This was puzzling: wooden benches. I closed my eyes and hoped that something else would swim to the surface. Wooden benches. A feeling of haste and sadness, too. A face noticed. Other faces. And wooden benches.
I'd been alone. Or had I?
I bent over the dishes, my fingers exploring the china. "Nothing broken," I called cheerfully over my shoulder, and tucked the ends of the carton back in place. "She's all yours," I added.
Where had I encountered wooden benches lately, and why was I so sure that it had been lately? And then I thought, It had something to do with Joe. Joe was with me.
I picked up the case and half turned to look at the man again. He didn't see me. He had quietly walked over to the door where he was clearly outlined against the white shade that I pull down every evening, with CLOSED printed on the street side. Now I saw him reach out and touch the lock, and as I heard it quietly snap— with that crazy ping! sound they make—I caught my breath. There had been wooden benches at the Blue Harbor airport in Maine, and that was where I'd seen him; he'd followed us into the waiting room looking conspicuously out of place with his attaché case, conservative business suit and large steel-rimmed glasses. I'd watched him with amusement and after that, I remembered, I'd kissed Joe goodbye, driven back to unit 18 and then to Hannah's house and the box room, after which.., but here my thought stopped. My heart almost did, too; it was the sound of the lock that did it. Once before I'd heard a lock snap unexpectedly, in Hannah's box room, and now I had the suffocating feeling that I had just met the person who had turned that lock, too.
I didn't hang up the penknife on its hook; I slipped it instead into my pocket.
Amelia, I thought, remain calm.
Amelia, I told myself sharply, don't panic, the life you save could be your own.
Except he wouldn't dare to try anything here, whoever he was, surely not in the middle of a city, on a busy street....
Oh no? sneered a part of my mind. He's just locked the door, hasn't he? The two of you are quite alone and no one in Trafton knows you're back. He wouldn't find a better chance in a million years, would he?
The telephone, I thought, somehow I've got to get to the telephone.
I pretended that I'd neither seen nor heard him lock the door. I strolled toward the counter and toward the telephone behind it with a bright false smile on my face and the case of dishes in front of me like a shield. As I neared the counter I saw his attaché case lying there and I saw the letters stamped on it in gold: H. Holton.
Hubert Holton. I had a nearly overwhelming urge to scream but I took my hysteria and shoved it deep inside of me—it was like stuffing something away in a dufflebag—where I could feel it turning in the pit of my stomach but fueling me in a more disciplined way. I said calmly, "I believe Mr. Georgerakis still has these dishes on sale at 20 per cent off. I'll just give him a ring and ask—"
"No," he said with equal calm. "I've no time for that." I lifted the case and threw it at him across the six or seven feet that separated us but there was nothing slow about his reflexes, he ducked and the case hit the floor with a thud and a crash of broken china. Before I could reach the telephone he picked up the long scissors lying across the dry goods and cut the telephone wire. Following this he brought a small, businesslike gun out of his pocket and leveled it at me.
"All right," he said evenly, "how did you know?" "I noticed you in Maine, at the Blue Harbor airport," I told him.
He nodded. "Quite a remarkable young woman." So I was remarkable; that was pleasant to hear but not from him. "And you're Hubert Holton."
"You're also a trouble-maker," he pointed out in his soft, precise, emotionless voice, "and I don't appreciate trouble-makers."
"No," I said, watching him, "two murders can be embarrassing." I shouldn't have said that, of course, because until that moment I don't suppose he was aware of how much I knew, but I wanted to fling much more than a case of dishes in his face.
He blinked at that, and his voice sharpened. "What led you to Anglesworth? I've checked, and so far as I can discover you never knew Hannah Meerloo, or Jay, or Nora. What prompted this idiotic excursion of yours into the past?"
I countered, "First tell me how you heard I was making that excursion."
