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Atlantis Series Complete Collection

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by Gena Showalter


  “I understand,” she said softly. “I do. You don’t have to explain.”

  Frustrated, he raked a hand through his hair. Pain oozed from her voice, and he realized he would rather kick his own ass than hear that again. “You would face the same dangers on the surface as you do here, if not worse. Here, at least, the kings and queens do not hurt you physically.”

  “Sometimes I think that would be better than the emotional pain I’m forced to bear.”

  She was tearing him apart inside, and she didn’t even realize it. “Like I said, I’ll teach you to defend yourself. We’ve got some time. I can whip you into a fighting machine in a snap.”

  They came to a white stone building, music humming from the doors, a soft melody that seduced. No one was entering or leaving the place, so Gray couldn’t get a look past those doors. Intrigued, he stopped and read the sign. “The Happy Hoof.”

  “A centaur bar,” Jewel supplied. “With dancing.”

  His silver gaze whipped to her, just as his stomach clenched. Electric currents raced through him as he imagined holding her in his arms. Pulling her close, meshing her breasts into his chest, swaying with her to the gentle melody. He forgot about his aching body in that instant, his arms itching to hold Jewel, his palms burning to caress her. To sweep away her sadness. “I promised you dancing lessons, sweetheart, and I’m a god of my word.”

  CHAPTER THIRTEEN

  JEWEL TRAILED BEHIND Gray as he barreled his way past the double doors and inside the bar. The soft sounds of a flute drifted through the laughter and chatter that permeated the room. Centaurs were scattered in every direction, some sitting at tables, resting on their haunches, others prancing on the dance floor in a tangle of chestnut, blond and carmine fur. Several sirens were also present, their skin glowing incandescently, their dark hair silky and flowing. Then—

  Everyone stopped, paused, and turned toward them, staring. Even the music ceased, cutting to quiet. Jewel shifted uneasily on her feet.

  Gray stepped forward, and several people gasped, muttering, “Human.”

  As he jumped wholeheartedly into his role of god, his brows arched into his forehead, and his lips dipped into an imperial frown. He waved a hand through the air. “I have arrived,” he said, his superior voice cutting through the silence. “Why do you not bow? Do you dare disrespect me?”

  The fluidity of his words, as if he’d spoken her language his entire life, still amazed her. She’d never before considered the abrupt syllables sensual, but when Gray spoke them, a hungry shiver traipsed along her spine.

  “You can’t truly expect us to bow to you, human,” a huge centaur snapped, darting forward menacingly. His arms were tanned and thickly muscled, his chest bare and laced with scars.

  Jewel’s mouth went dry. The centaur planned to snap Gray in half like a twig. She read the thought so clearly in his mind. Coming here had been a bad idea, she’d known it, but had allowed her desire to be in Gray’s arms overwhelm common sense.

  “I am Adonis,” Gray said, layer upon layer of power in his voice, “and you will bow.”

  That voice…compelling and enigmatic, hypnotic, laced with an all-encompassing authority that left no room for argument. Half of the people in the room gasped and stepped toward him, wanting to touch the powerful being who had stepped into their midst. Hope filled them. It had been so long, they thought, their excitement growing, and they hadn’t been forgotten as they’d supposed.

  The centaur wavered in his surety that Gray was nothing more than a human, but retained a firm grip on his doubt. “Prove it,” the horse-man snarled.

  His name is Bradair, Jewel whispered in Gray’s mind. She hadn’t been able to reach him this way since his sickness, and she had no way of knowing if it worked this time.

  “Shall I strike you down with a lightning bolt, Bradair? Shall I turn your flesh to ash?”

  It had worked! Perhaps his defenses against her were down. Perhaps he wanted her inside his head. Either way, she was grateful.

  Color drained from the centaur’s bronzed skin, revealing a fine trace of blue veins. “How did you know my name?”

  He fears snakes, Jewel added.

  Gray never missed a beat. “Shall I toss you into a snake pit?”

  “I—I—”

  Ready to end this, Jewel closed her eyes and projected her thoughts into the patrons’ minds, willing all of them to think Gray was floating, that fire crackled from his head, and lightning sizzled on his fingers.

