If You Still Want Me

by CE Kilgore

  "Dang, cowboy," Saul giggles. "I think you done short-circuited her brain."

  My eyebrow quirks up as I'm flushed with the need to reestablish control. "You think so?"

  Saul's giggle wanes as his eyes widen. He recognizes my tone for what it is and his body shivers against mine. Reaching between us, I take hold of his hard cock, the heavy heat throbbing in my palm as my fingers curl around the shaft. With a flick of my thumb against his tip's piercing, I'm back in the lead as Saul melts into me with a groan.

  His hips thrust against my grip, but a gentle squeeze makes him stop. He knows our rules, our silent signals and the methods we've spent over a decade perfecting. Now, we need to figure out how Austin can fit into them, and we need to learn what Austin desires from us.

  With a glance behind, I see the hooded lust in Austin's eyes as he watches my hand slowly tugging along Saul's erection. Austin's hands twitch against my shoulder, but I know it's Saul he really wants to be touching. With no hard feelings about that understanding, I step to the side then lead Saul into Austin's arms without letting go of his cock.

  Both men groan as their bodies collide, and the sound fills me with bliss. It also amps up my arousal to a degree I haven't hit in years. Austin and Saul together is probably the sexiest thing I've seen, and trust me, I've some some sexy shit at Brandon's club.

  This, though, is something completely different. I don't know how to describe it, but it's like this energy flowing between the three of us, turning us on more and more through a slow burn. I can feel it sizzling across my skin, from my scalp to my toes to my pierced clit. When I touch Austin's cheek as his hand helps me tease Saul's cock, the connection completes, and I swear fireworks are about the blow the Blue Bayou to the moon.

  "Hot damn," Saul mumbles, his head leaning back against mine.

  Austin takes advantage of the exposed neck, tracing his tongue up over Saul's Adam's apple and flicking the underside of his chin. My hands leave Saul's cock in Austin's capable grip then venture along the waistline of Austin's bluejeans. He sucks in a sharp breath as I tuck two fingers behind his button and push it open with my thumb. With slight trepidation, I hold my breath and hope I'm not letting my lust push this too far.

  Austin stops breathing as my fingers brush against the base of his cock, so I meet his gaze. In them I see permission, so I sink my hands into his jeans without either of us looking away. Instead of losing himself in Saul, he wants to know it's me touching him, and I think he wants me to understand it's okay.

  We share a smile as Saul's floating on cloud nine between us. I free Austin's cock from his bluejeans then watch with relieved pleasure as Austin exhales a moan caused by my touch. When I nudge his cock against Saul's, the three of us shudder in a unified gasp.

  "Fuckin' incredible," Saul mutters, leaning forward to nuzzle into Austin's neck before turning around without ever losing contact between our bodies.

  Once he's facing me, his hands are tugging at my panty straps. "Please," he whispers against my neck.

  I feel Austin's hand along with Saul's blunt tip nudging between my legs, rubbing the lace of my panties against my hard, aroused clit. "On your knees, sweetie."

  "Yes, ma'am," Saul complies, immediately falling before me as his hands worship my skin.

  Austin's hand moves from Saul's cock to his blond hair with a gentle grip. The brewing storm in Austin's eyes captivates me as his lips utter a hushed command. "Taste the lace, Saul."

  Oh my fucking... My heart flips. I knew Austin had dominance tendencies, but I hadn’t expect it to be so damn sexy.

  I'd been worried about a war between our dominant natures, but we've already started finding our balance. When our eyes meet again, I can see that Austin is reading me. He's been watching Saul and I for two years. He knows our chemistry; our kinks. Having Saul tongue the lace between my legs is exactly what I want.

  "Yes, sir," Saul replies, his voice awed and heavy with desire.

  This is what Saul wants - to be between Austin and I, pleasing us both and complying with our demands. He trusts us in a way that is to be cherished and honored. As Austin smiles at Saul's reply, I know Austin will cherish and honor Saul just as much as I do.

  Wet heat throbs against my aching clit as Saul's tongue flicks across my lace panties. Moisture from his lips suckling the fabric soaks past the lace, weakening my knees. Austin's strong arm is there, holding my elbow as his other hand runs through Saul's hair. It's beautiful - this moment. Simply beautiful.

