The Kitchen Boy

by Robert Alexander

  But then… then…

  The group of men was going from one whitewashed window to the next, and I whispered to Maria, “It looks like they’re checking out which windows can be opened.”

  “They must be from the regional soviet.”

  And so it became evident that they were in fact a soviet – a council, a committee – that had been formed to decide which, if any, windows might be unglued. For more than twenty minutes these Reds went from room to room, from window to window, discussing all this with the utmost intensity. They must have been terribly afraid of anarchists or conspirators – that is, worried that one group might take a shot at the Tsar through that open window, or fearful that another bunch might try to rescue their monarch via an opening. Finally, in the end they seemed to agree not to agree. Perhaps they had a report to make. Perhaps they were afraid of answering with their lives. In any case, this group of six men emerged from the bedchambers, staring at the Imperial Family as if they were circus freaks.

  As they headed out, Nikolai Aleksandrovich rose again to his feet, pleading yet once more, “We would be most obliged for a single window to be opened. You can see for yourselves not only how hot it is in here, but how unhealthy it is. Please, I ask you to consider the health of my wife and children, all of whom are suffering.”

  Komendant Avdeyev glared at his Nikolashka.

  And the Tsar continued, saying, “On another matter, we would also be happy to be given any work. For example, we would appreciate the opportunity to clear the garden in the rear, which is quite a mess. I myself would greatly like to saw more wood – to cut and stack it.”

  “At this point, nothing of that sort is permitted,” snapped Avdeyev as he and the others departed.

  Depressed, forlorn, the Romanovs melted back into the heat, which could only be described as colossal. The family sipped at their tea and nibbled at the bread, which only minutes earlier had provided such joy, such pride, but was now only so much of nothing. After a few minutes Nikolai Aleksandrovich began to read aloud to his son, while Aleksandra Fyodorovna took out some cards and began to lay patience. Two of the girls played dominoes, but of course not for money, which Aleksandra, with her grandmother’s tight Victorian morals, would never allow.

  Very little happened during the rest of the day, at least not until Vladimir Nikolaevich – Dr. Derevenko – came to check on the health of the Heir. By that time of day, nearly six, I was back in the kitchen helping Kharitonov with the preparations for the meager dinner that would be served at eight. Cutlets and leftover macaroni tart. It was Demidova herself, her face forlorn, who came into the kitchen.

  “Vladimir Nikolaevich has arrived.” She tried not to say it, but could not restrain herself from whispering, “Neechevo.” Nothing.

  So there was no news, no reply to our reply. Sure, even the Tsaritsa’s maid knew we were awaiting more news from the outside, for that was how the Tsar and Tsaritsa handled this. No one was excluded, which was very democratic of them.

  “Leonka, the doctor requests hot water,” said Demidova.

  “Da-s,” I replied.

  A few minutes later, bearing a bowl of hot water, I walked into the bedchamber and found not just the doctor, but also Komendant Avdeyev himself seated at the foot of the Heir’s bed.

  “Ah, thank you, Leonka,” said Vladimir Nikolaevich.

  The doctor, who’d been using his special device to electrify Aleksei’s knee – and thereby stimulate circulation – placed the mechanism and tangle of wires aside. He then beckoned me forward.

  “Come here, boy.”

  And so I stepped toward him and held the bowl as he dipped in a cloth and wrung it out. For the next ten minutes, I didn’t move as the doctor applied warm compresses to the boy’s left arm. And during that entire time, Avdeyev just sat there, yawning, scratching his nose, not doing anything but making it impossible for the Emperor or Empress to pose a single question to Derevenko. Most disturbing, though, was that the doctor simply went about his usual business without any pretense that he knew something was going on. Not one of us spoke during his treatment of the Heir, and fifteen minutes later Vladimir Nikolaevich simply packed up his medical kit and departed without so much as raising an eyebrow. Or our hopes, for that matter.

  Shortly before dinner the girls washed their parents’ pocket handkerchiefs. And later, after dinner, all of us gathered in the drawing room and listened to Nikolai Aleksandrovich read aloud. The heat and the lack of air continued to be intense, and I went to bed soon after Aleksei Nikolaevich. Sometime toward midnight a huge storm came upon us, the wind ferocious, the rain strong. The first crashes of lightning and thunder woke me, and then I lay awake for a long time, listening to the heavy drops beat against the metal roof of The House of Special Purpose.

