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Complete Works of D.H. Lawrence (Illustrated)

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by D. H. Lawrence


  Know Thyself, and That Thou Art Mortal

  If you want to know yourself

  you’ve got to keep up with yourself.

  Your self moves on, and is not today what it was yesterday;

  and you’ve got to run, to keep up with it.

  But sometimes we run ahead too fast

  running after a figment of ourselves.

  And that’s what we’ve done today.

  We think we’re such clever little johnnies

  with our sharp little eyes and our high-power machines

  which get us ahead so much faster than our feet could ever carry us.

  When, alas, it’s only part of our clever little self that gets ahead!

  Something is left behind, lost and howling, and we know it.

  Ah, clever Odysseus, who outwitted the cyclop

  and blinded him in his one big eye,

  put out a light of consciousness and left a blinded brute.

  Clever little ants in spectacles, we are,

  performing our antics.

  But what we also are, and we need to know it,

  is blinded brutes of cyclops, with our cyclopean eye put out.

  And we still bleed, and we grope and roar;

  for spectacles and bulging clever ant-eyes are no good to the cyclop,

  he wants his one great wondering eye, the eye of instinct and intuition.

  As little social ants perhaps we function all right.

  But, oh, our human lives, the lunging blind cyclops we are!

  hitting ourselves against unseen rock, crashing our head against the

  roof

  of the ancient cave, smashing into one another,

  tearing each other’s feelings, trampling each other’s tenderest

  emotions to mud

  and never knowing what we are doing, roaring blind with pain and

  dismay.

  Ah, cyclops, the little ant-men can never enlighten you

  with their bulging policeman’s-lamp eyes.

  You need your own great wondering eye that flashes with instinct

  and gleams on the world with the warm dark vision of intuition!

  Even our brilliantest young intellectuals

  are also poor blind cyclops, moaning

  with all the hurt to their instinctive and emotional selves,

  over their mutilated intuitive eye.

  What is Man Without an Income?

  What is man without an income?

  — Well, let him get on the dole!

  Dole, dole, dole,

  hole, hole, hole,

  soul, soul, soul —

  What is man without an income?

  Answer without a rigmarole.

  On the dole, dole, dole,

  he’s a hole, hole, hole,

  in the nation’s pocket.

  — Now then, you leave a man’s misfortunes alone!

  He’s got a soul, soul, soul

  but the coal, coal, coal

  on the whole, whole, whole

  doesn’t pay,

  so the dole, dole, dole’s

  the only way.

  And on the dole, dole, dole,

  a man’s a hole, hole, hole

  in the nation’s pocket,

  and his soul, soul, soul

  won’t stop a hole, hole, hole

  though his ashes might.

  Immortal Caesar dead and turned to clay

  would stop a hole to keep the wind away.

  But a man without a job

  isn’t even as good as a gob

  of clay.

  Body and soul

  he’s just a hole

  down which the nation’s resources roll

  away.

  Canvassing for the Election

  — Excuse me, but are you a superior person?

  — I beg your pardon?

  — Oh, I’m sure you’ll understand. We’re making a census of all the really

  patriotic people - the right sort of people, you know - of course, you

  understand what I mean - so would you mind giving me your word? —

  and signing here, please - that you are a superior person - that’s all we

  need to know —

  — Really, I don’t know what you take me for!

  — Yes, I know! It’s too bad! Of course, it’s perfectly superfluous to ask,

  but the League insists. Thank you so much! No, sign here, please, and

  there I countersign. That’s right! Yes, that’s all! - I declare I am a

  superior person. - Yes, exactly! and here I countersign your declaration.

  It’s so simple, and really, it’s all we need to know about anybody. And

  do you know, I’ve never been denied a signature! We English are a solid

  people, after all. This proves it. Quite! Thank you so much! We’re

  getting on simply splendidly - and it is a comfort, isn’t it? —

  Altercation

  Now, look here,

  if you were really superior,

  really superior,

  you’d have money, and you know it!

  Well, what abaht it?

  What about it?

  what about it?

  why isn’t it obvious?