  "Ease them down slowly," Austin commands. "No reason to rush."

  "Yes, sir."

  But I disagree, or at least my body does. I'm twitching now with the ache to have myself fully exposed to them. I want Saul between my legs while Austin holds onto me, keeping me from floating away.

  Trailed kisses follow Saul's removal of the laced fabric from between my legs. Then, as if sensing the building tension, Saul playfully tickles the underside of my knees. The tension is released as I squirm in a laugh, Austin sharing a smile with me.

  "Behave," I order as the laughter recedes.

  "Always do," Saul grins up at me as he brushes a finger under my foot.

  "Brat," I laugh again at the tickle, lifting my foot out of my panties.

  "Hmm," Austin looks down at Saul who wiggles his eyebrows. "We may have to punish him for that if he keeps misbehaving."

  "Yes, please!" Saul nearly bounces, then lowers his eyes as Austin and I both clear our throats at the same time in response to his outburst. "I mean, if you think I deserve it," Saul amends with a coy little blush.

  "We'll see," I tease. "First, help Austin out of his jeans."

  Saul's blush blossoms as he quickly twists around on his knees to face Austin. His hands reach up to where Austin's engorged cock stands erect from his open fly, but Austin grabs Saul's wrists to stop him. Saul freezes, his body visibly shivering in Austin's strong, masculine grasp.

  This is what Saul needed. I've known it for a long time, and I'm proud and pleased to see that I'm right. I can command Saul's attention with my words and my whip, but Austin provides the male dominance Saul's always craved.

  "Bad boy," Austin chides, and I think Saul's about to shiver out of his skin as he gasps in obvious sexual pleasure from Austin's voice. "You forgot your manners."

  Saul inhales sharply then glances up at me over his shoulder and through his long, blond eyelashes. "I'm sorry, Vickie. I was too dang eager ta' get Austin's dick in my mouth."

  "That's okay, sweetie," I coo, smoothing a hand through his hair. "But try to remember next time."

  "Yes, ma'am," he speaks the reply he forgot to say a second ago. "M-may I?"

  "Yes," I agree before the anticipation kills us both. I won't lie - I'm just as eager to see Saul's lips around Austin's cock. It's something I've caught myself fantasizing about ever since I figured out their true feelings for one another.

  Saul eases Austin's jeans down to the ground then props back up on his knees with hungry eyes and a lick of his bottom lip. "I'd like to suck it," he mutters quietly but remains still.

  "Please, mi amor," Austin cups Saul's cheek lovingly, making me smile. "I'd love for you to suck it."

  As Saul's tongue flicks across the slit tipping Austin's dick, I moan with Austin as his hand on my elbow tightens. We're sharing everything - every sensation, every suck, every kiss. Saul's taking Austin into his mouth, but I can feel it, too, throbbing my clit. Each stroke and swallow has me gasping for air as wetness gathers between my thighs.

  Austin's gaze is locked on Saul's face as I watch them, the pleasure coursing through me from bearing witness to the act. I look at Austin, his tight jaw muscles constricting as Saul's head bobs. Slowly, Austin's gaze raises to my chest. His hand leaves my elbow, cups my breast and rolls a thumb over my hard nipple.

  I can't stop the moan my throat releases as my head falls back. Austin pinches the nipple and my body quakes. I don't know how much longer I can hold back.

  "Stop," Austin's deep ba
ritone commands me as much as it does Saul.

  Maybe I've been secretly craving a touch of masculine dominance myself. I love Saul, and his submission has always been sexually arousing for me, but there's been times where I've wished I could give the control up a little bit. It requires me to entrust someone to take that control without abusing it. There have been too few men in my life with whom I think that would be possible.

  Saul doesn't want the control. Brandon doesn't turn me on that way. Austin...

  Austin is what I've needed. He's a missing piece from my life just as much as he's a missing piece for Saul. This is why the three of us fit together.

  This revelation is breathtaking.

  "Let's take this to the bed," Austin urges and Saul complies.

  "Yes, sir."

