A Kingpin Love Affair (The Complete Series 1-5) Boxed Set

by J. L. Beck

  Chapter Nine

  Zerro

  Her body quivered with a need for release. It wasn’t just the sex though; this was the mental kind of release. Her breakdown was coming, and it wasn’t going to be anything like when you came during sex.

  “Get the fuck away from me.” She hissed like a cat. She reminded me of a trapped animal. Her eyes were empty and her anger was coming forth. You know what it’s like when you’re caught between wanting to give up and wanting to cry, but still hold onto hope? That’s where she was.

  “The only place I’m going is inside of you.” I smiled like a prick, my arms trapping her so she was unable to move. Whatever was going on inside of that pretty head of hers had nothing to do with her and me. No, it solely had to do with the information she was given.

  “Tell me, Bree, what was it that pushed you over the edge the most—your mother lying to you or me killing John?” It was a low blow, and if I were to cringe, even the slightest bit, she would call my bluff, but it was the only way I knew how to get her to acknowledge it all. She squirmed beneath me, trying to run I assumed.

  “How could you even bring that up, you sick bastard?”

  “Or maybe it was the lies. We all know there are tons and tons of lies. Your whole life was a giant lie. No answers were ever given. How’s that feel?” I sneered.

  Her fists pounded against my chest, and her legs tried every move possible to get me off her, but I wouldn’t allow her to run from this anymore.

  “Learn to acknowledge the hurt and pains in your life, Bree. At least you can fucking feel them. At least your heart is still beating. DEAL WITH IT!” I all but screamed at her. Her hits became more powerful, and as I pushed more weight on her, I could hear her cries growing louder.

  “She lied. She fucking lied to me. No one gave me answers. No one cared, and now I have no one.” She huffed out her words.

  “So she fucking lied. What do you want to do about it?” I growled in her ear.

  “I want to hate her. I want to know why she lied. One note is meant to make up for close to twenty years of lies.”

  “It’s a note, Bree, not your life story. I know you want answers, but there are none to be found.” My tongue darted out, licking a path directly to her ear. She tasted like cinnamon and sugar. My mouth began to salivate.

  “I want revenge, I want madness and chaos. I want people to pay.” She snarled every word with a demand.

  “Revenge only gets you so far. Killing John didn’t make me feel any better, Bree. It’s a temporary feeling really. It’s a false sense that maybe—just maybe, it will make you feel better to get even. Maybe it will bring back the person you lost—but it doesn’t. It makes you feel worse because you inflicted the same type of pain on someone else. Yes, John deserved to die, but not by my hands.”

  “Death was still yapping at his footsteps, you just helped him along.”

  “Stop this. This isn’t you. Don’t let this shit consume you. Deal with it.”

  “I hate you. I hate everyone. I can’t handle this!” she barked, her chest rumbling with my own.

  “You hate me?” I questioned.

  “Yes, I hate you,” she roared.

  “Good,” I said, pressing my lips against her firmly. She bit at them so hard I could feel the skin break. Blood seeped out of the wound and onto both our lips, but I didn’t care. I still wanted her. I wanted her to feel something more than what she was experiencing.

  Her fists turned into grabby hands real fast as she pawed at my shirt.

  “You want my cock? You want to take your frustrations out on me? Then show me, tell me what you want, Piccolo…” I purred against her skin. She whimpered, turning her face away from mine.

  “Make me forget,” she begged. Make her forget? There was no forgetting. She needed to know it.

  “There is no forgetting, Bree. It is dealing and then not dealing. I refuse to allow you not to deal—so you will deal.” Licking away the salty tears from her cheek, I smirked.

  “But I can make you remember. I can make you remember why you’re alive. I can make you heal. I can bring you to the crossroads, Bree, but you have to be the one to walk across.”

  “You hurt me, you fucking broke me. You think John was a monster, but you’re no better. You hit me just like he hit my mother. If anything, you’re the same.” She sneered. Fuck! She was right, I was no better a person than John, but I loved her. I loved her with my whole heart and the difference was John had used her. I hadn’t. I never would.