  Bradair fell to his knees, babbling, “I am so sorry for my doubt, my lord. Please forgive me. I am a foolish man, and I will despise myself for all eternity for daring to question you.”

  “You are forgiven. Make sure it doesn’t happen again.”

  “Yes, yes. Thank you, thank you.”

  “Table, chairs.” Gray clapped, obviously enjoying his role. “I have immediate need of them.”

  Centaurs and sirens rushed to please the man, or rather god, beside her. A table was quickly cleaned, the contents swept to the floor with giddy eagerness, and two chairs dragged in front of it. “Your table, oh Lord of Lords.”

  He strode to it with an arrogant swagger, everyone he passed reaching out to touch him. He helped Jewel into her seat, then plopped down next to her. No one seemed inclined to leave; they hovered around the table, their expressions rapt. A female centaur with a silky mane of carmine hair stepped forward. Her chest was bare, and her large breasts bounced with her movements.

  Jewel’s hands fisted at her sides as she fought the urge to cover Gray’s eyes.

  “Please allow me to serve you, Divine One. It will be my greatest pleasure.”

  “Two of your finest.” Gray flicked Jewel a glance and noticed her chair was several inches away. He grabbed the edge of her seat and scooted her closer, until their thighs brushed.

  She gasped at the hot, electric contact. Her gaze locked with his, and his lips slowly teased in a half smile. Every time she looked at him or touched him, she felt as if her soul were exposed. As if she were raw and vulnerable, and oh so needy.

  “That’s better,” he said to her, then to everyone else, “Continue about your business.”

  Gradually, reluctantly, they obeyed, though everyone kept a reverent eye on him.

  “I never expected you to announce your godliness like that. I thought we’d mention it only if absolutely necessary.” She paused. “You’re always surprising me.”

  “Then we’re even. Besides, I wanted them deferential, not suspicious.”

  Jewel tore her focus from the hot intensity of his gaze and glanced around. The walls were painted with beautiful murals of frolicking centaurs, lush meadows, and blooming flowers. The wide array of colors was breathtaking, from the brightest azure to the palest pink.

  Their drinks were deposited on their table a moment later. “Is there anything else I may get for you, Glorious One? Anything? Anything at all?” As she spoke, the centaur’s finger traced the outline of her nipple.

  “Nothing else,” Jewel snapped. If anyone was going to invite Gray to bed, it was her. Jewel.

  Expression crumbling, the female trotted away.

  “What was that about?” he asked, lips twitching.

  “As if you don’t know. Pervert!”

  “Sheathe the claws, Blaze. There’s only one woman I’m interested in at the moment.”

  Her stomach clenched deliciously, but she barely had time to explore the wonderful sensation before he was pushing a glass at her and saying, “Drink up. We really can’t stay here long.”

  Curious and unsure, she sipped tentatively at the amber liquid. It was sweet with an apple flavor. “Mmm.” She drained the rest and despite its coolness, it warmed her inside out.

  Gray gulped back a drink, then paused and grimaced. “What is this stuff?” He held up his glass and eyed it suspiciously. He even sniffed the rim. “It’s better than sugar.”

  “It’s…heaven. I’ve never tasted anything so delicious.”

  His
gaze dropped and lingered on her lips, intoxicating and heady.

  Her cheeks warmed with a blush, that one look affecting her as strongly as a caress, moving along her skin. Her nipples hardened. What would it be like if he licked her there? What would it be like if his fingers delved between her legs, spread her moisture and glided inside her?

  She shivered.

  What would it be like to clasp his penis in her hand and gently stroke up and down? Tasting the bead of maleness from the tip? So many times she’d dreamed of those things, prayed for them. Been desperate for them. Would he ever give them to her? Would he ever truly want to give them to her?

  Her gaze strayed to the centaurs dancing in the middle of the large room. Their arms were clasped around each other, their hooves swaying left and right, their tails swishing, and a deep pang of longing rebounded.

  “You ready to begin your dancing lessons?”