  Thus ended our first long day of waiting, which seemed extraordinarily calm in comparison to the next.

  6

  June 23, 1918, started out to be a lovely day. A Sunday it was, and the heavy rains of the night had washed away the heat. Weeks earlier the Bolsheviki had painted the thermometer with lime as well, but even they realized the cruelty – not to mention the senselessness – of depriving the Romanovs their only divertissement. That little glass thermometer that hung outside the girls’ room was the family’s only contact with the outer world, the only vehicle of news from their lost beyond. And so after much protest from Nikolai Aleksandrovich, the whitewash was scratched from a tiny corner of the window pane and from the thermometer itself, and in this way were we able to note the dramatic moods of the Siberian day. Without fail, master and servant alike followed the fluctuating mercury with the utmost interest. One of the girls would pause in her reading, jump off her bed, check the measuring device. The Emperor would slow in his pacing of the rooms, bend over, see what God had decided for the day. Demidova would steal a glance as she straightened things. Even the guards posted inside found it a welcome distraction.

  When the household awoke for the new day, it was thirteen degrees of warmth on the street. Inside it was nearly as cool, for the powerful winds of the night had not only swayed the trees, but poured through every crack of the Ipatiev House. For the first time in days the stale air had been forced away, and in the rooms it was pleasant, refreshing, almost delightful. It gave us hope, truly it did, and early that morning Aleksandra Fyodorovna sat in bed writing to the mother of a wounded soldier about how one shouldn’t lose faith, that God would bring better days. Yes, sure, her belief in the Almighty gave her remarkable inner strength, and she often said, “Don’t worry. The deadly illness must be borne, then the organism becomes stronger and life becomes easier and lighter.”

  Unfortunately, the day’s events soon took a turn for the worse. I was just stuffing bits of charcoal into the samovar when I heard short, heavy steps. Turning, I saw Nyuta standing there, her face flushed red, her breathing quick and short.

  “Leonka, quickly – water for Yevgeny Sergeevich!”

  I was constantly carrying water this way and that, but my first thought, my automatic one, was of course that something horrible had happened to the Heir Tsarevich, for all of us knew that death forever lingered in his shadow. Had Aleksei Nikolaevich fallen from his bed? Bumped his toe? Sneezed too hard? So casual an event could easily prove a mortal catastrophe for the boy, and those were the darkest of our days, actually, when the Tsarevich suffered, when we feared his end was imminent. When the blood flooded his joints, swelled his skin, twisted his limbs, the boy’s screams of pain – against which medicine was then helpless – were as piercing as a bullet. There was no escape, not for him, not for any of us, least of all the Empress, who would sit by The Little One for days on end without sleeping, without eating. She couldn’t hold her child, no, that would be too painful for him. All that she could do was kiss his brow, his cheeks, and listen in guilt as he moaned an occasional “Mummy.” Only when he was back on our side, clinging to life again, would Aleksandra Fyodorovna retire, collapsing in her own bed, from which she wouldn�
��t emerge for days upon end. And that was when we were called in to entertain him – the sisters, both pairs, big and little, and eventually me, of course, for only I took equal delight in the Heir’s treasures, his bits of wire, the rusty nails, as well as his prized coins, the very ones he had positioned on the train tracks back in Tsarskoye.

  “Look at what Papa’s locomotive did to this kopek!” he would exclaim to me, showing the flattest of them all.

  Fearing the worst for the Heir, I poured a large bowl of water, grabbed a small cloth, which I threw over my shoulder, and started quickly out. Passing through the hall in which I slept, I headed into the dining room and began to circle the large, dark oak table.

  “Nyet, nyet, molodoi chelovek!” No, no, young man, called Nyuta from the doorway into the main parlor. “This way! In here!”

  Confused, I came to a halt, sloshing the water from my bowl. But…? Was it not Aleksei Nikolaevich who was in need?

  “Come on, Leonka! Hurry!”