He shrugged. "Mrs. Lipton phoned me—I was in Augusta—and told me that you and a young man, driving a very distinctive van, had visited her to ask about Danny's witnessing Mrs. Meerloo's will in 1965. She thought it might be worth a few dollars to her. I thought it worth attending to personally, and with not many motels open yet I soon found your van parked at the Golden Kingfisher Motel, and of course the name of your shop here was on the side of the van. After that I followed you to Mrs. Morneau's house and then to the airport, and then—" He stopped and added harshly, "And Jay had a hysterical phone call yesterday from Nora telling him about your visit."
"You mean telling you that I'd survived," I said softly. "You left out your attempt to kill me in Carleton, Mr. Holton."
"So I did," he said smoothly. "As I say, a quite remarkable young woman, and now I'd like to hear what took you to Maine in the first place."
I shook my head. "I don't think so, Mr. Holton, because I don't like people who try to kill me and I'd prefer to let you always wonder how I knew about Hannah. You goofed, you know."
"I do not," he said coldly, "'goof,' as you phrase it." He looked at me as if he were assessing a balance sheet, weighing deficiencies and possibilities. "What you fail to understand, my dear Miss Jones," he said, as if delivering a lecture to a class of backward students, "is that not even the police would be interested in such ancient deaths. I think you've forgotten—if you ever knew—that there's such a thing as a statute of limitations."
"Oh?" I said. I hoped it wasn't true. I refused to believe it was true. "Then why are you so—uh—upset?"
"Because your nuisance value is considerable," he pointed out, "and I simply cannot allow you to jeopardize Jay's chances of being elected to the U. S. Senate. I've worked too hard."
"You've worked too hard?" His eyes were like cold gray marbles behind his glasses but his manner was calm; it was difficult to realize that although we were skirting the issue we were really talking about my death.
"Of course," he said, surprised by my obtuseness. "I waited a long, long time to find Jay, and I've taught him everything he knows. He's young, he's only beginning, there's no limit to how far he can go in politics."
I stared at him. "You killed Hannah for that!" I said incredulously. "A woman with more talent, imagination and intelligence than that precious Tuttle of yours could ever have?"
He shrugged off my naïveté as if it were a mosquito: impatiently. "She was only a woman," he said contemptuously. "And you show a tiresome interest in the past that doesn't become a person of your age," he added, "For myself it's the future that matters, not the past past."
I blurted out, "Why didn't Jay marry Nora?"
I swear that he looked shocked by my question. "Marry V he repeated. "But my dear Miss Jones I had no intention of letting him marry Nora, it was money he needed, a grubstake one might say. He didn't have a dime, and I had only a professor's modest salary. Jay needed money for clothes, meeting the right people, for entree into the cliques that matter."
I must have looked just as shocked as he had looked a moment ago. I said, "But Nora had money, and Nora loved him."
He smiled forgivingly. "One does not sell a personality like Jay Tuttle's so cheaply, Miss Jones. Nora's inheritance, once taxes were paid, was not so large as you might assume. With money of his own Jay could do much better, and he did. Before the year ended I was happy to see him safely married to Senator Plum-tree's daughter Janet, and I can assure you that an heiress to the Plumtree Pharmaceutical fortune, and the prospects of a father-in-law in Washington, made Nora look very small
-league and provincial."
I simply gaped at him, wordless, and then I gasped, "You arranged it!"
"But of course," he said silkily. "The Plumtrees had always summered in Maine, and I made a point of meeting them in 1964."
"My God," I whispered, and then I flung at him bitterly, "I'm surprised you let Nora go on living with all she knew about you both."
His lips tightened. "Only at Jay's insistence," he said. "The one time he—but it has always been a mistake, and it's not one I plan to repeat now, Miss Jones. You will be shot beside your cash register—"
He means I'm really going to be killed, I thought. Me.
He made a soft tch-tch sound in his throat. "A pity, that. You can see what a nuisance you're proving to me, but I appreciate your telling me this." He gave me his first real smile; his teeth were expensive, too. "A few more deaths will scarcely be noticed among all the muggings and robberies these days but it does seem a bore. Kindly move to the cash register now."