  “I’ve been ready for years,” she said, then pressed her lips together. She hadn’t meant to say that out loud. She didn’t want Gray to know how she felt about him. He claimed he preferred relationships over quick, forgotten entanglements, but she’d seen the number of women who had fallen in love with him only to watch his back as he walked away.

  He was not a man who accepted ties easily.

  Pushing to his feet, he intertwined their fingers and tugged her up. The calluses on his hand ignited an inexorable friction. Everyone watched as he ushered her onto the dance floor. He turned, facing the crowd, his back blocked by a corner, and spun her. He drew her into the hard embrace of his arms.

  Her lashes fluttered down. She lay her head on his shoulder and breathed in his scent. Her hands wound around him, anchoring on his lower back, right above his buttocks and beneath his bag. She felt the strength of his muscles, the heat of his skin, and never wanted to leave that spot.

  The music continued to play, soft and slow, and they swayed to its seductive beat. It felt so wonderful to be in his arms. So…perfect.

  “You’re a natural,” he praised, his voice thick. He buried his nose in the hollow of her neck, inhaling deeply. “Hmm, you smell good. Ever heard of dirty dancing?”

  “No.”

  “Want me to show you?” His legs spread slightly, fitting hers between them, and his hips began to rock forward, brushing and retreating, his erection straining against her core.

  Shock waves of pleasure shot through her, sizzling like the lightning Gray had threatened to use against the centaur, and she gasped. Every point of contact seared her.

  “Move your hips against mine.”

  She did, moving in the opposite direction and connecting in the middle. “It’s—it’s—” The words caught in her throat, suspended on a jolt of pure carnality. Faster and faster they rocked, arching into one another.

  “Perfect. I know.” One of his hands strayed to her buttocks, gripping, and the other lifted to her neck, tangling in her hair. He pulled her deeper into his embrace, so deep their mouths were only a breath apart. Gazes locked together with sultry intensity, he moved one of his legs so that the apex of her thighs straddled him.

  Another gasp slipped from her. If they kept this up much longer, she was going to explode. Already her body rushed toward completion. A coiling of pleasure. A search for release.

  “I want you tonight,” he said. “I shouldn’t, but I do. I want you so much I’m aching with it. I told myself I wouldn’t take you all the way, just play a bit, but that’s not going to be enough. Not nearly enough. Right now, I can’t make the consequences matter. I want you tonight,” he repeated.

  I want forever with him, she thought dazedly. Her taste of freedom today had broken something inside her. An acceptance, a passiveness. She deserved a life all her own, a life of love and happiness. Different she might be, but she possessed a very human heart. She wanted Gray in her life now and always. Wanted to strip him down and welcome him inside her body, over and over, night after night, their limbs tangled together.

  He wanted only tonight.

  “What do you feel?” Gray asked her, the words a whispered caress. “How does being in my arms make you feel?”

  “Fire. I feel like I’m burning all over.”

  “That’s good. Real good.” His eyes were liquid silver, alive with…something she was almost afraid to name. It was a look she’d never seen from him, in her visions or in reality, almost brutally tender.

  She moved her palms to his chest, placing one over his heart. His heartbeat thundered, strong if a little offbeat. Fast.

  “You’re begging to be kissed, sweetheart, you know that, don’t you? But we can’t. If I kiss you, I won’t be able to stop. You’re a hell of a distraction, and even though these people think I’m a god, I can’t afford to be distracted in here.” His hand kneaded the back of her neck. “No one else has ever smelled like you, like moonlight and storms.”

  “You said I couldn’t go with you, Gray, but maybe…maybe you can stay here.” She tightened her grip on him, her cheek nuzzling his. “Stay here with me.”

  His eyelids fell to half-mast, and his lips traced her jawline, his tongue flicking out in hot, determined strokes. “I can’t. OBI will send in another agent, perhaps more, and those men will die or kill the people here. I want you, Jewel. I do. More than I’ve ever wanted another woman, but I will leave you. No matter what happens, I’m going home. Never let yourself think otherwise.”