  I changed my direction, circled back around, and followed Demidova into the parlor, whereupon the commotion led me to the front of the room. Heading around the large, potted palm, I entered the alcove, where I saw the Empress, her second daughter, Tatyana Nikolaevna, and not Aleksei, but Dr. Botkin, who lay moaning on the reed settee that served as his bed.

  “Yevgeny Sergeevich has had an attack of the kidneys,” whispered the Tsaritsa’s maid to me.

  I don’t know what it says about the Empress, a woman of extraordinary complexity, but the suffering of others always brought out the best in her. From all the books I’ve read, I’ve come to understand she was horrendously insecure, pathologically so. Her friends were either totally hers and under her complete domination – for make no doubt about it, she was amazingly strong-willed – or they were simply her enemies. There existed for her nothing between those extremes of devotion and rejection. And yet when someone was in need, friend or foe, this shy woman, whose mother had perished when she was six, rallied with amazing inner strength and determination. More than anything else, she could identify with pain and suffering. In this century, however, there has been no woman more maligned or misunderstood than the Empress Aleksandra Fyodorovna, consort to the Tsar of All the Russias, just as there has been no woman whose gross mistakes – no matter how inadvertent – have hurt, even killed, so many millions. A wise woman she was not. Passionate, loving, beautiful, sure, but worldly ignorant. More damage she could not have done to her beloved adopted Russia. This scandal she caused by inviting Rasputin into the royal palace was outrageous. Imagine, while the Tsar was off fighting the Germans that stupid yurodstvo, holy fool, was all but signing imperial decrees.

  Well, Aleksandra Fyodorovna placed a glass thermometer between Dr. Botkin’s lips, then turned to me and beckoned, “Leonka – the water, please.”

  And then as I stood there the Tsaritsa bathed the doctor’s big, red face, wiping it gently, even professionally, you might say. After all, Aleksandra Fyodorovna and her older daughters, the big pair, Olga Nikolaevna and Tatyana Nikolaevna, became nurses soon after the outbreak of the Great War. Daily they went to the wards and the surgery theaters. Many noble women of Peterburg thought it outrageous that an Empress would bloody her hands, quite literally. Many gossiped that their Tsaritsa was wasting her efforts on a few soldiers, many of whom she befriended, many of whom died, when she should be sweeping through as many hospitals as possible, making herself seen as widely as she could. But my mistress was of the strongest conviction otherwise. She was Matushka, the Dear Mother. There were those in dire need. She had to do whatever it took, even the lowliest work, and she was often seen carrying away amputated arms and legs and worse.

  Aleksandra Fyodorovna checked the thermometer, and said, “Thirty-eight point eight. Not good. The pain persists, Yevgeny Sergeevich?”

  “Da-s,” weakly replied the doctor.

  “Then I believe an injection is called for. Am I right?”

  He nodded. “Would you… would you be so kind?”

  The Tsaritsa turned to her number two daughter. “Tanechka, prepare me a syringe of morphia.”

  “Certainly, Mama.”

  “Nyuta, Leonka – you are excused.”

  “Da-s,” replied Demidova, backing away.

  I likewise muttered, bowed my head, and retreated. Glancing back once, I witnessed Tatyana Nikolaevna confidently pulling a glass syringe from the doctor’s brown leather bag.

  Breakfast that morning was served not too terribly late. We had our morning inspection and then we served the morning tea and bread. Everyone was gathered there in the dining room except Dr. Botkin, who was resting more comfortably, and Aleksandra Fyodorovna, who remained by his side for the rest of the morning.

  The early drama thus melted into our routine. The Tsar paced the dining room. The girls made their beds, then the older pair started reading, while the younger girls came and sat at the dinner table and began to draw. I wheeled about the Heir. Cook Kharitonov fussed in the kitchen over our meager provisions, and Demidova and Trupp emptied the enamel chamber pots employed for night use. Our morning walk in the garden was scheduled for half-past ten, and we all anticipated this silently but with great urgency.

  Just as the day before, however, the doors were suddenly and unexpectedly thrown open. It happened at ten precisely, and this time it was but two men, neither of whom we had ever seen, who marched into our world. I was just wheeling the Heir around the dinner table when they stormed in, proceeding directly past their former master as if he were a stupid dog. I pulled the wheeling chair to a quick stop, and both Aleksei Nikolaevich and I watched as they continued through the room. They carried not guns or grenades, but tools, entering the girls’ room in utter silence, for all visitors to The House of Special Purpose were under strict Red orders not to speak with us.

