Poems and Ballads and Atalanta in Calydon

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by Algernon Swinburne


  And I would have given my soul for this

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  To burn for ever in burning hell.

  A Leave-Taking

  Let us go hence, my songs; she will not hear.

  Let us go hence together without fear;

  Keep silence now, for singing-time is over,

  And over all old things and all things dear.

  She loves not you nor me as all we love her.

  Yea, though we sang as angels in her ear,

  She would not hear.

  Let us rise up and part; she will not know.

  Let us go seaward as the great winds go,

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  Full of blown sand and foam; what help is here?

  There is no help, for all these things are so,

  And all the world is bitter as a tear.

  And how these things are, though ye strove to show,

  She would not know.

  Let us go home and hence; she will not weep.

  We gave love many dreams and days to keep,

  Flowers without scent, and fruits that would not grow,

  Saying ‘If thou wilt, thrust in thy sickle and reap.’

  All is reaped now; no grass is left to mow;

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  And we that sowed, though all we fell on sleep,

  She would not weep.

  Let us go hence and rest; she will not love.

  She shall not hear us if we sing hereof,

  Nor see love’s ways, how sore they are and steep.

  Come hence, let be, lie still; it is enough.

  Love is a barren sea, bitter and deep;

  And though she saw all heaven in flower above,

  She would not love.

  Let us give up, go down; she will not care.

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  Though all the stars made gold of all the air,

  And the sea moving saw before it move

  One moon-flower making all the foam-flowers fair;

  Though all those waves went over us, and drove

  Deep down the stifling lips and drowning hair,

  She would not care.

  Let us go hence, go hence; she will not see.

  Sing all once more together; surely she,

  She too, remembering days and words that were,

  Will turn a little toward us, sighing; but we,

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  We are hence, we are gone, as though we had not been there.

  Nay, and though all men seeing had pity on me,

  She would not see.

  Itylus

  Swallow, my sister, O sister swallow,

  How can thine heart be full of the spring?

  A thousand summers are over and dead.

  What hast thou found in the spring to follow?

  What hast thou found in thine heart to sing?

  What wilt thou do when the summer is shed?

  O swallow, sister, O fair swift swallow,

  Why wilt thou fly after spring to the south,

  The soft south whither thine heart is set?

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  Shall not the grief of the old time follow?

  Shall not the song thereof cleave to thy mouth?

  Hast thou forgotten ere I forget?

  Sister, my sister, O fleet sweet swallow,

  Thy way is long to the sun and the south;

  But I, fulfilled of my heart’s desire,

  Shedding my song upon height, upon hollow,

  From tawny body and sweet small mouth

  Feed the heart of the night with fire.

  I the nightingale all spring through,

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  O swallow, sister, O changing swallow,

  All spring through till the spring be done,

  Clothed with the light of the night on the dew,

  Sing, while the hours and the wild birds follow,

  Take flight and follow and find the sun.

  Sister, my sister, O soft light swallow,

  Though all things feast in the spring’s guest-chamber,

  How hast thou heart to be glad thereof yet?

  For where thou fliest I shall not follow,

  Till life forget and death remember,

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  Till thou remember and I forget.

  Swallow, my sister, O singing swallow,

  I know not how thou hast heart to sing.

  Hast thou the heart? is it all past over?

  Thy lord the summer is good to follow,

  And fair the feet of thy lover the spring:

  But what wilt thou say to the spring thy lover?

  O swallow, sister, O fleeting swallow,

  My heart in me is a molten ember

  And over my head the waves have met.

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  But thou wouldst tarry or I would follow,

  Could I forget or thou remember,

  Couldst thou remember and I forget.

  O sweet stray sister, O shifting swallow,

  The heart’s division divideth us.

  Thy heart is light as a leaf of a tree;

  But mine goes forth among sea-gulfs hollow

  To the place of the slaying of Itylus,

  The feast of Daulis, the Thracian sea.