  There was pure honesty in his voice, a bone-deep conviction. He didn’t harbor a single doubt about his words; he believed them with his whole heart. If she allowed him, he would kiss her, perhaps make love with her tonight, but when his mission ended, so did their association.

  They would never see each other again. Never speak with each other.

  That knowledge cut deeper than any knife.

  She’d known he would deny her, of course. The moment she’d spoken, she had known his reply, but hope was a strange, foolish thing.

  Only two options presented themselves. Embrace the time they had together or keep him at a distance. Either way, she would end up with a broken heart. One would leave her with beautiful memories that could destroy her. The other would bring regret, but she would survive.

  “I’ve been honest with you from the beginning,” he said, softening his tone to ease the sting of his previous words.

  “I told you before that you don’t have to explain your reasons to me.” She tried to mask her hurt, but didn’t quite succeed. “I’m very aware of what you’re like.”

  He studied her face. Whatever he saw in her expression angered him because he scowled, grabbed her hand, and hauled her back to the table. His scowl remained as he signaled for two more drinks. He didn’t speak until they arrived and the server disappeared.

  News of Gray’s presence must have spread, because the bar filled with centaurs and sirens, eating away at the space. Every few seconds, someone fingered his hair or caressed his shoulder. For the most part, he ignored them.

  “What do you mean, you know what I’m like?” He propped his elbows on the table and leaned forward while she sipped at the ice-cold sweetness. “And before you remind me that I said we can’t stay here much longer, answer my question.”

  She met his gaze dead on, eyes narrowed, blood surging with her own sense of growing fury. “You get rid of your women very quickly.”

  “That’s a lie, honey. I don’t do one-night stands.”

  “Not in your mind, no. You keep women around for a while, but you never give more of yourself than the barest glimmer. The moment they start to get close to you, you leave them.”

  Gray’s nostrils flared. His last girlfriend had lasted six months. Six months of monogamy and commitment. He’d liked her, had enjoyed spending time with her…but the night she told him she loved him was the last night he spent with her, he realized.

  He blinked, doing a quick mental replay of his other girlfriends. Jewel was right. In the beginning, his last girlfriend had been content to see him the few days out of the mont
h he was home and talk to him sparingly on the phone. They’d had a great sex life, one where they both found enjoyment. Then she’d started hinting that she wanted more. More of his time, more of him. She’d begun leaving clothing at his house. The shit exploded, however, when he found tampons in his medicine cabinet. Tampons. It had only been at that moment, as he stared at the feminine products, that he’d realized he was in a hard-core relationship.

  He’d sweated for a couple days, but hadn’t stopped seeing her. He’d wondered, though, why he felt no compulsion to tell her about his life. And why he hadn’t wanted to introduce her to his family. If he had, maybe the “I love you” thing wouldn’t have sent him flinging over the edge.

  He hated one-night stands, or so he’d always told himself. Basically, that was all he’d ever had. One-night stands that lasted several months. He’d never told a girlfriend he loved her, never lived with a woman, either. Never told a woman about his life, his job, or his family. He shook his head in disbelief.

  It wasn’t like he wanted to remain a bachelor for the rest of his life. He actually liked the idea of marriage, children, and happily ever after. So what was the problem? Why did he refuse to allow himself to fall in love?

  Only one answer sprang to mind. He hadn’t met the right woman.

  He frowned, considering the validity of that thought. If that disgusting cliché was true, it would mean there was only one person, one true love, for everyone. His dad and mom, he’d thought, had been soul mates. Then his mom died, and though his dad remained single for a long time afterward, he had found another woman—one he loved more than he’d ever loved Gray’s mom.

  Gray didn’t resent his stepmom, Francis, for that, but it had rocked his views of love. Was he waiting for a deeper connection than he’d had with any of his women? Had he somehow known he couldn’t get it from them? Had his dreams of Jewel ruined him for anyone else, because he’d known deep down what she would be to him?

  Yes, roared inside his mind. He quickly stamped it down, one of the most difficult things he’d ever done. They were from two different worlds, and he could never let himself forget that. Despite his dreams of her, despite her visions of him, they were not destined to be together. They couldn’t be. There were just too many complications.

 

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