  Here you are, with no money,

  and here am I, paying income tax and god-knows-what

  taxes

  just to support you and find you money,

  and you stand there and expect me to treat you like an

  equal! —

  Whereas, let me tell you, if you were my equal

  you’d have money, you’d have it, enough to support your

  self, anyhow —

  And there you stand with nothing, and expect me to hand

  it you out

  as if it were your dues, and I didn’t count at all —

  All right, guv’nor! What abaht it?

  Do you mean to say what about it?

  My God, it takes some beating!

  If you were a man, and up to my mark, you’d have money

  — can’t you see it?

  You’re my inferior, that’s what you are, you’re my inferior.

  And do you think it’s my business to be handing out

  money to a lot of inferior swipe?

  Eh? Answer me that!

  Right ch’ are, boss! An’ what abaht it?

  Finding Your Level

  Down, down, down!

  There must be a nadir somewhere

  of superiority.

  Down, and still

  the superior persons, though somewhat inferior,

  are still superior.

  They are still superior, so there must be something they are

  superior to.

  There must be a bed-rock somewhere, of people who are not

  superior,

  one must come down to terra firma somewhere!

  Or must one simply say:

  All my inferiors are very superior.

  There has been great progress

  in superiority.

  Fortunately though, some superior persons are still superior

  to the quite superior persons who are not so superior as they are.

  May I ask if you are really superior

  or if you only look it so wonderfully?

  Because we English do appreciate a real gentleman, or a real lady;

  but appearances are deceptive nowadays, aren’t they?

  And if you only look so distinguished and superior

  when really you are slightly inferior,

  like a shop-lady or a lady-secretary,

  you mustn’t expect, my dear, to get away with it.

  There’s a list kept of the truly superior

  and if you’re not on the list, why there you are, my dear,

  you’re off it.

  There are great numbers of quite superior persons who are not on

  the list,

  poor things - but we can’t help that, can we!

/>   We must draw a line somewhere

  or we should never know when we were crossing the equator.

  What is man, that thou art mindful of him,

  or the son of man, that thou pitiest him?

  for thou hast made him a little lower than the angels

  who are very superior people,

  Oh very!

  Climbing Up

  When you climb up to the middle classes

  you leave a lot behind you,

  you leave a lot, you’ve lost a lot

  and you’ve nobody to remind you

  of all the things they squeezed out of you

  when they took you and refined you.

  When they took you and refined you

  they squeezed out most of your guts;

  they took away your good old stones

  and gave you a couple of nuts;

  and they taught you to speak King’s English

  and butter your slippery buts.

  Oh, you’ve got to be like a monkey

  if you climb up the tree!

  You’ve no more use for the solid earth

  and the lad you used to be.

  You sit in the boughs and gibber

  with superiority.

  They all gibber and gibber and chatter,

  and never a word they say

  comes really out of their guts, lad,

  they make it up halfway;

  they make it up, and it’s always the same,

  if it’s serious or if it’s play.

  You think they’re the same as you are

  and then you’ll find they’re not,

  and they never were nor would be,

  not one of the whole job lot.

  And you have to act up like they do

  or they think you’re off your dot.

  There isn’t a man among’em,

  not one; they all seemed to me

  like monkeys or angels or something, in a limited

  liability company;

  like a limited liability company

  they are, all limited liability.

  What they’re limited to or liable

  to, I could never make out.

  But they’re all alike, an’ it makes you

  want to get up an’ shout

  an’ blast’em forever; but they’d only

  think you a lower-class lout.

  I tell you, something’s been done to’em,

  to the pullets up above;

  there’s not a cock bird among’em

  though they’re always on about love,

  an’ you could no more get’em a move on,

  no! no matter how you may shove!

  To Clarinda

  Thank you, dear Clarinda,

  for helping with Lady C,

  It was you who gave her her first kiss

  and told her not to be

  afraid of the world, but to sally forth

  and trip it for all she was worth.

  So out she came, and she said she was Jane,

  and you clapped your hands, and said: Say it again!

  And you cried:’Ooray! Play up, John Thomas!

  Let’s have no full stops, let’s just manage with commas! —

  And the white snow glistened, the white world was gay

  up there at that height in the Diablerets.

  And we slid, and you ski’d, and we came in to tea

  and we talked and we roared and you typed Lady C.

  And how jolly it was with us up in the snow

  with the crest of the dirty drab world down below!

  And how bitter it is to come down

  to the dirty drab world,

  and slowly feel yourself drown

  in its mud, and its talk, slowly swirled

  to the depths, to the depths

  of London town!

