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by Beck, J. L.

  “Do you?” Jake leaned in, his large frame crowding mine, his breath fanning against my ear. I could feel one of his hands drop down to my thigh, but I had other plans. I didn’t want him to make love to me. No. I wanted him to fuck me. I wanted him to piece me back together just like he ripped me apart.

  “Yes… I do, but I don’t want you to make sweet love to me Jake.” My voice took on a darkness it never had before, as I reached for the zipper on the side of my dress. The house was so quiet, that you could hear each tooth of the zipper coming undone as I slowly pulled it down. Jake’s eyes remained stoned, locked on mine.

  “You want me to fuck you?” Jake questioned, his eyes piercing mine more deeply. He had a look of skepticism in his gaze. He didn’t believe me. He thought I was messing with him. Maybe I was. That was something he was just going to have to chance. It was my turn to be coy and to play games.

  I took a deep breath and I bit my bottom lip, suddenly feeling self-conscious. The dress dropped to the floor in a heap the next second. I stood there for several seconds allowing myself to get used to being naked in front of Jake again. My body really hadn’t changed much since the last time, but I decided to refresh his memory anyway. The air currents circled around me softly, brushing my breasts, my hips, and even running up the gamut of my crack. It felt free. Suddenly, I reached my hands up out of instinct to cover my boobs. Maybe I was wrong and my body did look different. Was I not as attractive as last time? Paranoia began to creep into my mind. I felt silly all of a sudden, even though Jake had seen me before, still that was four years and one child ago.

  Jake laughed softly.

  “Don’t…” I took a step back not wanting him to touch me but knowing that if he did, I would only be dragged further into his trance.

  “You’re just as beautiful, if not prettier, than the day I met you, Mia.” Jake assured me. He smiled making my body warm all over. This was the man I had spent countless hours over crying. The man I had hid an entire life from, and he still wanted me. I was different now, but not so different that I wasn’t me.

  This man loved me, unconditionally, and even if I didn’t want to admit it out loud, I had to at the very least admit it to myself.

  Pushing my emotions to the back of my mind I covered the step I had to take backward, stopping once my bare breast touched his shirt covered chest.

  “I still want you….” My voice was weak and swimming with emotion, but Jake ignored that. He let me have this moment with him because somehow, some way, I figured he knew I needed this.

  “And I still want you…. Your body…” He lifted a hand cupping my breast in and rubbing the nipple between his thumb and pointer finger. I closed my eyes and felt my body undulate softly. I took a deep breath and reveled in the pleasure. The sensation was one I hadn’t felt in so long. As I savored the lust coursing through me, my stomach fluttered and heart began to beat faster.

  “God, I’ve missed this,” Jake moaned. “Your reaction to my touch is the same. Nothing has changed Darlin’... Nothing…”

  I licked my lips, withdrawing my tongue into a bite on my lower as I stared up at him with a yearning for so much more.

  Understanding flickered in his eyes and before I could muster up one single word, he was sucking the nipple he had been rolling between his fingers into his hot, wet, mouth. His tongue flicked against the little bud, and my hands sunk into his hair, pulling him in closer to my chest.

  “Yes!” I panted, my nails digging into his scalp as he manhandled me, lifting me up in his arms, his mouth never leaving my nipple. I felt nothing and everything all at once. My present and future were colliding deep inside of me. I was so caught up in my emotions that I didn’t realize that we had made it into my bedroom. Jake released my tit with a loud pop while dropping me onto the mattress below.

  “I want to be gentle with you. I want to savior you. I want this moment to last forever, but it won’t, so I’m going to give you exactly what you want and next time… next time I’ll claim you nice and slow, marking every single piece of flesh on your body.” His promise was one I wouldn’t let him keep but instead one I would agree to right now just so I could have a taste of him.

  I knew even in the passion of the moment that this was a once only thing. No matter how much I loved Jake and no matter how much he loved me, I could not let this toxic man back into my life. I just needed this fix, this sexual fix to repair something that had been broken inside of me for so long. I was too caught up in everything to think about what might happen if this did not fix everything. But that was tomorrow’s problem. For now, I was just living in this beautiful moment.