  Saul stands up between us, his tall height looming over both our heads but his face ducked down submissively. With a hand, I guide him as I step backwards toward the bed, and Austin follows with his hand still grasping Saul's wrist. I stop as my calves hit comforter.

  The three of us pause in the moment, standing on the threshold and appreciating it for what it is. We're about to come together in a way that can never be separated. No longer friends, but lovers.

  With a powerful movement, Austin yanks the bedspread off as Saul smiles sweetly down at me, and I fall in love with them both all over again.

  Austin

  What I expected to be an awkward first time with the three of us has turned out to be anything but. It's hot. Arousing. Invigorating. Natural.

  I think that's what surprises me most - how easy it's all coming together and how natural it feels. Not only is Saul turning me on, but I'm also getting aroused by giving pleasure to Victoria. I enjoy hearing her sigh as much as I enjoy having Saul's mouth around my dick, and knowing my calloused fingertips on her breast is what produced that sigh is empowering.

  I want to take care of her the same way we both want to take care of Saul. I want to ensure she's comfortable with my touch, the way they've both been making sure I'm onboard with everything they're doing. I want to pleasure her alongside Saul. I simply want to make her happy.

  She's smiling at me as Saul eases her back onto the exposed, white, cotton sheets. He kneels between her spread thighs, and her smiling expression refocuses on him. I take a step back from the bed to take it in - the love and joy so obvious on their faces. He kisses her long and slow as her hands caress his lean arms. They're beautiful together, and watching them fills me with the same yearning I've held for two years as I spied on them from afar.

  As they pull away from the kiss, they both turn their smiles to me. Saul and Victoria each extend an arm towards me, welcoming me to join them. I nod, but reach into my suitcase first to retrieve the lube. As Saul's eyes catch sight of it, his entire body trembles as his tongue skirts his bottom lip.

  Setting the bottle on the bed next to his leg, I take the offered open arms and they embrace me. For a few minutes, we simply lay there, feeling our bodies against one another as the arousal flows between us. I don't think my dick has ever been this hard, even last night when Saul and I finally came together.

  Kissing Victoria and then Saul, I rise up behind Saul as he sits back up between Victoria's legs. I can see the powerful possession in her eyes, even as she has two men looming over her. I could never take that power away, but I hope she'll let me give her what I'm about to offer. I want to let her relax and be free as Saul and I take her into ecstasy.

  Nipping Saul's shoulder, I whisper in his ear loud enough for Victoria to hear. "I want you to slide the crown of your dick into her, but go no further. You think you can do that and stay there?"

  Both Saul and Victoria take in a breath as her eyes go wide. I stare into those beautiful mahogany irises, looking for any sign that I've overstepped. All I see is lustful appreciation.

  "Y-yes, sir," Saul's reply wavers as his back arches. A tight breath exhales past his lips, and I know it's going to take a good amount of self-control for him not to thrust all the way in to where his body wants so desperately to go. His hand maneuvers between their bodies, Victoria gasps, Saul's hips move forward ever so slightly then stop, and both he and Victoria are left panting.

  "Fuck," he curses, head dropping down between his posted arms that are shaking under the effort of his restraint.

  "That feels good," Victoria confirms, her ample breasts rising and falling with each breath. "I want more."

  "Soon," I offer and she nods. Saul continues to mutter beneath his shaggy hair with his chin touching his chest, so I give his ass a light slap. "Eyes up, Saul."

  "Yes, sir!" His head jerks up. His hips begin thrusting forward but he catches himself and stops again, releasing a whimper from Victoria's throat. I can imagine her pussy clenching around the head of his dick, both of them wanting more but letting me decide when they can have it.

  "Good," I kiss his earlobe before sitting back on my heels. "Very good." I uncap the bottle as loudly as possible, smiling as Saul's back arches to the sound. "Stay still," I remind him.

  He nods, but doesn't reply otherwise, so I slap his glorious ass again. It bounces as the smack echoes, followed by his grunt as his neck bends back to expose his throat. I rub the ass cheek, glancing at Victoria over Saul's shoulder. A wicked grin is spread across her lips, and she nods at me when Saul continues to remain silent.