  O swallow, sister, O rapid swallow,

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  I pray thee sing not a little space.

  Are not the roofs and the lintels wet?

  The woven web that was plain to follow,

  The small slain body, the flowerlike face,

  Can I remember if thou forget?

  O sister, sister, thy first-begotten!

  The hands that cling and the feet that follow,

  The voice of the child’s blood crying yet

  Who hath remembered me? who hath forgotten?

  Thou hast forgotten, O summer swallow,

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  But the world shall end when I forget.

  Anactoria

  SAPPHO.

  My life is bitter with thy love; thine eyes

  Blind me, thy tresses burn me, thy sharp sighs

  Divide my flesh and spirit with soft sound,

  And my blood strengthens, and my veins abound.

  I pray thee sigh not, speak not, draw not breath;

  Let life burn down, and dream it is not death.

  I would the sea had hidden us, the fire

  (Wilt thou fear that, and fear not my desire?)

  Severed the bones that bleach, the flesh that cleaves,

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  And let our sifted ashes drop like leaves.

  I feel thy blood against my blood: my pain

  Pains thee, and lips bruise lips, and vein stings vein.

  Let fruit be crushed on fruit, let flower on flower,

  Breast kindle breast, and either burn one hour.

  Why wilt thou follow lesser loves? are thine

  Too weak to bear these hands and lips of mine?

  I charge thee for my life’s sake, O too sweet

  To crush love with thy cruel faultless feet,

  I charge thee keep thy lips from hers or his,

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  Sweetest, till theirs be sweeter than my kiss:

  Lest I too lure, a swallow for a dove,

  Erotion or Erinna to my love.

  I would my love could kill thee; I am satiated

  With seeing thee live, and fain would have thee dead.

  I would earth had thy body as fruit to eat,

  And no mouth but some serpent’s found thee sweet.

  I would find grievous ways to have thee slain,

  Intense device, and superflux of pain;

  Vex thee with amorous agonies, and shake

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  Life at thy lips, and leave it there to ache;

  Strain out thy soul with pangs too soft to kill,

  Intolerable interludes, and infinite ill;

  Relapse and reluctation of the breath,

  Dumb tunes and shuddering semitones of death.

  I am weary of all thy words and soft strange ways,

  Of all
love’s fiery nights and all his days,

  And all the broken kisses salt as brine

  That shuddering lips make moist with waterish wine,

  And eyes the bluer for all those hidden hours

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  That pleasure fills with tears and feeds from flowers,

  Fierce at the heart with fire that half comes through,

  But all the flowerlike white stained round with blue;

  The fervent underlid, and that above

  Lifted with laughter or abashed with love;

  Thine amorous girdle, full of thee and fair,

  And leavings of the lilies in thine hair.

  Yea, all sweet words of thine and all thy ways,

  And all the fruit of nights and flower of days,

  And stinging lips wherein the hot sweet brine

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  That Love was born of burns and foams like wine,

  And eyes insatiable of amorous hours,

  Fervent as fire and delicate as flowers,

  Coloured like night at heart, but cloven through

  Like night with flame, dyed round like night with blue,

  Clothed with deep eyelids under and above –

  Yea, all thy beauty sickens me with love;

  Thy girdle empty of thee and now not fair,

  And ruinous lilies in thy languid hair.

  Ah, take no thought for Love’s sake; shall this be,

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  And she who loves thy lover not love thee?

  Sweet soul, sweet mouth of all that laughs and lives,

  Mine is she, very mine; and she forgives.

  For I beheld in sleep the light that is

  In her high place in Paphos, heard the kiss

  Of body and soul that mix with eager tears

  And laughter stinging through the eyes and ears;

  Saw Love, as burning flame from crown to feet,

  Imperishable, upon her storied seat;

  Clear eyelids lifted toward the north and south,

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  A mind of many colours, and a mouth

  Of many tunes and kisses; and she bowed,

  With all her subtle face laughing aloud,

  Bowed down upon me, saying, ‘Who doth thee wrong,

  Sappho?’ but thou – thy body is the song,

  Thy mouth the music; thou art more than I,

  Though my voice die not till the whole world die;

  Though men that hear it madden; though love weep,

  Though nature change, though shame be charmed to sleep.