  I swallowed down the fear of the unknown and nodded my head yes while pulling him down on top of me. My entire body was on fire, and when Jake’s hands touched my skin, it only made matters worse, fanning the flames of desire inside me.

  “Fuck, I need you!” I cried out, as he shucked out of his clothes. The fact that he was now naked standing in front of me was shocking at first. I remembered exactly the way he looked and as far as I could tell, he was still about the same, only a bit more filled out. He was even more buff than he was before. The military had been good to him, that was for sure. My pussy juices ran hotter and began to practically gush and roll down my leg. I was so wet… My eyes roamed over his tan chest, and well-defined abs taking it all in.

  He smirked at me as I did so, loving the attention he was getting from me, I was sure.

  In one fluid movement, I was flipped over onto my belly, with Jake’s large hands spreading my thighs open.

  “How many men have you been with since me?” His voice was filled with need.

  I shot him a look over my shoulder. I could tell he was daring me to answer his question. “What?” I asked, playing coy.

  “How many?” Jake demanded, grunting into my ear.

  “One.” I sighed reluctantly, thinking he was going to end things before they even got started.

  “Good…” He growled, trailing two fingers down my ass crack, and to the entrance of my pussy. I was so wet. I was ready. It was a good thing too. He gave me no warning as he sunk his thick fingers deep into my tight hole, stretching me in the most delicious way.

  “Ohhhhahhhhh…” The words that escaped my lips were completely made up. Waves of pleasure rolled through me faster than I could handle, making me gasp for air every time he slid in and out of me.

  “I’ve missed this, your pussy. The sweet taste and aroma only you have.””

  I bit my lip to stifle the moan that wanted to rip from my throat as he continued to thrust his fingers upwards deep inside my channel. Tingles of pleasure shot up and down my spine, making my toes curl. I could feel Jake’s hot breath between my thighs and I wondered what it was he was going to do next.

  “Just one taste. That’s all I need.” He whispered more to himself than me. As soon as his rough tongue touched my clit, I began falling apart, my release slamming into me harder than it ever had before.

  I clutched onto the sheets while grinding my pussy against his hand, and face. While letting the pleasure consume me over and over again.

  “Give me every drop Mia. I want to taste how much you’ve missed me….” He mumbled against my clit, his fingers sinking deeper into my cunt. My entire body was shaking with aftershocks of pleasure.

  “Jake!!” I moaned his name, my body shuttering against the sheets. He gave my clit one last suck before pulling his fingers all the way out of me.

  “I’ve missed you so fucking much…” He quickly rolled me over onto my back, flipping me over like a ragdoll.

  There our eyes collided. There were so many unsaid words that lingered between us…

  “I’ve missed you too…” I whispered back, my voice low as I lifted a hand to his chest, placing my palm against his steady heartbeat. This was real. He was here.

  Chapter Fifteen

  Jake

  This was perfect. It was everything I’d been dreaming about for so long. My head was rolli
ng with emotions. It was a high like no other, no drug I’d ever experimented with had come close to the pleasure I was feeling right now. Mia was everything to me. She made my body tingle and my heart race with just one look. It had been four years since I felt the emotions that were coursing through me. Mia owned me and I had known that since day one, still, I fought against fate, trying to run from something that I couldn’t outrun… love.

  My cock was pressed against her warm entrance and practically begging me to slide into her as deeply as I could.

  “Is this what you want?” I resisted the urges that were nearly overwhelming me just to be sure that this was what she wanted. She was so confusing at times. It was like she just couldn’t make up her mind about anything. In a sense, I understood it, but I wished she would just give in completely and finally trust me. Maybe this was it?

  I could see her visibly swallow and nod her head, yes, but still that wasn’t good enough for me. I wanted her to beg me.

  “Give me your words baby girl…” I growled, weaving one of my hands into her hair as I lifted her head brining our heads together until our foreheads touched. The smell of sex filled the air making me want her more, and more.