  “You have to know I never meant to hurt you. I’m sorry, Bree. I am so fucking sorry! Do you think I will forget? Because I won't. I will never forget the night in the cabin... never forget how I hurt the one person who saved my life. I fucked up. I was lost inside my head only wanting revenge." My mind drifted back to Mack… I would paint the motherfucking walls with his blood when I was done making him pay.

  "I thought the one person I had finally fallen in love with betrayed me and I was hurt. All I saw was red and Mack... Mack sounded so fucking believable. I hate myself more than I have ever hated anyone for touching you in any other way than with love. DO you hear me? Understand me right now. I know I was a bastard for hitting you, and it will never happen again. No matter what the circumstance, I will never lay a hand on you again, Bree."

  Her eyes told me she didn’t believe me, but her body did. She melted into my hands like chocolate. She wanted me as much as I wanted her. All the shit going on between us didn’t matter nearly as much as piecing us back together.

  “I can’t handle the pain anymore…” she cried out, fresh tears running down her cheeks. She was doing something other than screaming and fighting. Wrapping both my arms around her, I cradled her head against my chest, rolling us over until I held her body against my own.

  “You don’t have to. You don’t have to…” I whispered into her hair, holding her together as she fell apart.

  “I miss her. I miss my old life. I just want it all to go back to the way it was…” she pleaded as if I could make all her dreams come true. The truth of the matter was, I couldn’t fix what had already been done, but I could make the future better than the past had been.

  “I promise to take care of you, to make sure all your needs are met. I will make it all worth it, just stay with me. Hold onto who you are. Please.”

  This is who we both were and it had never been shown to anyone. The rawest of all raw.

  Kiss by kiss, I placed her back together. Our clothes were discarded, and as I mapped out every inch of her body, I could feel myself falling deeper and deeper into the hole with her.

  I had never been a man of love, but I wanted her to love me, and me to love her—more than I wanted anything in the world.

  “You’re my everything,” I said peering deeply into her eyes as I rocked into her. Sweat covered both our foreheads, and as I pushed back the hair sticking to her forehead, I knew she knew.

  “I know,” she cried out in shallow breaths. Our bodies were connected in ways they never had been before. It wasn’t just about fucking anymore. It was making someone feel and see you for all you were. It was about emotions, and expressing them in the form of your body.

  Gripping her hip with one hand, I pushed in and out slowly, savoring the feelings. The heat coming from us burned my soul so hot I thought I might die, and a beautiful death it would be.

  Minutes passed as our bodies continued to push together.

  “I love you…” she whispered as her pussy clenched over and over again. I couldn’t stop though. I knew one time, two times—hell, I knew any number below ten would never be enough.

  “I love you, too…” I panted as I placed a kiss against her cheek. I handled her with the most tenderness, something I had never done for anyone or anything.

  I felt my own release coming but pushed it away, forcing myself to give her more. I wanted her to have all of me. Gritting my teeth, I felt it coming.

  “Come for me, Zerro…” she said biting her lip
as her walls pulled from me everything that made me who I was.

  My head went into the curve of her neck as I shoved into her deeply one last time. I had mended us. I had sewn us back together.

  “Thank you…” she whispered into my ear as I held her against my body. My eyes drifted closed as her warmth surrounded me. Maybe, just maybe, it wasn’t me who had saved her, but she who had saved me.

  * * * * *

  Hours had passed. The pounding on the door pulled me from my blissful sleep. I looked over and took notice of Bree’s body slick against mine and I smiled. She had given herself to me for me to make her whole again.

  “We need to talk NOW!” Jared said loudly on the other side of the door. I cringed at his voice. He sounded mad, and if I knew anything, when Jared was mad, something bad had happened.

  “I have to get up, Piccolo…” I whispered, withdrawing myself from the bed and her body. I could’ve stayed there all day. All she did was groan, rolling over on the other pillow. Grabbing a pair of sleep pants from the armchair, I pulled them on and slipped out of the room. As soon as I opened the door, I was met by a scowl.