  Ah, wilt thou slay me lest I kiss thee dead?

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  Yet the queen laughed from her sweet heart and said:

  ‘Even she that flies shall follow for thy sake,

  And she shall give thee gifts that would not take,

  Shall kiss that would not kiss thee’ (yea, kiss me)

  ‘When thou wouldst not’ – when I would not kiss thee!

  Ah, more to me than all men as thou art,

  Shall not my songs assuage her at the heart?

  Ah, sweet to me as life seems sweet to death,

  Why should her wrath fill thee with fearful breath?

  Nay, sweet, for is she God alone? hath she

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  Made earth and all the centuries of the sea,

  Taught the sun ways to travel, woven most fine

  The moonbeams, shed the starbeams forth as wine,

  Bound with her myrtles, beaten with her rods,

  The young men and the maidens and the gods?

  Have we not lips to love with, eyes for tears,

  And summer and flower of women and of years?

  Stars for the foot of morning, and for noon

  Sunlight, and exaltation of the moon;

  Waters that answer waters, fields that wear

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  Lilies, and languor of the Lesbian air?

  Beyond those flying feet of fluttered doves,

  Are there not other gods for other loves?

  Yea, though she scourge thee, sweetest, for my sake,

  Blossom not thorns and flowers not blood should break.

  Ah that my lips were tuneless lips, but pressed

  To the bruised blossom of thy scourged white breast!

  Ah that my mouth for Muses’ milk were fed

  On the sweet blood thy sweet small wounds had bled!

  That with my tongue I felt them, and could taste

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  The faint flakes from thy bosom to the waist!

  That I could drink thy veins as wine, and eat

  Thy breasts like honey! that from face to feet

  Thy body were abolished and consumed,

  And in my flesh thy very flesh entombed!

  Ah, ah, thy beauty! like a beast it bites,

  Stings like an adder, like an arrow smites.

  Ah sweet, and sweet again, and seven times sweet,

  The paces and the pauses of thy feet!

  Ah sweeter than all sleep or summer air

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  The fallen fillets fragrant from thine hair!

  Yea, though their alien kisses do me wrong,

  Sweeter thy lips than mine with all their song;

  Thy shoulders whiter than a fleece of white,

  And flower-sweet fingers, good to bruise or bite

  As honeycomb of the inmost honey-cells,

  With almond-shaped and roseleaf-coloured shells

  And blood like purple blossom at the tips

  Quivering; and pain made perfect in thy lips

  For my sake when I hurt thee; O that I

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  Durst crush thee out of life with love, and die,

  Die of thy pain and my delight, and be

  Mixed with thy blood and molten into thee!

  Would I not plague thee dying overmuch?

  Would I not hurt thee perfectly? not touch

  Thy pores of sense with torture, and make bright

  Thine eyes with bloodlike tears and grievous light?

  Strike pang from pang as note is struck from note,

  Catch the sob’s middle music in thy throat,

  Take thy limbs living, and new-mould with these

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  A lyre of many faultless agonies?

  Feed thee with fever and famine and fine drouth,

  With perfect pangs convulse thy perfect mouth,

  Make thy life shudder in thee and burn afresh,

  And wring thy very spirit through the flesh?

  Cruel? but love makes all that love him well

  As wise as heaven and crueller than hell.

  Me hath love made more bitter toward thee

  Than death toward man; but were I made as he

  Who hath made all things to break them one by one,

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  If my feet trod upon the stars and sun

  And souls of men as his have alway trod,

  God knows I might be crueller than God.

  For who shall change with prayers or thanksgivings

 

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