The Song of Eloh Saga

by Megg Jensen

  In a flash, Chase was at my side. He broke my iron grip on Bryden’s hand and pulled me aside. “She’s getting fired up,” he said. “I need to get her outside.”

  He scooped me up into his arms and took off in a sprint, as if I were only a light feather in his arms. He zigzagged through the kitchen. A pot clattered to the floor, knocked over by my dangling feet. The clang reverberated in my head, drowned out by the frustration that was threatening to overwhelm me. The fire burned and licked at my belly, but I was too confused to use the techniques Chase taught me. My body shut down and the fires I’d tried so hard to control were threatening to overwhelm me.

  Someone was running after us. The footfalls echoed in my head, like the drumming of a stampede. “What’s going on? Where are you taking her?”

  Bryden. Probably followed by that woman.

  “She’s not even trying to control herself. If she doesn’t, her magic could explode again. Remember when she accidentally killed Albree? I don’t want that to happen to anyone else, do you?”

  His words bounced around my head. Images of Albree’s long dark hair, floating out to the side as she fell off the dais to her death plagued my vision. My adoptive sister, dead. My fault. Because I’d never been taught how to control my magic. Even though our relationship was terrible, combative at best, I’d never meant to kill her.

  Arms tightened around me. Chase. Wind whipped me on the face as he ran farther away from the castle. Trees dotted my view, racing toward me. No, we raced toward them.

  “I still need you hidden,” Chase whispered in my ear. “Try to hold it in until I get you into the forest where no one can see you. I can’t block you right now. Your gift is too strong when you use it. You can do it, Lianne. I know you can. I believe in you.”

  My eyes closed. The world became a buzzing beehive surrounding my head. I focused on the fire, trying to remember the lessons Chase so patiently taught me. I imagined a waterfall, rushing over a cliff onto a forest alive with flame. Water traveling downhill, pulled by gravity toward the fire. They both needed each other, wanted each other. The fire took respite in the water and the water was given purpose by the fire. Symbiotic. Alive together.

  My eyes blinked open. We were no longer moving, instead we were crouched on the ground. Chase hadn’t released me from his arms, a fact Bryden clearly didn’t like by the look on his face. Elessia stood next to Chase, her hand on his shoulder.

  “Sorry. I think I’m okay now,” I said. “It all kind of came rushing at me at once. I’m still trying to process everything that’s happened over the last few months. Still attempting to control whatever this magic is in me. It’s not as natural as it should be.”

  “It would have been if your people would have allowed you to learn how to control yourself since birth instead of shielding you until your sixteenth birthday. Idiots. They deserve to be conquered by my people.” The contempt in her voice was unmistakable.

  “Elessia, now isn’t the time for politics,” Chase warned. “Give Lianne a few minutes to breathe.”

  “What I don’t understand,” I said, “is if the Malborn are so evil and held you captive for years, why are you even friends with her?” I raised a shaky finger toward Elessia.

  “Chase was here as a little boy. I was forced to be his nursemaid. I cared for him day in and day out. I was an orphan and given a purpose in the castle.”

  “A baby jailor,” Chase said with a snicker.

  “You weren’t a baby. You were nine or ten, if I remember.”

  “And you were sixteen. You should have been out enjoying life instead of being cooped up all day with a snot-faced boy who thought he knew everything.”

  Elessia slapped Chase on the shoulder. “It was better than being on the street. The Malborn aren’t all evil.”

  “They just want to dominate the world and control all the magic,” Chase said with reproach and a roll of his eyes.

  “Someone has to.” She shrugged.

  I was fascinated by their debate. She believed in her people’s ambitions, unapologetically. Yet here she was, helping us hide in the forest.

  “Why don’t you turn us in?” I croaked, still not fully recovered.

  “Because I owe Chase my life,” she said, her eyes softened. “But that’s a story for another day. What matters is that Chase is a hero. He’s the kind of man every girl wants and if I wasn’t so much older than him, I might take an interest. Frankly, I don’t see how any woman could resist him.”

  Bryden coughed. We all looked at him. I still loved him, there was no denying that. But my judgment stunk. It was possible I had misjudged everything – including my feelings for Bryden.

  “Can we have a few minutes alone?” I asked, looking at Bryden.

  Chapter Sixteen

  “Here it comes,” Bryden mumbled under his breath as Chase and Elessia crept away. At least no one had argued with my request. I needed some time alone with Bryden. I needed to make him understand.

  “It’s not you —” I started.

  “Yeah, it’s Chase. You were with Kellan until I came along and now you’re dumping me for Chase. Makes sense.”

  I couldn’t believe my ears. Bryden had never been bitter or angry like that. It was like I was dealing with a completely different man. I looked into his eyes and saw the truth. He wasn’t a different man, he was one who knew he was about to lose what he loved most. Combative. Protective. Completely normal behavior.

  I wanted to tear at my insides for what I was doing to him. The last thing I ever wanted was to hurt anyone. But if I couldn’t trust myself, or my own judgments, then how could I give myself over to him?