"Kindly?" I echoed, and I laughed, I couldn't help it. I mean, he was going to kill all of us and it seemed a bore? "Kindly move to the cash register?" I repeated.
He gave me an impatient glance and I saw that I was reacting like a human being and this was tiresome to a man who thought and performed like a machine, like a computer that turns people into figures on a balance sheet. I think it was this that shocked me even more than his announcing that I was going to be shot beside the cash register, for it's compassion that makes gods of us.
He gestured with his gun. "Over," he said, and when I didn't move he came to get me.
He could have shot me from where he stood but he was obviously a perfectionist, wanting things precisely right for the police. His computer mind must have written its own kind of scenario, planning distance and powder burns, and this rigidness was his first mistake because I was waiting for him with my fingers curled around the penknife, my anger as cold as steel now. Just as he reached for my arm I lifted the penknife out of my pocket and plunged it into his gleaming white shirt. It was a small knife, scarcely an inch in length, but his reaction gave me two seconds to get away. He yelped in pain.
I knew I wouldn't have a chance if I ran for the street door, I'd be shot before I unbolted the lock. I headed instead for the stairs; one bullet hit the wall behind me as I raced up them two at a time. I passed the door to my apartment, opened the one leading to the roof, closed it behind me and ran up the narrow stairs, unbolted the steel door at the top and plunged out on the flat graveled roof of my building.
It was a shock to discover that it was almost dark. I didn't pause. I raced across the gravel, dodging chimneys and apertures, and pulled myself up to the neighboring roof, three feet higher, where I checked the steel door leading down into this building: locked, of course. Over my shoulder I saw Holton's head silhouetted against the sky as he climbed over the parapet behind me. I turned and jumped down to the next roof and stopped to examine the trap door here. No luck. I ran toward the edge of the third roof and abruptly came to a halt. I was facing an alleyway wide enough to park a car and too broad to jump. My escape was blocked. I was trapped.
Fifty feet below me traffic passed in a steady stream; I shouted but no one heard. I turned and saw Holton scrambling down from the roof I'd just left and I could feel my adrenalin glands pouring out fight-or-flight screams, and my heart thudding mercilessly. There were two broken pieces of brick lying near me; I picked them up and hurled one at the empty window across the alley. The sound of breaking glass was muted, no more than a small whimper in the night—or was it I who whimpered?—but no one came to the window.
I turned, grasping the one fragment of brick left me, and faced this man who had already killed twice.
He was walking toward me slowly, still breathing heavily from the climb but he was confident now and smiling faintly in the dusk, the gun in his hand pointed at me. I had two choices: I could climb over the parapet and leap to my death on the street fifty feet below me or I could stand here and be killed on the roof by Hubert Holton. In that moment I looked clearly and sanely into death and I was no longer afraid, I was angry.
I began walking forward to meet him and then abruptly I ducked my head and ran, weaving and zigzagging. The first bullet hit and staggered me; my left arm felt as if it had been torn away but it had the effect of shocking me into a deeper fury. The second bullet grazed my temple, or so I thought until blood streamed into my eyes, but by that time I was under his gun and on Holton, kicking, screaming, biting. I had no thought for myself any more, only for this man who had the effrontery to kill—kill Hannah, kill Lipton, and now me. My left arm was dead but my right hand could still grasp my shard of brick, my knees could still kick. In the darkness we began a silent fight for the gun; when my teeth found his wrist the gun dropped to the roof, I kicked it aside and hit him with the brick and this time, caught off balance, he fell.
I leaned over him, and seeing how still he was I straightened up, gasping at the agony of being upright, and at the pain in my head. I was crying now with huge, dry, soundless sobs. Dragging myself across the roof I managed to pull my body weakly over the parapet to the next building. I crept across it and half fell, half jumped to the roof of my own building. Here I nearly passed out but I pushed myself to the door, which Holton had left open. For just a moment here I leaned against a wall, sucking in air with great gulps, giddy and nearly blinded from the blood streaming into my eyes, and then I sat down on the stairs and lowered myself, step by step, still sitting—I could never have stood—until I reached the second floor and the stairs leading down to the shop.