  I smack his ass, he groans and she gasps as he moves inside her. "Stay still," I command again.

  "Yes, sir!" He glances over his shoulder at me with love and excitement in his eyes. "Thank you."

  "My pleasure, darlin'," I wink as I drizzle the lube down between his ass cheeks.

  His thigh muscles quiver in a desire to move, but Saul does his best to remain still. I reward the effort by planting both hands on his ass, spreading his cheeks and running my tongue along the exposed line from taint to tailbone. The roaring, uninhibited moan he lets out has my cock ready to burst.

  "Austin," he whimpers. "Fuck..."

  "Not yet, but soon," I promise, then tongue that sweet hole again as my lubed fingers slide between him and Victoria. I feel her hand take my wrist, guiding me to her clit. When my fingers make contact with the piercing centered there, I think her and Saul both almost come.

  "Yes!" she shouts, her back arching against the sheets as Saul actually fucking growls.

  "Holy shit," he exhales. "Hold still, Vickie. Please."

  Their pleasured exclamations have me grasping at the last threads of my control. While I'd love to drag this experience out, I know none of us are going to last much longer. Kneeling behind him, I tap my cock against his entrance, then push one finger inside.

  Damn, he's already so loose. I switch to two then three fingers. A little wiggle of his butt lets me know he wants more than my fingers, so I tap him with my cock again. "Ready, darlin'?"

  "Yes, please," he glances over his shoulder at me then looks to Victoria. "Ready, honey?"

  "Please," she cups his cheek then moves that hand to hold my arm. "I love you both."

  "I love you both," I return her smile as I slide into Saul.

  He grunts, then relaxes with a shiver before I feel his hips thrusting forward into Victoria. "I love you both," he clenches out. "So. Damn. Much."

  With every word, his hips are thrusting back, taking my cock all the way in, then thrusting forward, filling Victoria and expelling a gasp from her open mouth. With Saul doing the work between us, I shift my weight and free a hand to play with Victoria's clit again. The lightest touch has her writhing beneath us, her gasps becoming short and highlighted by high-pitched, keening moans.

  "Don't stop," she pleads before her eyes roll back and I watch in pleasured wonder as she comes unraveled.

  "Holy fuck!" Saul cries out, her orgasm cascading into him.

  Taking both his hips back into my hands, I pound into his ass, hitting against the spot to send him careening over the edge. With each hard thrust, he's forced deeper into Victoria, making her call out incoher
ent words that sound like love. He joins her call, his whole body vibrating beneath me as his prostate pumps and his ass holds me tight.

  I feel every move, every release. Every sound they make is music to my heart. It's music so loud, I lose myself in it and don't realize when my own deep-throated yell joins them. My orgasm crashes down on me with an impact that stops my heart. White lights and brilliant fire.

  Damn, I think this is that whole 'seeing stars' you read about in romance novels. Those stars are real, and stay with me until I remember I need to breathe. The air fills my lungs in a rush as I fall back with ass to heels, my hands still grasping tightly onto Saul's hips.

  Heavy panting fills the room as all three of us try to catch our breath. My chest aches from where my heart tried to leave it, my vision is still blurred with black spots and my mind is trying to make all those sensation last. I don't have words to describe it. Hell, I don't even know my own name right now.

  "You," Saul huffs, short-winded. "You alright... back there?"

  I reply, but it's in Spanish, so Saul and Victoria share a laugh. Actually, Victoria's giggling. I don't think I've ever heard that woman giggle.

  "No ha-bla es-spa'nol," Saul brutalizes the pronunciation, making me chuckle in my delirious state.

  It makes Victoria giggle more, as she tries to translate for Saul. "He said," she sucks in a snorted breath, "that he can't feel his legs, but the rest of him is great."

  "¡Sí, me estoy tirando fantástica!" Yeah, I'm pretty sure that incredible orgasm has fried my language... processing... whatever. I'm thinking in English, but it's all coming out Spanish.

  "Alright there, Wilfredo," Saul barely gets out before falling over to the side, giggling with Victoria. "We done broke his damn brain, Vickie."

  "I think that goes for all of us," Victoria exhales.