  “Yes… I want this. I want you.” She moaned nipping at my bottom lip with a desperate need for pleasure lingering in her eyes. Sharp pain met me as I pulled back slightly. My tongue darted out over my bottom lip where she had bit me, the copper taste of blood tingling against my tongue. I was going to own this girl.

  “Hold on baby, shit’s about to get rough,” I warned, keeping the one hand I had in her hair while dropping the other to her hip, so I could lift her ass with every thrust. A silly, orgasm induced smile lingered on her lips, as I slammed into her to the hilt my balls slapping against her asshole harshly.

  “Ahhhh….” I couldn’t tell if her moan was out of pain or pleasure, and as I sat still, ten inches deep inside her, I told myself to hold on and let her adjust to my length. I didn’t know how long it had been since she was last with someone but when our eyes met again, something told me it had been awhile. “Did I hurt you?” I asked gritting my teeth, the desire to fuck her senseless overwhelming me.

  She shook her head, but her eyes said otherwise as they filled with unshed tears. I’d almost wished she’d said yes.

  “Tell me if I do…” I growled, pulling out, my fingers sinking harshly into her supple flesh as I slammed back into her. I could hear the air leave her lungs as I sunk my body deeper into hers. Our hot breathes mingling together as we stared deeply into each other’s eyes.

  “More…. I need you…” Mia cried out, gasping, her nails sinking into my shoulder hard enough to draw blood.

  “Whatever you want, baby girl…” I thrust upwards, lifting her hips with every movement. The sound of my balls slamming against her ass echoed throughout the room, coupled with our moans of pleasure. I could feel the building of an orgasm in my loins.. She was so tight, so perfect, just like when I left. I wasn’t sure how long I would be able to hold off.

  “Jake….” She sighed, her lips barely touching mine as she spoke. I could hear my heart beating in my ears and the distinct flutter of Mia’s pussy riffling up and down my cock. She was close to coming and I wanted her release all over my large, prick. .

  “Come for me baby, come all over my cock, just like you used to.” I wanted her to remember us, how good we were together, and how much pleasure I could bring her. She moaned and arched her back as if she couldn’t get enough of my cock. My grip on her hip was bruising, as I owned her pussy with every single part of me.

  “Jake! I’m… I’m….” She couldn’t even get the whole sentence out before her entire body was shaking, her pussy squeezing me so tightly I was sure she was going to force my cock out.

  “Yes baby girl, you’re coming… come for me. I want it all!” I growled, nipping at her ear lobe as I released my hold on her hair, and instead took her hips into my hands to fuck her into complete oblivion. I thrusted my hips forward as quickly and as hard as I could, pounding every single drop of her sweet, juicy, entrance, filling the room with a repeated gushing sound.

  “Ahhhh….” Her moans of pleasure were everything to me as my fatigued muscles begged me to give in to exhaustion, and my lungs burned with every gasping breath I took. I wasn’t a religious man, but I prayed to whatever God there was, that Mia would remember this for the rest of her life. I prayed that she would remember and feel the love that I had for her, because no matter what, our fate was in her hands.

  “Fuck, Mia! Your pussy’s so tight…”” I cracked my eyes, watching as her tits bounced up and down as I thrusted harder and harder, feeling the distinct building in my guts of an epic orgasm. I felt like I was going to blow a hole right through her body with my pending eruption.

  “Yes! Yes!” She whimpered, arching forward more, my grip bruising, as I slammed into her with everything I had left. My body was tired. My muscles wanted me to stop, but my lust would hear none of it. I was sure Mia would feel me tomorrow. One more stroke, two more strokes, her pussy convulsed around me once more, as she cried out with a second orgasm.

  That was it. I couldn’t hold it back anymore.

  “Fuck!” I grunted, my climax shooting deep inside her, blasting against her pussy walls, gushing and mingling with every ounce of her sweet, wet, lust juices. Time stood still for a few moments as I slowly moved in and out of her, milking my cock of every single drop of semen until I grew soft. My body was crying out for relief and rest. Deep breaths moved in and out of my burning lungs. I stretched my legs out as far as I could to release the tension in my burning thighs and glutes.