  “Did you think fucking her was the best idea when her father is here? AND does it even bother you we’re being hunted by the fucking FBI.” I rolled my eyes at him. He must not know me as well as I thought. I looked danger straight in the eyes unless it came to Bree.

  “I have a plan…” I said, pushing against his chest. I respected Jared for all he had done, but to push in my face what I had and hadn’t done, and to make it seem like I didn’t care, made my blood boil.

  “Oh, one that doesn’t consist of fucking my sister into submission?” Before I could even stop myself, I reached out and gripped him by the scruff of his shirt.

  “What I do with her is none of your business. She is nothing, but a liability to all of us if her head isn’t in the right place. I was giving her the comfort she needed. A lot more than you’ve been doing.” I didn’t want to have to fuck Jared up, but if he put Bree down one more time...

  “Enough, boys,” James said from the entrance of the hall. Jared and I stared at one another, both of us on the verge of killing someone. With a shove, I released him, walking away and into the kitchen.

  “I have a fucking plan. I just need to pull a couple strings, and I will have it all in order,” I said over my shoulder as they followed me into the kitchen.

  “Well, it better be a good fucking idea because hiding out is getting old. We have been hiding for days.” He was getting antsy. It would be nothing but messy. I didn’t want to drag anyone else into this mess as it was. Jared wouldn’t be the one to put the bullet in Mack’s head though.

  “It is… It involves a very old friend of mine…” I said pouring the coffee into a mug. I turned around, placing my cup on the table and was greeted with scowls on both faces.

  “An old friend? Let’s hope it is someone worth trusting…?” Jared admitted. I was sure he was confused.

  Smirking, I said…. “I’m sure we can trust Devon.”

  Chapter Ten

  Mack

  “They killed John,” Miller said as I pushed the slut off my body. Fuck. This was bad and good news. It meant one last person to deal with when this was all over, but it also meant the one thing we had to use against Bree was gone.

  “Anything else?” I asked, slicking my hair back. Miller looked nervously around the room before meeting my gaze.

  “Well, tell me, boy…”

  “Devon and Bree got into a scuffle and she ended up running.”

  “Running?” I questioned moving from the bed, gripping him by the shoulders.

  Yes, sir.” Fuck. Devon and Miller were the two I had in the cave. They dealt with the little bitch so I wouldn't have to. I couldn’t rely on these fucking people to do anything.

  “And no one thought it was a good idea to tell me until now,” I growled. Releasing him, I turned around scanning the room for my jeans. Picking them up off the floor, I pulled them on and walked out of the room leaving Miller to hurry behind me.

  “We already moved everything. You just told us not to notify you of anything unless there were major changes,” Miller stated.

  Wringing my hands through my hair, I sat on one of the flimsy fucking chairs. This safe house was no good.

  “We need to kill him. We need to kill all of them. If they get caught by the FBI, there will be no way to kill them.” At first, I was okay with Zerro getting years and years in prison, but now I was starting to think him being ten feet below my feet would be better. He deserved to be spat on.

  “Where is Devon?” I asked, lighting a cigarette. I needed something to keep from wrapping my hands around these men’s necks.

  “Right here, sir,” Devon’s voice sounded as he stepped into the small cabin. His eye was slightly black, and his lip was bleeding. Bitch had done a number on him. The biggest question was why the fuck did they let her out.

  “Looks like the bitch did quite a number on you.” I smiled, blowing smoke out of my mouth.

  “Yeah… kind of…” he commented, his eyes never leaving mine. He was one of the honest ones, so why the fuck had he done this. He used to work for Zerro before he was removed from the team and put in isolation. I stayed in touch with him for the moment when I knew I would take over. I just never planned on an actual distraction coming into the picture.

  “Why was she out of the hole to begin with?” I demanded.

  “I just wanted to rough her a bit. I wanted to fuck with her head. Plus, you know most of us men hadn’t had any company in a while…” Devon trailed off. I got what he was saying, but it didn’t mean it was okay.