  “It’s not about Chase,” I said. I meant it too. I hoped he could sense that. “It’s about me. It’s about the fact I’ve never had one moment of peace. Instead of figuring out who I am and what I want, I just jumped from Kellan’s arms into yours. It wasn’t fair to you.”

  A bitter laugh escaped his mouth. His eyes wouldn’t meet mine. They focused solidly on the blade of grass he twirled between his fingers. “It wasn’t fair to let me finally hold you in my arms? You’re the only girl I’d ever been interested in. I never wanted anyone but you, Lianne. If that’s unfair, then there’s a lot I don’t understand about the world.”

  “Bryden, please.” I wanted to cry, to release the flood of emotion crashing inside me. I held it back. I needed to make him understand. “I’m not necessarily leaving you for good. I just need a break. I need to get through this crap first. Then, when things settle down, we can have another chance.”

  He dropped the grass. His eyes bored into mine so hard my eyes watered. “We may not have another chance, Lianne. It may be now or never. We don’t exactly live in a simple world. Battles are being waged. Wars fought. People die. What if this is our only chance?”

  Live hard, die hard. Our lives didn’t allow for much more. But what was love in chaos? Was it really love or was it some form of passion and fear of death driving us toward each other? Bryden’s eyes told me it was love. Chase’s reluctance to push me into a relationship I didn’t want was love.

  The only problem was that I didn’t know what I was feeling anymore. As my world changed and expanded, my viewpoint changed. My feelings for Bryden were just as strong, but I’d come to realize that my instincts weren’t a good indicator of reality.

  “I don’t know if I’m enough,” I said, finally. It wasn’t a perfect answer.

  “I know you’re enough for me. You’re everything to me,” Bryden said. “Obviously I’m not enough for you.” He kicked a rock, sending it sailing into the copse of trees. “We made love last night, Lianne. Just last night! I thought that meant as much to you as it did to me.”

  I reached out to him, but he stalked away before I could formulate a good reply. I knew I loved him. That was obvious to me, but I didn’t trust myself. I didn’t understand my feelings. Everything was so messed up inside.

  “Are you okay?” The tentative voice broke the silence. Chase. Of cou
rse.

  “I don’t want to deal with you now,” I said.

  “Whether or not you want to deal with me, we have to keep moving. I need to get you back to safety.”

  I stood up, brushing the grass and dirt from my dress. I’d forgotten, just for the moment, that there was a greater danger out there other than the erratic beating of my heart. “How exactly do we end this? They’re working on creating an army of magical warriors. They won’t stop just because they can’t have me.”

  “Keeping you from them is a start. Every little thing we deny them chips away at their war machine,” Chase said.

  “Oh, come on. Even Elessia admitted she agrees with what her people are doing. She’s right. Someone always has to be on top. Why is it up to us to decide who wins and who loses? Why even get involved?”

  “Why not? What else would you do with your life?”

  “Maybe relax and enjoy living. Just for once?”

  “You sound like my parents.” He spit out the words as if they were filled with venom.

  “What’s so wrong with that?” I asked. “Don’t you get tired of the hiding, the fighting?”

  Chase grabbed my shoulders. “What I get tired of is other people being hurt because no one wants to stand up against the evil in this world. My parents took down the Malborn army in our land. It didn’t stop them. It only set them back. Look at how we’re paying for that! I was imprisoned here for four years. You were captured and they wanted Kellan to get you pregnant. Unless I’m misreading the situation, that would be rape. Is that really something you’d sentence another girl to? How many of them up there are willing? Do you know?”

  The castle towered above the forest. The highest rooms were where I’d been held, doomed to years of men forcing themselves on me to grow their demented, magical army. I looked back at Chase. Anger spewed from his eyes. His shoulders hunched, carrying the weight of the world. People he’d never met could be hoping for a savior. Maybe Chase was it. Maybe it was time to rise up and stop the Malborn.

  “What can we do?” I squared my shoulders, determined to help end the war. I couldn’t be the only lost girl out there. Maybe if we could do something about it, a lot of us could find our happy endings.

  “First we need to head back to your people. I want you to convince them to fight back. Their ranks are filled with scores of gifted people. If they agree to fight with us, perhaps some of the people in my homeland will rise up too.”

  I nodded. “Okay. I’ll do it.”

  Chase held out his hand, presumably for me to shake on our deal, but I held back. Just because I was confused about my feelings for Bryden didn’t mean I would come close to touching Chase anytime soon.

  “Bryden’s out there,” I pointed over my shoulder. “Can you get him so we can get going?”

  “Are you two okay?” Chase asked.

  “It’s really not your business.” The last thing I wanted to do was give him any hope for us. I couldn’t even consider returning another man’s affection until I knew how I felt about my relationship with Bryden. “Just go get him, please.”

  Chase nodded and jogged into the forest the direction Bryden had wandered off.

  A few minutes later, they stalked back through the trees. They weren’t looking at each other, or at me. Part of me wanted to know what, if anything, had been said between them. Another part of me knew it was best to stay out of it. If their expressions told me anything, it was that they’d had words but also come to some kind of understanding.

  “Everyone ready?” Chase asked. “I think I can safely open a portal here where no one will find a trace of it. I want to open it into the Fithian castle, directly into Bryden’s room. Lianne, do you think you can get an audience with their leader, Marek?”