  Raising his right hand, the Heir bid me forward, and I rolled him thus, creeping around the table, past the chairs. And then, like the Tsar himself, who came up behind us, we cautiously peered through the doorless opening. Several of the grand duchesses sat on their beds, and we were all transfixed as the men quietly but surely set to work on one of the windows. It took but moments, and as we witnessed the seemingly unbelievable, I saw the Tsar’s brow rise in surprise, witnessed the dumbfounded shake of his head, received the thrilled wink of his eye. Da, da, the two workmen did the impossible: they unglued a single, wonderful, beautiful window.

  “Oi,” softly muttered the Heir in joy.

  Just as quickly as they had come, so the men left, their heads hung, their eyes cast to the floor, their lips sealed. At first none of us moved. I think we were expecting the fat, Red pig, Komendant Avdeyev, to come marching in. Instead, the workmen departed, closing the outer doors, and then… then… we poured toward the open window.

  “Papa!” called Olga Nikolaevna, leaping from her bed.

  “Oi, kakaya prelyest!” Oh, what a joy, shouted Tatyana Nikolaevna.

  “Hourahh!” shouted the Heir as I wheeled him to the window that overlooked his former empire.

  “Thank the Lord!” proclaimed the Tsar, sucking the air as deeply as he could.

  Huge billowing gusts of air swarmed upon us, and we all gathered around, held our arms out, felt the breeze swirl around and lift our hearts like kites into the boundless sky.

  “Isn’t the fragrance tasty?” said Nikolai Aleksandrovich.

  “I can smell every garden in town!” proclaimed Anastasiya Nikolaevna, squinching up her shoulders and her nose and drinking it all in. “This is heaven!”

  We heard her steps, heard her voice scared and worried as she called out, “What is it, Nicky? What’s happened? What-”

  “Look, Mama!” exclaimed the Heir. “They opened a window!”

  She froze at the threshold, clasped both hands over her mouth. The Tsar, laughing, turned to his consort and held out his arms. The next moment they were embracing. I rolled Aleksei Nikolaevich right up to the edge of the sill, and he grabbed on to it, clutchi
ng to all that might yet be. That was all. It only took that little bit, a single open window, to feed the royal family with delightful hope.

  “Oh, Nicky, dusha moya!” My soul, said the Empress, clasping her husband.

  “You see, my love. As you’ve always said, after the rain-”

  “Sun.”

  “After the darkness-”

  “Light.”

  “And after the illness-”

  “Health.”

  “Exactly,” said the Tsar. “We mustn’t give up faith.”

  “No, my love. Never.”

  But the luck of Nikolai and his brood was like an ocean liner, very difficult to turn around. At that particular moment Anastasiya Nikolaevna took it upon herself not simply to poke her head out the window, not simply to stretch outside as far as she could, but to actually climb up on the windowsill. A character, she was. Full of energy and mischief. One of her royal cousins had long ago taught her to climb trees, a habit that she could never be broken of, no matter her rank or gender.

  “Careful, Nasten’ka!” chided number three sister, Maria Nikolaevna.

  “Oi, Mashka, stop your worrying! I just want the air all around me. I want it to lift me up, to carry me away, far away!”

  Her father, the Tsar, turned from his wife, saw his daughter perched on the ledge two floors above ground, and shouted, “Bozhe moi!” My God! “Anastasiya Nikolaevna, you get down right this moment!”

  “But, Papa-”

  “Now!

  “Oh, all right. I-”

  But just as she turned her back to the endless world beyond, just as she readied herself to jump back into the hole of our existence, a blast rang out. More specifically, a shot. The next instant the wall of the house, not but a few centimeters from Anastasiya’s head, was struck by a bullet, and bits of stucco and brick exploded into the air. As much by fear as anything else, the poor child was thrown into the room, where she landed upon two of her sisters. They all screamed and came crashing down onto the floor, collapsing in a terrible heap of arms and legs. Before I knew it, before I could even think what to do, the Tsar grabbed the wheeling chaise from me, jerking his son from the environs of the window and pulling him back against the far wall.