  Conundrums

  Tell me a word

  that you’ve often heard,

  yet it makes you squint

  if you see it in print!

  Tell me a thing

  that you’ve often seen,

  yet if put in a book

  it makes you turn green!

  Tell me a thing

  that you often do,

  which described in a story

  shocks you through and through!

  Tell me what’s wrong

  with words or with you

  that you don’t mind the thing

  yet the name is taboo.

  A Rise in the World

  I rose up in the world,’Ooray!

  rose very high, for me.

  An earl once asked me down to stay

  and a duchess once came to tea.

  I didn’t stay very long with the earl

  and the duchess has done with me.

  But still, I rose quite high in the world,

  don’t you think? - or don’t you agree?

  But now I am slithering down again

  down the trunk of the slippery tree;

  I find I’d rather get back to earth,

  where I belong, you see.

  Up there I didn’t like it,

  chattering, though not with glee,

  the whole of the time, and nothing

  mattering - at least, not to me.

  God, let me get down to earth again

  away from the upper ten

  million - for there’s millions of’em

  up there - but not any men.

  Up He Goes!

  Up I rose, my lads, an’ I heard yer

  sayin’: Up he goes!

  Up like a bloomin’ little Excelsior

  In his Sunday clothes!

  Up he goes, up the bloomin’ ladder

  about to the giddy top!

  Who’d ever have thought it of that lad, a

  pasty little snot! —

  Never you mind, my lads, I left you

  a long, long way behind.

  You’ll none of you rise in the world like I did;

  an’ if you did, you’d find

  it damn well wasn’t worth it,

  goin’ up an’ bein’ refined;

  it was nowt but a dirty sell, that’s all,

  a damn fraud, underlined.

  They’re not any better than we are

  the upper classes - they’re worse.

  Such bloomin’ fat-arsed dool-owls,

  they aren’t even fit to curse!

  There isn’t a damn thing in’em,

  they’re as empty as empty tins;

  they haven’t the spunk of a battle-twig,

  an’ all they can think of is sins.

  No, there’s nowt in the upper classes

  as far as I can find;

  a worse lot of jujubey asses

  than the lot I left behind.

  They’ll never do a thing, boys,

  they can’t, they’re simply fused.

  So if any of you’s live wires, with wits

  to use, they’d better be used.

  It there’s anything got to be done, why

  get up an’ do it yourselves!

  Though God knows if you’re any better,

  sittin’ there in rows on your shelves!

  An’ if you’re not any better,

  if you’ve none of you got more spunk

  than they’ve got in the upper classes,

  why, let’s all do a bunk.

  We’re not fit for the earth we live on,

  we’re not fit for the air we breathe.

  We’d better get out, an’ make way for

  the babes just beginning to teethe.

  The Saddest Day

  ‘We climbed the steep ascent to heaven

  Through peril, toil and pain.

  O — God, to us may strength be given

  to scramble back again.’

  0 — I was bom low and inferior

  but shining up beyond

  I saw the whole superior

  world shine as the promised land.

  So u
p I started climbing

  to join the host on high,

  but when at last I got there

  I had to sit down and cry.

  For it wasn’t a bit superior,

  it was only affected and mean;

  though the house had a fine interior

  the people were never in.

  I mean, they were never entirely

  there when you talked to them;

  away in some private cupboard

  some small voice went: Ahem!

  Ahem! they went. This fellow

  is a little too open for me;

  with such people one has to be careful,

  though, of course, we won’t let him see! —

  And they thought you couldn’t hear them

  privately coughing: Ahem!

  And they thought you couldn’t see them

  cautiously swallowing their phlegm!

  But of course I always heard them,

  and every time the same.

  They all of them always kept up their sleeve

  their class-superior claim.

  Some narrow-gutted superiority,

  and trying to make you agree,

  which, for myself, I couldn’t,

  it was all cat-piss to me.

  And so there came the saddest day

  when 1 had to tell myself plain;

  the upper classes are just a fraud,

  you’d better get down again.

  Prestige

  I never met a single

  middle-class person whose

  nerves didn’t tighten against me

  as if they’d got something to lose.

  Though what it was, you can ask me;

  some mysterious sort of prestige

 

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