  “I can try. My biological mother knows him.”

  “You’re the Queen Slayer,” Bryden said quietly, his eyes downcast. “He’ll see you.”

  Chase flicked his fingers in the air and a portal opened, sparkling in the dark wood. “I’ll go first,” Chase said. “Make sure everything’s safe.” He walked into the portal.

  I looked at Bryden. My heart lurched at his demeanor. I’d never seen him so sad. “Why don’t you go next?” I asked.

  He shook his head. “You go first, Lianne.”

  I nodded and took a step toward the portal.

  “Wait!” He grabbed my arm, pulling me back. “I have to tell you something first.”

  “What is it?” I needed time, yes, but I’d never turn him away. I loved him too much for that.

  “No matter what you decide, I want you to know that my time with you was the happiest of my life. I don’t regret one moment of it. I would do anything for you.”

  I tried to say ‘I know,’ but it only came out in a strangled croak. I sniffled, holding back the tears that threatened to explode. I’d spent most of my life training to be tough, to defeat anyone who looked at me wrong. But I couldn’t fight Bryden – not physically, not emotionally. I also knew that before I could commit to him, I had to end this war. I leaned over, kissed him on the cheek, then turned and ran through the portal.

  Chapter Seventeen

  “I’ve got someone to talk to,” Chase mumbled. He opened another portal and left Bryden and I standing alone in his room.

  Bryden stared at me. I wanted to reach out to him, but I didn’t. “I should see if I can get an audience with Marek.”

  Bryden turned his back on me and started riffling through some papers in the corner of the room. “You know where the door is,” he said.

  I left his room, my back straight and standing tall. It was a good thing no one could see my broken heart, shattered into pieces. I couldn’t keep leading him on when I wasn’t sure if I could even trust my own feelings and instincts.

  Making my way through the castle, I smiled at the few faces I recognized. Most were slaves. The Fithian nobility was locked up in the dungeons until Marek decided what to do with them. Once I arrived at the rooms Rotlar had lived in, I took a deep breath and knocked on the door.

  The double doors opened slowly. “Lianne,” the slave said. “You’re back. He’s been waiting for you.”

  “Am I in much trouble?” I asked with a smile on my face. I tried to keep it glib, not show any of the last few weeks on my face.

  “Not sure, honestly. I do know he’ll see you, though. Wait here a moment. I’ll be right back.”

  She passed through the second set of double doors, leading to the meeting room. Rotlar used it to hold court with other visiting dignitaries. I could only assume Marek would do the same. A few moments later, she was back.

  “He’ll see you now.”

  I smiled and walked through the doors, not knowing what to expect on the other side.

  “Lianne, it’s good to see you again,” Marek said. “Back from your little adventure?”

  He stuck a finger in his tea, twirling the liquid around in circles. He removed it from the cup and licked the brown water off his finger. I shivered internally.

  “Want to tell me where you were, Queen Slayer?”

  My eyes narrowed.

  “I see you don’t like the nickname I gave you. It’s appropriate, isn’t it? You did kill the new queen, didn’t you?”

  I kept my breath steady. I wouldn’t let him rattle me. I had a job to do and I would do it no matter how much I hated working with this man who had used Bryden, Kellan, and me. Now I was going to ask for his help.

  “Call me whatever you want.” I sighed. “I’m back now. I delivered Trevin to his mother, Mags.”

  “Ah, the deposed queen. You certainly have strange loyalties, Queen Slayer. Helping the disgraced queen and killing the new queen who also happened to be your adoptive sister. Truly an interesting outlook on life. You are much like me.”

  I wanted to scream that I was nothing like him, but I held my tongue. Arguing wouldn’t get me anywhere now.

  “While I was gone, I learned something you might be interested to know,” I said. “The
re’s another army coming, the Malborn. They have very powerful magic and are looking to steal ours.”

  He stroked his golden goatee with his thumb and fingers. It trailed down his chin and ended in a braid about the length of his thumb. He twirled the tip between his fingers.

  “Steal our magic? Just how would they accomplish that?”

  “They’re running a breeding program, stealing magical people and forcing them to breed children that they raise to fight in their army.”

  “Now that’s an interesting concept.” Marek leaned back into the throne that Rotlar used to sit in. The contrast was stark. While Rotlar was obese and disgusting, Marek was fit and well-groomed. Under other circumstances, I might have understood the appeal. The Dalagan people followed him unquestioningly. “Maybe that’s something we should have tried rather than our little farming technique we used on the Fithians.”

  “You don’t understand. They’re coming for us. They’re planning on stealing your women and using them to breed more magical warriors.”

  “Certainly, I understand. Thank you for passing on this info, Lianne. We can prepare for their attack.” He waved his hand in the air, dismissing me without a word. I bowed, and turned to leave. “Wait a moment, please.”

  I paused, only steps from the door. “Yes?”

  “Where is the former queen Margaretta?”

  I’d come in here to tell him about an invading army and he only had questions about Mags. Bizarre. For once, I could be totally honest. “I don’t know.”

  “You don’t know? You handed her son over to her, and then she disappeared?”