  Mia owned me. She fucking owned me, and I wasn’t afraid to admit that anymore.

  I looked down at my cock, and then to Mia’s swollen pussy. Cum was dripping out of her tight hole, and it was then as I eyed her pussy that I realized we hadn’t used a condom. We always used protection, except once or twice, though this was different.

  “I’m sorry baby…” I spoke pushing a few strands of hair from her sweaty forehead. She looked up at me through sleepy eyes, a bewildered look marring her features.

  “Why?” Confusion laced her words as she spoke.

  I lay down next to her pulling her into my chest, and wrapping my arms tightly around her. “I didn’t use a condom, and we’ve always used condoms….” I felt as if I had betrayed her by not getting a condom out of my wallet and slipping it on. How could I have been so thoughtless?

  “I’m safe. You’re safe. Plus, it’s not really that bad when you think about it….” She drifted off her words becoming slurred.

  “Why’s that? I asked curiously, loving the feel of her body against mine. I craved these moments when I was in the desert wondering if I would ever make it back home to her. It seemed so far away at the time.

  “How do you think Lola got here?”

  There was a brief pause between her words and the way they registered in my mind. I paused a moment making sure I’d heard correctly. I pieced the entire sentence together in my mind, the air in my lungs turning stale as I realized exactly what it was she had just said.

  “Mia….”

  No answer. Mia’s eyes were closed tightly, her mouth agape.

  “Mia…” I urged her to answer me, but instead, I was greeted with a loud snore. She’d passed out, the alcohol finally taking her to the land of slumber.

  What the hell had just happened? Did Mia even realize what she said? It couldn’t be—she would never keep this from me for that long..

  Or would she? Did I really have a daughter? Had Mia kept this from me for four long years?

  Of course, if she had I couldn’t have really blamed her. Looking back now, if I’d known… would it have changed my decision? I was already enlisted. I blindsided Mia with that news. I had to go.

  Fuck. What the hell did I do?

  If what she said was really true, then that meant that Lola was mine, and if that was the case, Mia wasn’t going to have a chance t
o say no to me.

  I thought longer about Lola, her cute little button nose, and big blue eyes.

  “Fuck…” I muttered under my breath. It hit me then like a ton of bricks against my chest. Lola had my eyes, my blue eyes. How hadn’t I noticed that before?

  I laid in silence, feeling Mia’s warm body beneath my hands, analyzing over how much I had missed. It all made sense now, why Mia was so angry and sad when she saw me. She had done all of this on her own.

  But why?

  Because you broke up with her, asshole.

  I hadn’t hated myself more in my entire life than I did right then, knowing that I had a daughter with the woman I loved, and that I had screwed it all up. I needed to find a way to make things right with Mia. I needed our family to come together. I wasn’t going to be that kind of Dad to my children, the kind that was absent and never cared for them.

  “I’m sorry Mia. So fucking sorry…” I apologized out loud, though I knew she wouldn’t remember a word I had said if she even heard it to begin with. I was a prick, a selfish idiot. I thought when I walked away from Mia I was saving her. I didn’t know I was leaving her all alone with a baby on the way.

  I pulled her in closer to my chest, wanting to embed myself deep inside her. Even with her right here close to me, it still seemed like we were a million miles away from each other, that space while it was my fault it separated us in the first place. Come morning I would get my emotions under control and confront her about what she told me, but for right now, I was going to relish in the feeling of the woman I loved being in my arms again.

  Shutting my eyes slowly my thoughts drifted to Lola. The sweet little blue-eyed beauty that I now knew was my daughter. I was a dad, and I was going to be the best one I could be from this moment on.

  Chapter Sixteen

  Mia

  I was never drinking again. Ever. The night’s events were a blur but the fact that I awoke next to Jake naked, with a delicious ache between my thighs told me all I needed to know about what exactly my drunken ass had done last night. Shit.