That was when I stopped to wipe the blood from my eyes and saw him.
He was standing at the bottom of the stairs watching me. Watching me from the first floor, from a pool of light in the shop. I should have known he'd be here, too. I stared down at him through a film of blood, recognizing him from his pictures except that he wasn't smiling now, those flawless twelve teeth were hidden. John Tuttle... State Senator Angus Tuttle now. He looked pale, strained, appalled at the sight of me. I saw him stare at me and lick his lips.
"You're supposed to be dead," he whispered. It was a whisper that seemed to echo through a hundred caverns, reverberating and ricocheting off the walls.
I shouted at him, "You can't even do your own killing," and, still crawling, I reached the top stair and looked down at him a second time.
He had brought a pistol from his overcoat pocket and was staring at it in surprise. He lifted his eyes to look at me and licked his lips again. "Where's Hubert?" he asked, and then he shouted, "Hubert, where are you? Hu, for God's sake finish her off!"
I wasn't thinking any longer, I was a bloody wounded dying animal without reaction or fear. He was going to shoot me and finish the job and it no longer mattered, all that mattered was to die as quickly and as obtrusively as possible, and with dignity. For this I was ready to give away my life, and freely. I felt for the railing and pulled myself to my feet, my head exploding like a balloon, the walls circling around me, the stairs swaying in front of me. But I stood. It was going to have to be an execution, a real murder this time, not hidden and concealed for years and years.
Behind me I heard Holton shout from the top of the stairs and below me I saw Tuttle lift his pistol. I stood erect and gritted my teeth, a great dizziness sweeping over me until abruptly the dizziness was joined with darkness and I fell just as a gun exploded, fell endlessly, the roar of blood in my ears, until I came to rest on something soft. Dimly I heard a crash of splintering glass, and voices shouting. Opening my eyes I stared into one sightless, unblinking eye scarcely an inch away from me, an eye that receded, swam closer and then receded until at last, hearing Joe's voice among the others, I gave myself up to the voluptuous, fathomless oblivion of unconsciousness.
PART III
"Do you mean I can never go back?" asked Colin.... "No," said the Prince of Gait, "for you have gone through the maze."
from The Maze in the Heart of the Cas
tle
It was a long journey, full of darkness at first, and whispering voices I knew I'd heard before but couldn't identify. And it was cold, a glacial cold that numbed and paralyzed. As my perceptions sharpened I realized that I was in a labyrinth, with walls binding me on either side, and it was the faint sound of music that drew me forward. I walked on, turning corner after corner, sometimes seeing faint shapes in front of me that turned into mist when I reached them. Yet someone was with me, I knew this; someone I could neither see nor touch but whose presence was familiar, peaceful and very close: I was not entirely alone. The maze twisted and turned and I stumbled on, subtly guided by this presence until suddenly I felt intimations of warmth ahead, and turning into a long passageway I saw light, and began to run, and as I ran I saw that I was leaving behind pieces of myself, like outgrown clothing, until I felt transparent, weightless and at last without fear.
Reluctantly I opened my eyes. A lighted room. White walls. A young man with black hair sitting in a red Naugahyde chair reading a magazine. The two worlds converged, split apart, the labyrinth receding before certain images of pain and violence, a rooftop and a gun. I was not dead, I was lying in a bed, all white and pristine, the blood wiped away from my eyes, my left arm in a splint; I felt incredibly tidy. I was alive and it was Joe sitting in the leather chair. I said softly, tentatively, "Joe."
"Amelia?" He jumped up and came to my bed. "My God, Amelia, welcome back."
"Yes," I said, smiling at him mistily.
He said in a funny kind of voice that shook a little, "I love you, Amelia, Quite awfully, as a matter of fact."
"You understand," I said carefully and slowly, "I'm surprised."
"At my loving you?" He sounded startled.
"No," I said, thinking about this, "at being alive." I turned this slowly over in my mind, and frowned. "There was an eye.... Why do I keep remembering an eye, Joe?"