  “You fucking disobeyed my orders. John’s dead now. Bree is gone, probably back with Zerro, and you stupid fucks are responsible for it.”

  “We didn’t—” Miller tried to say, but I reached out wrapping my hand around his throat.

  “You didn’t what? It would be best if you treaded lightly with your next words because I’m about five seconds away from plunging my knife into your heart,” I said blowing smoke into his face.

  “Sir, it was my fault. I had gotten her out of the hole. I hadn’t intended her to sucker punch me and running for her life,” Devon confessed. I narrowed my eyes at him, releasing Miller with a shove.

  “Then you’ll be the one to get her back. You’ll be the one to bring the bitch to me so I can bring the King to his fucking knees,” I spat. I despised the man. For years, I had been his right-hand man, never receiving a thank you for half the shit I had done. Instead, I was always beaten into the ground.

  He had everything while I had nothing. It would stop now. I was tired of being the fucking dirt beneath his feet. I would take every last thing from him. His home and empire had already been destroyed. But we both knew that’s not what made him breathe. No, it was the girl. She had gotten into the dark part of his mind, and shined light on it. I would take her, destroy him for who he was, and then kill both of them. There was no war. There was simply a winner and a loser. They would lose…

  Chapter Eleven

  Bree

  “You’re going to take her out on a fucking date with death knocking on our doorstep,” Jared bellowed at Zerro. Three days had passed since I had gone off the rails and become a crazed person. Zerro had twice talked me off the cliff I was on, bringing me back to the realization there were people out there who needed to pay for all the damage they had caused.

  John was dead, and though it hurt me, he was working with Mack. He had used me, and there wouldn’t have been any other way around it. It was either kill or be killed, and I refused to die.

  “I talked to Devon and we deciphered a plan…” Zerro said smugly. Devon had actually turned out to be the green-eyed man who freed me. He still had yet to tell any of us about this plan, but I trusted him. In a way, it was better I didn’t know what we were going into until the last second.

  “Zerro, secrets destroy people. Tell us this plan you have come up with,” m
y father James said from across the living room. I was simply trying to get back to regular life by catching up on some of my favorite TV shows.

  “The plan is simple. Devon is working with Mack. He used to be one of my best men. He had Intel into the FBI. I need him on my side when all this ends.”

  “What does that even mean?” I asked, trying to keep my attention on The 100. My attention slipped as I felt Zerro’s gaze on me. He looked like someone had pissed in his Cheerios.

  “Why the fuck are all of you second guessing me?” he growled. His hand gripped the back of the couch.

  “Maybe because you have yet to tell us about the plan you say is going to save us all from life in prison,” Jared threw in before I could say anything.

  “You’re really starting to piss me the fu—”

  “Would you all just shhh… I’m really trying to watch this…” I interrupted Zerro knowing he would take his aggression out on me this evening.

  “Shut up and listen to me. We need to know the plan, Zerro. You’re not alone in your decisions anymore. What you do affects us all and we have the right to know.” My father, the logical one, finally stepped in.

  I paused the DVR and turned around to look at all three men who were shooting daggers at one another.

  “Maybe they wouldn’t be giving you so much flack about us going on this ‘normal’ date if you actually told them what the hell was going on?”

  “Piccolo—” Zerro started.

  “No, don’t Piccolo me… Just fucking talk.” Somehow, through all of this, I had found the backbone I desperately needed.

  “I will put you over my knee if you…” I smiled and kind of rolled my eyes at the very thought.

  “Tell us now,” Jared demanded.

  Sighing, he looked between all of us as if he knew there was no getting out of the mess he had caused. “Devon is the one who let Bree go. He owed me something and it was his return. He works hand in hand with Mack. Devon has a plan. He has to bring Bree to Mack—”

  “Not going to happen…” James butted in. I agreed. I wanted nothing to do with the sick fuck. Not unless it meant I could put a bullet in his head.